LisforLost

Female
from staten island, new york

  • Activity

    • side note***

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      dont feel like editing the toehr jrounal i made wow only 2 hours. sorry for the sudden emerge of journlas. but htis osng has been in my head and keeps sining its self over and over again in my brain.

      figured id share it

      yeah htats it. oh adn today when i was doing nothing in math i foudn out my frined listened to metal. kinda shocking. he looks mroe country.

    • yikes!

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      well today was actually pretty cool. besides my ranodm bitch fit i had with my best friend it was fine. kinda was frekaing and getting annoyed. cause i found out i failed my chem final with a 62 nad it counts as 2 tests and its going on the report card. then i had ot take a latin final and i dont know latin my teacher is new and sucks. so of course im failing htat. didnt even finished the test. but i am getting at like a 6 whoot! 6 is a good number. but i did pass my global final! and spanish i s now my best subject. weird. i guess not failing tests helps. but yeah i was wearing a new hoodie i go tofr christmas and so it has a moneky nad a giraffe on it. so it came with a monkey and giraffe puppet. and they attack to the sleeves. its pretty awsome and they helped cheer me up. and my frined thought i was on crack for wearing them. so yeah. plus im off this whole week so this should be good.

      uh little backed up on laerts but it looks like im doing nothing tonight so i might be able to get to all fo them. plus hte who issue with the dude i was implying baou tin the last journal is sorted out. so yeah.

      anyway. how are you guys? and plans for tonight?

    • im not emo.

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      im not emo. number one and two shut the fuck up! *you knwo who you are* seriosuly you can say all you want saying you went through this but its not your life to live. and i siad i hated my mom not my dad so i dont hate my paretns jsut one. god cant you jsut drop this shit everyone else did.

      anyway had a long day. found out i got an 86 on my pspanish final and not an 89. and whatever. my frined paula got into a fist fight wiht htis girl who was tlkaing shit about her. pretty short fight but i was proud of my girl! but yeah all was fine til i got home. im telling you this household will be hte death of me. just pissed off and not goin to go into details. dont want to ANNOY someone and complain. plus im cutting down on the whole complaing ranting thing. its jsut to annoying and burdening. so yeah i liek it better when i dont tlak baout anything but other things? yeah i dont know didnt make sense to me either.

      anyway. to tired to do anythign. got school finishing up finals fencing and drama. also got regents week necxt week. so im off all of next week and only have one regent so it shoulode be fine. so how is every body doing?

    • im stunting my growth....whoot!

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      yeah so today i found out i like black coffee. it actually taste better with out milk or half and half. so yeah now im going to drink it and stun my growth! i really dont mind. i like my short-ness. more fun. oha nd i started to eat again today. uh i had'nt eaten since monday afternoon. iwasnt really hungry and wanted to see how far i could go with out eating. i made it about 2 days. but yeah. i think im goin to ea tlike one meal a day. so yeah. took my global final today wasnt so bad. and i only have 2 more to go! got chem. tomoorw. and then latin and chem part 2 on friday. uh i pasted my math final with a 94 and my spanish one with an 89. so yeah. oh and i found out my friend is firends with the kid with the cool hair. yeah i acutally wnet up to him and told him i liked his hair. it was funny. and i went up to the hot kid and asked fo his name ironicly he told me his real name.uh yeah im a weird one and i find weird people to like. oh well.but now he keeps staring at me and i was tlaking ot my chem teacher and aparently hes "out there" not to sure what he meant by it but yeah. he's also in ROTC. haha gotta love a guy in uniform. and with piercings and tattoos. but yeah i tired and such. might mkae a little video type deal. you knwo just to let you guys know im alive and what not.

      so yeah enough about me. how are you guys?

    • you guys really dont quit do you?

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      well yeah. all you guys seem to be agaisnt me and my latest 2 journals. and btw dont call me emo. cuase technically you all are. emo is emotional and well everyone has them. i jsut express mine more. and well to be honest the whole cutting hting disappointed me a little, considering it didnt hurt. acutally its funny. i was in school and during lunch i was some friends. and ironically 3 of use did it to our selves and all of hte left wrist. it was kinda funny. so yeah today went pretty normal i didnt go aroudn being all gloom doom and disaster b/c thats not how i am in person. but yeah i did show my other friend and she got mad at me and said she didnt want to hear it. but yeah. i actually kinda like how it looks. i know odd but to me it looks pretty cool. if i drew 2 lines in between the 3 cuts i could of made an M. but yeah you people wont leave me alone and im not allowed ot write anymroe depressign crap so i wont. ill just think it to myself. so yeah tyler DONT WORRY! you've helped me more then you know. you crossed a regret off my list and helped "patch" an old friendship. so chill out oyu know i love you and all of what you've done for me. i just wish we talked more freely and not when you want to help. but i also thank every who tried. and didnt say shit. like quorky. by you not really digging deep into it it helped more then you think. and well i just ive met a new friend in the proccess. so yeah. i just wanted to say what i said. i dont want sympathy or pity.....i want normal conversations like i used to have with all you guys. ive lost touch with osme. and well im sorry. oh and james. hey if oyu want to talk im here. and well its cool to have osmeone wiht understanding. well technically 2 people. but htank you.

      so yeah i guess im "back"? in a way. i think. kinda dont really know. but yeah i cant find anything to add.

    • does this answer your questio?

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      blood its a remarkable thing. the sight, smell, touch and especially the taste. the touch of a razor touching your skin pulling it down. the feeling something of warmth. all you guys dont get it. one yes my momther can die and will really care less. i really could and i wouldnt have regret that i siad it. i have many regrets and well she would never be one. all i do is push people away. im stubborn adn close myself in. jsut ask messenjah. he'll tell you. i know what its like to die, be ridiculed and feel like you are nothing. im not anyhting to anyone. all i do is bring paina nd hurt. ^^ he was the smart one to stop it when he had the chance. would it truly matter if i lived? if i talked? im forced to live. and well just look what happens when i push that force away.........my life holds no meaning.....its been that way since i was born. no point trying to change it. rememebr looks cna be decieving and well people are all talk and yet no do. not like anyone cares anyway. a perosn cares only for onesself being.

      blood.....its an amazing sight to see....
      btw. dont feel like commenting back on any of the comemnts on the last journal. i read htem though, so your comemnts are in my head.

    • i said fuck.

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      yeah so today was a long retarded day. well my morning didnt start off to happy. my mom kept bitching at me, and made me go to church. but i couldnt wear jeans god forbid i wear jeans. no but my brohters could. its so retarded. they kept saying you have to celebrate your feminate-ness. i just dont care. i hate like dresses or stokinging. and well i dont know. and they my mom kept blaming everything on me. and then my family wen tout to eat fol rmy older brothers birthday he turned 22 on wed. and yeah that wasnt so pleasant. we even faught at target. and when we got home too. this was a whole bunch of fighting about how messed up she is and her complaining. she tells us shes dying everyday adn yet shes not dead yet. it makes no snes. she needs bllod she wont take mine. i can give it too her so if she doesnt want it screw her. im sick of it all. if she dies tomrorow my life will not change in anyway.

      ~~~~~yeah so sorry about that rant. im tired and it was a long day.a dn i have 2 finals that im going ot fail tommorrow and everyday this week. so i might not be in a good mood this week. i apoligize in advance to you guys. anyway yeah. hope you guys had a better day. might do a frined cut soon. so yeah warning i guess.no tlike anyone cares anyway. ym informative stuff is jsut complaining. again sorry. i guess htis is why people dont tlak to people under 16. hmm yeah id ont knwo what to feel anymore. kinda just rambeling now. so ill end htis journal and let you all get back to your meaningful lives.~~~~

    • all alone.

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      well today was sorta fun. had my frined sofia and ashley here for awhile. went ot the park. saw alot of people shokcingly. hung out with squishy and mike and her 5 cousins. then saw tiana and kelly and heather and tiffany. and met this dude named mike.(another mike) and yeah then we came back and hung out on my stoop for awhile. they saw 1st hand my stict life style. and understand were im comign form now. uh they left around 5:30'ish and hten my mom integrgated me on them. kept asking me retarded questions. liek were they shopped or where they lived and wat is there last names. retarded stuff. ironicly they were waering hte same sweat shirt. but we didnt tell her htey were going out. so that saved me and arguement.

      uh tomorrow i might be goign into the city(manhattan) with my family to celebrate my older brothers birthdya he turned 22 on the 9th and yeah. my sister jsut left nad im alone in this 1/3 of a house. kinda lonely but i have my music so i should be alright. but now im thinking and getting upset. so yeah i dont know. talk to me? my thinking about myself isnt good for my health. but my lips are smooth. im playing with some tape and putting it on my lips and then ripping it off. kinda fun. you hsould try it.

    • ok this annoys me.

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      well i know in a couple of months this wont pretain to me. but when people say you have to be at least 16 to talk to them, well thats just retarded. i mean being 15 means nothing. im not as smart or mature as anyone of you guys. and i know this is somehting small and not to get all worked up about. but its annoying and offenseive. most people dont even act liek there age. and the immature young people on here fuck it up!

      ok im not with this whole age thing. just needed to get it out there. anyway im sorry i havent read or commented alot of your stuff. i have ALOT of alerts. watching 43 people and not checking htere alerts for 2 days. well it kinda builds up. so yeah. and ohter then that i think im goin to do my hiar in a crazy fo hawk type deal on monday. and probably go out tomorrow. and uh yeah. hope eveyrone have a good friday night.

    • hello.

      11 years ago

      LisforLost

      well my stomach actually hurts at the moment. but whatever. uh yeah sorry if i havent commented your stuf lately the alerts are raising and i got a busy schedule right now. uh well i fialed my english test nad had to present a project otday. it was alright got "stuck" alittle but everone seemed to liek it. uh well i got a paper cut on my palm now. cut it on a piece o fbig construaction paper. its a small one but still hurts liek hell. and yeah nothing to big. im sorry. well i hope everyone is doing just fine and dandy.

      bye?

  • About Me

  • Comments (8797)

    • Jalnor

      9 years ago

      Greetings, fellow Mafia player! You may remember me from such spam events as "drag all the recent players back to the game" and "make everyone vote." Today, I'm spamming your profile looking for help. The Mafia Group is attempting to collate story posts and user posts from a lot of previous rounds and make a hilarious book to fund a convention. This short story anthology with a proper introduction to the game will need a lot more helpers than it currently has and it would be really nice to have you on board. We're only looking for about 6 hours a week.

      At the very least, if you can't spare any time to help, you could at least give us official permission to use your name and postings in the book, for which we'll send you a free copy on the release date.

    • SgtBuckwheat

      11 years ago

      How did you get a negative Karma level? That is so cool, I kinda want one now.

    • retard_loser

      11 years ago

      heeeey, did you delete me off your friends list?

    • spartan638

      11 years ago

      I MISSED YOU

    • messenjah

      11 years ago

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      nice to have you back

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      Ok tahnks babe

    • Sir_Nick

      11 years ago

      Fuck meowkitty24, I was going to say "hola". Aloha.

      Post edited 2/19/08 11:47AM

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      hola
      how r u?

    • Copy001

      11 years ago

      *SUPER-GASP*

      LIS~! You're back~!

      *Glomps*

    • Copy001

      11 years ago

      Helloa~!

    • GraySky

      11 years ago

      get bake here

      or I kill you

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      thats if she ever does

    • skyseeker

      11 years ago

      lol i just realized how alert bombed youre gunna be when you get back on XD

    • skyseeker

      11 years ago

      =( now im sad.

    • DonutBoy1

      11 years ago

      Her mom blocked the site, cause she tought it was unsafe. so Marina or Lisforlost will not be on forawhile.

    • Evil_Phoenix

      11 years ago

      where are youquestion.pngexclamation.pngquestion.pngexclamation.pngquestion.pngexclamation.pngquestion.pngexclamation.pngquestion.pngexclamation.png,you've left me on this site with all the strange peoples,noooooooexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.pngexclamation.png,how could you just leave meexclamation.png................you better not be dead somewhere............

    • subversive89

      11 years ago

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      Did you Di3?
      T_T

    • Sir_Nick

      11 years ago

      GET ON THE FUCKING INTERNET! smiley0.gifsmiley1.gifsmiley2.gifsmiley3.gifsmiley4.gifsmiley5.gifsmiley6.gifsmiley7.gifsmiley8.gifsmiley9.gifsmiley10.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley12.gif

    • Jalnor

      11 years ago

      Round 3 of the Mafia Game is now recruiting. This time, Waldo will be playing while someone else takes on the responsibility for moderating. Shout out in the thread if you're interested in part 3 and also if you're up for moderating; we already have 2 volunteers. Also state whether you'd prefer to continue at the usual pace or go with a more one-day-per-event system. Once there are enough players, we'll vote on who moderates and the moderator will decide by the players' preferences which time system is used.

    • djzap

      11 years ago

      where are youuuu

    • subversive89

      11 years ago

      Hellllooo??
      Anyone home?

    • sworddancer

      11 years ago

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    • subversive89

      11 years ago

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      Where did you go?

    • sworddancer

      11 years ago

      look at my images k?

    • skyseeker

      11 years ago

      are you dead?
      because thats not good for your health =P

    • sins_hell

      11 years ago

      yo what up? long time no talk

    • b3nd3r

      11 years ago

      Hey, I was in jersey this weekend. Was thinking of looking you up, realized it was a stupid idea. just wanted to let you know. Later..

    • lifeconsumer

      11 years ago

      Hey dude-ett hows it going?

    • Psychologist

      11 years ago

      you know my old spartan117la watcher banner is up on your page still

    • Voidstalker

      11 years ago

      Well, you could also argue it's out of 100 here too, but then everything is just divided by 10. Like my chem exam of last week, for which I had a 7,5 .

    • Kakarot_044

      11 years ago

      if u have three cuts and add curves at the top of them it would make a 3

    • Emo_Marine_K

      11 years ago

      im doing ok, u?

    • b3nd3r

      11 years ago

      I'm sick of all the fuckin downers of life. Drama, pure bull shit, posers, the worst kind of people, panzis, well I hate panzis just cause I'm hardcore... There isn't enough good as bad and I hate that. If there is a god, I just want to say fuck you. You created this pathetic excuse of a gift, free will to humans and all that, but you fucked it up. I'll take my chances in hell.

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      lol
      well i hope u has better days to come


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      *hugs back*

    • dead_man186

      11 years ago

      that class was very distracting but it was fun

    • OmegaBlue

      11 years ago

      No money.

    • Atomic_Bomb

      11 years ago

      yeah

      i actually want to move to and live in canada after college

    • Ichigo2000

      11 years ago

      Yeah, a day later this whole argument seems petty and immature on my end. I was acting like a child. Sorry.

    • Emo_Marine_K

      11 years ago

      yeah

    • Voidstalker

      11 years ago

      Just wondering, since we our grades only go to 10 :P

    • messenjah

      11 years ago

      its brutal

      and awesome

    • subversive89

      11 years ago

      No, I meant the a7x cd.

    • messenjah

      11 years ago

      i got the idea from American Gangster where Russel Crowe carries a sledgehammer pretty much the whole time... he rules

    • torque28

      11 years ago

      oh ok

    • Voidstalker

      11 years ago

      Are those scores out of 100?

    • b3nd3r

      11 years ago

      I think I'm done with everything.. School, people, life... I think I'm going to try and end it again, but this time, I'm not going to live miraculously. I've been having dreams about the dark nothingness that waits for me... And its comforting. *Sigh* I dont know anymore....

    • AFoxwell FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      kk

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      oh come now
      cheer up some

      any time u needs me
      ill be here to help
      *hug*

    • subversive89

      11 years ago

      Whatcha think of it?

    • Ichigo2000

      11 years ago

      I said you'd join in hopes of dying in Iraq, but I can see how that mix-up could've happened.

      I'd rather have gone on the next MEU, but the CWO said he needed someone wicked experienced, and I've got a month of training.

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