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      Tonight, this is now

      8 years ago

      So this is what I'm gonna post for the two people who read my stuff on here you can piece it together or ask questions I might answer.

      Tonight I made my last stand. There's nothing left I can say that I haven't already explained. For once I can't choose my own destiny and it's left in the hands of someone else. I'm glad it's in the hands of someone I trust with more than my life, because it is my life that's being dealt with. Not just yours and you know that. Don't ask me not to be sad and not to be worried. Would you ever ask the sky not to cry no more, not to fly no more? Would ever ask the stars not to shine no more? I know this isn't what you wanted all along, but I hope that I am. Though nothing is obvious, things are left to be uncovered and it may end and I may fail again and again, but there is a life waiting for you to choose. There's a love that no one can take away and if you don't acknowledge that nothing will be the same. People do wreckless and crazy things and that's what it takes to make love work. That's what it takes to make life work and that's because love is life. I'm gonna survive in this world, I'd like to do it with you. Whether or not you choose me you will still need someone to love and eventually you will try and fill that void and that person will never care about you and your daughter as much as I do and they can't bare to put the two of you before everything in thier life at the drop of a hat because those things take time to build. What would it be like to deny what we've already made to make it with another? Leaving me stuck here with memories of you, andrea, your family, your mother. All the happy times and the sad times. If it's a waste to turn back after enduring all this hurt then what is it to throw away the life, the memories, the love we had made. I look at it as ending the pain and sorrow if we were to remain together. After all, it's not like the pain is over...we both saw that tonight and as bad as I wanted to kiss you and I sensed that you wanted it too...I didn't because you were unsure of what you really want. Gabi, (as if any person would read this far and not know who I was talking to) I can't say anymore because I'm just repeating everything we already found together with actual conversation, but I want you to know I do love you and I feel so lost without you.(sorry for the cliche)

      "Never mind
      Who's to say?
      It's hard to rest when everybody's
      On your case
      On your own
      It's hard to sleep when everything is
      All concern
      Who is right?
      Its hard to breath when this intention
      Feels so wrong
      Feels so right
      Feels so wrong
      Never mind"


      My turn...

      "If you believed what you felt you would be in love"

      I guess I'm a bad faker. I can't act for shit. People know that something is horribly wrong with me. I tried to make them believe that I'm allright and that things are normal. The second my dad told me he was worried about me I knew I had to do something. Gabi you're tearing me apart.

      Let me start by saying it's depressing and horrible to see people you've grown up with since gradeschool doing everything they can to try and find cocaine and any other drugs they can get thier hands on. It's depressing to see Andy's dad is more horrible than you ever explained and that he wants nothing to do with her. As soon as he started calling her "that kid" i told my friends I had to leave.

      You know what though? That's the kind of shit that is left here in this town. There's nothing left here but a life of slow numbing agony. I wanted nothing more than to get you and Andrea and your sisters out of here. I wanted to be a family with you and Andy. I don't plan anything, but I had the beginning of our new lives together planned out. Everything that I had prepared for came to a crashing halt when you made that phone call. I called to night with one last hope of seeing you again only to find you numbing it all with alcohol and hell, maybe that is the answer for now. That's the only answer that people find for the thousands of problems they find here in this dirthole.

      Dammit Gabi you're killing me. There is NOTHING in this world i wouldn't have done to prevent us from comming to this. If you only would have let me know that this is how you were gonna ask us to be I would have changed my life completely just to make it last even a little longer. I would have stopped school until you were finished here just to save our lives.

      I haven't done a damn thing since I've been back Gabi. I've sat here rotting in this house. You know what I did tonight? I went out, I went out into the cold and found nothing more than regret. I could have stayed here numb to existance and had no cares but I went out and cared about you and I called you, Gabi I called you to hear your voice one more time. Though it was tinged with the effects of whatever booze you had tonight it was still as sweet as the first moment I heard it and as pure as the lips from which I stole our first kiss. I would have never stopped kissing you if I would have known we would be having our last.

      As upsetting tonight was and as sick with my own obsession I can honestly say I never thought what we had would end up as nothing more than a half burnt candle smoking in the dark.

      I heard this song right after we talked and I thought it fit for now.


      "Baby, You Wouldn't Last A Minute On The Creek"

      Let's just stop,
      drop everything,
      (forget each other's names) forget each other's names,
      And just walk away.

      Turn around and head in different directions,
      Like we never, it's like we never knew each other at all.
      We said what we feel, then we stop ourselves,
      And just walk away.
      Never looking back,
      Loving every second of it,
      we just walk away.

      This is probably the best,
      not to mention the worst idea,
      that I have ever had.

      Ignoring what we've felt,
      Overlooking what we've done,
      No awkward silences, no hiding any truths
      Ignoring what we've felt,
      Overlooking what we've do

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      The first person

      8 years ago

      the first person to comment on this with at least 3 lines of fanciness gets 15 mods and 5 more to go to any person they choose who isn't the poster.

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      Warped Week

      9 years ago

      I went to Warped Tour last week on Tuesday. Well I was moving out of my apartment and into another one until 1 o'clock in the morning the night before. Kyle went with me and he stayed up being a drunk bitch till the sun came up the night before. It was a long, hot day and I got burnt like a motha fucka. I had a shitload of fun and spent a shitload of money on water. Here are the bands I saw...Chiodos, Silverstein, Aiden, Armor For Sleep, Senses Fail - Twice, Rise Against, NOFX, Anti-Flag, From Autumn to Ashes, Eighteen Visions and Plain White T's. I got a mohawk the next day so I'll be switching my older pictures out for a couple of those. I don't have any concerts planned for the next few weeks so if any of you Arizona people hear of anything good that's less thank like 30 bucks a ticket, hit me up. Here's some shit.

      "Checkmarks"

      So there you are, and here I stand,
      As far as I remember you weren't half bad.
      Your bedroom behavior was never more than checkmarks on bedposts.
      For I remember we never had.

      You get me out of the rain, you get me out of my clothes.
      You hope I don't make a sound, you hope that nobody knows.
      You get me out of the rain, you get me out of my clothes.
      You hope I don't make a sound, you hope that no one...

      So suck your so called pity down.
      Hey, that's not so bad, is it?
      So take your cold, cold heart and drown
      and don't forget to take deep breaths.
      So suck your so called pity down.
      Hey, that's not so bad, is it?
      So take your cold, cold heart and drown
      and don't forget to take deep breaths.

      So don't explain cause I know exactly what your going to say.
      Big words, recycled phrases, and the bittersweet taste of other boys on your lips.
      So now just sit here and talk about how you wanted it all.
      So now just sit here and talk about how you wanted it all.

      Do you miss looking up from the floor at my face on a stage in a crowded room?
      Well it's not the same.
      I bet you're still a sucker for those famous faces.
      Downtown, looking down, down, looking over the crowd, I hope you're out there, look at me now.
      Well it's not the same.
      Just look at how we've changed.

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      Matches, Panic! and "Tears Don't Fall"

      9 years ago

      So I haven't written about the Matches which was a kick ass show. Let me tell you. Found out about two really cool bands there. The first band is from Australia and their name is Something With Numbers. They are extremely energetic, my friend that went with me almost got hit in the head by a guitar and by the singer's head haha. Pretty sure that isn't good for pregnant girls haha. Anyway, the next band that came up was getting their equipment set up and I thought the guys setting it up were just their friends or something 'cause they were black. That's probably racist, but I was at a punk concert dammit. Well these guys were black as fuck playin some punk ass rock. They were...the shit. Motha fucker comes out with a guitar and it says "Thug" on the pick guard. hahaha man it was awesome. One had a fuckin silver chain around his neck with a rifle bullet on it. Motha fuckin blingin' bullet on this shit. These were some Punk Rock Gangstas. They were called Whole Wheat Bread. About halway through the show the guitarist and bassist switched and one goes "everybody on my side say fuck yeah" and the other guy goes "fuck you nigga that's my side. I've been playin' o're thurr the whole time". So the other guys says "Everyone on this side put up your middle finger. Now turn it towards his side and say 'fuck that side. suck my dick.' ". So everyone did and we all laughed and had a jolly time then they started the next song. By the way, you can find both of these bands on my friends list if you're interested in a listen. So MC Lars comes up rappin and stuff (he's white as fuck) and in the middle of the shit The Matches and some guys from the other bands all came out to play a song together. Well the Australian singer from SWN comes out with these big ass gurlie sunglasses. And he goes "That girl (points at the bar), Megan (or something similar to that name that I can't quite remeber) is fuckin' hott and I'm gonna have sex with 'er tonioght" The lead singer of the Matches asks him if he's drunk and he tips up his glasses and staggers a bit and goes "Yeh...little bit mate". HAHA it was great. Well they made him tell a story about the night before and it went something like this *uses Aussie accent* "Me and me mate Dave was sleepin'g last night or uh early this morning and we're in the van so we don't have much room. Anyway we're sleepin kinda close together and....and I uh...I touched his penis. Not because I'm gay or anything, I was fuckin' sleepin', but his penis was there by me and I must have rolled over or something and touched it." HAHA Then the lead singer of the Matches points over at the bar where Dave was and he goes "Dave were you erect?" We had a jolly good laugh again. Then, finally, the Matches came up and started playing. They put on a kick ass show. Afterwards, the lead singer came off the stage and shook my hand and talked for a bit. He basically said thanks for comming to the show and stuff then I told him how much they kick ass and I was on my way home. I also was standing right next to the lead guitarist the whole time and I got 3 of their guitar picks with the Matches' logo on it. Man it was sweet ass. Anyway, the last show I went to was Panic! At The Disco about a week ago. They also put on a really good show, but it was quite different from anything else I had seen. They had dancers and flashing lights and junk. The girl to boy ratio was about 1 boy for every 10 girls there. I normally wouldn't mind being squashed between hundreds of chicks, but most of them were about 13 or so and I felt like I was gonna get fuckin' arrested. I don't touch the underage ones...in public at least hahahaha. I felt a little out of place and I don't really know the band's songs that well, but it wasn't bad. Like I said, they put on a good show...good entertainment. Next up is Warped Tour on the 4th. I'll post more after that. Here's some lyrics for your reading pleasure.

      "Tears Don't Fall"

      Let's go!

      With blood shot eyes, I watch you sleeping
      The warmth I feel beside me is slowly fading
      Would she hear me, if I called her name?
      Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

      There's always something different going wrong
      The path I walk is in the wrong direction
      There's always someone f***ing hanging on
      Can anybody help me makes things better?

      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home
      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home

      The moments died, I hear no screaming
      The visions left inside me are slowly fading
      Would she hear me, if I called her name?
      Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

      There's always something different going wrong
      The path I walk is in the wrong direction
      There's always someone f***ing hanging on
      Can anybody help me makes things better?

      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home
      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home

      This battered room I've seen before
      The broken bones they heal no more, no more
      With my last breath I'm choking
      Will this ever end I'm hoping
      My world is over one more time

      Let's go!

      Would she hear me, if I called her name?
      Would she hold me, if she knew my shame?

      There's always something different going wrong
      The path I walk is in the wrong direction
      There's always someone f***ing hanging on
      Can anybody help me makes things better?

      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home
      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home

      Better!

      Your tears don't fall, they crash around me
      Her conscious calls, the guilty to come home

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      Big Fuckin' Show

      9 years ago

      I went to A pretty awesome concert last night but it was in an Arena so it was HUGE and full of 10 year old girls. Hawthorne Heights, Fall Out Boy, All-American Rejects, From First To Last. it was pretty good. I could have had worse seats. I wasn't on the floor but I was in the first row, Center Stage. The last song Fall Out Boy played they said "if your dream is to get your fuckin' asses on the floor and mosh with fall out boy then live your fucking dream and get down here" and there were so many security guards we didn't know what to do. They stopped a few kids, but there were so many that they got by. Me and kyle were itching to get out there all night cause sitting for a concert sucks ass. We hopped the barricade, ran past the guards, bolted through the crowd, ran around in a mosh pit, then ended up like in the 3rd row. Pete Wentz was singing out in the crowd and I looked over and saw him about 10 feet away from me and I told Kyle "hey it's fuckin' Pete" haha that was the shit. So Pete was saying they had a letter sent from a father saying they cussed too fuckin' much and it said "Anyone who says mother fucker that much must really love to fuck their mothers" and Fall Out Boy decided to make like a swear jar where they throw a shirt in for everytime they curse on stage and give them out to people in the front row at the end of the show. Then he said he didn't want to let the rest of us down so if they cursed 30 time son stage they would fuckin' power bomb their friend named Dirty through a table. So halfway through the show Pete just says fuck a million times, this guy runs out and he gets on the mic and says he didn't want to let us down either so it was gonna be two tables. He climbs up on the drum riser as they are setting up the tables, a guy grabs him, picks Dirty up over his shoulders, and BAM!...BAM BAM FUCKIN BAM through two tables into the stage he throws this Dirty Bastard. And my sick bastard friend videotaped it. The whole damn show was FUCKING awesome! Oh and apparently Pete Wentz has nude pictures on the internet taken by the fellow FOB members...IF any of you sick nasty chicks out there are into that hahaha. You know you think he's cute.

      "Anything"

      I see your face
      In the frame on my desk
      It meant a lot
      Now it means a lot less
      It's just a place
      For the dust in my room to rest
      I see the letters
      That were written for me
      They said you cared
      And I totally believed
      They didn't mention
      That five months later you'd leave

      You could've told me anything
      To make me understand
      'cause I don't understand

      I see the bracelet
      You gave me back then
      Made it for me
      So I'd never forget
      It must have worked
      'Cause I haven't forgotten you yet
      I see the bed
      Where we used to mess around
      We'd talk for hours
      Before you'd go down
      That was before
      You decided not to keep me around

      You could've told me why you had to go
      I try to tell myself just let it go
      But I see your face, it's everywhere I go

      No, I don't understand

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      Video Games And Good Music...

      9 years ago

      ...go hand in hand ladies and gentlemen. Two of my top 5 favorite bands I discovered by playing Burnout games. Burnout 3: Takedown had The Matches on it who kick total ass! They are currently making a new CD, but if you get the chance I recommend you listen to their current CD 'E. Von Dahl Killed The Locals'. Good songs off there are "Chain Me Free", "Sick Little Suicide", "Dog Eared Page", and "Audio Blood". On that same game was another one of my top 5's you guys might know as My Chemical Romance. The other band I discovered was on Burnout Revenge and that band is Billy Talent ladies and gentlemen. I'm pretty sure they are Canadian, but that's ok folks. I've gotten kinda attached to Canadian bands and people lately. Billy Talent is also making a new CD right now, but again, their current self titled album is out now. They are the closest sounding thing I have heard to pure punk in a while. And they actually sound good!!! Which is very hard for a punk band to do by the way. Anywho...download these songs. "Red Flag", "Try Honesty", "The Ex", "Standin' In The Rain", and "River Below". It's good shit. I hope everyone else has been having a good time. I got like 6 people who have me on watch and I don't even update that much so why the hell is it so hard for them to comment on my page? I don't ask for much. To those loyal lovlies who comment everytime, thank you very much and I hope you are the one's whose pages I comment on regularly. Keep kickin ass guys and here's some BT...

      "Standing In The Rain"

      My head, it hurts
      Each day it's getting worse
      My looks and smile
      Have now become my curse
      Tight lips, red skirt
      The neverending street
      Big car, little man
      My lover for a fee

      So if you see me will you just drive on by?
      Or will I catch the twinkle inside your eye?
      And if you want me well I guess I want you
      Oh pretty baby how could you?

      Standing in the rain
      Milk carton mug-shot baby
      Missing since 1983
      Standing in the rain
      20 years of dirty needles
      Raindrops runnin' through my veins

      My head it hurts
      Each day its getting worse
      No sun, my room
      Has now become my hearse
      Cold sores, im beat
      Got bruises on my feet
      My pride, these men
      Have taken it from me

      So if you see me will you just drive on by?
      Or will I catch the twinkle inside your eye?
      And if you want me well I guess I want you
      Oh pretty baby how could you?

      Standing in the rain
      Milk carton mug-shot baby
      Missing since 1983
      Standing in the rain
      20 years of dirty needles
      Raindrops runnin'through my veins

      Standing in the rain
      Milk carton mug-shot baby
      Missing since 1983
      Standing in the rain
      20 years of dirty needles
      Raindrops runnin' through my veins

      So if you see me will you just drive on by?
      Or will I catch the twinkle inside your eye?
      And if you want me well I guess i want you
      Oh pretty baby how could you?

      Standing in the rain
      Standing in the rain
      Standing in the rain
      Milk carton mug-shot baby
      Mother, I have lost my way
      Standing in the rain
      Milk carton mug-shot baby
      Missing since 1983
      Standing in the rain
      20 years of dirty needles
      Raindrops runnin' through my veins
      Standing in the rain
      Mother, I have lost my way
      Standing in the rain
      Mother, I have lost my way

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      My Journal has coaggulated

      9 years ago

      I haven't J'ed it up in a while so here's some thoughts and peices of a couple songs I'm attemting to write. Being home has got me thinking of all the things I've lost.

      All girls want to be in love. Maybe not at the moment because they just got out of a relationship or they simply aren't ready to be in love, but that's what they want. It's relatively easy to keep a good one pleased and make them fall in love with you. There's a kinda trick to it that you have to use on each one. You gotta make them feel like no one else in the world could make them as happy as you. You gotta tell them they are beautiful all the time no matter what they look like. You have to tell them you love them. You have to give them that look you always see in the movies when you say it and when you kiss them and when you hold them. By the way you do have to hold them...you can't just go around fucking all the time because if you don't cuddle they WILL leave you. You have to tell them everything they want to hear and you have to agree with them all the time...and if you don't then you have to meet them halfway and compromise. But here's the real trick...it can't be a trick. You have to say it all and do it all and mean it all when you do it and you have to tell the truth always. Do that, and she'll do anything for you.

      Burn it. Bleed it. Earn it. Need it. Yearn for it and feed it.

      You're in my hands and my heart's in yours. Carve in it what you will and leave my body cold and still. Just know it was never just for thrills and in the end after blood has spilled and words are said that my image will forever burn inside your head.

      You're not above me and you only loved me.

      Try to say you didn't love me. Try to say that you're above me. Your heart is an icicle. Now who is the one that's evil? Say what you will but you can't deny what was there. I believe there was a time when I was scared, but nothing can save my soul as I watch the beauty of what we had fade away with age. A time to live. A time to hide. A time to fly and a time to die. Breathe these last breaths in and understand as you burn my heart you're crawling with sin. Angel's lost her wings and now she lives with other things. All the while listening to the sad song his soul will always sing.

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      Yesterday and the lame mistake!

      9 years ago

      Well you guys know I'm a shithead cause I fucked up on my last journal. I said I hadn't been to any shows lately but I went to see Nascar at Pheonix International Raceway and while I was there I saw Lynard Skynard Experience and they sound just like the real thing did so it was pretty kickass. BUT even bette ron Sunday befor ethe big boys raced I saw TRAPT! Thyat's right bitches. They put on a damn good live show. For those of you who don't know I finally cut my hair and I decided to dye it black. This was like the Sunday before Thanksgiving so I've been slackin' on the journal stuff. If you don't know the story behind my hair being pretty fuckin long here it is. After me and the ex (Jullia) broke up, i never cut it. She was the first girl I ever really loved so I just kinda let myself go and I wasn't gonna cut my hair till I was truly over her. Which, I still care about her, but I'm not all hung up on her. I cut the sides and back but the top just kept getting longer. I shaved my head like 2 days before we split around April 25 and I let it grow for like 7 months. I posted one picture but I'll post my freshness colored hair glue pictures from...guess when....yeah the second part of my journal here...YESTERDAY! So YESTERDAY, my niggas...I went and saw Senses Fail and Saves the Day with Emmanuel and Early Novermber. Emmanual started things off...they were ok...I wouldn't buy their CD and the lead singer was a little bitch but it's ok. Early November was pretty badass. I think i'll steal some of their music. Now, Senses Fail rocked my fucking socks off smiley11.gif They were the shizzle for rizzeal. Everyone was there to see them too haha. As soon as they finished half the people left and Saves The Day had a pretty crappy crowd but that's ok 'cause they aren't as great as all that. Me and kyle(the dude in my pictures) got tired of them and left early. What was pretty badass was that Buddy and the Lead Guitarist from Senses Fail climbed on top of the amps at the end and were singing and playing up there so that was pretty neat. I bought the Deluxe Edition of Senses Fail's "Let It Enfold You" CD so now I have it twice lol. Well the new one has 5 extra songs and a WAY better DVD. So now I need to find someone to give my older Senses Fail CD/DVD to. Any Ideas? There were some crazy racist girls hitting on me and Kyle too. One was rubbing her goodies on me for a while when it was unnecessary. They said "Do you see any black people around us? Yeah we hate them" Me and Kyle think niggas is freshness though so don't get our ideas confused with those chicks haha. So we decided Avenged Sevenfold is comming back to Arizona for the second leg of their tour and guess who they are bringing? CK fuckin' Y fools! We are gonna try and buy our tickets today and we can take that day off and drive to Tucson to watch the show. Only gayness is that we will have to drive back that night. If I end up doing this then I will have seen A7X three times and CKY twice...I'll be posting a list of all the bands I've seen (separately regardless of if they were at the same show) later. Hope you guys are all kickin' ass still!

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      Holy shit I better write a journal

      9 years ago

      Here comes a long one maybe. It's been a while and I need to try and make up for it.

      So I haven't been able to go to any shows 'cause I've been poor. It's Kyle's turn to pay anyway, but he broke himself too. Him and his girlfriend split up so he hasn't been the same. I think he spent Thanksgiving alone in the city. By the way, I'm back home right now. Doesn't seem like any of my friends back here wanna talk to me and I don't have a girlfriend back here for once so I've been hella bored. I've been single for a couple months now and I'm starting to twitch. Next week All-American Rejects play on Wednesday and then Thursday is Senses Fail with Saves the Day. Friday is one of my Favorite comedians Pablo Francisco. Some of you may have seen him a couple years ago on Comedy Central Presents. He's good. School is pretty much blowin'. I need to study for my chem exam that i have monday. Which will blow by the way. I learned to bunny hop on my bike...I was trying to do it all wrong. It turns out that it is a lot easier than I thought. I just have to lose some weight so I can jump more than like 6 inches haha. I've been working out but it's gonna take me at least a month to get back in shape. I've been all fucked up since me and my ex split last April. I gained like 30 or 40 pounds. It doesnt really show too much I don't think. I made friends with her best friend who lives in the city by me and she got PISSED. She said I was mean to her when we were together and all this crap. I wasn't...she said I laughed at her when she thought she was having a miscarriage and she was in all kinds of pain. You guys don't think I would do that do you? Her new boyfriend is an ugly fucker...they were together like not even a month after me and her split. Shows how much she cared...She was all saying she loved him like a month after that. I want to break his legs. It's been like 6 months and I'm still tore up. I can't sleep sometimes. Man I need to put some lyrics on here. Let me find some...

      "Institutionalized"

      [Originally by Suicidal Tendencies]

      Sometimes I try to do things, and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
      And I get real frustrated and like I try hard to do it.
      I like take my time and it doesn't work out the way I wanted to.
      It's like I concentrate on it real hard and it doesn't work out
      And Everything I do and everything I try it never turns out.
      It's like I need time to figure these things out.
      There's always someone there going

      Hey Buddy:
      You know, we've been noticing you've been having a lot of problems lately.
      You know, you need to maybe get away and like maybe you should talk about it,
      you'll feel a lot better

      I go:
      No it's okay, you know I'll figure it out, just leave me alone I'll figure it out.
      You know I'll just work it out myself.

      And they go:
      Well you know if you want to talk about it I'll be here you know and you'll
      probably feel a lot better if you talk about it, so why don't you talk about it?

      I go:
      No. I don't want to talk about it. I'm okay, I'll figure it out myself but they just keep
      bugging me and they just keep bugging me and it builds up inside.

      So you're gonna be institutionalized
      You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
      You won't have any say
      They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

      I'm not crazy - institutionalized
      You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
      You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

      They stuck me in an institution
      Said it was the only solution
      to give me the needed professional help
      to protect me from the enemy, myself

      I was in my room and I was like just sitting there staring at the wall thinking about
      everything but then again I was thinking about nothing
      And my mom came in and I didn't even realize she was there and she calls my
      name but I didn't even hear it, and she started screaming BUDDY! BUDDY!
      And I go:
      What, what's the matter?
      And she goes:
      What's the matter with you?
      I go:
      There's nothing-wrong Mom.
      And she goes:
      Don't tell me that, you're on drugs!
      I go:
      Mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I was just thinking you know, why don't
      you get me a pepsi?
      And she goes:
      NO you're on drugs!
      I go:
      Mom I'm okay, I'm just thinking.
      She goes:
      No you're not thinking, you're on drugs! Normal people don't act that way!
      I go:
      Mom just give me a Pepsi please
      All I want is a Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me
      All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
      Just a Pepsi.

      They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
      Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
      Drug you up because they're lazy
      It's too much work to help a crazy

      I'm not crazy - institutionalized
      You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
      You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

      They stuck me in an institution
      Said it was the only solution
      To give me the needed professional help
      To protect me from the enemy, myself

      I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up
      a chair and they sat down, they go:
      Buddy, we need to talk to you
      And I go:
      Okay what's the matter?
      They go:
      Me and your mom we've been noticing lately that you've been having a lot of
      problems, you've been going off for no reason and we're afraid you're gonna
      hurt somebody, we're afraid you're gonna hurt yourself.
      So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
      where you could get the help that you need.
      And I go:
      Wait, what are you talking about, we decided!? My best
      interest?! How do you know what MY best interest is? How can you say what
      MY best interest is? What are you trying to say, I'M crazy? When I went to
      YOUR schools, when I went to YOUR churches, when I went to YOUR institutional learning
      facilities?! How can you say I'm crazy?

      They say they're gonna fix my brain
      Alleviate my suffering and my pain
      But by the time they fix my head
      Mentally I'll be dead

      I'm not crazy - institutionalized
      You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
      You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

    • G_spot_7

      More Concerts! Little Teeny Bitches

      9 years ago

      Allright, Last Tuesday I went and saw My Chemical Romance and Alkaline Trio. Reggie and The Full Effect was there but by the time I got from the parking lot to the stage they were already done. I guess they only played about 4 songs. Whent TICKETMASTER says something is starting at a certain time you better fuckin be there AT that time. Now I know. Anyways, MCR rocked my cock of course. I felt like a dipshit cause I only knew like 3 Alkaline Trio Songs so I kinda backed out of the crowd. They need to set a 16 year old age limit for those shits though. Fucking little girls everyone. All of them trying to smoke for the 2 hours they were away from their parents. Fucking idiots. Anyways, I heard a lot of "Oh my god, that guy is so scene." and "Honey you are TOTALLY emo". Why do little girls feel like they have to classify everyone? People are just people and they aren't trying to BE something. If someone IS trying to be percieved as something then they have problems. Anyways, my friend Hilary had only been to like Matchbox 20 and Coldplay so she had no idea what she was in for. At least I told her what kinda clothes to wear so she didn't get molested or have a white shirt with her breasties gettin all exposalated from the shirt being soaked with sweat. Haha she says "Why did they pat me down at the gate?" LOLOLOLOL shiiit. MCR played a song they have from their new CD comming out and it was good. Gerard goes "We're gonna do something we never do on tour..." (Yeah right haha, but I forgive him for lying) "...we're gonna play you guys a new song" Haha before they played Helena Gerard goes "It's nice out here, you can see the sky. Everyone look up at the sky."...*looks up*..."Everyone say "HI GRANDMA!"...*everyone screams it* This happened over and over about 5 or times then Gerard goes "Now put your hands together 'cause she can't hear you 'CAUSE SHE'S FUCKIN' DEAD!" haha It was good. Also, there were a SHITLOAD of fat people there. Ahhh such vivid memories. NOW! On Saturday...THIS mother fuckin' saturday bitches...AVENGED MOTHERFUCKIN' SEVENFOLD! My friend Kyle bought the tickets...well I bought one for my friend Liz, she's from back home, but she's comming down for the weekend and I figured I'd cheer her up musically. Anyways, I have to buy tickets to the next concert which will probably be Coheed and Cambria or Senses Fail or somethin. By the way, i'm wearing my Coheed shirt I got from pre-ordering the new CD from Hoodlums now. I'll continue later it's lunchtime...

      *After Lunchtime*

      ...At lunch I went to hoodlums and bought Atreyu - The Curse, Killswtich Engage, Bobaflex, and Dukes of Hazzard Soundtrack. Now, back to the freshness. So things are gonna be sweet for these next couple moneths with concerts and junk. As long as I have enough cheese. (Cheese = Cash) Also, MCR was at Mesa Amphitheatre and it was my first time being there. I never want to go again and I made a rule that I'm not going back to that shithole unless the band playing is in my top 5. On the other hand, A7X is gonna be at Marquee Theatre which is in my territory *gangsta*...and Marquee Theatre is the freshness. All indoors and whatnot. I'm gonna stop typing before one of you gets a seizure. Peace out...

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  • Comments (134)

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      6 years ago

      dude! i'm square for the most part... things could be better, but when can't they? i have indeed lost a shitton of weight... i've hit a plateau at 70... i'm still like 40 lbs from my goal weight though. it'd say it's totally healthy... haha. we need to find a better means of communication... i'm pretty much never on here and you're definitely never on here and it just doesn't work out well. haha :P do you have myspace or facebook or anything?

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      6 years ago

      dude! i'm square for the most part... things could be better, but when can't they? i have indeed lost a shitton of weight... i've hit a plateau at 70... i'm still like 40 lbs from my goal weight though. it'd say it's totally healthy... haha. we need to find a better means of communication... i'm pretty much never on here and you're definitely never on here and it just doesn't work out well. haha :P do you have myspace or facebook or anything?

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      7 years ago

      Hey! I'm okay for the most part and college is decent I suppose... I've had all sorts of health-related issues though and because of it my grades slipped and now I'm on academic probation :/ I'm not too worried though because I know I'll do better next semester :)

    • ShadowCat666

      ShadowCat666

      7 years ago

      hey stranger whats going on ?? *hugs*

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      8 years ago

      Ahhh yes, WoW can be very addicting ;) I think I'd probably WoW more if I had the expansion... I'd like to play a blood elf :) I haven't actually WoWed in.... almost a year? o.O;;

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      8 years ago

      !!! you live!

    • Vampiress13

      Vampiress13

      8 years ago

      yes it has been

      whats going on?

    • S3xsi_M3xsi

      S3xsi_M3xsi

      8 years ago

      one of my fav's
      that baby is beautiful
      nice dark mexican tan

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      8 years ago

      thanksssss.

    • hotani_zero

      hotani_zero

      8 years ago

      nope. i just have huge lips :/