Lixie

Female
from Candyland

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    • Very Helpful Search Function

      7 years ago

      Lixie

      My 1TB hard drive no longer works. By that, I mean that every single machine I've tried to connect it to does not recognize it. This wasn't of too much concern to me as I've kept all of my writing on my laptop. It was still a nuisance though because I have about 600 GB worth of movies and TV shows on there. Spoils of internet piracy.

      Recently I purchased a new 1TB drive. Since then I've been backing up all of my stuff, as well as attempt to rebuild the expansive library of loot that I had from before. This is when my RvB journals came in handy. Turns out I've written some journals about movies I enjoyed from time to time--and the earliest entry dates back 7 years. All I had to do was type "movie" using the search journal function.

      HAZZAH.

      Not every movie/show I have now recovered are all listed in my RvB journals, but these lists have certainly helped jog my memory.

      Now I'm in a last minute scramble to collect all the loot. I'll be moving to New York in two weeks time (one way ticket, May 18th) and there will no longer be any piracy going on there (I think).



      Thanks, RvB.

    • What THE

      7 years ago

      Lixie

      It's a WHOLE NEW WORLD

    • Work Post

      8 years ago

      Lixie

      There's bound to be one eventually. It's 4 PM, and we've run out of things to do.

      After years of working weekends, I can finally say, YAY FRIDAY. I hate people who say TGIF because acronyms are for babies who can't be bothered to say a whole sentence.

      TGIF is by far the worse I've heard.

      Internet acronyms don't bother as much, though, as long as people aren't using them in their regular day to day speech. Like people who say BEE ARE BEE or EH EFF KAY.

      I work with some fun people. One of whom likes to talk about her cat and pretend to be her cat. She purrs. I want to rip her face off. I don't mind cats, but I hate people who act like their pets just because they think it is cute.

      It's cute on a cat. It's hateful on you. You are a human being.

      I think my disgust with her is somehow apparent, as her usually sunny disposition is dimmer around me. She is cheerful, cheerful because she says things like "NEAT~O!!!" and "FOR SURE!!!!!"

      No, no, no, no, no.

      Our department is full of girls. There are no guys here. There are guys in the IT upstairs, and some in financing, but mostly we are boxed in an office with a high amount of estrogen. It gets crazy here because with this many people, it is always SOMEONE'S time of the month.

      Not much else to say about work, really, other than that I enjoy it. I love it when the puppies come around. They make this place fun.




    • Busy Bee

      8 years ago

      Lixie

      Yes. I am.

      So some awesome news. I may have accidentally suggested to my mother that she should divorce my father.

      Right.

      So she was all whining about whether she should be spending all her time with her lesbian, when I told her, yes, please do. She wondered whether she should be spending time with her kids. I told her no, that her kids are all grown and she should start thinking about how she wants to live the latter part of her life. Either with dad, or with her friend.

      Then she said if she leaves my father, she will have no income... and suggested that she lives with one of us.

      Yah fucking right. Like I can support her. And I definitely don't need her negative and selfish personality in my future household. I would only have her stay with me if I knew I was doomed to die alone.

      Anyway. As soon as I said, "You should be making these decisions for YOURSELF, YOUR own happiness," she latched on to that and said, "So you think I should divorce your father?"

      Which is not what I said. But if that is the conclusion she came to when I said "think of your own happiness..." then it's not very difficult to figure out that she doesn't want to be with him.

      Such a child. I asked her what she thought was going to happen once the kids are all gone. She said that she would continue living here and Dad will continue sending her money. What kind of chump does she take him for. Or she said my dad would retire in Canada, which I know he does not want to do (too expensive).

      They are both idiots. The worst possible match up for a marriage.

      Lame, that I had to provide some form of marriage/life counseling to my own mother. Aren't these all things I'm supposed to learn from her?

    • At Work

      8 years ago

      Lixie

      With a pup, Tim Tim (real name Timmy), on my lap, sleeping.

      How awesome is work.

    • Tired To The Bone

      8 years ago

      Lixie

      I haven't felt like this in a long time. I haven't worked full time in over a year.

      I started working for LUSH at their Vancouver head offices two days ago, and it's been a crash course in everything Lush.

      God.

      I got a box of freebies (LUSH products) though, to "learn our products", so that's pretty nice. Jamie and I already tried out some bath bombs.

      The only setback is that I haven't been able to get as much done during the day as I'd like. And when I come home now, I'm completely tuckered out to the point where I can't even push myself to clean. It's not like we have piles of dishes in the sink or anything, but still.

      I was kind of enjoying being a lazy slob.

    • 8 years ago

      Lixie
    • Facebook

      9 years ago

      Lixie

      A social networking website.

      More like a social check-out-what-your-friends-are-doing-and-be-depressed-that-you-suck site.

      Okay, so I haven't read enough books to find an appropriate vocabulary for that, so what.

      Melancholy should be close enough?

      It's incredible, the amount of people my age that have already passed so many milestones in their life. Graduation, Starting a Career, Marriage... Babies. And they are MY age.

      As my 25th year habitation of this planet draws closer and closer, I become more and more aware of where I am, and where I wanted to be. It's a quarter of a century.

      When I was a child, I had envisioned for myself the high life at 25 years old. An awesome job. Awesome apartment. Awesome friends. Awesome holidays. Awesome boyfriend/fiance. That was my general idea of how 25 year old women should be living. And then I got older. I guess by the time I was 20, I realised that those things I used to dream of only happened in movies, or to lucky people. It's like there are 10% of babies born every year destined to live the normal, happy life that all of us dream of. I just wasn't part of that 10%. Still. By my 20's, I had awesome friends, awesome boyfriend, and awesome holidays. So 3 out of 5 is a pretty good deal. Job and apartment were more material goods rather than emotional requirements anyway.

      And now? I am down to awesome friends. My boyfriend is kind of awesome. He is awesome. Our relationship is awesome. It's fun, it's easy. I just don't know where it's headed. That makes it that much less awesome. I am an eager life person. I'm the person in the theater saying, "what happens next?" When I watch a movie with my friend that I know she's already seen, I will badger her for the entire movie to tell me how the whole thing ends. So, yes, I need to know where my boyfriend and I are headed before I can decide exactly how awesome we are.

      So I'm 25, and I have 1.75 out of 5 on my checklist. That's 27.5% on my successful scale. Success = happiness. So I am 27.5% happy. I guess it's not that bad--it beats out anyone else that's lower. But in general, if I had to rate the public, I'd say that most people my age--on my success/happiness scale--are around the high 70's percentile. Against those comparisons, 27.5 is pretty low.

      People can tell me I'm being ridiculous. Rating my personal success on a scale and getting upset over it. It is pretty ridiculous. But the scale motivates me. It kicks me in the ass and calls me a loser. I need it to. I need to feel bad enough about my life to work even harder. Sure, by some comparisons my life is definitely much better than other people's. I have an income, I have a hot-hot boyfriend I get to see all the time, I have a queen-size bed equipped with memory foam that I never want to get up from. When I count the little random happinesses in my every day life, there is a lot. Like today. I get to go to class and take notes. It sounds stupid, but I like doing that--it makes me feel like I am going somewhere. After class, I get to study for finals. Also a small happiness for the same previous reason. This way I'll feel like I was productive for yet another day. Then I get to see my boyfriend. Have dinner.

      For some reason, being around Jamie makes every little thing feel a hundred times better. Something that wouldn't normally feel like an awesome thing to do suddenly is the only thing I want to do. Cooking is fun. Walking is fun. Just sitting there, holding hands and not saying anything, is fun.

      And then there are the extra little things that I would never have had if he hadn't come along. He takes out my earrings for me before we go to sleep, more out of convenience than anything, since the night table is on his side. He laughs easily. More than anyone I've ever met. So we are always laughing. He says thank you. I'm not used to being appreciated, so that's a big thing. The list goes on.

      So here's to 25. And here's to my success-happiness scale. Finally, here's to hoping things work out for the best.

    • Sophie's Choice

      9 years ago

      Lixie

      So how do you decide? Between friends and boyfriend?

      Since Boyfriend started working, we've had a hard time finding time for each other. He works Monday to Friday while I work Saturday and Sunday. Not to mention we live about half an hour away from each other, so it's always a trip.

      The first two weeks have been easy, as I had both Sundays off. I invited him over to my parent's place both weekends and they were both great weekends. The first weekend I showed him around my hometown and we had a nice sit-down dinner with James and his girlfriend. The second weekend my little brother had a huge party with his friends on Saturday night. Jamie, without me asking, helped us clean up the aftermath of the party on Sunday morning. Then we had a long lunch with my brother's girlfriend.

      Nicest weekends I've had in a long time.

      Then this week.

      On Monday morning, he asked when he would see me again, I couldn't say. We're both extremely spontaneous people who don't plan ahead. ... Alright, HE is an extremely spontaneous person who doesn't plan ahead, and it's beginning to rub off on me. I told him I'd see him when I see him.

      I ended up visiting old friends on Monday. Old friends I hadn't seen in a year or so. We ended up staying out so late. Boyfriend calls after 10 pm, as he would when I haven't called that day, and I attempt to talk to him while my friends (both guys Jamie didn't know) laugh in the background. Of course, he is slightly upset that I hadn't told him about going out, but I say I'd call him back.

      I didn't call him back that night--since I didn't get home until 1 AM. I text him with an apology.

      Tuesday I hang out with my two best chick friends, doing making up and talking about boys and whatnot. I tell Jamie about this before hand, and he says he will stay late at work to clock more hours if he won't see me that night.

      Wednesday I have a free night. Then he tells me he is hanging out with a friend he hasn't seen in a while. This is a friend he ditched last weekend to hang out with me. I don't mind, but I spend a lonely night eating bowls of my little brother's ice cream and weeping for no reason what so ever. A hilarious scene in hindsight.

      Thursday rolls around. Best friend Michelle is having ANOTHER birthday celebration (I had gone to her previous two) where she plans to drink. By this time I am getting antsy and wanting to see Jamie. I had previously invited my silly boyfriend to the drinking party, but he had expressed that it would be a long day at work and he wouldn't like to drive all the way out of the city just to drink for a couple hours. He'd have work the next day as well. I COMPLETELY understand. I remember working at a mentally tolling job--I never wanted to do anything except crash on the couch once I am off of work.

      This is actually one of the first times I've been so considerate towards a boyfriend. Normally, I would tell him to suck it up and I couldn't care less if he was tired. But this time I sympathized and felt bad. Plus, I just kept remembering a week night--after he started working--when we had gone to bed. On the brink of sleep, he had mumbled something like, "work... my brain is so tired... I'm so tired...." I remember in that moment I wanted to be insanely rich just so he could go into early retirement.

      Anyhow. Back to this Thursday. I figure Michelle is having a large party, which I cannot skip because it is a party party, not to be taken lightly. I had spoken with Michelle the night before, when I was neck-deep in a bucket of vanilla ice cream. She knew how messed up I was getting over not having seen Jamie. So during the day, I ask Michelle who are all going to her thing. Turns out there are only two other people besides me--and they were both people we saw on a regular basis. So, I mention how I might go see Jamie instead, and immediately I hear the hurt in Michelle's voice. I took it back immediately and said I would go to her party.

      I was in the school library. After we hung up the phone, I spent half an hour trying not to cry. I love Michelle. I've loved her for years as my BEST friend. I felt like an asshole for hurting her, yet at the same time I felt unhappy. I knew I would go to her party, but be miserable all the time because it's not where I'd want to be. It's not that I don't want to hang around Michelle... but I had already been there for her birthday twice this week. Michelle also lives TWO MINUTES bus ride from me--as well we are always chatting on the phone. I can see her any time of the week, whether weekday or weekend. It's not the same for Jamie. Besides, Jamie and I have been together for six months, but the relationship is still new enough for me to wonder how a week-long separation would affect it.

      And then I would kick myself for even comparing. I would feel like an asshole for begrudging Michelle for her wanting to see me--and then I would think, well, she gets to see her fiance all the time, it's SO unfair that she won't understand how I want to see Jamie so much--and then I go to think how selfish I am being and how Michelle really wants me there--and then I think........ it goes on and on.

      So I talk to Jamie, and I ask him what I should do and he jokingly calls me a bad friend for even being unsure. He jokes because he knows I have a nagging conscience about these things and he likes to add to the guilt. [sarcasm]He is so kind.[/sarcasm] Then he added, seriously, that he hadn't seen me all week. I tell him that I know... and that I really would like to see him, too.

      Those two hours spent in the library might as well have been spent in purgatory.

      Anyhow, long story short (and I have a doctor's appointment), I went to Michelle's, left around a reasonable time, and still saw Jamie for the night.

      Horray for compromise.

  • About Me

  • Comments (839)

    • OLIAX

      8 years ago

      long time no speak what's up?

    • TheCape2

      8 years ago

      Had I known this, I would have come visit you.

    • FinchLynch FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      9 years ago

      <3. How are you? I mean, other than lolazn?

    • TheCape2

      9 years ago

      See I would buy you a plane ticket but from what I can see Candyland doesnt have an airport.

    • TheCape2

      9 years ago

      Why arent you over at my place giving me a booty call?

    • Lukie

      9 years ago

      Seriously, come visit one day. We'll go clubbing.
      Or go to PAXEast.

      I might come to Vancouver one day but the earliest is next year.

    • dreamcast717

      9 years ago

      You're fooling yourself. Black semen is where it's at. We all know they're the real breadwinners.

    • dreamcast717

      9 years ago

      Somebody wrote food on one... look... how's a guy supposed to know.

      Fortunately I had dead hooker to wash it down with.

    • dreamcast717

      9 years ago

      Oh, there will be foreign objects alright. Chopped up post it notes, dead hooker bits, a single quarter. Oh, just you wait.

    • RedSun

      9 years ago

      What's the deal with airline food dead strippers and hookers?

      You must have a huge toilet if they fit in there.

    • RedSun

      9 years ago

      Only if I can dump my own dead hookers there.

    • trefu

      9 years ago

      I'm not an asian woman, I live in a college town with no gays and I haven't even been trying.

      If I moved to Seattle, I could accomplish what I've done in a month, even a week, probably.

    • AFKeeker

      9 years ago

      Eh, it's usually since I'm on my XBox, and now that I'm back home, I haven't turned auto-login on my MSN on my PC yet. Also, we have very different times now, so when you're awake, I'm asleeeeeeeeeeeeeep.

    • Lukie

      9 years ago

      I wouldn't mind a few pairs, I got great legs ;) and they look great with boots.

    • Lukie

      9 years ago

      My hair grows really fast, which I suppose is a good thing :)

    • Chi_Mangetsu

      9 years ago

      Nice Jewel quote. Was that before she sold out? <3 Jewel, but when she started to act like the twit bitches that populated pop music, I got disinterested.

    • RvBCanwest

      9 years ago

      Next Year.

    • Adul

      9 years ago

      Happy Birthday.

    • Blood_Zero

      10 years ago

      it's a little hard to be happy when all their is in your wold is pain...
      sorry if i sound depressing
      but right now, that's my life
      *oh, and if you want to replay, only place you can would be my pics and my public journal, sorry*

    • Laird

      10 years ago

      No Canwest this year.

    • dreamcast717

      10 years ago

      THANK THE MAKER

      There are others like me.... I thought I was alone.

    • AFKeeker

      10 years ago

      HEY! Go to the living room!

    • Atheist_101

      10 years ago

      Hey, two things if I may;
      I was wondering (if it was possible) if I could be an admin in the Harry Potter group, of course I understand if I can't I was just wondering.
      Also, which province (or Territory) are you from, because if you were an Albertan I mad an Albertan group and you can join.

      But you can say no to both of these if you wanted to, I don't mind, I appreciate you reading this :)

    • mattiecore

      10 years ago

      i asked what you were thinking about getting your Masters in, because it came up in the BAR

      but then i kept reading, and realized the question had already been asked and answered



      i always get curious when people talk about higher degrees because i'm working on my Masters currently, and it means we have something in common

    • mattiecore

      10 years ago

      hurr, this never happened

      Post edited 7/13/09 7:52PM

    • osiris32

      10 years ago

      Wait til you get the "Assault on an Officer" report to fill out. By the end you'll be so mad at the suspect you'll be ready to hang him yourself.

    • osiris32

      10 years ago

      Maybe, but I doubt it. Fire Investigators (at least here in the states) are usually employeed through a fire agency, with a limited Law Enforcement certification through (usually) the local county sheriff. Don't know how Canada does it, though.

    • osiris32

      10 years ago

      Ever tried filling out Fire Investigation reports? Ugh. I'd rather play FreeCell.

    • DrJones

      10 years ago

      With as many times as you've seen my penis, I figure you'd have been able to tell it apart from my shoulder by now...

    • Voshterkoff

      10 years ago

      Gomer says you're a fan of the double meat :0

    • Lixie

      10 years ago

      I meant YOUR passionate nights with Gomer.

    • TheCape2

      10 years ago

      Passonate nights on the beach huh? Got a few for me possibly?

    • TheCape2

      10 years ago

      So where is this candy land?

    • bolewooties

      10 years ago

      FU

      No, really, fuck you.

    • vigilante903

      10 years ago

      Hello random chick I don't know.

      The song on the trailer you inquired about is Welcome Home by Coheed and Cambria (spelling?).

      You may recognize the song from www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dj238NhhjzM this Rock Band commercial.

    • SamySalti

      10 years ago

      congrats on being featured.

    • MrVash

      10 years ago

      Congrats on being FU.

    • afterchurch

      10 years ago

      Happy FU day.

    • Cheese FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Poofs

      10 years ago

      Way to be FU.

    • Razzy

      10 years ago

      Hahahahahahahaha ..... FU. No, I don't mean "F. you". Have fun with the alert rape today. smiley1.gif

    • MandoMania

      10 years ago

      Congrats on the FU

    • Lilcid

      10 years ago

      congrats on FU

    • Fwoosh78

      10 years ago

      I noticed u r ur own friend...(ur on ur own friend list)..haha...

    • john Quarlton Tanks

      10 years ago

      Welcome to Da Dome

    • baluka

      10 years ago

      hi

    • bolewooties

      10 years ago

      lixie it has been a long time where is gomer this place is so confusing

    • DrJones

      10 years ago

      You're not old, you're little, Asian, and female (I think). None of those tend to contribute to an increased alcohol tolerance.

      You're perfectly built to work in the kitchen, do laundry, and pump out kids, though.

      And yes, consulting is pretty awesome and would be made more so with the addition of hoes and/or bitches.

    • DrJones

      10 years ago

      I live in NC, but I work in Wisconsin.

      I do software consulting now, so I'm gone all the time.

    • DrJones

      10 years ago

      Damn you...

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