LotusANM

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    • update

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      ~getting my lisence tomorrow after 2 years of having my permit. its about time.
      ~boyfriend just had a birthday. hes 23. hes so old!
      ~im hungry
      ~school starts again in a month. im so excited even tho i will have so much work this semester. im looking forward to being around ppl other than my family again.
      ~temptation has entered my life. this guy i was sorta into before i started officially going out with my boyfriend has told me hes been interested for awhile and im like uh oh cause i was sorta interested in him in a "its never gonna happen" sorta way so now im like oh no someone save me or make him disappear for a month. i dont want to cheat on my boyfriend but i dont want to break up with him either smiley2.gif
      ~i kno...i suck

    • ok so im writing this naked

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      haha thought that'd grab your attention

    • trust

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      ok so theyre trusting me more at work now which is nice because it means i can wander around and do things other than check all the time. i was also assigned to variety twice this week. basically i face up everything in general merchandice. that means i make the shelves look pretty. everyone else seems to hate it but i enjoy it i like straightening everything up and making sure everything is where it belongs and stocking shelves and stuff. ok maybe not love but i like it a hell of a lot better that checking.

      another type of trust is that of my boyfriend. i do like him and im glad we're together but i dont want to say i was forced into this relationship it just sort of happened and if he'd asked instead of just assumed im not sure i would have said yes. i like being with him but ...ok heres the problem. sam messaged me on facebook and was like i miss you, not like i miss u i love u but just like i havent seen u in awhile and i miss you. but he did make a point of telling me that hes getting buff and tan. he doesnt kno im with matt and i dont really want to tell him either. i feel bad but im like i wish matt and i hadnt become serious so i could sleep with sam when i got back to school. bah i should be happy with what i have, and i am, but i shouldnt worry about this. anyways, bye

    • update

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      jeez laweez its been awhile. ok so basically no more single life ive been stolen. and theres this guy at work whos so annoying and i went to see superman with him strictly as friends and he like didnt shut up. i mean he didnt talk during the movie but in the car and all that shit he just kept talking and i was like OMG make it stop!!! anyways, what else? hmm ive been working like 48 hrs a week i made $313 last week. hmm my life is boring

    • totally wiped

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      ok so i worked 46 hours this week or at least i will have after tomorrow. the same with next week as well except that my hours are better next week. earlier shifts mean i get home b4 1100pm. gosh this is so sad the only thing i have to talk about is work because its all i ever do

      ok so the guy ive been dating for awhile, the one where we decided to wait until the end of the summer to decided if we wanted to be serious, changed his facebook profile to say hes in a relationship but he didnt say with who. it was slightly confusing because i thought we werent serious but i guess he feels differently. we havent talked in awhile but watever i mean i dont have time to talk to boys every day...i mean except for you guys...and even there ive been a slacker recently. kay anyways. bye!

    • back

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      ok so canada was good but im glad to be back other than the fact that i have to work. so the guy im seeing remembered when i was coming back and actually texted me while i was in minneapolis. im thinking thats important or something because guys never remember things like that. we're going to a movie tomorrow. we're going to see the omen. im excited.

      in other news i posted some comparison pictures in my image section. check it out and let me know what you guys thinmk.

      im back at work that day after i get back from canada and im really tired which is good because i was afraid my sleep was going to get messed up but i dont think it will because working has worn me out.

      BYE!!!

    • Hello from British Colombia!!!

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      hey guys just checking in. today we went to whistler which is supposedly the best skiing in north america. i dunno because ive never been skiing at whistler or anywhere else for that matter. anyways thats all weve done so far. the scenery was wonderful and i had some really good icecream but i got really full so i had to throw it out the window haha.

    • good news?

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      ok so the new guy i told ya'll about asked me to go see x3 today and so we went and it wa good. it was really wierd tho i was like totally infatuated with this guy like a week ago but i wasnt that excited to see him i mean i was happy and all but only as happy as id be to see anyone else. i dont feel super attracted to him like i was before even tho i kno i like him and we'd be really good together. i thought he wasnt going to make it and i was like whatever instead of becoming upset (and as u guys kno im never like that). when he got here i went outside and was just gonna get in the car and go u kno until he was like hey come here and he kissed me and stuff. then he was like i missed u and i was like thinking omg i didnt miss u. i dont kno whats wrong with me. because i kno i like him but im just not feeling it. he wants to see me again after i get back from canada and id like to see him too but im not all eager. i guess maybe its because i doubt anything will come of this since hes already graduated. i dont want to get my hopes up maybe? bah whatever!

    • so i havent done this in awhile

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      alright my first journal in a little while i think. im back at work. i totally fucked up last night and cost the store $16. im a total space case. im like never paying attention, i make mistakes all the time, and i hate my job. sigh. im so lazy too. im really slow, and im a cashier so that can be a bad thing. jeez i wouldnt be surprised if i got fired or they didnt ask me back after this summer. not that i want to work there after this summer anyways.

      if i edit a journal entry does it alert ppl who are watching me? what does it do when ppl watch me anyways? does that mean you can see me? cause if so i should put a shirt on...

      ok now that im fully dressed. i hate going to work...im going off to cry now smiley2.gif

    • will it never end

      13 years ago

      LotusANM

      my disappointment with relationships is never ending. so the guy i hooked up with on cinco de mayo and i were hanging out a bunch untilk school ended. we have a lot in common we get along really well and we find each other attractive; sounds like a match right? except hes a senior and hes graduating and since weve only been "dating" for like 2 weeks we decided not to get serious because we're probably not going to see much of each other anymore.

      he likes halo and video games and stuff and hes nice and hes really cute (even my mom thinks so) and its not fair. i think im going to end up being single forever.

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