Kessa

Female
from Hollins College, VA

  • Activity

    • I come back...for finals week. These things are unrelated

      4 years ago

      Kessa

      Clearly I am not procrastinating or anything. Even though I haven't gotten anything done.
      When I met Kriss this summer in Vegas, we talked a little bit about how I've wanted to come back to the RT community and I didn't know how, so she suggested posting more journals. Five months later...I am getting around to that.
      Meeting her was so awesome, guys. She's one hell of a lady. <3 <3 Also I got to spend the weekend with dougss which was the best.
      Since then, though, my life has changed a lot. My thesis has been hell, and I've gotten back into theatre for the first time in ten years. We had a visiting guest artist from the American Shakespeare Center who became my mentor, and I was cast in his Shakespeare show. I also found out tonight I was cast in our spring musical, Little Women!
      In the meantime, though, in less happy news, I have been struggling with a deadly physical illness. It's been really difficult to handle, and trying to get medical treatment has been near impossible. However, the chapel at school has been able to give me a small loan to afford proper insurance (rather than Medicaid) which opens up doors for more treatment options. Crossing my fingers that it will work out for January!
      How y'all been doing?

    • Oh Look A Life Update

      5 years ago

      Kessa

      Hey RT, been a while. I ended up going abroad after all, with some sweet scholarship. My girlfriend went with and we ended up hitting up eight different countries while we were there. England, Scotland, France, Italy, Austria, Poland, Czech Republic, and Germany. Had some pretty crazy adventures in all of them, including but not limited to:
      --Getting accidentally wasted in France and getting semi-lost in a ghetto
      --The most Communist night train I have ever been on
      --Ghostly encounters in a haunted graveyard in Edinburgh
      --Not so ghostly encounters at Marble Arch, with a chance meeting on an escalator
      --Going through the trunk of a dead WWI soldier that hadn't been opened in about ninety-eight years or so.
      --Interviewing a Holocaust survivor in a French coffee shop, where he was one of the very few (I could probably count on my hand) children to survive the round-up I am investigating for my thesis.
      Good times. When I came back to school in the spring, though, I wasn't doing so hot. I may have smart-mouthed my way off medication for a year and a half and what did it cost me? Two hospital trips in two months. Granted one of those was for an IV after some meds went wrong this semester, but the other...welp, a two year no-hospital streak has to end somewhere.

    • Hey Guys, I really need some help....

      5 years ago

      Kessa

      I think I mentioned in my earlier entry that due to my home situation worsening dramatically (as my dad apparently thinks it's a good life choice to keep heroin addicts in his basement) I've been declared as "homeless or at risk of being homeless". Which means on one hand, I'm completely independent on my FAFSA. On the other, this means I have to rely on an income of about two thousand dollars. For this reason, I currently don't have health insurance but oh well.
      Anyway.
      This upcoming semester I've been given an opportunity to study abroad, and go to Auschwitz as part of my thesis research. As y'all know, I've been wanting to go to Poland for years; it's a lifelong dream of mine. However, I'm not sure that scholarships are going to be able to help me cover all the expenses. If you guys could help out in any way (even if it's just a dollar) or sharing this link with your friends, I would be extremely grateful. So please, share if you can. Thank you. *hearts*
      here
      Oh my god I've been gone from RT for so long I can't get the damn link to work.

    • 6 years ago

      Kessa

      How is it possible that I've been listening to Emilie Autumn for six years, and I've never fully listened to her Enchant album? I've pretty much been stuck on Ophelia, and now, Fight Like A Girl but Enchant has a really different sound that I can appreciate. It's less dark than Opheliac, which is refreshing. While Opheliac pretty much defines the side of me that I don't really like, the mystical quality of Enchant is really beautiful.
      I've also really enjoyed Fight Like A Girl, but the one thing that I do miss from Opheliac as opposed to FLAG is Emilie's violin. To me, her violin is her signature, considering she was originally trained as a classical violinist, so it's odd to hear pieces without it.
      That being said, my favorite song on FLAG is Girls, Girls, Girls. I understand her point of view, both from the historical perspective (it was indeed a thing to pay money to see the patients in asylums for fucked up lulz) and Emilie's perspective, as we've both been in the hospital.

    • What Ilana Has Been Doing For the Past Year

      6 years ago

      Kessa

      I left last year, and I wasn't really planning on coming back to RT. Then, the other day, I was in my room, thinking about life and other stuff, and I thought to myself, "Wait, why the fuck did I stop going on RT?" I couldn't quite remember why (yay PTSD induced memory recall problems!). So, I figured I should see what the hell I've missed in the past year, and let y'all know what I've been doing.
      So, in the past year, I have:
      --been inducted into the internationally recognized History honor society Phi Alpha Theta
      --been coerced into becoming a Communications Studies minor, with a focus on rhetoric and rhetorical analysis
      --have seen my home situation go from bad to worse, so I no longer go back home as it is not safe for me to do so
      --managed to make it through the year without being hospitalized
      --managed to convince the doctors at school that I am medication-resistant, so I have been off medication for almost a year now, and have done really well without it
      --have organized a Days of Remembrance event at my school
      --started a whole new club on campus
      --gotten accepted to study abroad in London this fall, and Germany in January. In the interim between December and January I will be living and researching in Paris and Krakow for my History honors thesis
      --have been unofficially nominated for a year long, History honors thesis, so I will graduate with departmental honors in History
      --have been volunteering at the Holocaust museum in DC at every opportunity I can, and it's been everything I thought it was going to be and better
      --have started dating again. Actually, I've ended up dating one of my best friends.
      --tried to convert said girlfriend to the awesomeness of RvB, and sadly, she was not smitten.

    • The Great Perhaps

      7 years ago

      Kessa

      I just read Looking for Alaska, and I admire Pudge's going off into the Great Perhaps. and my lazy ass is too tired to explain the context of that, so just roll with it.

      The fact is, that at approximately 4.30 pm today, Rane dumped me. and before your nosy asses start asking, no I didn't cheat on him, no I didn't do anything wrong. He acknowledges that. But I'd rather not talk about it except in private, and I am merely posting this notice so that people don't bother me, but also to say I won't be around RT anymore. Skype, sometimes, but not RT.

      I'm off to seek my own Great Perhaps. It is not the way I would have liked, and it hurts a lot, but damn it, do I ever let pain get me down?

    • The Hunger Games in LA

      7 years ago

      Kessa

      I only have one picture of me, and I look dumb. Oh well.

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      My mockingjay skirt got so much attention. I got interviewed by Lionsgate because of it, and Liam, Jennifer and Josh all loved it and commented. <3

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    • GDI.

      7 years ago

      Kessa

      GOD DAMN IT RANE YOU ASSHOLE.

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    • Passwords

      7 years ago

      Kessa

      You know who's totally awesome? Rane is. The coolest thing about him is that I can trust him enough to give him my laptop and internet passwords so that he can fix some problems on my computer, and i don't have to worry about him abusing that power.

      I mean he's not going to say anything like "I like butts" or some other stupid thing like that.

      That's so awesome.

    • I am going to meet fucking Peeta

      7 years ago

      Kessa

      Seriously.

      I am going to meet Josh Hutcherson tomorrow. I cannot even begin to display my excitement.

      PEETA.

      My life is complete.

      Also, Ben, the new profile sucks. I always believed you were a talentless douche. And nobody listened to me. Now, I am right.

  • Comments (281)

    • AgentTank FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I AM KROGAN

      6 years ago

      Hey there! welcome back! How you been?

    • kriss FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Community Manager

      6 years ago

      Welcome back =]

    • Drunkbones FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Yay! Now I have slightly more... had, slightly more of it to read. You really picked a great moment to leave off at, didn't you? =_= Oh well, life. I actually liked Cydonia a lot, despite there being less of it than some of DoF's chapters, shame you lost your drive or time for it.

      And yeah, that sounded really sucky. You two were so cute as well, not that I'm helping. Are you doing okay? It's been a while so I assume so, but eh. Also sorry if I'm being invasive, just wondering. - Thanku for the kind link anyway, and you definitely should! If you can. You know, complete your art or something (must has ending must has ending).

      ...also OH MY GOD. I was just watching everything on my copy of Hunger Games and that's not... you is it?! I guess because I'd seen that photo recently, but I thought I recognised you at the end of the documentary on the Special Features, for like 5 seconds. Is that you?! (if not I'm an idiot, please ignore smiley12.gif )

    • JJBrazman

      7 years ago

      Just watched the Hunger Games; I presume you liked it?

    • AgentHunter

      7 years ago

      not much....bored mostly lol

    • AgentHunter

      7 years ago

      Hey there! Been a while huh? How are you doing?

    • reaper86

      7 years ago

      So I don't know if you're a Taylor Swift fan or not, but I saw the ad for this on iTunes and thought it looked really freakin' cool. I don't know if you've seen it or not, but I know you're a fan of that series (Which I've STILL gotta read!!)

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    • DaftProdigy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Tinfoil Hatter

      7 years ago

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      8D

    • b51 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      7 years ago

      Look on my Facebook. My friend FINALLY decided to tell me she uploaded the pictures of us at AX. Also, we need to catch up sometime, it's been too long.

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Community. Well, that answers my question...

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Ilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
      How do I post to a community on FFN?

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Uhhh.... just to clarify, that 'too bad' was to do with the personal comment, not the journal comment. The second part was for the journal comment...

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Too bad : )
      Thanks for the advice!

    • b51 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      7 years ago

      Boop :)

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      I only found three chapters on RvBFics.com. It's a shame you never got around to finishing it. Seemed intriguing.

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      What is this 'Cydonia'? Hate to bother you, but is it another fic?

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      And good luck on the paper.

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Thanks for the tip. I'll check it out.

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Naturally.

      I have a grand total of one chapter of one story on RvBFics.com. I only uploaded it last night.

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Uh, and I thought school was bad...

      I really do love writing original fic, but I think fanfic is good practice if your muse is being silent on that front.

    • Ayayne458

      7 years ago

      Hey, just wanted to say that I really like your writing on RvBFics.

    • rane0

      7 years ago

      Hey love. Stuck at school between classes. Thinking about you.

    • niriall FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold THE META

      7 years ago

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      This is supposed to be Katniss. Found it on dA.
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      Post edited 10/05/11 8:27AM

    • SuperPriv4te

      7 years ago

      It's Edward Monkton. What else would you expect? smiley8.gif

    • JJBrazman

      7 years ago

      Happy Birthday!

    • niriall FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold THE META

      7 years ago

      Tell me if you find it.

    • niriall FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold THE META

      7 years ago

      Do you still have a copy that I sent you on your computer?

    • niriall FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold THE META

      7 years ago

      Ling story short I need a scanner to rescan it in. -_- I have it and was almost done but...

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      ohmygodohmygodohmygod.

      www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=10100401863743640

      its starting.

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      awesome. smiley0.gif -glomp back-

      so, tex needs epsilon before you post? ;P

      did you see what i did ther? XP

      and how would i go about finding that? can i get to it from her page here? or is it going to take some hunting? cause if you have a quick link to it that would be easiest, but yeah. smiley0.gif

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      first, i was to tired to post my last comment, its not supposed to be green. second, you have three hooks in me now: the district, dark on fire, and guarding the spark.

      please keep writing, k? smiley0.gif

      also, i LOVE all the parallels the district has from the books. absolutely love it!

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      yeah, i wondered about that too. granted its all first person so katniss wouldn't really know what petta and gale were thinking about, but still, mid-teens. sex is on the mind

      and the lack of green text was partly to avoid the color showing through spoilers.

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      true, those two pages could have had alot in them.....

      most definitely. i mean, we had violence, blood, death, monsters, nudity, alcohol, drugs, ect... there had to be more sex than finnick's "the capitol made me a prostitute" confession.


      the last bit said with slight sarcasm.... but only slight.. ;P

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      oh, it was definitely on purpose, it took the message of "violence sucks and only causes pain" and drives it home like the meta stabbing tex in the face. i feel like it was the right ending for this story, cause it was the only way to show the maximum amount of suffering to everyone involved while still leaving it actually plausible. cause Collins could have done whatever she wanted, but i dont think it would have fit the world she set up even from the first chapter of the Hunger Games.
      the physical, emotional, and psychological trauma the characters all faced were specific to the character in many ways and reflected parts of each character. it was a brilliant, if not incredibly painful way to end the conflict.

      also, i forgot to say before, but it was totally after they banged.

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      it did feel rushed, and i woluld have liked more recovery stuff too. the hijacking hurt to read for me too. all i could think was "FUCK THAT! NO!! NOT FUCKING FAIR!!! FUCK THAAAAAAT!!!!!!"
      and i understood the.... "necessity" i guess you could say, for prim's death too, but having a little sister and two younger twin cousins that lived with me for a year and a half made it that much worse for me to read. and i felt so bad for gale. it wasn't fair at all that he got so screwed like that. it would have been easier if he died quite frankly.



      and as im holding a conversation with both you and mcdrazsyr right now, all i can say is this: what the fuck conversation did i walk in on? O.o
      not that i'm beeing a creeper or anything, i just saw you two were talking and i saw the last post on each page and.... yeah.

    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      Damn, you ruined the ending of Hunger Games for me!

      Sort of.

    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      Oh my. Now we're getting kinky.

    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      OH NO! We must get you closer if only to avoid pain. And suffering. Pain and suffering.

      Those suck.

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      i... i cant... i dont.... O________o

      so many conflicting thoughts/emotions. the last... 3 chapters? just held me in a daze for a while. its been a long time since a book affected me that strongly, haha

      the similarities between the two characters were just so strong, the trees, the mockingjays, the innocence, they just connected immediately in my mind.
      and now when i re-read dark on fire it will be with a totally new mindset and i'll pick up on things i missed, haha.

    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      If your not going to PAX, then you gotta go to NYC Comic Con! Tickets still available!

      www.newyorkcomiccon.com/Buy-Tickets/

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      thank god for target.

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      i didn't gasp, but i was totally like "wait what? ooohhhhhh..... you sly sonofabitch, fucking briliant." *evil grin*

      the beach scene got to me though, damn near brought me to tears. Rue's burial did too. that hurt to read even though i saw it coming. she was your inspiration for carolina, wasnt she?

      im so going to try to buy mockingjay at target today, i'm impatient when it comes to fantasy. :P

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      wait, I have target...... god, atthis rate all my souvenir money will be spent on non-vacation stuffs.

    • fullmetal_24 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keep Moving Forward

      7 years ago

      damn it, i forgot how much i love reading when i get a good book.
      i forgot that i can read for a whole 5 hour plane ride and only put a book down when i absolutely have to pee.
      i forgot how much time i will steal to get just one more page (yeah right, its never one page) in between things to do.
      i forgot how deeply i can let myself get lost in a world of fantasy that i wake from nightmares similar to those the characters themselves have.
      i tell you all this because you will probably be the one who understands my dilemma most.

      There is no district 12, and i cant get my hands on Mockingjay till the 13th. fuck my sanity.

    • niriall FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold THE META

      7 years ago

      They had it at cinemark...
      A stack of them at the beggining my friend who works there told me. But shes in concessions and forgot to save me one so when I got there on the day Cap'n America opened there were none...

    • niriall FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold THE META

      7 years ago

      Well I saw it and immediately thought of you because of your fic, and stuff.
      (hug)
      Im sad that *I* didnt get one now...
      Oh well. Theres always Cowboys and Aliens to get one!

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    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      Hopefully it will be watchable.

    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      It didn't even pop up that you had posted on my page. I can't wait for the movie now.

    • Drazsyr FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Domo-Kun

      7 years ago

      movies.yahoo.com/blogs/movie-talk/hunger-games-exclusive-motion-poster-revealed-155258074.html

      I gotta say, that is pretty badass.

    • AgentHunter

      7 years ago

      Ahh....I thought south looked great, even a tad bit hot there too....and check out the video when you can. no rush

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