KillXTex3

Female
from Cape Coral, FL

  • Activity

    • why i drive myself crazy

      6 years ago

      KillXTex3

      why do i sit here and wish for things that will never happen i know the person a long to talk to will never speak to me agian why do sit here pray he will holding my breath I'm glad his life is going great he probable has some great girl who takes him for granted maybe they sitting in his kitchen like i use to do laughing it up enjoying his good cooking just happy to be near him maybe i enjoy the trial threw pain i laugh at myself when look at old post and i see his name forgotten one he never been forgotten no matter how bad i try to replace him i just cant fill that void i laugh at myself sitting here starting to cry as write this . i know i just struggle on hold on to the good memories that all i have anymore use them to raise my son that will never meet the greatest person that was in my life who guided me threw so much and now they are gone i already promise myself once i'm on my feet i will repay him the debt i owe him i don't know how yet but maybe he could take that money and it further his happiness i can only hope even thou i never forget him

    • okay from the top

      6 years ago

      KillXTex3

      lets see what happen sent i been here last went threw break up went to Illinois floating around there figure out the break up was fuck up run back to guy who by then was in Alaska so i got to spend three year in Alaska yay me that was fun things with guy didnt go well even though he was the love of my life still is in sorts was my best friend of 6 year i believe ran around with guy name well he not important well needess to say i wanted a baby my clock when off and i got one so now as aug 5 2011 i have beautiful baby boy name Jareth it was gonna be Charles after my best friend but baby daddy said no well now it year later my son year some months the evil father out of the picture and I'm headed on my next leg of my journey where will go next what will i see
      that all for now see you all soon

    • i foudn out what gose bump in the night

      11 years ago

      KillXTex3

      theres an old lady an apartment down from me she scares me a lot every time she see me she give me mean looks like i did something wronge

    • dear god i think i'm an acholic1

      11 years ago

      KillXTex3

      yes today i was sitting at home and drank a beer before 5 oh no i didn't even realize i started drinking one till it was almost uh oh! eeeeeep eh better start earlier then never i always say eh I'll keep myself down below to before 5 hahha

    • love is war and sex is battle

      11 years ago

      KillXTex3

      the battle you can always win but what of the war i think you have to know just when to give in and surrender put up you white flag and forgetting everything. like I've said the tears will burn it all ways any ways . but you have to ignore them to keep what hold dear even if you can't show them that but know maybe one day they will look back and see that you did something to make realize they be happier else where that you weren't worth there time. as you watch your friend shack their head knowing you distory the very thing you hold dear because you know it be better in the long. you want to save from there own mistake called you but no matter what you do they just to blind to see that your doing it for them burning that bridge to let them free and share the good loving for someone who really enjoy and not take it for granted like you always did. that no matter how many tears fall you know it for the best for them but there just to blind to see that maybe it for the best maybe I'm not the one they need maybe but he'd have to open his eyes to th future yes he told me his dream a white picket fence and bring me breakfast in bed i know i don't deserve that from him. maybe he'll see it all and just walk away i can only pray he forget me and the pain i brought so i can see him 20 years from now living his dream he beautiful wife and kids . as i smile knowing that it was for the best know it make him happy i thought we be ok know i was to scared to go out on my own again but the fight starts and they same feeling return as dose the tears what I'm i subpost to do grit my teeth when i know he be happier else where and I'm just holding him back. he say he'd all ways love but he has to move on maybe i have to do more then burn this bridge but i don't have what i need to do that.

      maybe i could just leave forgetting everything i would have to go that far to make him forget he wanted to run away maybe i shouldn't of just let him go . idk but all i know is that i don't want the rest of my life holding back someone who desevers better no matter what i should make him feel bad because of what I'm afraid of

      You got a fast car
      I want a ticket to anywhere
      Maybe we make a deal
      Maybe together we can get somewhere

      Anyplace is better
      Starting from zero got nothing to lose
      Maybe we'll make something
      But me myself I got nothing to prove

      You got a fast car
      And I got a plan to get us out of here
      I been working at the convenience store
      Managed to save just a little bit of money
      We won't have to drive too far
      Just 'cross the border and into the city
      You and I can both get jobs
      And finally see what it means to be living

      You see my old man's got a problem
      He live with the bottle that's the way it is
      He says his body's too old for working
      I say his body's too young to look like his
      My mama went off and left him
      She wanted more from life than he could give
      I said somebody's got to take care of him
      So I quit school and that's what I did

      You got a fast car
      But is it fast enough so we can fly away
      We gotta make a decision
      We leave tonight or live and die this way

      I remember we were driving driving in your car
      The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
      City lights lay out before us
      And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
      And I had a feeling that I belonged
      And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone

      You got a fast car
      And we go cruising to entertain ourselves
      You still ain't got a job
      And I work in a market as a checkout girl
      I know things will get better
      You'll find work and I'll get promoted
      We'll move out of the shelter
      Buy a big house and live in the suburbs
      You got a fast car
      And I got a job that pays all our bills
      You stay out drinking late at the bar
      See more of your friends than you do of your kids
      I'd always hoped for better
      Thought maybe together you and me would find it
      I got no plans I ain't going nowhere
      So take your fast car and keep on driving

      You got a fast car
      But is it fast enough so you can fly away
      You gotta make a decision
      You leave tonight or live and die this way

    • love sex drug and rock and roll

      11 years ago

      KillXTex3

      ok love is great but tottal over rated now sex is need! you know what i mean hell yea! and drugs well ican't say anythin ther caz my drug are crazy men who play with me hehe and rock and roll it what make life go around bitches

      Do you want to see the bed in flames
      Do you want to totally perish
      You want to stick the dagger in the sheet
      You want to lick the blood from the dagger
      Rammstein
      You see the crosses on the pillow
      You think innocence may kiss you
      You believe killing might be hard
      But where are all the dead coming from
      Rammstein
      Sex is a slaughter.
      Love is war.
      Do you want to see the bed in flames
      Do you want to totally perish
      You want to stick the dagger in the sheet
      You want to lick the blood from the dagger
      Rammstein
      tehr my rock and roll there my fav song ya
      so ya let se that bed in flames

    • ok all the gammer out there got question

      11 years ago

      KillXTex3

      is it wrong to buy your bf game for a system he has just because you want to play it and are to cheep to by the system yourself?

    • they killed tex!

      12 years ago

      KillXTex3

      how could they!!! *crys * may i have moment of slients?

    • omg i'm alive!!

      12 years ago

      KillXTex3

      hay everybody havn't seen me in while i'm sorry i've been busy i love you all and yes i miss you too well if you ever need me message me at thexdarkxfairy@yahoo.com

    • dudes i have no mods left

      12 years ago

      KillXTex3

      none of you like me enough to mod me i guess *crys*

  • Comments (531)

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      Well he cares about you. And I think he's a stalker now.

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      k wow. Took you long enough.

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      bacon.

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      Hey! Wat made you come back??

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      How are you?

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      I miss you!!

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      hello whats up havent heard from u in awhile come back !!!!

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      ok then

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      that one is pan and selene actualy

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      you dont drop in much so things must be going well

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      take a crack at the contest

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      hey atleast you are happy with him and thats what counts

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      so have things gotten better for you

    • cml1983 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      a little

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      figured you had quit since you were gone 2+ months

    • cml1983 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      hi

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      your alive after all

    • cml1983 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      you need to look at your profile more often

    • ShaBanGee

      11 years ago

      love ya pook. so what's up, love? how's work?

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Why yes!

    • cml1983 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      you no comment on pictures whats wrong

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Ninja Revive!!

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Yes.

      And No, I caught it

    • cml1983 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      hey

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      -doesn't come back-

      Silence fills the area. D:

    • ABC123ABC123

      11 years ago

      Ah I see....I reject your reality and substitute my own ^.^ Yay problem solved!

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Sure, I've got nothing to lose. I'm a ghost now. :|

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Whatever works for ya. I'm gonna get lunch now so I'll tk to ya later. Gonna accept your FR but I ask that you put me on watch, I'm doin the same for you.

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      -yells loudly from like 50 yards away- Nah, Course not! Just aim for the head or the heart!

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Couldn't be assed rt? I get like that as well. Whats the job?

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Hm...
      Okay let's do it!!

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Still on holiday as well huh? U still in school or college or what?

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      I'd rather not. That may create some sort of...time paradox...thing.

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Lucky you, I used to be able to get up as early as I want but I can't anymore. Not that I need to be I'm still on holiday lol

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Well, in the RvB world, I'll just come back as a Ghost and bug you for eternity!

      ...So don't do that...

      D:

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      I know. I am trying to out-weird you.

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      I do that, but I have pets so its either up at 4am because a dog's at my door or because a cat's yowling at my window lol

      *poke* lol - the alert didn't come through

      Post edited 9/14/07 4:11AM

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Maybe I do? ...

      ...Or maybe I was being random.

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      Bacon. :|

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      You have slept tonight right?

    • aaj222

      11 years ago

      "Don't talk to my breasts, you won't be meeting them."

      LOL!

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Ah, I didn't know they killed him off - I used to watch Buffy but not anymore.

      Good guess, 'cept I'm over in Scotland so its lunchtime for me soon : )

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      i was the one you kept poking and winning those battles. Had the Avalanche picture

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      i am Markkoo79! Gosh *poke* bacon

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      James Marster. You mean Spike? Are you even crazy about him when he turns into wrinkly foreheaded vampire?

      (I prefer to have a full convorsation with someone before I accept them as a friend.)

    • Scratchpost FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      What else you gonna do with a name like Scratchpost. smiley0.gif

      bacon

    • Haylbays FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      You're quite the spastic one aren't you?

    • ABC123ABC123

      11 years ago

      bacon ^.^

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      you never seem to stick around

    • stoneblade

      11 years ago

      how things for you

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