Leus

Male
from Gainesville, FL

  • Activity

    • Lol

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I just included the phrase "...the intake of the entire meat package..." in my Enligsh 102 final paper.

    • Stuff.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I don't know why I'm making this journal, but I found these pictures on my computer that I'd taken/made at some unknown points in the past, and I thought I'd share (that one is an illustration of that time I totaled my car; I wasn't really going 80).

      dmx_cool.gif

      gay.jpg

      jordan_sucks.jpg

      legal.jpg

      secret_question.jpg

      what.jpg

    • What are you doing?

      in Forums > What are you doing? | Follow this topic

      Leus

      What are you doing to make the world the best place you can, and what could you do even better?

      So far, I consider my biggest actual accomplishment to be having gone vegetarian--I went vegan for a while and will again some day, but for now my environment and situation don't really compliment that choice well. Still, it made me feel great and I can't wait to get back to it. I still don't deliberately choose to eat eggs, milk, cheese and the like--I'll only consume that stuff if it's part of a meal I'm eating with my family or if it's like a minor ingredient in a product around the house. I use soy milk on cereal, ask for no cheese at restaurants, et cetera... Case in point, I feel good about my current eating habits. (I also don't wear animal products--as far as I know; all my clothes are from back before I converted, and I never checked the labels then. However, any I buy from here on out will be animal-free.)

      Aside from that, I just try to keep at least somewhat in mind the effects my actions are having on the world. I try not to spend money unless I feel I really need it because I just don't like the whole capitalist scenario goin' on in the world right now and that's my rather naive way of trying to combat it, but also because I believe it's spiritually important to deny yourself extravagances; I strive for asceticism, although I'll be the first to admit I'm nowhere near there. Still, seeing the general lifestyle choices of people in my culture, I do feel good about how I live comparatively.

      This are kind of ridiculous I know, but I "waterfall" drinks from the fridge (pour them from the container into my mouth--a skill I've perfected fairly well if I do say so myself--so as to avoid contaminating the supply of beverage but also to prevent extra dishes from being dirty and therefore requiring to go through the dishwasher and use up water). I also try to change clothes as infrequently as possible--don't worry, I'm hygienic, I just make the most use of my clothes so there's less clothes that need to go through the washing machine. All in all, I'm not sure these things make any difference, but it's the mindful acting that's important to me; as long as I keep stuff like this in mind, I feel I'll continue to make more and better choices.

      I recycle, of course.

      ...

      Well, I'm gonna cut this short. There's plenty I could be doing, but I'm going to bed now so I don't have time to put any down. I will soon. In the meantime, let's hear some of your contributions. :)

      2 replies

    • Your tracks.

      in Forums > Your tracks. | Follow this topic

      Leus

      Post up some of your own music here if you're so inclined.

      Personally, I haven't really made any music in almost 2 years. Not really sure why; I guess I've just had other shit goin' on. Regardless, here are a few of my most recent tracks (from 2006-2007):

      Even When It Stop (2006)
      I feel like I could do better on this if I re-did the vocals, but it seems to be generally well-received.

      I Must Be Dead (2006)
      Part of a juggalo-inspired "concept" album I nearly completed but was never satisfied with. (This track isn't super crass like a lot of juggalo shit.)

      Zero (2006)
      I decided to see how I would sound if my instrumentals weren't sub-par so I took a track from Souls of Mischief and wrote some rather ambiguous lyrics for it.

      The Muffin Man (2007)
      A reimagining of the classic diddy.

      Bubble Gum Remix (2007)
      My friend--who goes by the name Uncle Julio--made the original version of this song several years ago. He and I did this remix ago a couple years back.

      Integration (2007)
      Finally, just an instrumental, but one I enjoy.



      Let me know what you think, and let me hear some of your stuff and I'll return the favor. :)

      17 replies

    • How weed changed my life.

      in Forums > How weed changed my life. | Follow this topic

      Leus

      Here is how weed changed my life.

      I've always spent way too much time in my head, analyzing and philosophizing and shit. When I was a little kid (elementary/primary school age) this led me to be incredibly angsty and depressed. I would flip out over anything. I hated school with a passion. It was feebly justified but definitely not to the extent to which I took it. Also, I had only one friend, David--who spent a lot of time in his own head as well and eventually moved away. Anyway, towards the end of sixth grade I had an "a-ha" moment when I was crying at the loss of my pokemon save game file (rofl) and I realized "what the fuck am I doing? I'm in sixth grade, look at me." After that I decided not to give a shit about anything. It worked WAY better than I was expecting. I still hated school and had absolutely no intention of applying for colleges or anything later on, but other than that, for about six years after that, I became increasingly more numb. I made more friends and I just sat around and bullshitted, chilled, did whatever I wanted which usually wasn't much. In fact, I was still analyzing and philosophizing and I decided that nihilism and asceticism were the keys to happiness. I came so close to giving a shit about literally nothing. I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life living in my mom's house being a lazy asshole.

      During this time, David and I turned 16 and he started driving back down to see me. We hadn't chilled in almost 8 years, and he brought weed with him. I started smoking. (I always knew I was destined to smoke. As a little kid I would lie on the floor for hours staring at the patterns in the ceiling and listening to Bob Marley. In fourth grade I told my mom I was going to try weed at some point just to see, and she accepted that.) Anyway, I felt what it was like to be a child once more, only this time I was experiencing it for the joy and purity and it was beautiful. I saw how everything in our world is intricately and subtly connected, and that is why I laughed: It was all so simple yet unspeakable. I decided I wanted to smoke, putting a small but useful dent in my asceticism. To this end, I decided that I was going to need to move out and get a job so I could smoke freely since my mom didn't really approve (although she wasn't a bitch about it). This was the first spark of motivation I'd felt in quite possibly my entire life. Myself and everyone I knew had pretty much accepted I would never have the desire to do anything, but there I was. I applied for jobs lazily--still trying to break further out of my dormant state--and went down to Eugene, Oregon to live on my own for a month and smoke weed. This gave me the confidence that I could survive on my own.

      After about a year I moved up to Seattle to go to college (which was the biggest shock regarding me that anyone within close proximity to my life could have gotten) and hang out with David, whom I hadn't seen in a while again since he had been off in various places such as Paraguay, Italy and Hong Kong. I agreed to go with him to a rural lowland jungle town in Guatemala in the summer--in an ass-backwards sort of way due to weed, because I figured it would be a good time to try an extended period of sobriety (although I ended up in the town with the most and best weed for hundreds of miles around apparently at like 15 bucks an ounce, so that didn't pan out, but it was still a valuable experience). Anyway, while I was up there in Seattle going to school--taking a philosophy class, of course--David and I continued the same manner of "deep" discussions we'd always had throughout our friendship since we were kids, and among other things, he enlightened me to a very important idea: You can't tell a man in a third world country robbing just to feed his family "nothing matters." He will say "you have never felt hunger." I couldn't believe that it had taken me this long to realize that just because nothing mattered TO ME didn't mean nothing mattered. Meaning comes from mentality and desire, and who am I to put my own at the forefront of all? I realized that the only thing worth doing in the current world was to try to end suffering. I also realized the horrible nature of the "developed" world and all the damage it causes--decreasing my desire to get a job, but opening up a new realm of more important values. This shattered my nihilism obviously, and got me thinking more spiritually and compassionately. Once again, I don't think it would have been as easy for me to perceive the connection I had to others had I not smoked weed. In fact, there is no doubt in my mind that weed could save the world. If everyone smoked, no one would want to kill or oppress. Everyone would just want to live in peace and harmony.

      Since, I have expanded my compassion to animals as well, which, I never thought would happen. I have gone vegan, which I feel is a very important decision for one who desires to protect and preserve life on earth for a myriad of reasons. And I don't even smoke anymore. I'm with a beautiful and intelligent girl that inspires me to be yet an even better person in all ways and who just happens to have a negative impression on weed, but to me it's worth it to not smoke in order to be with her and make her happy. However, if I hadn't smoked initially, I don't have any idea where my life would be. So for all this, thank you, weed.

      2 replies

    • Dear internet:

      10 years ago

      Leus

      P1010015.jpg
      You were only ever good for one thing.

    • Too late.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I asked my teacher 5 minutes before the final started.

  • Comments (2837)

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      only negative ones

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      i love you

    • MidoriUchiha

      10 years ago

      howdy
      how im not 2 random
      but if you put up a link 2 my group
      ill put up one 4 yours
      i assure you ull most likely get a but load more ppl
      (write back if yes)

    • dragonmanweb FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold What's this?

      10 years ago

      Well, then I guess it wasn't that much of a big deal. Or you learn really quickly.

    • keiichiro

      10 years ago

      Awesome deal.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      reesejake031309.jpg

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      Today, my boyfriends dad friend requested me on Facebook.

      I saw him shirtless

      FML

    • keiichiro

      10 years ago

      Yeah, it does suck. I might end up going down anyways because I feel bad for my dad even though he is being a jerk towards me.

      And I'd definitely visit you and your girl, you two are the coolest members on the site!

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      tn2_luke_wilson_3.jpg

      Maybe just a hair shorter than this

      jake_gyllenhaal.jpg

      actually maybe my bangs are my main beef with your hair. IDk let me know what you think

    • The_Lady_Fey

      10 years ago

      That it would!

    • wizardmon5

      10 years ago

      I guess I didn't know you had a girlfriend...?

    • _UGotGlocked

      10 years ago

      you should have smoked a fat blunt before anyway...not that it would have really made much of a difference. It'd still hurt like a mother fucker.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      slide167.jpg

      Here we go. You are an inch taller than Jake and I'm an inch taller than Reese. This is a proportional representation of our height diff

    • wizardmon5

      10 years ago

      It's ok though, by the time I touch mine it'll have been almost four and a half years.


      What does this mean?

    • Capt_Ed

      10 years ago

      not yet.

    • Capt_Ed

      10 years ago

      Exactly.

    • Capt_Ed

      10 years ago

      It's not real depression. I'm just sad.

      My stepmother is generating a lot of unnecessary stress in my life.

      And I used to cope with said stress by smoking pot... and now I'm having to cope with it other ways.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      How's this for sentiment. You turn songs I always thought as sad into good ones

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      And I sang
      Oh, What do I do? What do I do? What do I do?
      What do I do without you?

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRROFL

      You will understand this perfectly when you get home

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      i went to bed early and now im awake now, fml

      i saw no beard pics in the folder, wtfz

      also fuck bitches get money

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      Today, I noticed the majority of pc's are probably about counting down until something. FML

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      Hey in 5 hours, I'll be off work. That's actually a really comforting thing to know rofl. Then In 8 you'll be going to get your braces off. Then in like 15 it will be 21 days left. Than it will be 21 days left and we can trip balls into the night because I don't have to work tomorrow.

    • keiichiro

      10 years ago

      Bob Marley is/was amazing.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      How sad is it that I woke up going "oh yay in like 6 hours, Jordans beard is gettin shaved down!"

      I hate my life, FML

    • BreeBurrito9

      10 years ago

      The kissy face is the only one guaranteed to be adorable.

    • Capt_Ed

      10 years ago

      done with that dude, it was fun for a while but it's time to grow up and coke like an adult.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      ipersonic.com/test.html

      do this

    • jackiebot FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold me irl

      10 years ago

      No, I was the pie racist. Finch was the cobble whore.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      you look better uncheery

    • Eclecticore no longer 25 cents

      10 years ago

      Not the only reason, but I'll keep that in mind.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      you were typin somethin about leavin tomorrow

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      with the hands of a healer

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      wtf am i doing.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      You have your birthday listed as 89 and not 88 on here

    • amedeus

      10 years ago

      vvv That's my 5000th comment.

    • amedeus

      10 years ago

      http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wild_World

      It's like his most famous song.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      katieposh1.jpg

      eli-stone-katie-holmes-in-style-photo-bl

      katie_holmes2300.jpg

      How do we feel about this haircut?

    • TKdademon

      10 years ago

      "why should anyone continue to eat meat when they don't support what goes on to get it?"
      -Because I'm hungry and I like meat. I don't support African sweatshops, but I still wear clothes.

      "we're gonna have to stop eating meat before long anyway."
      -No we won't.

      "The more pressing environmental issues and human rights issues become, the more we're gonna have to do, and the animal products industry is at the front line of destruction in all categories."
      -When I think of pressing human rights issues, I don't think of turkey at Thanksgiving. I think of African Genocide and Chinese oppression. The meat industry does not have anything to do with human rights. Environment, maybe, but last I checked, they were focusing on alternative energy, not killing animals. Because animals dying has a lot less impact on the environment.

      "You don't make them torture, you give them reason to continue to torture. "
      -No, I give them a reason to come to work every day. Because I'm supporting their industry by buying from them. How they go about their business and how it's run is up to them, not me.

    • TKdademon

      10 years ago

      "You're not responsible for what they do but you're responsible for them doing it." This cannot make less sense as a sentence.

      You're still missing the point. So some dude in some slaughterhouse is torturing animals. He's doing that. Know what I'm doing? NOT that. There's no "tortured meat" section next to the deli at the grocery store. What anyone there chooses to do is not impacted in the least by me buying some lunchmeat for the week. The entire industry is not going to shut down, and you're naive if you think it will. So rather than trying to convince the world not to eat meat, why not try to do something USEFUL if you're so passionate about it? Try to fix the way slaughterhouses are run, because I guarantee you it will be more successful that trying to topple the industry.

    • TKdademon

      10 years ago

      Then campaign for industry for reform. Don't just hate on people that enjoy eating meat. I'm not responsible for anything they do in slaughterhouses.

    • TKdademon

      10 years ago

      Links hosted by PETA.

      Yeah I'm gonna trust whatever they're saying.

    • amedeus

      10 years ago

      Because until you can get a million of us to gather together and collectively stop eating meat at exactly the same time, it doesn't fucking matter.

      There are already easily millions of people not eating meat. You are not just one, you're one of many.


      Missing the point, of course. Those people all slowly gathered up over time, fighting the trend of overpopulation. By the time they got to a million there were another two million people raised to the point that they could eat meat. It would take everyone stopping at the same time to make an actual dent in the thing. That's why I say that when you have everyone agree to stop at once, I'll be there ready to go. But until then the pros of not stopping outweight the cons.

      It's already cut up and dead, why the fuck waste it?

      If they throw it away that's a loss in profit and a decrease in demand.


      See everything else I said.

      And I'll tell you what. If somebody killed me for food and I was wrong and I did become a spirit or something? And I looked down and saw them eating my remains? I wouldn't be half as pissed as I'd be if I saw them take a bite then say they're full and throw the rest to waste.

      What happens to them in death does not concern them. It's the tortures they suffer in life for the perpetuated purpose I'm addressing that is the moral crime.
      You don't enjoy women either (no homo). So I guess the fact you aren't out there trying to get laid every night just like every other guy makes those people fucked up too. There's no reason to do it other than it feels good, but it wastes thousands of potential humans, yet I don't hear a fucking thing about that from you two.

      There are more than enough humans. Like I said, what happens while people or animals aren't alive is not an ethical question. It's what's forced to be endured in life that need to be addressed.


      So am I to understand that if they were treated better in life you would condone eating them? I mean, because there are more than enough cows, too. So that can't be the problem.

      Also, every sperm could be considered a potential human.

      I'm done talking about this.


      Again.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      royaltenpub7.jpg

      i love this hair and luke and the royal tenenbaums

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      DrPhil.jpg

      I think we know what question he's askin

    • TKdademon

      10 years ago

      So how do you know that animals are being tortured before being killed? Because I would guess they pretty much just kill them. What would you rather they do, release all the domestic chickens into the wild where they can wander around and then get eaten alive by a bear?

    • TKdademon

      10 years ago

      What have I tortured? Eating a chicken wing doesn't bring pain and suffering to thousands of chickens. It's me eating a piece of a dead animal.

      I just can't shake the feeling that one day you saw some PETA-sponsored documentary about a slaughterhouse somewhere and it just sucked you right in.

    • TheRedShadow

      10 years ago

      Just university, mainly. It's killing me. I barely have time to do anything but study. Especially because I want to go to med school.

      Also, that comment below about the vermiform appendix - it's a vestigial structure that was once used to digest raw plant material (like leaves), not raw meat. Some scientists are even finding that it plays a role in our immune system as fetuses.

      Also, I say more power to you on becoming vegan. I have a very close friend who's a vegan and I support her fully. If it's what you believe, then go for it. Just make sure you get protein and calcium from other sources or you could get incredibly sick. Suddenly stopping your body from obtaining those essential minerals and vitamins results in incredible fatigue and susceptibility to sickness.

      Sorry if it sounds like I'm on a soapbox. I really do think it's great you made a decision like that and are going with it. I really respect that. It's just a lot of people forget about all the minerals/vitamins in meats and animal products and get really sick.

    • keiichiro

      10 years ago

      I did. I'd tell you, but that's a secret.

  • Questions

    No questions have been answered yet