13 years agoHostile
Through the glistening window I can see
Through the thinnest cover of tree
A white ball shining through the sky
Casting shadows on my eye
The pain is not a heavy price
For the warmth and joy I realise
While sitting in the daylight shade
How much I love the light's cascade
And just for a moment while I breathe
The darkness can now cease to be
The love of life returns to me
The sun is all I wish to be
13 years agoHostile
If you're gonna kill something, kill it true
Hold it down and break it in two
Some real effort now pays off for longer
Cause what doesn't kill it only makes it stronger
PANICS is fucking funny! Oh my god, Rooster Teeth made me laugh again! I thought actual comedy was off the menu these days. Good work guys.
14 years agoHostile
... Against the perfect, unquestionable military might of the British Empire!!!
So, I've been saving up for this blog post. Here goes. First of all:
I got my A-Level results. C, D and E. Without going into detail, I PASSED! I got the amount of points necessary to get onto the University course of my choice.
Said choice is a Media Writing and Production course over at Bolton University, about 3 hours north-west of my current location. Yesterday, I got a letter confirming my place. Today, I got a phone call confirming my room at Halls! THIS IS EXCELLENT NEWS!
Finally, an end to all the emo worrying I've been doing. That beautiful flare in the night sky that tells me it's all going to be okay. My swift and frantic freefall was not in vain, for here I am, ready to take on Uni. The last week's just been a constant plow of expendancy and exchange of currency. (I dont think I'm even using real words at this point). I bought 5.1 Surround Sound headphones (yes, headphones) for Ã‚Â£60 and a DVD r/rw for Ã‚Â£40. Meanwhile my mum has bought me about Ã‚Â£100 worth of hygenics: Toothbrush, toothpaste, hairbrush, hairdryer, soap, acne cream.... everything a young boy takes for granted.
I turned down painkillers and various ailment medications. For some reason, I have an aversion to the concept of taking drugs to kill pain. It seems like you're exchanging one weakness for another. Or maybe I'm just being a macho bullshitter. Oh well...
The Grudge is a good movie although not quite up to the hype, Fueled is an awesome HL2 mod, Exodus' new album Shovel Headed Kill Machine isn't up to scratch with the Soaza material, NatWest is an evil bank and the only good gay porn is with lesbians. Those are my opinions for this blog, feel free to retort as is best befitting your nature.
I'm really chuffed. I feel like just listening to Andrew WK till the cows come home. VICTORY STRIKES AGAIN! Thanks for your time.
In my soul
I am running
(i am always getting nearer)
For many years
Of only hope
You'd never leave
(for many years i hoped you'd never leave)
You are my faith
You are my friend
You are my family
And i am coming
So we can live
For ever more
In total love
So we can be there when victory strikes again
*After-thought* Oh yeah, I mentioned Human Fortress back in June. They're doing their first UK show at the Dominion festival, and I'm going. It's gonna be awesome, seeing that kind of medieval power metal live... totally unlike everything I've seen live thus far.
14 years agoHostile
Just like witches at black masses!
Ugh, my artistic angst has reached an apex. A series of recent events has led me to make some do-or-die decisions about my life, and currently it's all been pretty much die-die-die, with a hint of Frankensteinian pitchforks-and-torches "kill the beast!" mob mentality. I dont feel like I'm doing myself justice because I haven't written anything worthwhile in months. What I'm experiencing is not a writer's block but a writer's castration. Like someone's cut off my authoring apendage. I dont know why, I guess I need to work it out. Buy a nice big notice board, start writing notes on paper, start writing lyrics on paper, start creating connection charts. Start organising. CHOOSE LIFE! CHOOSE A CAH, CHOOSE A JOB, CHOOSE... etc.
Now in darkness worlds stop turning, Ashes where the bodies burning! I really need to start a band, heheh. OH WELL! No time for this emo nonsense. I keep this journal so I can track my misgivings and laugh at them when I'm older, not so I can share my pain with others. Get lost, others! This is MY pain! >:-/
And just for the record, I dont know HOW, but... thanks for the +5 Cool on my last journal post. I mean, all I do in this community is post "It sucks" in the Twokinds thread , and occasionally piss off the Metal! posters. Still, peace to you all, love your neighbour and listen to heavy metal.
14 years agoHostile
Because violent thrash is what this life is all about.
First, I'm gonna talk about music. Right now I'm listening to Dio - Magica (2001) for about the 400th time this week. There's a couple of songs I can pick out instantly as bad: "Challis" is pretty dull, and "Magica Story" is just a 20-minute spoken word track. However there's also some really golden guitar work in there. It's nice, slow, calm power (prog?) metal. Good stuff.
I just got back from POS2, the metal nightclub. Oh my god the music was abysmal. The only good songs, out of about 5.5 hours of non-stop loud music, were by Metallica, Pantera and Tupac. There was a Slipknot song but I missed it. I danced to some Industrial, but it was shit. :/ I'm really pissed off that the whole evening cost me Ã‚Â£10 and all I got was a hole in my wallet and some dull memories.
Speaking of holes in wallets, I'm so broke that homeless people pity me. I havent had a job in eons, not since getting fired from Rainbow. Mum says there might be a week's worth of manual labour available to me at her place of work: I've no idea how that's going to pay, but atleast I will be able to afford POS2 for the next 3 weeks. Yes, I know that sounds stupid after what I said in the last paragraph, but I've got mates who are DJing, so it should be good.
If I got a set, It'd be all power metal for the first half (Rhapsody, Dragonflame, Manowar, Dream Evil) and old-school metal for the latter half (Iron Maiden, Anthrax, Judas Priest, Black Sabbath). I'd probably be the only person who enjoyed it, but it'd be worth it. ;)
Next, movies. So many good movies to see right now. Sin City sounds orgasmic, so that's a definite. King Kong looks like it's gonna be awesome, the teaser was REALLY impressive. War of the Worlds needs a watching too... :/
No cash for movies unfortunately. :(
In the world of comics, this is where my interests mainly lie right now. I've started downloading the DCP release packs, which feature all the comics they've released in a bundle... so basically I get everything as soon as it's scanned. Pretty sweet... I've started reading House of M, which is an exciting new twist in the Marvel story. I checked out a few DC titles, although of-course nothing really interested me. My devotion lies solely with Stan Lee. That said, Image have an interesting new mutant comic coming out which I think is worth further reading. I'm still trying to catch up on all my Ultimate loose ends. Ugh, so many comics, so little good sources for comics.
Well, I'm gonna put this Elegacy album on and try to work out what it's all about. If you bothered to read all this, you probably need a hobby, but thanks for taking the time. :)