ItsALion

from South Haven, MI

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    • Wanna See Me Dance?

      3 years ago

      ItsALion

      All right, Hey Friends! <3


      So, I know I've mentioned in a past journal that I dance. I've danced since I was about 4, with a few breaks in high school, and it's one of my favorite things. Dance is a great creative outlet and being able to dance means the world to me. I've done solos, duets, small group dances, and I used to be on my studios Elite/Performance Team! That's the biggest team that usually goes to competitions every year. While I haven't been on the Elite team in quite a while I used to still perform solos and duets at competitions off and on, but it's been a while.


      Why bring this up now? Well, readers, after about 5 years, I'm competing again!


      And I'm fucking terrified.


      I'm competing with my studio, Alley Kat Dance Studio, at K.A.R. (Kids Artistic Revue) in Lansing, MI the weekend of April 29th-May 1st.


      And I was hoping, if anyone wanted to or was interested, some friends could come and watch or help with moral support. I'd really appreciate it! I'm competing with a self choreographed modern solo and my anxiety is through the roof.

      The venue is free/open to the public so you don't have to buy a ticket. :)


      I don't currently know which day I'll be dancing, but as soon as I do know I'll update this, my twitter, and anyone who gets in contact with me that they wanna come!


      If you're interested message me here or on twitter so I know & can get you the address! <3

      (I'd offer rides, but as I'm either riding with my mom or dance teacher + staying there the entire weekend, I can't D: )

    • What It Means To Be Me. (to be expanded on later)

      3 years ago

      ItsALion

      This post will be very deep and meaningful when it's not nearly 3am and I'm not dead on my feet from emotional exhaustion.

      For now, please do me a favor, call me Leo and use either she/her pronouns or they/them pronouns, thank you.

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    • finding home?

      4 years ago

      ItsALion

      it's a little less than 12 hours away from my flight back to michigan

      i can not begin to explain the suffocating sadness that's engulfed me. i've never felt to free, so loved, so comfortable, so excited and motivated than i have felt during this trip.

      i've said it since the second day i got down here, i don't want to leave.

      but i'm gonna type up a big long ramble-y journal about this all tomorrow or thursday, once i'm back in my dinky ass town and i've cried until i can't cry anymore.

      good bye, austin, for now.

      i will someday make it back home.

    • !!!!!! Recital ??????

      4 years ago

      ItsALion

      my recital is on Saturday, My Recital Is On Saturday, oh GOD my recital is on Saturday i- !!!!
      [cue panic] i've only got one more class and then rehearsal and then Recital and I ???/!!!! i'm so stressed and anxious and i just !!!!!!!!
      I'm kind of super nervous, like more nervous that usual and I just???

      Pardon this, haha, just a bit of stream of consciousness as I panic over my dance recital

      I'd invite y'all but I'm sure no one wants to see me dance haha

      Possibly to be deleted?? [unsure noises]

    • insomnia induced venting

      4 years ago

      ItsALion

      deep seated and ingrained sadness, some would call depression, is absolutely terrible
      not being able to sleep, at all, stuck in this loop of pent up energy with no motivation, pacing pacing pacing pacing pacing, lethargy that pins you to the bed...
      this isn't something i ever thought id post about here
      mainly because of fear
      a lot of people address depression and anxiety with disapproval and contempt, with scorn and scoffs
      'get over it' 'just smile' 'happiness is a CHOICE' 'you were fine yesterday' 'you're not depressed you were having so much fun the other day' 'you're just putting on an act for attention'
      bc i choose to sit curled up on my bed, sobbing uncontrollably, gasping for breathe that sometimes i dont think i deserve, i fear facing another day with this vice around my heart and weights on my chest purely for attention
      its scary, because i dont want to be this way, i dont want to struggle to get out of bed in the morning or even going to sleep the night before
      my own head is a scary place
      but talking about it is somehow way scarier

      id like to also put down here that this was more of a vent-y thing and just a thought dump, just kind of treating the journal like a journal yknow?

    • 1:27 AM Thoughts

      4 years ago

      ItsALion

      Do you ever sit up, late at night, at a friend's house?

      Y'know when they've already gone to bed, but you're left awake doing fuck know's what?

      Parents asleep, friend asleep, friend's boyfriend asleep, friend's younger brother asleep, and you just sat on a computer, thinking about the best sleeping arrangement.

      "Maybe I can crash on the really comfy, automatic reclining couch? Don't wanna wake anyone up by creeping into friend's room... do I have the time and energy to play a little Skyrim? Or ooooh they've got Evolve..."

      If I'm not the first one asleep at another person's house, chances are, I'm not gonna sleep.

      So wish me luck, anyone who sees this, because tomorrow is gonna be hell.

      But hey, at least I finished my project.

      (and that's 4 minutes killed, hell yeah)

    • You try doing bar work for just an hour, then get back to me.

      4 years ago

      ItsALion

      Today I woke up, dragged myself out of bed, drove my mom to work, and arrived an hour early to the college for my first class. I'm sitting here still waiting, catching up with a classmate about any work I've missed and such. I've got to find 4 pictures of a sport, which brings up the thought in my mind that I've been stewing on for a little while.

      Is dance a sport?

      I know what my own opinion on the matter is, that it is a rather under appreciated sport, but I didn't know my teacher's or really the general opinion on it. So of course, I turn my question to Google to find any kind of discussion on the topic.

      Two words. Bad Idea.

      I got a little side-tracked with my search, getting caught up on the rather strong opinions on a debate site about how dance is in no way a sport. A lot of 'facts' were thrown in to this free for all debate, like how "girls do dance therefore is [sic] easy" and because it's not featured in the Olympics so, of course, it isn't a sport. Oh right, because I just love watching a 3 hour long football game during the Olympics. Pardon me for any salt, but I've always been rather passionate about dance. Some people out there don't even believe we sweat when we're practicing a routine, over and over again. It apparently takes no physical action to dance.

      Some people take me by such surprise when they're so passionate about their opinion but it holds no real weight in the discussion.

      I apologize for any scattered thoughts and I might(definitely) vent a bit more later on about the topic, but for now I must part as it's time for class.

  • Comments (5)

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the add, lady! smiley13.gif

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        Hahaha, hooray for new friendships! smiley0.gif

      • ItsALion

        4 years ago

        Always happy to make new friends! :D

    • pennypanda

      4 years ago

      Have a very warm and fuzzy Valentine's Day, fellow Michigander!!
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      • ItsALion

        4 years ago

        I'm so sorry I didn't see this sooner but AHhhh Thank you! It's too cute! <3 I hope you had a lovely Valentine's Day as well!

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