So, last september I started and internship at an advertising agency for graphic design, 3 months in they offered me a full time position, a little while after that my boyfriend and I broke up (we were only together for like 5-6 months), then a friend and I started recording a podcast, and 2 other freinds and I started recording lets plays. We're still a bit of a ways from being able to put up episodes (I'm assembling a backlog of episodes so we can be consistent when releasing them even though we all have extremely busy lives). I'm busier than ever, I'm being creative every single day, I'm always tired, I'm afraid if I stop doing any of these things that I'm going to lose all the momentum I've gained up to this point.
Then yesterday I found out that a very good friend of mine finally got the kidney transplant that she's needed for a very long time. And, as it turns out, the person who donated it is her loving boyfriend, a friend of mine from a guild we are both in.
When they found out that he was a match it was clear to me that he was going to go through with it, he's just that kind of guy, and the really really really really love each other.
I'm so happy for them, I'm actually about to go visit her at the hospital, and it really helps put things into perspective for me.
No matter how much I'm doing I start to feel that I'm both not doing enough and that the whole intricate web of activities is so fragile that I need to take a step back.
Seeing (and reading about, my friend writes a Sweet Lolita blog called Parfait Doll (http://www.parfaitdoll.com/) where she talked about her relationship and how much her boyfriend Paul has helped her through all the hard times and that together they have faced the worst of her illness. Go give the post a read, it's really sweet.
Now, I'm not a cutsey type. I prefer gore to flowers, but goddamn did I almost sob in the middle of my office because of how adorable these two beings are.
So in my flurry of trying to do all this shit, I have a perfect time to take a breath and refocus on what matters to me. I'm not stopping what I'm doing, I'm just taking a deep breath and remembering it's something I really wanted to do.