GothicRednek

Female
from Sacramento, CA

  • Activity

    • Been a long time...

      6 years ago

      GothicRednek

      So uhhh... What's up?

    • Wow; Pretty Much Another Year

      9 years ago

      GothicRednek

      so its pretty much been another year since
      ive been on and posted a journal or anything
      really; so i guess this is just another update
      journal to let people know how i am.
      Well me and my [now ex]boyfriend chris broke
      up because he was an insufferable jerk and
      i am glad to be free from him.
      I have met someone else; hes the most amazing
      guy ever and his name is Ron.
      Im going into my senior year of high school; yay me!
      I still cant legally drive even though im 17 years old
      cause my mom cant afford it and im looking for a job
      cause well;to say it delicatly; were broke.
      simple as that and i dont care if people think of me
      any differently; im not looking for pity.
      Ive grown past that and am just stating the facts.
      Thats pretty much it;oh except i dyed my hair.
      its red now.
      :]
      let me know how everyone elses lives are now.

    • Update :)

      10 years ago

      GothicRednek

      So i havent been on much but heres
      whats changed since then.
      Have a boyfriend [love him]
      am a junior in high school
      and idk what else to say.
      gonna try and get on more so if
      you wanna talk just message me :)

    • Newsflash

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      so not much has happened lately.
      ive been more depressed and cranky
      lately and really irritable.
      i feel really alone
      and now im losing all my friends
      who i thought i could count on cause
      their more interested in their relationships
      and other friends who are more interesting
      anyways blah oh well
      im having fun with life anyways
      =]

    • Auditions Take Two

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      So i went in for another
      acting/modeling audition
      and again i didnt get picked
      but this time it was mostly
      because i wasnt one of the following
      1)blonde
      2)really skinny
      3)big boobs
      ya the only people they picked were
      blondes except for one redhead
      so ya oh well im going back to
      the other agency in a few months
      so ya...
      XD

    • I Hate it when..

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      im sick.
      today i couldnt even
      get out of bed bcuz
      i didnt have the strength
      it sucks...i wanted to see
      someone at school today
      too...
      thats another thing i hate
      liking someone who more
      or less just thinks your annoying
      or is just some random kid
      who bugs them all the time
      about silly things.
      grrs.
      And i also hate when you
      finally have the conversation
      you have been needing to be
      have with someone but you no
      longer feel the same so its like
      you just waited two hours talking
      about something that doesnt even
      matter anymore.
      I mean it does but i mean not for the
      same reasons it did before.
      dang oh well.
      long story short.
      im just gonna be freakin single
      for forever because not only do
      i have to try to decide if im ever
      gonna date that one dude again
      or the other guy and the every
      so popular 3rd guy.
      i love that kid. he knows who
      he is i think XD
      he should know.
      idk. doesnt matter
      right now i guess.

    • Im Trying to Live

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      Life.
      Im so tired of always being sad
      all the time i really hate that
      feeling it makes me feel so helpless
      and im trying to be better about it
      and trying to do things because i want
      to not because people make me
      feel like i have to and for once
      im not letting people get to me like
      when they start to cry and try to make
      me feel bad because i dont want
      to date them =/
      ya someone actually was crying
      and trying to make me feel bad so
      i would go out with them out of guilt
      whataloser
      anyways im free and single and just
      ready to try and beat this thing thats
      taken over my life.
      Im fighting back finally and idk i just
      feel really good about it.
      Ive started writing a new story too!
      so now i have like three on going
      stories so this should be totally fun
      to try and do!! lol
      The first story is a sequal to my story
      "Dear Diary, Life Sucks!"
      and I hope to be done with it soon
      and then im going back to editing
      the original version of DDLS
      because I wrote it in 8th grade so ya.
      I can only imagine the errors i made.
      The next one is called "Vampire Heart"
      and yes i know thats the name of a HIM
      song and that was where i got the idea
      the name of the story so ya its pretty tight
      i think but its harder to write because im
      trying to make it a higher level book and
      not to mention im writing it so its like duing
      the midevil ages in Eurpoe so fun!!!
      and lastly is the one I just started called
      "The Diary" and i hope the idea i have
      for it makes it easier to write and i just
      hope all my stories come out good.
      Im also going to be looking into
      publishing a book of my poetry because
      i have like a zillion poems and i know
      from popular opinion that at least a million
      of them are pretty good XD lol
      no i really only have like 20 something
      poems that i like enough to share and i cant
      publish one of them because its already published
      in a book! lol so ya ill have to write some more though
      because 20 isnt enough to have in a book.
      Im also trying to bring up my grades.
      So far this is what i have.

      Algebra 1 [r] : B
      World History 10 : C-
      P.E. : C+
      Agricultrula Biology : F
      English 10 P : A-
      Advocacy 10 : No Pass


      so firstly im going to bring up the
      bio grade because ya i dont need
      another F on my transcript
      and i really want to do good this year
      and once i bring up that F im going to
      work on those C's!
      and P.E. isnt that hard lol i just need to
      make up some Mile Run's and ill be set!
      and thats not diffcult at all lol
      well as long as i take my medication XD
      World History should be the difficult one
      but i think i can do it =]
      and Advocacy isnt even important to me
      at this moment i mean its just
      a 5 credit class so its not at
      the top of my priority list but i know
      how i can pass that class to so not
      the end of the world lol
      Im also trying to complete all my New Years Resolutions
      because i have never even gone through
      with any of mine before so
      yes im going to try and change that!
      So ya I think thats all im going to write for
      now so i can finish my Make-up work for
      Biology and they help my mom and dad
      fix up the property after the huge storm we just had
      so ya bye guys
      =]

    • New Years Resolution Thingys

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      ya i know pretty late since its
      already the new year but oh well
      im still gonna post them!

      New Years Resolutions
      1)Bring up my bad grades
      2)Forget about him
      3)Finish my story
      4)Lose 15lbs.
      5)Accomplish rifle tosses
      6)Spend more time with the family
      7)Start all over
      8)Find someone to fall in love with <3
      9)Have a sleep over with old friends
      10)Don’t listen to what they say
      11)Motivate myself more
      12)Forget that night
      13)No more lies
      14)Stop living in the past
      15)Make new friends
      16)Stop making enemies
      17)Tell him the truth </3
      18)Stop letting them push me around
      19)Prove to them I mean something
      20)Make it count <3
      21)Cry less
      22)Laugh more
      23)Keep dreaming
      24)Don’t let there thoughts run my life anymore
      25)Be my own person
      26)Be more carefree
      27)Just be happy
      28)Give her a chance <3
      29)Try something new

    • breaking point

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      When everything is wrong and nothing
      is right what can you do?
      NOTHING
      everything seems to be falling apart
      around me and i dont freakin no why
      im not the same person i was
      i dont know whats wrong and i hate
      knowing that there is and not being
      able to acutally be able to tell anybody
      all my friends keep asking and i cant
      tell them anything...
      all i do is give them lies as to why
      im feeling that way and they believe me
      or at least i think they do i cant tell but
      i mean why must it be like this?
      i mean somebody has to be able to
      tell me whats wrong...no one knows
      not any of the doctors, anyone
      fuck.
      i just dont care about anything anymore
      i cant feel anything...
      its like im detatched from everything and
      am incapable to feel anything
      no emotions, not even simple things like
      being hungry or tired.
      its like i just simply go from one task
      to the other like a robot
      i just feel like im standing alone
      and no matter how much i try i can never
      seem to reach out to anyone
      idk what to do.
      The only person i ever truly loved i
      screwed up really bad and i dont
      know if he even ever did really love me
      but i know i love him, I probably always will
      it doesnt seem to matter anymore
      for all i seem to feel is remourse
      i try to be normal and i try to act like
      nothing is wrong but its just like
      everyday i spend hiding is another day
      i feel like killing myself.
      i cant stand this feeling and i just need
      always feel the need to be alone
      but then i always feel so sad about it
      i hate how i feel so isolated all the time
      but its like i cant help it
      im not who i once was and i just
      simply do not care about anything.
      what is wrong with me????

    • So kinda like...

      11 years ago

      GothicRednek

      havent posted a new journal in like forever
      so heres the dealio.
      had a boyfriend for like
      2, almost three months
      broke up on thursday cause
      ya im to stressed right now
      to deal with having a boyfriend
      im failing biology
      [[stress]]
      family stuff going on
      and i got my hair cut
      so ya
      thats pretty much whats going on =]

  • About Me

  • Comments (717)

    • genGrevious

      10 years ago

      omg you're on

    • GothicRednek

      10 years ago

      In reply to Aggie09, #-4:

      sorry for the late reply XD
      but i was in Much Ado About Nothing
      :D

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      10 years ago

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    • charlie_chur

      10 years ago

      happy new year

    • Aggie09

      10 years ago

      what play are you in?

    • Aggie09

      10 years ago

      yup yup
      so what's new with ya?

    • Aggie09

      10 years ago

      just working and school!
      it's rather boring

    • Aggie09

      10 years ago

      Not much, what have you been up too miss?

    • Aggie09

      10 years ago

      been a while girl, howya been?

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

      lol hi

      Post edited 7/16/08 6:53PM

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

      sup foo

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      A it was paintball

      B i was wearin my casual clothes xD

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      id LOVE it if it were windy, not rainy, that ruined paintball sorta, well not really, it just made it uncomfortable to lie down in grass...or anywhere

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      whats WITH this weather?! it was scorchin, then today when we went paintballing, it RAINED!

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      yeah, aand F*** its HOT!

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      *GASP* i dont know, im trying to keep this conversation going cause im desperately bored and almost as lonely

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      you know that name u' your? thats stupid; you're stupid!!

      how bout now? (just kidding)

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      drat, mission failed...

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      that much...?

      xD

    • Sargeant

      11 years ago

      Gothic redneck? I think thats a paradox, and you're bi? My GOD a nonconformist trifecta!

      lol just kidding, I dont mean to be an ass, too late! :P

    • char71

      11 years ago

      HI! We dont talk enuff. I say we remedy this.

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

      lol whats up?

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

      *attacks*

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      yea b cause its not like im the REAL threat here ya kno im 15 gimme a break

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      i know right and the ones that freak dont eved have a real pic of themselves up its like what do they have to hide!!!! ya kno and then thet have thee right to fuss me out over one random friend request??? stupid ppl

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      sum ppl are so stiff

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      i kno they suck XD

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      some dick called me a whore once for leaving him one.i didnt like that.. if you look at my journal you can see that

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      I <333333333 random friend requests

    • P1_Medic

      11 years ago

      night night

    • blueteammem4

      11 years ago

      sup do u want free mod points?

    • char71

      11 years ago

      HI! We havent chatted in forever! How ya been?

    • Bigbrulz

      11 years ago

      merry christmas!!!!

    • BiAndLovinIt

      11 years ago

      omfg
      I love Jennifer
      Yes I do

    • blueteammem4

      11 years ago

      hi i was just posting to say that im cool. joke not really. just though i would post to see if you aproved my friend request

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

      hello jennifer marie, lol

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

      *pounces*

    • Dnakuos

      11 years ago

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    • Dnakuos

      11 years ago

      hey, glad to see you on again

    • TECH_13

      11 years ago

      oh my snappers
      its you!!
      hi!!

      lol....never heard that before.....sounds as if you have seen me before.....

    • TECH_13

      11 years ago

      I have a pic of me now....if your up to lookin in my profile....

    • sweetkiller

      11 years ago

      hey im kidding i was just seeing what you would have done lol soo what uve ben up too

    • simmous

      11 years ago

      plz can u look at my jouranl 4 the melborne cup bets

    • CountryBoyTX

      11 years ago

      im fucking board????????

    • Donuthole

      11 years ago

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    • Cpt_Skillet

      11 years ago

      i'm good today too, eye bugging me >_>; and wife is making of my sore eye cuz its all puffy and red lol anyway hows life treating ya?

    • Cpt_Skillet

      11 years ago

      so how are ya today?

    • halofreak003

      11 years ago

      i loves them, and i just heard them yesterday!

    • halofreak003

      11 years ago

      have u ever heard of the band scray kids scaring kids?

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