LostNirvana

Male
from a subway train.

  • Activity

    • might delete this account

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      The community just isn't the same, this site kinda sucks and all my friends left. I only communicate with them on skype now in days.

    • work to be done

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      made a bonus song today, if anyone has ideas for a third verse or wants to post edits to the first or second verse feel free, I'll consider all thoughts and ideas.

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4LoqPQxQDo

    • Self Destruct

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      Lost +O in my irc server because of some jerk founder who plays favorites, started to really hate all the music I've been recording, freaked out b/c of all the things I'm hearing/seeing that arn't there, cravings setting in, can't find a job anywhere and feel isloated from everything. On top of this in real life I keep my issues to myself to be polite but everyone else keeps telling me about their relationship problems like I could fucking relate right now. "Oh, my girlfriend is on college and I'm lonely/afraid she's going to cheat" or "Oh, I got kicked out by my asshole boyfriend that people told me I should've broken up with since I met him but I didn't listen because I'm a stupid cunt" or some shit like that. My tolerance for people is dropping so fast I'm gonna just go Tesla status and live a reclusive and celibate life out in the fucking woods.

      I hate people so fucking much, so FUCKING MUCH. I hate people so goddamn much. I fucking hate people fucking shit. I can't stand anyone at all. I hate today.

    • Love Songs?

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      People tell me my music is usually pretty depressing or stupid. If it's not about being depressed and isolated it's about me pooping or being a skitzo bum. As a response I have made a slightly less generic then usual love song.

      BOOM SHAKA LAKA!

    • hello there

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      Moved away, moved on, don't want to, no time to. The no and not and any form of. The other town and at another house. This is the last and far from first but maybe again if it doesn't go right. A fickle thought that slips like a bad tranny. The unseen buldge like ebola that couldn't be hidden better by a good tranny. Literary cunning surpassed by the surgical cutting. The six inch incisions that never left while younger scars faded. All that's left is the burn from the superheated metal and the angst like a 14 year old after his dad fucked a prostitute. The poetic feeling that cannot be put into an eloquent line. A suicide pact with a suicidal god dead before your birth, the suicidal hotline where you just wanted to talk of that time in the psych ward. The good times you had today and will be gone tomorrow. Transient thoughts fleeting as transgender cogs are tinkering. What do they think and how does she think? White powder fueling thoughts of that one "girl's" thoughts. As if you were omnipotent and the drugs made you all knowing. Yes, the satisfying song of some souless miscreant misinterpreting some super beings solution in a soulful smoky voice. English at it's finest and yet most commonly misconstrued until it is at its worse.

      Hello.

    • Shitty Boyfriend Week

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      Seems to be coming. My sister had to miss work b/c her friends boyfriend kicked her out and she needed to help her move back to her parents house. My friends cousins friend got beat by her boyfriend in front of their kid. Other drama as well. I'm at seven shitty boyfriend drama stories. It's like I'm the only non-asshole with a penis and because of that I gotta listen. Damn, shit's weak. Why am I the single one?

    • Meh

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      Got eight bucks, cigarettes are ten. Since I lack the extra two I'm going to buy a cheap cigar and some malt liquor.

      Hooliganism is the best kind of ism!

    • I'm crushed

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      Packers should've won that...

    • Best. Game. Ever.

      6 years ago

      LostNirvana

      I just kicked ass at CS:GO! 18k/2d winning 8 out of 10 rounds! I got four defuses! WOOP WOOP.

  • Comments (1868)

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Sadly, he's had off when I've been working and I've had off when he's working, so we haven't really seen each other all that much.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      I hope you know that I don't care and don't want to know what you and your fuck buddy do...

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      Actually, my friend beat you to it. soz.

    • Riadect

      8 years ago

      Uhm...what's google+?

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      Sure why not. I hear it's like facebook, only you can escape if you want.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      I'm perfectly fine with Facebook.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Nah, I'm fine with facebook.

    • trevor1001

      8 years ago

      No thanks.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Hm?

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      ...well then.

    • megafire

      8 years ago

      Do you have anyone to talk to about this? Someone who does know what the hell is going on?

    • megafire

      8 years ago

      I have absolutely no experience with drugs whatsoever, so I can't help you, but if it's lasting that long it probably is not a good thing.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      I see.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      That sucks.

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      get your ass on the patch then, sir.

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      I apologize for my woman-logic. In order to combat them, you must think like them.

      And which smokable are you quitting? The tabaccy or mary-jane?

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      That's just the logical short of it. But I've had sex, and I'd much rather give up smoking than sex.

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      Well, here's your deal. You can give up smoking, boozing, fucking or internet. What's easiest and most cost effective to give up?

    • Sekai08

      8 years ago

      In reply to LostNirvana:

      Sounds like it will fit you like a glove. Hope you enjoy it and don't wind up dead, or at least dead too early before you get all the enjoyment out of it.

    • Sekai08

      8 years ago

      In reply to LostNirvana:

      Better than having a real job and barely scrapping by


      Exactly what I'm doing...

    • Sekai08

      8 years ago

      Arro How's it hanging?

    • DustBunny01

      8 years ago

      35 Days

      Welcome Aboard!

      We have a group you might want to join:
      35 Days Group

      And, you can post your bio into the bio thread for easy reference in the future by other players:
      Character Bio-s

    • megafire

      8 years ago

      Site glitched and you didn't show up anymore.

      I only saw 'Delete Friend' and I figured the account of whoever the fuck it was was deleted and removed them from my friendslist.

      Sorry about that, you're not the only one I accidentally deleted.

    • Magiclad

      8 years ago

      I haven't really tried to keep up. I lurk on the phys games forums and some of the television threads, but I haven't really tried to keep up with any kind of RP or anything.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      I see.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Drugs, alcohol, am I getting close?

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Good job.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      You're lucky I've switched religions.
      -hug-

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Sorry, don't hug drunk people.

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      Good.

      Well, until tomorrow, my friend. This clown has to get a little sleep for tomorrow. I get to go see The Fray in concert!
      (Don't hate lol)

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      I didn't notice any mistakes lol.

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      Pretty rough, man. Hope everything works out in the end for you.

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      I see. Very poetically put.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      I see.

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      Ha,ha. Probably. Is he really leaving or is he just making empty threats to?

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      Dang. Thats good, I guess. If that's what you want.

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      My apologies. I haven't forgotten you. I have a tendency to get caught up in other things and get distracted.

      How's it going?

    • afterchurch

      8 years ago

      Ha,ha.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Eh, didn't like it too much.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      That's cool.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      We're doing pretty good. Kinda sad that we haven't been able to see each other all Spring Break though ;c

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      That's cute.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      Cool.

    • LHSBAND

      8 years ago

      Air?

    • LHSBAND

      8 years ago

      You think you're so smart.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      I'm sorry, man.

    • mah_lazors

      8 years ago

      That sucks.

    • osiris32

      8 years ago

      Being older and wiser doesn't mean dick when it comes to relationships. I've been seeing a wonderful woman for the last three months, and last night I told her that I was in love with her in the parking lot of a shitty bar. Fortunately, she reciprocates the emotions (to which I'm still a tad giddy) but it's still the fact that I told her like that. Don't try and make plans, plans never survive the first encounter with the enemy. Just go with what seems natural, and don't be stupid and overbearing.

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