Gemstone

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    • A moderators worst nightmare

      13 years ago

      Gemstone

      How do you define a forumsmoderators worst nightmare? A week ago I might have said
      that a forums moderators worst nightmare is having over a thousand teenage boys to mod!
      But hey, at least that's not boring! LOL I have a tiny bit of imagination, and it tells me that a moderators worst
      nightmare must be to not have anything to mod at all! ROFL
      Okay so I'm exaggerating a little bit. But I AM actually modderating over a thousand teenage boys, so I have to
      use my imagination :P
      Maybe I'll tell you all about it some day.

      Ceterum censeo expergefacere forum matricis (or something like it - I'm not so good at latin :P)

      /Gem

    • Inside the wheel

      13 years ago

      Gemstone

      Hah, I'd never thought I could get so engaged by a fantasy series!
      By accident i found The Wheel Of Time series by Robert Jordan, about 2 month ago.
      I read the entire cavalcade of books in one stretch, just in time for the 11th book to be released!
      A pity I have to wait for the 12th book, but I guess I couldn't get all the goodies in one cake - if I did it wouldn't be much left for the actual cake.
      It's not a story written for 10 years and under, it's more like written for 15 and over.
      Because of it's knowledge about humanhood and it's demanding details. It certainly requires it's concentration, intelligence, and intellectual maturity,
      If you haven't read it, and you like demanding, inspiring stories and don't want them to snuggle you - then pick it up! ;)

      Just a thought.

      /Gem

    • I am quite alive

      13 years ago

      Gemstone

      Yes it's true. Though I haven't been 'present' for awhile now - i.e. logged in around here.
      "Ever have that feeling where you're not sure if you're awake or still dreaming?"
      I couldn't have put it better myself. Half the time I think I must be dreaming. I keep thinking:
      'there must be more to life than this'.
      And ofcourse that is correct. I know exactly in what way. I even know how to go about it.
      It is not always the path you chose that is the path you would have taken if given a chance. Sounds confusing?
      Actually it is clear as burnt sand. But there it is. It is scary as you-know-what.
      Love. I've finally come to realize I can't live without it. Not the kind you see in movie, or for that part: the kind you see in the streets every day, where illusioned people burrow their pain in another persons kidneys. Not that kind.
      The kind that makes you grow as a critical member of the society. Hah, I bet you're confused by now, if you weren't before.
      I'm talking about unconditional love.
      I cannot explain to you so, no, don't beg me to try.
      You know it when you feel it.

      -----
      The paradoxes chains the physical and the metaphysical.

    • Ok, I'm done

      14 years ago

      Gemstone

      Where do I start. It's a new year.
      And I guess that's it. But then there's the agony, and the pain and the pain...oh I already mentioned that.
      I'm about to turn 25. How about that. It's scary I tell you.
      My head is tired. My mind is tired. My body is tired. I can't sleep. I just sit here.
      I wish there was a way out, like in 'The Matrix'.
      A redpill for your thoughts.

    • Watch your steps

      14 years ago

      Gemstone

      Ever felt like someone's watching you?

      Most of us just supress any idea of this kind, we ignore it, we let it tumble in the back of whatever-we-have up-there, screetching around on the subconscious level having nothing to do.

      But the fact is staring us in the face, not even blinking. We feel it's presence while we rest, it's boundry subdued. If we ever notice, it's because some mara made us remember our dream. Then the feeling linger, tinting our perception of life, like a movie postproduction.

      Turn left...no, turn right...watch it.

      The digitality is surrouding us, almost disappearing in its own presence.
      we live it breathe it create it.
      Its not ours.

      -----
      "What is the imperfect circle"

    • Drain the pipes

      14 years ago

      Gemstone

      I've got some serious issues with sleep.

      I don't know why, because I love a good submerged dream state very much indeed.
      But there is always something I 'just' want to do,and eventually it's morning.

      It doesn't fit for someone that has to perform high quality learning every day to live through the next year.
      Gaah, I hope I can free my mind in time.

      ---
      "If the door is locked, try the windows - or better, think linux and try the pipes"

    • There's some fuzz with my phone...

      14 years ago

      Gemstone

      My phone seems not work as it should...there's a tone and everything, but calls to some numbers just don't budge...Is it the phone or the phone line?
      I wouldn't know. Ever got a call that just ends after one buzz?
      Sometimes I think it's just me dreaming when it wakes me up.
      Not properly booted, I somehow transfer myself over to the phone and pick it up. And noone's there. On the line. Weird.
      I'n not generally spooked. But it's just weird.

      Resignation is underestimated.
      Ergo Dave Brubeck digs Disney. It's safer.

    • I got one-liners crawling in my head ;)

      14 years ago

      Gemstone

      Heh, I never thought it would come to this...
      Completely exhausted I wooz* (*dunno what the word means - I think I just made it up) myself in front of the computer and manage to turn the thing on. After 10 hours of digging into the art of the C programming language, I finally shut down vital parts of my mind, and turn on others...less...uhm...demanding parts.

      Ironically I havn't got anything to complain about - I'm doing what I love.

      I'll tell you one thing though - I'll never see arrows the way I used to - they remind me of pointers too much ;)

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    • culix

      14 years ago

      My random search on Dave Brubeck fans turns you up as #1. Cool stuff. Tell you what, make a journal entry and I throw you some kudos points for both that and the Eagle Nebula pic. Kickass.

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