Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

24 years old
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from Fresno, CA

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    • 4 years....

      6 months ago

      Jimminy

      Hello everyone.


       today, is a day of remembrance, of the legendary man that was Monty Oum.

      I really miss him...but i'm doing my best to keep moving forward. a lot has changed since 2015.


      I've lost 20 pounds or so in a year.

      I've been in therapy, doing my best to fix myself, maybe even love myself more than i deserve.

      but I have another reason to keep moving forward


      I'm going to be an uncle


      thank you Monty. for giving me the strength to see that things would get better. for giving me hope, a community to be apart of. Thank you, for everything. I will move forward, until i can't move anymore, and keep going.



      I gotta get stronger. better, not just for my loved ones that are, but the loved ones to yet to be


      I hope  I have redeemed myself. and i pray that I can be the best person I can be


      Thank you Monty.

      We miss you, and we love you


      Jimminy

    • An apology

      1 year ago

      Jimminy

      Hello Everyone.


        I know i've been super quiet for a long time, so I'm here to break that silence 



      I looked at a lot of my older posts and comments over the years in the RT community, and i'd like to say:



      I'm incredibly sorry for being a MAJOR jerk. I want to make it up somehow, and I know saying sorry isn't much, but i feel like its a start. 


      I can't remember every single awful thing i said or did, but i do know, that i'm doing my best to learn from my past.


      I've been seeing therapy for many years. I've Lost 22 pounds in a year ( from 402 to 388).

      And I made some amazing friends from here and many other places, thanks to this community.


        I hope everyone hear can forgive me, but if not, I understand.


      Thank you for your time everyone, have a Lovely day.


      Sam/Jimminy

    • A Big Change

      1 year ago

      Jimminy

      Hi everyone. 
      I have some exciting news :)



      I've chosen to pursue a career in Video game programming. why? because for a long time now, i've never really known what i wanted, until now. My big big dream, is to someday work at Valve Software, as a Software Engineer for their games. It's going to be riddled with way more challenges than normal, because of my Disabilities, but i want this to come true, so so so badly. I want to earn it though, so I'm gonna do my best to grow, and make something that will bring joy to many people.


      Also, I know I get really quiet on this site, But i assure you, it has nothing to do with any particular group or person, but I'm just...not a fan of what Roosterteeth has done to the site/community.

      And to be honest, i probably idolized them a little too much. But now i'm gonna do my best to become a hero for others!


      Have a wonderful day everyone! I'll do my best to keep everyone posted!


      Sam/ Jimminy

    • Jimminy jillikers radioactive man!

      1 year ago

      Jimminy

      Wow has it really been 3 months since I last posted here? Dang that's a long time!


      Well let's change that now, shall we? Hey everyone! I hope things are going well for everyone! Still trying to improve my health, mentally and physically, but I'm making progress, I think. Oh ya I almost forgot to tell you guys about my trip to Washington,for the worlds biggest sports event ( for Dota2), the international 2017!


      It. Was. Amazing. Every match was nothing short of electric levels of hype! The people were awesome, I got to meet a lot of my buddies at valve, and I got suite access tickets, with free food, for everyday we were there! All in all, it was the highlight of my year! I even lost 16 pounds before the event! I'm still pretty heavy but im around 390 lbs, from over 408!, as of now!


      Thank you everyone for helping me along the way! I can wait to lose more weight :)!


      Have a fantastic day, and thank you for your time!

    • *emerges from rock*

      2 years ago

      Jimminy

      Oh Hi everyone, sorry its been so long, ive been working on a lot of things involving my health

      mainly my mental health, but i'm making progress for certain. and ive done a few other things in the meantime like:  


      A NEW PUPPY!!!!! 


      https://scontent.fsnc1-1.fna.f...

      BEHOLD THINE CUTE DOOM OF: COCOA!


      2: i lost over 10 lbs or so, in a few months, in preparation for...


      3: Im going to the biggest esports event in the world, The Dota 2 International!!


      I'm sad i missed out on RTX this year, but i couldn't go to both RTX and the international sadly, however i hope everyone had a great time at RTX :D 


      So how has everyone been lately? I hope everyone is doing well?


      Also shoutout to LoZelda and the Tiarafam for being awesome people and friends to me, as well as giving me a place to vent my troubles safely.


      I hope didnt scare anyone or make anyone sad for being gone too long.


      Have a wonderful Day!


      Sam/ Jimminy


      EDIT: I forgot something very very special to me


      "The Celebration"


      i call this painting, The Celebration, in honor of Monty's life, i wanted to call it celebrating Monty's life but thats too long of a title in my opinion


      I miss him....so so much. I hope your proud of Me Monty. I've never stopped moving forward

    • Progress is hard to make

      2 years ago

      Jimminy

      Hello everyone


      I'm sorry for being so quiet for so long ( again), but i just find it hard to use the website lately, im not sure why.


      I've been dealing with a lot of heavy stuff, but i think i'm getting better. I'm fighting so hard right now but, someday's it feels like i've lost progress. i want to be FREE from...whatever this is, but its one incredibly stubborn problem. its almost been 2 years since all this started, and i have no idea why my mind is still against me, and i still blame myself for many things. its true i've made a lot of progress, but like i said, i'm not free yet. i want to just pour out whats bothering me but......its complicated, and its really tearing me apart. i really really hate having OCD.


      I need a lot of hugs, kind words, whatever you have, because i feel pretty tired of all this.


      thank you for your time, i'm sorry I keep going out of the loop so much, and have a wonderful day


      Sam

    • Getting better

      2 years ago

      Jimminy

      Hey everyone. Sorry it's been a while since I last did anything on the site, but today I bring good news.


      My mental health is improving quite fast now. I'm starting to lose weight for the international Dota 2 tournament , and im part of the tiara family aka                                                   Lo_Zelda's  group

      I know I've made you guys worry a lot, maybe even of been a jerk sometimes, but I'm glad I have great friends and i apologize if I was a jerk.


      Things are getting better. And to anyone who reads this: 

      You are loved. You have a purpose. You are not your mistakes.


      Bad things happen, intentionally, unintentionally, sometimes a bit of both. But that doesn't mean they have to control you, change you, or even consume your entire life.

      I almost was all 3 of those. I let these horrible lies fester in me, and it almost broke me. But I wasn't alone. My loved ones helped pull me out, and not even with any complexity, it was the small things, like just talking, or having fun by playing together.

      Point is, you are never alone. Those lies in your head telling you that you're nothing, that you're an awful person, that you shouldn't even exist, are LIES.


      The truth and the definitive fact, is that you are worthy, of happiness, love joy, and many more things. Small things, big things, whatever, you are worthy of all joy and love. So remember, keep fighting, keep healing, keep moving forward.


      The 1st step to moving forward, is to care about someone, something, anything really. So move forward by caring about you,your friends, your family.then keep moving forward, together 


      So to sum this up:

      1:you're never fighting alone

      2: you're worthy of love and joy 

      3: ignore the lies in your head

      4: remember to help others for we are all moving forward together

      5: Keep Moving Forward

      And lastly,6: love others like you love yourself


      Have a wonderful day everyone.


      Jimminy

    • Whoops.

      2 years ago

      Jimminy

      Hi guys,


      Sorry I've been gone for so long, but I am back with some news


      Bad news: I can't make it to this years rtx, why?

      Good news: I got VIP tickets to the biggest Dota 2 tournament in the world, the international!!! VIP tickets for that tournament are so hard to get, it's not available to the public!


      How did I get them you ask?


      Well for the past 8-9 years, I've been working with valve as an honorary game tester! This is probably a one time thing ( the VIP tickets that is) but I'm very excited and working hard on my weight for the tournament! I love you guys and I'm very sorry for neglecting my journals


      Have a great day everyone! I'll tell you more about my holidays later 


      Sam

    • A fellow member in need of help

      2 years ago

      Jimminy


      http://roosterteeth.com/post/51289067


      this person needs help, and i think we as a community can do something. please, donate, any amount will do, spread the word if you cant



      heaven knows we all need to help each other this year 

    • SO FREAKING CLOSE!!

      2 years ago

      Jimminy

      My birthday is tomorrow and i'm so freaking excited, holy crap i'm turning 22, on the 22nd yaaaaay!


      uh, uh, must find appropiate gifs! 


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      all the fanfare! all the hype! ALL THE PUPPIES!!


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      PS: sorry i have been inactive for SO long, i've been actually busy with dota 2 bug testing, really really busy


      have a great day everyone! 


      Sam

  • Comments (17)

    • Toptoast FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of the Breakfast

      4 years ago

      Hey, you're awesome and I hope you feel better!

    • HeLiam FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      Hey! I just wanted to say thanks for being my friend, and just that you're generally an awesome and really kind guy! smiley0.gif

    • Audrey

      4 years ago

      Thank you for being on The List! You're awesome! smiley12.gif
      Spread the love with Warm Fuzzies of your own today!

    • LadyOddDuck

      4 years ago

      Happy Valentine's Day, Sam! Though you may not believe it, you've done a lot of good in this community. You have a big heart and you're always willing to share. You also look out for other people. Keep on shining your light and you'll do great things.

      This comment brought to you by the Warm Fuzzies Project. Now go spread the love. smiley12.gif

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

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      Dude, I can tell you're an amazing person! Thank you for coming out to our streams and hanging out. I know you can tackle anything that comes your way, just keep at it dude. And if you ever need someone to talk to, don't EVER hesitate to message me. Hope you have a wonderful day, stay awesome! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley13.gif

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        smiley8.gif glad I could help!

      • Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        Aww thanks raf that really makes me feel better, I really needed this!

    • Giries FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold PA Guardian

      4 years ago

      Hey Jimminy, you ever want someone to chat with on the RT site, hit me up. Im usually always here. Also come by Sponsor chat, where we have plenty of cool peeps to talk to!

      • Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        Ok I will..thank you

    • PeteG FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sponsor

      4 years ago

      Happy birthday man! Almost forgot since my computer isn't set up and I haven't been online all day, but I managed to make it in time (at least by central timezone time)! Hope you had a good day! Keep on rocking!

      • Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        ty man! i appreciate it!

    • Npriorprior

      4 years ago

      Thank you for the friendship!!

      • Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        no problem! have a good day, i hope we become good friends

    • HeLiam FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      Hey Jimminy, I just wanted to wish you a very happy 20th birthday!! smiley0.gif And seeing as it's the festive season, a merry Christmas, and a happy new year, may it be filled with joy and happiness! smiley13.gif

      • Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        Thanks man, i appreciate it! have a nice day too!

    • ozzy_guy

      5 years ago

      smiley8.gif Welcome to the best community on the web

      • Jimminy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        5 years ago

        thanks :D

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