Leus

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    • Land of the Ego (English 101)

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I thought it applied here as well so I used the same title. Lols. This one was more on topic so I think it turned out better overall. Curious why we are the way we are? See if you agree with this analysis.

      There are many forces that discourage the desire in each and every one of us for civic engagement here in the United States of America. The nationally encouraged goal to never stop gaining for one’s self is the first that comes to mind. Our whole lives we are brought up valuing the so-called virtues of wealth, independence and justice. However, our ideas of all of these things are gravely skewed. Wealth refers to possessions and money, independence means rising above others and stepping on them to get thereâ€'and ignoring the millions we brutally exploit daily around the world and even right here in the country whom we most certainly do depend onâ€'and justice is determined by he who has the bigger gun. These goals feed the ego, a glass which only grows bigger as it’s filled. Preoccupied with these insatiable goals, we haven’t got time to think about issues with greater meaning; things that matter to more than just one’s self.

      It may, however, happen that your average middle-class American youth has been browsing the net all day and stumbles upon an article about some national flaw or obscured act of injustice committed by our government. This person could go on to do more research and determine the truth of the matter, but will he? Chances are he will not. In fact, it is very likely that he will close the article at the first sense of his national identity coming under threat. He might then glance around his room, seeing the sun shine in through his glass paned window and reflecting off his slightly outdated XBOX gaming system. Sure, he doesn’t have as much as the kid next door, but he’s got more than hundreds of millions of people around the world will ever have, and he knows that. How could he judge a government that has provided him with such a lifestyle? Furthermore, how could he judge himself for having this lifestyle? In order to do that he would have to renounce all this excessive luxury that’s so easy to retreat to.

      Am I seriously suggesting that one shouldn’t be proud to be an American? Well, regardless of what I’m saying, it’s easy to pick sides when you have it in your mind that one is wholly and ultimately good. The sense of passionate national pride in this country is outstanding. Our government works tirelessly from the day we are born to nurture this pride into the biggest egotistical blossom it can possibly be. In elementary school we recite the pledge of allegiance every morning. In middle school we begin learning about the history of this great nation and its rise to power, all the trials it had to overcome to get to where it is today. In high school our desire for personal gain is bred to fruition by the social atmosphere, andâ€'as I previously made noteâ€'that trait represents one of our strongest national characteristics. By the time we are spat out into the world ready to live our lives, someone who so much as looks cross-eyed at the American flag is a terrorist in our humble eyes.

      Indeed, we’ve got many enemies, but rather than seeing this as a sign of our enmity, we see it as all the more reason to stand strong behind our leaders in the faces of such adversaries. I’m not just talking about terrorists, either. At any given time you can turn on a news channel and see a story about some psychopathic serial pedophile rapist on the loose. It’s easier to hate this entity than it is to hate anything else, and this is why he is so prominent in our media. By giving evil such a grotesque and extremely segregated face the powers-that-be are able to focus all of our rage onto a tiny subject, allowing the broader and much more terrifying issues to proceed unchecked. How can the people do something to make the world a better place if they have no idea how bad it really is?

      We do recognize the massive tragedies in the world, though. It’s no secret that a vast population of this planet lives in dire conditions, and we would like to do something to help. In fact, we are considered to be a Christian nation, living out our humble lives under the holy symbol of the cross, giving to charity or maybe even going on missions to build schools and hospitals. I myself travelled to a rural town of about 5,000 in the lowlands of the northern Guatemalan jungles this summer and helped to build a preschool for the local children. However, does this make me a good force in the world? I say no, because the morals of this nation are possibly the most morbidly warped of all. My own mother, who is extremely anti-abortion, is glad regardless that I’m “not tied to†my ex-girlfriend simply because she’s never liked her. We bend our morals to our whim. “You can’t take the bible so seriously,†you might hear one say, and in our ever-evolving society of new ideas that might sound logical. However, would you go so far as to directly say “when god said ‘thou shalt not kill,’ I’m sure he meant ‘except those deemed worthy to die by our government.’†Maybe you think they have their reasons, but Jesus would not have supported them (and honestly, you wouldn’t either if you knew the extent of the violence). In fact, the cross itself is a symbol of violence, beginning with crucifixion, going on to become the symbol of faith under which colonial Rome conquered nations for centuries, and ending up as none other than the symbol under which we all unite ourselves in this country. The Romans painted crosses on their shields, effectively creating religious weapons. This is a paradox. We come from a violent and corrupted version of the faith we claim to be so compassionate. I am not saying that Christianity does not have good intentions. It’s the nations that abused this religion for their own gain whose intentions one must question.

      Final paragraph in comments.

    • 4-page paper due in 4 hours.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      One paragraph down. Luckily it's not a research paper so I can just spout off, which will work well because it's about why people in America do or don't do anything to make the world a better place. :)

    • Land of the Ego (Environmental Health)

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I'm taking an online environmental health class that's based mainly on discussions in online forums. The subject for week one was consumerism, and I feel like what I wrote was pretty decent, albeit a bit off-topic in the class. Hope you like it.

      A dollar bill is a slip of green material barely larger than 16 square inches in surface area, but the power it represents is limitless. It could be a candy bar, half a gallon of gas, a fraction of a new pair of shoes or a stock share or scratch-it lottery ticket representing even greater potential. We are free to turn this dollar bill into nearly anything we could imagine, but so is everyone else. This is where the free market is both conceived and fails.

      The idea of the free market was that by order of supply and demand, producers of goods would be forced to distribute them fairly. However, instead of this competition resulting in fairness and equality, it spawned what conflict always does: Dishonesty, betrayal, inhumanity. The ability to gain a boundless number of these little green slips inspires copious methods of manipulation that people not only can take advantage of, but must if they hope to succeed at all. Products are intentionally designed to fail so new ones must be purchased. Mass production requires mass distribution. Advertisement creates a desire; a perceived need for consumption. All of these factors contribute seemingly unwittingly to the systematic destruction of our planet, and thus our fellow man.

      And what purpose does all this serve? What ends are met by these means? The horrifyingly obscure answer is this: Nothing. Consumption intends on satisfying the ego, but the ego is a glass that only grows bigger as it is filled. The self can never be achieved, and because of this we continue to create more things for ourselves to attain, apparently hoping to one day finally have it all. Yet we cannot create things. We can only take from the earth and rearrange what we take into something we use, and every resource we take for ourselves is a resource someone else doesn't get. Already there are far too many people to be sustained, yet we continue to consume more and more than ever before.

      There is only one choice: Stop focusing on the ego. Stop trying to fulfill the self. The majority of the population of this planet we all share suffers from needs much more dire than our own. Realizing subconsciously that nothing will ever come of our efforts, yet continuing to try regardless, we are coming to the invalid conclusion that "nothing matters." You cannot tell a man starving in South America who is so desperate as to rob just to feed his family for another day that "nothing matters." Therefore, the only source of meaning on this earth today comes from the oppressed masses suffering at the expense of our grotesque consumption. If you can't stop feeding your ego for the sake of the survival of humanity, do it because it's the only thing worth doing.

      (I'm sorry; I realize that I didn't touch extensively on many of the topics covered by the assigned readings, but this Week One subject is one I feel very strongly about, and I didn't want to just regurgitate another essay about what we already know because we just learned it. This was intended to be more of a universal response to the other essays I read for this Week One subject, many of which inquired as to why we are the way we are and whether we will ever change. I did find the assigned readings incredibly interesting, informative and important, and in the future I will try to stay more on topic, but for the time being I hope you took something away from this.)

    • Shit, I was sure it had happened before.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      Well, I went through all 140+ pages of my journal searching "hair" on every page. I didn't find that journal I was thinking of, but here are a couple of interesting things I noticed:

      -I talk about wheelchairs a lot.
      -I talk about how dumb I am a lot.
      -Something else I can't remember.
      -I used to be completely different.

    • 3 of the last 4 journals I just clicked-

      10 years ago

      Leus

      -were about haircuts.

      ...Haven't I made this journal before?

    • I am too good at going with the flow.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I am reading about the excessive pus content in milk across the U.S. while eating a bowl of cereal.

    • There's a dick on Pepsi cans.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      Or at least the diet caffeinated ones here, that's all I've got for reference. (The artwork was done by S.S. Isanti, MN, apparently.)

      The design is a light blue with a bunch of darker blue splotches and also weird other shit, but in the middle of that big blank area--where there's no Pepsi logo or nutrition facts--at the very top is a splotch that clearly resembles a dick. All the other splotches are pretty much just circles, but this one's got a distinct shape.

      I think S.S. did this deliberately. He was sittin' at home designing can art and thinkin' "man fuck Pepsi those corporate assholes" and next thing you know, dick.

      Dick.

    • OMG I'm posting this from my new lappy!

      10 years ago

      Leus

      I'm an American youth.

    • Seriously.

      10 years ago

      Leus

      If you encounter a bad smell, do you breathe through your mouth to avoid it?

      I always hear of this tactic, but for me it's the complete opposite. If I encounter a bad smell I make sure to breathe only through my nose. That way I feel like I know better what I'm inhaling, plus your nose filters shit out. If I start breathing a bad smell in through my mouth it makes me feel sick, but I dunno if it's just mental or what.

      Am I the only one?

  • Comments (2837)

    • crackerdevil

      10 years ago

      How do you know?

    • darwin

      10 years ago

      Haven't worked on it in a while... Kind of hit a wall with vocals in the studio. I'm in the process of buying a new Pro Tools system for my home so I can finish the vocals here, at which point I'll turn the project back over to the engineer for clean-up. It's sort of like out-sourcing... to myself.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      its ridiculous, dont worry


    • jchipmunk481

      10 years ago

      Why is it lame?

    • Leus

      10 years ago

      Hey, me, download this shit and see what it is:

      tristanperich.com/music/compositions/Tristan%20Perich%20-%20Active%20Field.mp3

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      Tell me what to write a new journal about

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      she needs to sow her seeds

      sew?

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      I have nothing to write about, but I should make one someday

      no one loves me

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      thanks babe

    • wizardmon5

      10 years ago

      I never liked typing speed tests. I typed this message way faster than my typing speed test thing. I hate having to look at what to type; it should let you just type whatever you want, and check if they're actually words.

    • jtmitchell87 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Haha. I've seen it sober as ever many times, but I never fully understood the ending until the other day.

    • jtmitchell87 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Was the movie any different? I've thought about watching it while smoking many times.

    • jtmitchell87 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      You have smoked yourself retarded.


      Smoke pot THEN watch the movie. Jesus, man.

    • amedeus

      10 years ago

      John Winger, Bill's Murray's character in Stripes.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      i dont even know if we even actually talk

      we just laugh

    • deannatron

      10 years ago

      i only posed that question jokingly but that sounds like an awesome experience. Where does your friend study, if you dont mind me asking?

    • deannatron

      10 years ago

      as much as i do?
      what brought you to Guatemala?

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      you can caddy hop with me anyday

    • Swanson FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Do you happen to have that video from like forever ago where i'm beating dimple up on my couch?

      I really want to find it.

    • jtmitchell87 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      It's rare that I'm actually "happy" or "sad".


      I'm odd that way.

    • KyfeHeartsword FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Circa '06

      10 years ago

      No, its $60, I only paid for half of it, my friend with the Xbox bought the other half.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      shit octsober is going by quick

    • keiichiro

      10 years ago

      You make footnotes about stupid people


      It is what I do. It adds more to my boring journals. :D

    • dragonmanweb FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold What's this?

      10 years ago

      Oh, you actually want the switches and stuff to do something?

    • NicoleAnne

      10 years ago

      Okay i finally got pictures up.

    • TheRedShadow

      10 years ago

      Guatemala? really? what made you go there? sounds like an experience.

    • TheRedShadow

      10 years ago

      i'm doing well. university is keeping me hella busy, tough. but i love it here. you goin to school or anything fun?

    • TheRedShadow

      10 years ago

      oh, you. how are you, my scruffy long-lost compadre?

    • NicoleAnne

      10 years ago

      i just cant imagine eating a bunch of food mixed together like that. i dunno. i'm weird.

    • CALLmeCRAZY

      10 years ago

      oh, hardly! but you have the kind of tenure here that you can get away with it :D

    • KyfeHeartsword FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Circa '06

      10 years ago

      I'm totally the type. I bet you also thought me to be straight too. Guess what, I'm bisexual. HA, jokes on you!

    • NicoleAnne

      10 years ago

      holy shit dude. you must be smoking some bomb diggity shit.

    • KyfeHeartsword FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Circa '06

      10 years ago

      Of course I was, I wouldn't lie about that.

    • wizardmon5

      10 years ago

      By the way, I wanted you to know I finally read this comment. I'm, for the first time, disappointed we can only give one mod point. That deserves a funny and a zing, at least.

    • wizardmon5

      10 years ago

      I don't know why you said usually eighty times on my comments, but yes, I did say that in real-time, and I thought it up on the spot. I have my moments.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      I've been holding down a career the past 2 days

      goddamn.

    • Shannon9

      10 years ago

      Thats amazing!

    • Shannon9

      10 years ago

      Why did you want to go there any ways?

    • Shannon9

      10 years ago

      Lol

    • wizardmon5

      10 years ago

      That didn't really happen, did it?


      Yes it happened. These are my friends. This is the sort of joke we make.

      Also she has a boyfriend, so it's safe. If she were single, it'd be awkward because like, "Is he actually asking, or...?" But since she has a boyfriend it's clear that I'm joking.

      Sort of.

    • yell0wsn0w

      10 years ago

      I like all of your favorites, especially the music, books, and movies.

      /ass kissing

    • yell0wsn0w

      10 years ago

      If I could mod your profile, I would.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      baby back ribs

    • keiichiro

      10 years ago

      I think it's both.

      I played about 164 hours on each of them and I got most of the pokemon and then bam. It happened. I was going to chuck them at the neighbors.

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      I gave you a funny even though it wasnt funny because I never got an alert for the orgies comment so I saw it this morning

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      you made it sound like the family dinners werent really family dinners

      dude, i took benadryl for a rash and 2 migraine pills and now my head is like bobbing stoned

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      500 piece puzzles are too many, but 150-250 are perfect. She has to set the timer on the stove to tell her when to stop because she gets so carried away

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      she's telling me about her latest hobby of puzzle putting together...

    • Amanda

      10 years ago

      it shouldve been a -1 lame

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