Hwoarang

Male
from Camp Casey, South Korea

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    • 30 now

      4 years ago

      Hwoarang

      Wow, I'm 30 now and it's been five years since I posted something on this website I think I might share a link on Facebook but have you every looked back on yourself and thought, "Man I was kind of a asshole." I looked on these past diary entries and I guess I was venting on my life but I didn't really talk about much of the good things that happened in my time in the Army or the past five years. So I'm not sure I'll be reading it much again. I was in college but didn't graduate but I did learn a lot about game development. I have an idea on how to code and make games but it might involve programs I can't afford but all the tools to learn are on YouTube to make a flash game or something better. I do stand-up comedy quite a bit now, I don't know if it will lead anywhere but I find it pretty fun and it gives me a chances to get all the racial insurgences I seemed to talk about in my blogs. I'm not the most liked comedian on the open mic among the other comedians but I think when I first started doing comedy I really wanted to make friends and that drew people away. I even stole some material from other comedians and that kind of ruined my rep. Now I just wait for my turn on stage say whatever's on my mind and go about my day. I spend most of my times drawing waiting to get that spot on stage, sometimes I don't always get it but, if I don't I usually have a nice drawing to show for it and I find drawing helps. When I draw I'm kind of in this zone where I forget the world around me and that build up of getting on stage or the disappointment of not getting on stage isn't there. I don't really listen to heavy metal anymore, lately I'm been listening to Two Step From Hell, I know that sounds like a heavy metal band but give them a listen. I listen to it when I draw, lift weights, computer code, and it helps remove the emotional doubt I seem to always put in front of myself. There are a lot artist like them and there pretty awesome. I don't know what this life will give me, maybe being 30 is making me feel like I have one foot in the grave, put I need to do something, something to prove to the world that I was alive. Not get laid, not make money, not even make myself happy, but something that will survive the be on the lifespan of me, my families, my people, or even my planets lifespan. I just need to figure out what that something is.

    • If you cared

      5 years ago

      Hwoarang

      This uses to this to post my thoughts when MySpace wouldn't suffice, now I have Facebook so now I don't really use it

    • Fool's crush the song

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      I've come to realize, I tend to idolize, people on TV. And baby, it kind of makes me sad. People that you'll never see, people you never know, and they play this game, because it's fictional.
      Cause your just a fool's crush, a fool's crush and TV makes my mind all mush. I could wait all night, out of the pouring rain until you wait and see I'm just another crazy fan.
      Cause your just a fool's crush, a fool crush and TV makes my mind all mush, I'll never know you, you'll never see me and just what I have to believe in now
      Cause real is hard, I gotta stop my make-believe, of being by your side, but feels good just to dream
      I could make myself, work like so many people do, tell you find someone, before I get a chance that I'll prove, that --- I'm ---- here.
      But your just fool's crush, a fool's crush and TV makes my mind all mush. I could wait all night in the pouring rain until you realize I'm just a crazy fan.
      Cause your just a fool's crush, a fool's crush and TV makes my mind all mush, I'll never know you, you'll never see me and just what I have believe in
      It's sad to me, that people can't tell from fact and fiction
      Like falling in love, with one that doesn't get all the attention
      It's going out, to you, people that get the facts, but make-believe.
      That you care someone but you can't get them cause it 's "life"
      Because....
      There just a fool's crush, a fool's crush and TV makes my mind all mush. I'll never know you, you'll never see me and thats just what I have to believe in.
      Cause your just a fool crush, a fool crush, and TV makes my mind I'll mush. I'll never see, my happy ending, because your heart is cold and your busy spending now.

    • Fools Crush the writing

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      I've come to realize that I idol a lot of famous people on TV people that I'll never know, people I'll never meet. I would like to meet a lot, date a few, and maybe marry some. But that will never happen, not unless I follow there everyday lives or become famous myself, it seem like reaching for a star. I guess why they call them stars all you have to is turn on a TV and there they are, but you'll never reach one, never touch one. So what do you do, try to find someone that looks kind of like them or might act like the person they might play in the film. So many people are falling in love with fictional characters casting aside the people who are really real. The people that might care about them, love them. We go to the movies to feel moved in a since but are hearts are cold as ice when we step out of the theater. We ask people what kind of car they drive what kind of job they have if this person will cheat of you when he most likely will. Old people that are rich would never cheat on some that was young and poor. A ugly woman would would try to trap a man by having as many kids as she could. When did we become so heartless, why is it only it's in the theater that were happy about someone secesse and stop acting so jelous all the time. Why is it in the theater we forget about what a character has and sees how much a person cares for someone else. Why is it only in the theater do we cheer for the beat cop instead of looking at them like we did something wrong.

    • another women rant.

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      I guess I could see your point, I've been suckered into a few sites as well and I haven't been on one date or really had sex with anyone. But then again I'm really think that women find men attractive in a sexual point a view, only see men for what he has, and what I mean by that is money. This "game" I hear so much about is mostly a mouthful of lies, telling a girl that you have a lot of money, you care about them, you love them, just to get her into bed. Now all women will say that that not true. In since it's not, once you get past the love making stage. I've read that once a man makes a women cum she becomes sexual addicted to him and its why you see so many girls in bad relationships and a lot of the times you'll see a ugly guys with a beautiful women. My problem is phase 2 the talking, lying, cheating, begging, and spending part. I like martial arts, action movies, modeling in a since of a womens body, drawing it as well, and personal training these aren't things women like to talk about. First phase being attractive, third part being sex. An the last girl I was with for the past 3 years didn't speak english very well, so I know it true. I don't know what women want but I know it's not me.

    • Safari

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      Okay spell check on Safari is awesome I can up-date and still write, update and be able to read back what I was writing and understand what I was writing about. Good news, I think I'm going to be twitting a lot more someone said that if you update your twitter every 20 minutes you most likely get a stalker. So I'm crossing my fingers for that give me a reason to lower my standards as far as women are concerned and a reason to beat someone half to death if the case may be. Nah, it would be cool to make friends though. I really don't know a lot about computers I know I shouldn't download porn unless I have like the latest anti-virus software, so I don't. I'm sitting on a wireless connection in some ladies house. So internet isn't costing me any money so why download? Someone told me some bullshit story, I had a hard time believing anything this guy said but he seemed to know a few things about computers. He said he would go to a open connection up-load a virus that would put a color on you screen and cause you monitor to break. But that guy lied all the time but I am wondering a little about me using the open connection, how much truth there was in that. Then again my brothers been using it for some time and nothings happen to his TV or X-Box. I'm suppose to be starting school in May at Brooks hopefully I'll be able to buy a car. It's kind of hard not send money when I'm living in California. I mean there are so many bars and clubs and malls I forgot how much fun this place was. I went to the church today the first time in a long time I ran into some old friends too. I mean like way back in high school type. There band the Loaded are still around but I'm wondering if they need a new lead singer Troy doesn't sing, he yells into a mic and calls it music. But he plays a pretty mean bass, and most of the band are really good at playing, but.... There a racist band. I mean at least that what they were in high school and last I heard there still playing songs like that but that was about three years ago. It seem like it was yesterday. Oh yeah in church today I ran into a "friend" of the romanic sort, in a since. She had a boyfriend and was living with him for about a month now, but she never been married. Seem like a bit of fair gain there, I mean at the most she would have to move out of where she's living, a fight between me and him, nothing I couldn't handle. She seem like marriage material, but her faith in God is questionable. But so is mine. I think God is a asshole but I still believe in Him but I wish or hope things are going to go well in college. But I still wanna have a not so christian good time, drink, have sex with women. I mean look at Hugh Heftier still hasn't gotten aids or HIV but I pray that he does, and will God do it? I don't think so, but likes to fuck with me when ever he could get the chance. But hopefully things with be fine, I won't wrack my car, my girlfriend won't break up with me, and if I work hard I'll make it back on another martial arts demo team, and I'll be able to have some kind of fun and take some type of pride in myself.

    • I just started writing.

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      Okay I'm writing and hoping something interesting comes out I think I'm going to start blogging again now that I found out how the spell check works now my computer and I've been wanting to write a story about a blood elf paladin and her story involving the Ashbringer. Boring right? I mean if you not a loser, it's werid I do play the game but I know that it's something that women hate. Like you would think I told them I wet the bed every night if I told someone I play WoW. But I still play, there are a lot of women who play but I image they most be married to someone or something. Might just be the game, lol. Nah, I kid the women that play WoW they should really get there asses back in the kitchen. Ha ha sexism is funny. I'm going to be start flim school in May but I still don't have a car and no I'm not complaining, well maybe I'm am. But I don't need one right now I need to learn how to cook, or find a woman to cook for while I play WoW and fill out college forms. Ha ha, sexism is funny but totally not joking I mean. I mean are there any good women out there? I was in the Army for 6 to 7 years and I've only legally had sex with 2 girls. 3 in my whole life time I'm 25 now and keep seeing ugly guys hook up with hot chicks, Maybe it's money, money does help. I mean take that guy plays Edward on Twlight. The guy doesn't even wish himself, he has funny hair, bad skin, thick eye brows skinny and white and he still get play everywhere he goes. I mean do women even find men attractive physically I mean or do they only see what there is to gain in sleeping with someone, money, power, credit cards, shoes. I mean even if a guy looks good but there nothing to gain, would they rather sleep with someone who ugly but has more money? I mean I run a 5.45 minute mile, I bench 225 pounds, I have a six pack (Not of beer). But I don't have a car I don't wear high priced clothes but I do wash myself and I still can't get any play from anyone. Then again maybe I should lower my standards. Start dating black chicks. I don't know they always come up to me a the bar and clubs and stuff. But that totally when against everything I just said. Sheesh I should stop being so racist and fuck black chicks.

    • 2010: Que for a Asain GF

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      I've been thinking a lot, I mean a lot. About asain women and how can I get one for a girl friend, what kind of college I want to go to, been posting a lot of stuff on Youtube, V-logs ya know. I'm going to go down on the list; Asain girlfriend, I had a asain girl friend, Korean, she was a virgin at the time but when she moved to Germany I broke up with her because it wasn't likely I was going to see her again. But when I was with her she wasn't the best lay I ever have had but there wasn't anything she wouldn't do for me, a lot things; role play, ass to mouth, public (couple times she pulled it out in the middle of a crowded subway), we never did the three-some only because she said she would return the favor after I did, she wanted to get with two guys before I'd get to be with two girls and I was in love with her and didn't want to risk it. So now I feel like there no other kind of girl that I want to be with. I mean there are some girls you can just look at and know, that girl a slut, if I got her in the sack there is nothing she will say no to and God knows what she would want me do. An there are those stuck up girls that you have to wine and dine and after maybe 4 or 5 dates you might be able to sleep with her and vaginal only from dating to death do you part (Who wants that?) and they might try to stab you or try to shove something up your ass or mouth if you try anything and not in a good way. But who wants a slutty girl that only plans on getting married, popping out some babies, then or before, then stays at home getting fat watching TV and doesn't want to get a job.(Who wants that?) My last girl friend was a virgin and another older women I had sex in a bar and by in the bar I mean on the bar, she owned the bar. An she did everything I told her to and was light as a feather so I was able to toss her around a bit and when I came back the next day this time, at her house she had a kid, but she had all kind of "things" laying around her room. I mean they weren't all over the house but the door didn't lock so the kid could of came in a seen what this stuff was. She was hand-cuffed and some werid thing she kept in her ass or pussy when I was fucking her. It freaked me out a lot, but 2009 I haven't gotten laid at all and I would kill anyone, give any amount of money to fuck her again or to even remember her full name. So now I have these thoughs in my head, all this asain porn I've been watching, there beautiful pictures on camera, they always look so high class. In a T-shirt and jeans, gym clothes, and of course dressed up. But heres a werid thing I learned last year, American asain women are tough, and rare, but it's almost to the point a chase them down on the highway and I hit on everyone I see. But I'll stick it out (not like that) and still try to get with one of them because there the only kind of high class girl that will let me do everything I could ever want to do with a woman.

    • A girl that turned me down

      9 years ago

      Hwoarang

      Me: How can you be in love with someone has no job, no money, still lives with his parents and has no plans to better himself in anyway. Because when I look around it seems the most beautiful women are hooking up with complete losers. An it isn't until they have two or three kids until they try to find someone that has some money. No matter how much money I'm making I won't raise someone else kids because I shouldn't have pay for your stupid mistake.

      Girl: You know what Brodie? That's because money isn't everything and it sure as hell doesn't make you happy. Sure it makes things easier but it won't make you happy. I'd rather live day to day with someone I love that has no money rather then someone who is rich and I don't love. I don't fall in love with people b/c of material things, I fall in love with the person and who they are. Everyone has their downfalls and no one is perfect. I don't think you have ever truly been in love if you can say you wouldn't help raise a kid in that persons life. Why would you assume that the child is a stupid mistake? That's a very sad and terrible way to look at things. Sure people make mistakes, we all do. But we learn and grow from them. And it sure as hell wouldn't be the child's fault. And you are not being a very good friend right now. If Joe is supposed to be someone who you consider a close friend then I don't know how you can talk about him in this way.

      Me: It's a mistake because you shouldn't be so stupid to fall in love wih someone that won't step up and be a man and raise his own child and just wants to run away, then it's your mistake, your problem, your regret. Then your going after someone who you don't love but is willing to over look the fact that you have a kid and willing to help you raise them, because you love your kids not him. It about this time most women get right with Jesus and start looking for someone desent. But I get it you wanna have fun, party, have sex, drink. But guess what, so does the person your sleeping with and he doesn't want to get stuck with some drunken party girl that throws up on all over the sofa just because she popping out a kid. So it's better for you to date some who's really isn't into that and can take care of himself before you have a kid. Because I, unlike most of the people in this world, is smart. The only thing thats changed about Joes is the number of women folking to his bedside you yourself as well. I will never see how women keep falling for people like him, while I remain alone.

      Girl: Okay first of all, what the hell are you talking about? No one in this situation has a kid. Second of all, not everyone thinks like you do, and not everyone thinks it's a mistake to raise another persons child with the one they love. And if you ever had someone who was there for you as a parent that you weren't related to, you would understand. I'm honestly thinking you are a little too immature to understand things like that... Or sheltered I'm not sure which.
      Thirdly, not everyone wants to go out and party and shit. Some people like to have families and raise their children while working at normal jobs. Just because you value something doesn't mean other people value it.
      Also, why are you so pissed off at Joe? And who the hell said anything about me trying to get into his bed? Just for your information Brodie, Joe is a great person and not everything is about sex. When him and I were together... You know what, you don't even know half of the story. Which is quite frankly none of your business. But allow me to enlighten you. When Joe and I were together I was the one who was with another man. I couldn't make up my mind and he was the one for 3 years loving me trying to give me space and make my own decisions. Joe and I got very serious and if you knew even half of how we felt about each other or how we loved each other you wouldn't even have to ask these kinds of questions. It's not something we should have to, or need to explain to other people. And Joe is happy with one woman now, his girlfriend.
      You can't choose who you fall in love with. When you fall in love it just sorta hits you and nothing you do can keep you from falling in love. That's how it is and I don't think you have ever been in love if you haven't realized that.
      Yanno, maybe you are alone because of your cynical outlook on life, people, and love. Maybe you need to stop blaming other for your problems and issues and start looking at yourself. And everything happens for a reason Brodie. Just because you aren't with anyone now, it isn't the end of the world. You will find someone one day to fall in love with and then you'll start to understand things like money and pride don't work with love.

      Well welcome to my family because my cousin is in the same situation and now my mother trying to raise her daughter because she and her father can't raise her. My mothers was in the same situation with my father, and my stupid little brothers and there father are like that. An my brothers are the the same as there father never want to go to college, wanna stay in there small town and live with there mom. Some how they manage to bring beautiful women into my mothers house. What's wrong you people, why can't you see past the lies "I went to work" or "I'm in school", when all there doing hanging out getting high with there friends. I'm hoping to break the cycle. Walk a mile in my shoes and you would fall on your face, I'm "immature," lady you have no idea what I've been through, from the abuseive childhood to the deployments in Iraq and I've seen those same brothers in arms stab me in that back. I'm not pissed off at Joe the only thing I don't like about Joe is the fact that he play Alliance on a RP server in World of Warcraft. Other then that were just peachie. I'm glad you think he's a great person but hey just like my brothers but I think he'll grow up when the time is right. I was in love once for 3 years I was in love with a beautiful korean

    • WoW does this?

      10 years ago

      Hwoarang

      I play WoW so I had to put this on my blog
      www.youtube.com/watch?v=rUkWuEjcUUc

  • Comments (175)

    • BloodFetish

      9 years ago

      Yes. Im a 14 yr old inside still. Im dying to see the new movie but havent made it out for it yet. Tried to yesterday but missed the last showing for cheap shows. Soon as I see it I plan on rereading the books.

      I take it you like Twilight too?

    • kg6ejp

      10 years ago

      We are/were all enlisted. A couple Cops in the group too. CrossFit is all free, just scale the WODs to what you can do and push yourself.

    • BloodFetish

      10 years ago

      I thought about joining the air force but realized I would make less than that too. Well I have two very poor and very sick parents and my grades are for the most part really good so Ive gotten grants to pay for 75% of school. I only work once a week for my boyfriend's mother, which brings in maybe $40 a week if Im lucky. The rest I paid for by taking out a small loan.

      Im assuming I will keep this routine up until I get a decent internship offer. The very most Ill be in debt if I take out 3 more loans is 14,000 which with the salary Im expecting right out of school wont be too much to pay back in a short period of time so Im not getting screwed on interest.

    • AiuaCortana

      10 years ago

      She's the best. She's like a big dog in a little kitty body.

      Right now she's sitting in a shoe box watching "Jurassic Park:The Lost World", and she's been sitting there watching it for about 20 min.

      She likes tv, cats can see in color.

      Post edited 12/27/08 10:14PM

    • BloodFetish

      10 years ago

      The modeling thing isnt really going at all. With school I just never really started it. My best friend is majoring in photography and she has done a few shoots with me that have turned out pretty well. Im hoping to buy a camera in the near future and have my bf be my photographer somewhat like Lithium Picnic and Apnea if you know who they are.

    • DEATH01

      10 years ago

      No sorry. I dont listen to J or K pop.

    • Havoc1

      10 years ago

      I have a fattie girl in my platoon that slows down ever run we go on.

      Ah, the life of a non-Infantry guy. smiley8.gif

      Seriously, everyone has that guy. Justa gotta either kick his ass into shape or kick his ass.

    • whatsername FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      I already read the Bible and have a church.

    • shelia

      10 years ago

      to bad its a year and 6 days until my 21st.

      im just bored and my friends think i should be excited that my birthday is coming up so the count down is pretty much to make them shut up.

      smiley12.gif

    • isharanger

      10 years ago

      andy g plays bass

    • isharanger

      10 years ago

      yeah but me and him talk
      and i always end up beat red
      everytime

    • isharanger

      10 years ago

      yeah im not pregnant
      that scare is over
      and it aint happenin again

    • poland626

      11 years ago

      Go to forum and at top there is the voting thing

    • rayne07

      11 years ago

      Holy cow I forgot to log in for like... 4 months. I just got your comment, I'm not really a dope, but I am a bit flakey now and then. Hence the whole not-logging-in-for-4-months thing... yea. :P Who knows, I may end up playing WoW again this summer. We shall see!

    • rayne07

      11 years ago

      Ahh, yea, I was a dope and failed to mention I am no longer playing WoW. I've played and quit 4 times now, the most recent of which was this past summer. I still love the game, but unfortunately I just don't have the time to play now that I'm in college. Sorry I didn't exactly clarify that :P

    • rayne07

      11 years ago

      Hey! I was clicking around, and somehow ended up here, and I see we have some things in common. You know, dorkalicious things like WoW and anime and Japanophilia in general :P Hit me up if you wanna!

    • SilverHand82

      12 years ago

      haha i didnt even kno that rymed until when u commented lol
      omg that funny as hell

    • rabid_usagi

      12 years ago

      Sweet. That was easy. ^_~ My work here is done.

    • rabid_usagi

      12 years ago

      Things from Japan rock! I just randomly found you on roosterteeth, but let's be friends, okay? ^_^

    • BloodFetish

      12 years ago

      Ive beat the 4th and 2nd silent hill games. Some of my favorite ones.

    • stressed_out

      12 years ago

      are you a marine?

    • BloodFetish

      12 years ago

      That song was actually by the band 10 Years. They are pretty good you should give them a listen.

    • Spartan2177

      12 years ago

      Hey, if you harass anyone else on this site I will report you. smiley1.gif

    • LisforLost

      12 years ago

      oh cool

    • LisforLost

      12 years ago

      hello

    • isharanger

      12 years ago

      prom, where else all dressed up like that silly? lol

    • poland626

      12 years ago

      A normal middle school. Really.

    • rydia_wonder

      12 years ago

      Ohh, what do I do?? Mmm... well, yes, I DO do some modeling, but that is very seldom. Really, I am just a student now, and plan to be for the next few years, studying film production, mm. Writing short stories is just a hobby of mine, when I am inspired to do so, hee hee.
      Thank you for the feedback on the video, mm! I am not quite sure I understand the reference to "black people" - is this something similar to another movie, or something?? =\ - but yes, the movie is not quite supposed to be a horror film, or anything. Just slightly suspenseful and "dramatic," with a joke a the end to relieve some of the heavy-dutiness of a movie that might be preaching a little to much. It IS about something serious, but due to certain limitations while filming, I decided to twist it around and make it humorous at the end. I hope that worked, ahh ha ha... Thank you for watching it, mm! ^_^

    • rydia_wonder

      12 years ago

      Ahh, hee hee... Thank you for the journal/video comment! =D Ahh, yes, it is supposed to be over-the-top, as that was what the course was about, hee... I think, though, the only moment that goes beyond the boundaries it sets for itself are at the end, when the Gojira monster appears, and when the man screams. What do you think??

    • xxmillerxx

      12 years ago

      Isn't it though? My boyfriend sent it to me and I'm still laughing.

    • Lord_Necro

      12 years ago

      If u dont like what I got posted dont fucken look at it I dont have the free time like some lazy ppl smiley5.gif so go fuck ur self

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      I'm sorry,

      but that struck me as truly funny..beings I am 15 and all...haha!!

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      Haha, that sucks.

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      Why are you going crazy?

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      HI!!

      how are you?

    • BloodFetish

      12 years ago

      Im doing good. About to take a trip to Mexico and looking for a new job. And you?

    • TropicalKiwi

      12 years ago

      The smell washed off eventually.
      The fetus was in preservatives and it was a very odd smell. I smelt like vinger and soap. A very bitter stench. I wanted to cut it open to see what it looked like inside.

    • 69mouse69

      12 years ago

      Lol, I'm nakey lady!!!!!
      *runs around nakey*
      xD

    • 69mouse69

      12 years ago

      Oh yeash?? *strips down and runs around naked*

    • 69mouse69

      12 years ago

      *steals your boxers* Mwahahahahaha you can't catch me!!!!!! I'm evil!!!!!!
      xD

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      I haven't seen it yet, but I heard it sucked...

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      Nothing much, you?

    • Palmer10

      12 years ago

      Hello!!

    • MiraMira

      12 years ago

      Magic 8 ball says 'not likely'.

    • rydia_wonder

      12 years ago

      Ahh, hee hee... Thank you for the picture comment! =D Mmm... yes, I am a model, ahh ha ha ha... I had more modeling pictures up before, but they are gone now, ah ha ha... But, I usually only do it when I go back to Japan - those pictures were just for fun, not for money, hee hee! At least, the green ones, I mean, ahh ha ha... =p

    • AFKeeker

      12 years ago

      And what MOS is it that has so few girls? smiley0.gif

    • LisforLost

      12 years ago

      nope but you friend requested me

    • TropicalKiwi

      12 years ago

      A very bad actor from Baywatch.

    • VespaGirl

      12 years ago

      Hey my friends' band is trying to get on the line up for this year's Warped Tour and we need your help!

      Go to www.battleofthebands.com/lowbattery and under the music player click Vote!

      Thank you so much!!!!!!

    • MoreLikePuma

      12 years ago

      Not sure who you are, but what the hell, accept.

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