LUHBTA

Female
from Traverse Town

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    • OMG!

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      I swear, I almost cried yesterday! I think I did actually...XD;; I was able to see a Vincent Van Gogh painting up close, and I don't mean the print of one, but the real thing. It was one of the most beautiful things I've ever seen in my life, especially since Van Gogh is my inspiration in art.
      I actually got to see alot of things up close, like Rembrant, Raphel, Alphonse Mucha (Who is a Czech artist, one of my favorites!*nudge nudge* Pami~!), Lyonel Feininger, Monet, Picasso, etc. I was utterly in heaven.

      It was a pretty good day, and that's all I really have to report at the moment.

      Loving = Serving
      Serving = Loving
      ~LUHBTA
      (Needed a switch)

    • Sweet~!

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      Yay! I'm so happy! My teacher picked out all the artwork he is going to try and get into the show. Here's the list:

      Silverpoint(*)
      Surrealism
      Block Print(*)
      Wisedom (Acrylic painting of an Owl)(*)
      Color pencil of a bird
      Painting of another owl(*)
      Scratchboard(*)

      That's a pretty long list in my opinion. The art teacher was expecting this from all of his students, but I'm the student who has the most stuffed porfolio...XD;; The ones with stars are the ones I really want to get into the show. I'll take pictures of all that do get in, and I'll post them up.

      I threw twenty-six feet in shotput today! *sparkle eyes* I'm so happy, I finally got down my glide!! That's three feet farther than I normally throw! Yay! Oh, I didn't do that half bad when I threw Varsity last week either.

      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA

    • Wish Me Luck!

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      Today my track coach came up to me and said he wanted me to throw Varsity tomorrow! VARSITY! Man, I'm really nervous...well, wish me luck everyone! I hope I do well! ._.;;


      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA
      (Short post, huh?)

    • OKAY!

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      Alright, for those people who even bother to read my journal anymore, THIS is going to be a happy post! I'm getting sick of writing nothing but depressing crap, so this will be good! GOOD!

      I have a project about the fifties, and we have to use the alphabet (A-Z) for it. So, I'll post the letters I already have planed. If you have anything you can think of, put it in a comment, but only one or two per comment, okay? Can only be about American history! Even if the letter is filled, give a suggestion anyway, I may use it insted!

      A:
      B: Baby Boomers (Rin_chan)
      C:
      D:
      E: Edsel (Type of Car from Ford)
      F:
      G:
      H:
      I:
      J: Joel, Billy
      K:
      L:
      M:
      N:
      O:
      P:
      Q:
      R:
      S: Spudnick
      T: Truman Doctrine/ The Fall of Troy(band) (Freeblade)
      U:
      V:
      W:
      X:
      Y: Yagar, Chuck
      Z:

      Have Fun With This~!
      ~LUHBTA

    • I wonder...

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      Here it comes again, another depressing post. That's all I write anymore, and I'm sorry about that. There has been good in my life, I assure you all that! Just alot of things have been on my mind, and I need some way to get them out asides from art.

      I'm pretty sure all of us have felt this way at a point in our lives, the feeling of being left behind, even though you are probably right along with them, maybe even leaving them behind. I don't know how it happened, but...for the second or third time in the last three years I have been pushed into the position of third wheel. I dislike it so much, it feels horrible, but I have to suck it up, I'm not making a stand, so I have to deal with it. Often, I really don't mind being ignored, just this whole year, when people ignore me, a flame lights up and I get angry, but yet as always, I remain silent. I'm pretty sure I will snap soon, but as I said earlier, I'll have to just deal with it. My words have no power or authority in them, I think I've just given up on them. But everytime I say it, I hold myself in contempt, and have a renewal, driving myself to find a way to put power and authority in my words, as I do now.

      Now, about the title of this post, I am wondering if hurting my both of my knees today does foreshadow something. Maybe...this pillar I've become so use to being is finally about to crumble. I'm not saying I'm about to die, but...to become unreliable, useless even...I dislike having to need reassurance all the time...my insecurities becoming so apparent. I'm sure we all have gone through this once, but...I can't help but feel it. I can be utterly pathetic sometimes with my anger, self rightousness, pride...but I guess that's what intially makes me human.

      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA

    • No More Time

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      A couple days ago...I learned that instead of being in "college" for three and a half to four years, my dad will be there for nearly seven years. He has literally missed my whole education...and has no more time to develop a relationship with me. Or...I with him. I know I say alot of things about my father, not all the most positive things...but this really hurts. I don't know if anyone can really understand it...and I'm not asking for anyone to understand it. I don't know how to even begin explaining it...all i know is that it's incredibly painful. This is a day I wish I was nothing but a fool, someone who couldn't comprehend this. The one good thing that did come out of this is...my mind, I'm actually pretty sure, is done with the awful war that's been going inside of my head for so many years. I've decided the only thing I will ever hold him in contempt for is missing both my college and high school graduations.

      Sorry for the depressing post again, but...I was just in the mood to write this.

      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA

    • Reflection

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      On Saturday my sister and I were talking about some things, and she said something about my mother and I, which lead me to reflecting on it the past two days. I've pretty much come to one conclusion:

      I have no earnest feelings of sympathy.

      Don't take it the wrong way. I'm not saying I'm a heartless person who feels that sympathy is useless or inadaqute, I just can't sense it in me anymore. I've always thought that I truly cared for other people, but...maybe I don't care as much as I thought. I've also noticed that I'm becoming like the people at my mother's work. I need "recognition," which...if I remember correctly, or think, I get enough of. I hate it, I'm being a spoiled little brat who needs the spotlight on them, and I absolutely hate when I get like that. It just reminds me of the people who walked on me long ago, shoving their foot in my back, proving with their words that I'm the one who needs to realize they are always right, and to not provoke them. I don't know why it reminds me of it, it just does.

      Maybe I'm thinking too much again. Or maybe my guilt is getting to me...who knows.

      Since my reflection upon my self is done, how are you all?

      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA

    • Cesaer

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      Gotta say, I'm feeling an awful like Cesaer right now. Why do you ask? Well, for the stupid thing I did yesterday.

      To start off, I hope you are all doing well. I know, I haven't updated in a while, but don't worry, nothing hasn't really happened...well, okay, yeah, stuff has happened, but rather keep that to myself. Anyway, Yesterday was the last day of soccer. YAY! I love soccer, but enough is enough. So, I'm warming up with my teammates, and that went fine. Then I go to do my goalie warm-up...

      Everything is going fine, I'm doing pretty good, it's ten minutes before the game, and....I JAM MY STUPID THUMB.
      Picture.jpg

      Not like I haven't played on jammed fingers before, but it's the last game of the season, and it was just my luck. *sigh* I didn't do so hot in the first half, I got so nervous that I cried. I was really stressed, and I was so worried about what would happen if a goal got past me.

      As I was calming down at half time, I realized what a freaking baby I was being. Here I am with a team who thinks we can win league, and is dominating against our opponent. I felt like such a disrespect to this brillant and strong group. Here I was moaning and groaning, crying under this pressure, while my team is kicking ass out on the field.

      Second half started, and I was pumped to do my best. Jammed thumb that was killing me, bruised knee, really worn out voice, but I swear...it was the best half I have ever played in my enitre career as a keeper. I yelled like never before, helping my team as best as I could, I came out and made sure the forwards ate dirt when they came into my
      box, trying to score in my goal. I didn't let a single ball get by me.

      As I lined up with my team to do the high-five line, I took off my gloves, revealing my bandaged hand, and...I felt proud. The most proud I have felt in quite a while. We may have tied that game, and I can't say I'm happy about it, but it worked out. I'll never forget that day.

      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA

    • Chain (Air Gear lyrics)

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      On top to break the chain, no pain, don’t be afraid, but unchanging same old ways

      Same always, keep on spinning is ok, the dried up sight

      Repeated old days are like the inescapable equation

      The puppet that was manipulated in the past, erasing away, I hear your voice

      Calling for the sun

      Wrapped up in gray

      Leading to tomorrow while beating defeat my wish

      Let’s Go

      On top to break the chain, no pain, don’t be afraid

      Miss everything

      You are sorry and adventurous and usually supporting

      Spread your wings

      That’s the sign it’s time to try you gotta pride

      To the blue world

      There’s no top or bottom, you gotta grab the sky

    • Rough Winter Break

      11 years ago

      LUHBTA

      It's been quite a load, right before christmas. On the last day of school, I got out pretty early for a soccer game, which we sadly lost, but it's okay. When going home, I got in a little fight with a teammate. Rather not go into it, was kinda messy, and my temper is still flarred from it. But when I got off the bus, my mom was there, and I jumped into the car, and my mom was crying, and I found out...my grandmother had died only two hours before. Ugh, wasn't a great night, and the next day wasn't so hot either. My nephew got pretty sick to the point he had a 105.6 fever, and went to the emergency room. Luckily, it turned out to be a bad case of strep, thank God. Had to go on a plane flight Christmas day as well, but that wasn't so bad. The day after Christmas sucked. Why you ask? I puked. XD;;

      Celebrated Christmas about two-three days early, which was kinda cool. I got a huge Vincent Van Gough book, which is tough for me to carry, and if you know me well, that's hard to come by. But, it's awesome none the less. Got quite a few things, which I wasn't extremely happy about. XD;; I'm grateful though.

      Well, yesterday I saw the movie: "P.S. I Love You." I am so in love with this movie. Irish boys, and Irish accents, what more is there? XD;; If anyone likes a good romance, I definately suggest seeing this movie.

      Until Next Time~!
      ~LUHBTA

      P.S. Have a happy New Year!

  • About Me

  • Comments (1944)

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      blocked you...?

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      i really liked it! :D

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      LOL! XD That's what everyone sad too. :D Ain't it amazing.

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      OH! :O It was painful...VERY painful...but not as much as when the doctor "tried" and succeeded, thank God, to put it back together. :D I swear, the entire hospital heard my scream. :D And it's one BIG hospital. :D The staff remember me to this day. XD

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      LOL! :O I know! :D I think I told you that I broke my elbow joint...well...I literally broke it off. :D

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      yeah i know

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      i guess curiosity killed the cat

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      Oh yeah! :O You got the good end of the stick. I'm glad though that you didn't brake anything. :D Believe me...it hurts. :D

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      OMG!! :O How?

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      LOL! XD It could've been worser? :O

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      OH! :D I know! It does sound like it. And I want to see that movie too!! :D

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      It went along the lines like this...I was dead....and some people wanted me back alive, so they somehow brought me back to life...but then I found out that they were assassin's and I was the best of the best. Well! Then the police....or SWAT...I don't see the difference, came for us. They caught us, but not me. Then I went into hiding. Then I jumped to another person, I was a different person now, and I escaped jail with the group who resurrected the other me....and then when the police found that we escaped, they came after us, and it became a shootout on the stairs! :O It was awesome! And afterwards...the whole group and the resurrected leader, had a party. :O~ And then I woke up thanks to Mom. XD

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      Hmm! :D I remember my dream I had yesterday...it was just whack! :O

    • chelis

      11 years ago

      lol same goes with my artwork as well. -_-

    • chelis

      11 years ago

      yeah. good job on the picture too :)

      sorry i forgot to say it. got distracted XD

    • candymudkipz

      11 years ago

      :3

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      oh! totally! :D i can't wait either.

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      Yeah. :D Two more days and it's SUMMER vacation!! X3

      And finally sleep. :D

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      >:P~~~

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      >:P~

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      oh go bffft yourself >:l

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      but the art style is

    • chelis

      11 years ago

      yeah i still dont understand what his true purpose is in telling sauske everything...was it to tell him really what itachi was really like or was it because he wanted sauske to destroy konoha...to see things his way...

      and then im mad at sauske cuz he wants to destroy konoha the very thing that itachi was trying to protect, and keep peace. so dumb.

      but i guess that if the author wants naruto to become hokage then sauske has be the one who wants to destroy konoha or be the enemy..so that way they will be enimies...get what im saying? so he did it on purpose to keep a plot going...ahhh so dumb. lol

    • chelis

      11 years ago

      are you dying like me~?! i cant believe itachi...why?! lol. XD

      im so mad everyones dying...and they aer like all my fav characters ><
      itachi, jiraiya...dang it><

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      lol! :D You're welcome. :D And I DO hope that you'll get much, MUCH better. :D

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      oh you don't need to thank me

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      hello!

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      and that was only one of the reasons we started fighting.
      i'm not a happy camper.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      into my funky mood. he lied, we argued, it escalated.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      i'm just busy. trust me, i'd talk if i had the energy or time.

      he should have! he's the one who got me into it.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      what are you talking about? you saved my life.
      i didn't want to talk to anybody but brandon, so that we could get over that nasty snag.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      no, no! i forced myself to be with other people so i couldn't.
      i'm just saying, that's how bad it got.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      nah, i mean that it's all over now.
      i had shit karma or something. i got into fights left and right and nothing seemed right.
      this is the first time since the eighth grade that i wanted to cut myself.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      a storm can be many things. but in a hurricane, many things whirl around you and all you know is that it's wet and dangerous. meaning that i cried a lot. it was kinda symbolic. lol

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      like i said, amazingly better. i've had a really rough past few days and today is the calm after the hurricane.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      yup! james is a busy little bee

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      good luck! james just got a new job--at bath and body works.
      XD

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      hullo! not on long.
      i've had a hellish week, and today was the best day i've had in a while.
      so i'm relaxed FINALLY.
      i was all lovey dovey with brandon and my friend donated her coco to me on gaia. lol

    • Rin_chan

      11 years ago

      HA! XD I was right. But now...which one is THE scariest? :O

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      aww...! that's really cool. i'm glad you really like each other. he's been happier lately.

      her name is jenna, and she's adorable. lol
      she's 12.

      lol
      that was kinda funny

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      aah, how's that going for you?

      i'm fine. i'm talking to my cousin right now. she's on gaia too. :D

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      oooh...i don't know whether to say awesome or i'm sorry.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      anyway, how are you m'dear?

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      it's a good thing i have multiple mule accounts. XD
      brandon's, ben's, james's, and my old mule.
      lol

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      it's gonna take a while for me to get used to my old account again, and even longer to help it back up, but i think i can do it.
      especially if Peter and i take this gift war much farther.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      the mod that helped me is Sandokiri, and she made it quick and simple.
      :D
      well, it's all good. i'm very pleased.

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      well goodness me! howdy do?
      i got my old account back on gaia, but all of my stuff is gone. i know who stole it, too.
      >.>
      but, alas! i can start anew!

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      it's fine.
      i'm waiting for brandon to call

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      but yeah, i know.
      it's so much fun

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      :D
      it's LOUNGE.
      yay

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