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    • Jeez.

      2 months ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      It's been over a bloody year since I've posted. Shit...... Well, let's recap.

      I graduated college. Finally. Took me 15 years longer than most to do that. Took a long, winding painful road to accomplish it. Doesn't feel like an accomplishment in hindsight.

      Had a falling out with my dad. He's the shitburger I was referencing in my request for advice. I'm strangely detached from the situation. It's only tangentially related to my point in that:

      I'm a dad. I have been since August of last year. I'm still pretending like I have a solid grip on the fact. I've gotten more comfortable with the fact that I'm responsible for this guy. But it still trips me out.

      The little booger is a damned handful at times. Hates sleeping, is a picky eater, easily bored, and sometimes pees on the person changing the diaper..... But still, the smiles and laughter make it all worth it. Especially when he sees me first thing in the morning.

      The biggest mindfuck that hits me is this: When I look at him and feel an immense joy in him simply being. The people who live with me continuously comment on how I light up when I see him and how wide my smile gets. And I never remember anything like that from my pops.

      I hate to apply a term such as dad, or my old man to the guy. Hell, I hate using the term 'guy' because he never really was much of one. I've come to view him as a failure and fuck up, but not much of a father. And I'm okay with this, mainly due to the fact that I (thankfully) had positive male figures in life that directly influenced me and shaped me in a positive fashion. I named my kid after them. One day I'd like them to meet him, and him them. With regards to my dad, I dunno.

      He has never met the kid. I don't I'll introduce my kid to him for the foreseeable future. But it's something I will mull on as Ro gets older.

    • Not so random realization

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      So, it’s taken me a few different campaigns/GM’s, but I really don’t enjoy D&D. Mind you, this is simply a reflection of the games, I’ve played. So it’s quite possible that it’s an outcome that occurs where I live.

      Also, yes, I realize that another commonality is me. So I fully admit that which I see as a flaw originates in my personal preferences for playing tabletops.

      Anyways, I realized the issue when I examined all the things that irked me, and I realized they were symptoms of an underlying root cause. Individually, they could be dismissed as emergent properties that, with effort, could be turned into non-factors. Even several of them together could be avoided. But to have all the symptoms occur repeatedly is problematic and consistent with an underlying reason, a root cause.

      After reading other tabletop games I own, it dawned on me. The issue, as I see it, is that in D&D, there is no central core to the game. There are several things made implicitly important through the writing, but D&D lacks a section of fundamental tenets. So this (seemingly)  has led gm’s and other players (at least the ones I’ve played games with) to all do the same set of things. To enumerate the issues, I’ll lead with the general concept

      ~ Embrace a simplified trinary ethics/morality axis as the be all and end all as a yardstick for character actions. Good/evil and lawful/chaos with a neutral point as an origin.

      This is something I’ve seen almost every player use as an excuse to play a derivative pastiche of a character. The dwarf always makes beer and knows his way around the forge, the half-orc is a barely functional idiot that has no social graces, the alluring elf that’s one with the wilderness, the minotaur who fights in between naps…… You get the idea.

      ~ Monodimensional classes.

      All the classes aren’t about doing solving situations or impacting the world or exploring pretty much anything but combat. When I say monodimensional classes, I mean each class is designed to answer one thing, and that is “How do I combat?”

      This issue is somewhat possible to avoid in 3/3.5/Pathfinder, but that would take a player who’s cognizant of this and has a perspective not unlike mine. Fifth edition is a prime example of what I see as the problem. Tangenting off of this:

      ~ The linear trainride through the GM’s fanfic with the occasional stop at violence-ville.

      If you’re going to write scenery porn for my character to see as we walk into the next encounter, go write a novel. I’d probably get more enjoyment out of the book than being told what the area looks like before imminent violence.

      ~ Forced investment into said trainride.

      Honestly, I’ve got no personal attachment to fighting any of the moustache twirling villains we’ll be visiting on the train ride. I’m not going to attack them just because they have moustaches, they twirl their moustaches, or that they’re villains. You want to know my character is doing while on this trainride? Looking to pull an Old Man Henderson. Hell, I might even side with the villains cause I have no reason not to.

      ~ The leveling system as the arbitrary method to determine if I can solo a moustache twirler

      Oh, look, the great big bad is so many levels higher than me. Guess I can’t kill them after sneaking in on them sleeping. Because reasons.

      Anyways, gripefest done. Hope you’re all doing well.

    • Update on the advice request, et al.

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      So, my last entry was one asking for advice in regards to a situation that I tried to explain as impartially as possible. Well, so far, it looks like things played out in a fairly positive manner. I can't say that I expected it to go that way. I'll take that as a win. Thank you to everyone who weighed in. Also, we can now blame @AgentWashingtub008 for anything and everything. Apparently he's used to it.

      Other updates:
      ~ Decided on a name for the baby (Ronin). Also, it's going to be a boy. While the mother and I are no longer dating, our relationship is amicable and we're working together to make sure we don't make the same mistakes our parents made with us.

      ~ Fuck finals. All I need to do is pass one class, and I should probably start studying for it.

      ~ I've just about finished the final project for my AI class, and that's been... unpleasant in all the ways that academic projects are. Mental stress aside, I'm counting this class as one of the best classes I've taken. What I learned in it is what I need to know in order to accomplish more.

      ~ In about a week or two, the last batch of beer I made should be fully carbonated. This waiting period is what feels the longest. Also, holy crap did I add a lot of extra fermentables. That combined with yeast fuel and yeast primer lead to an insanely quick fermentation period. I have never seen the kraussen come up to, let alone blow out of, the airlocks on the carboys.

      ~ I finally cut my hair. There goes six years of saying "Fuck it." right out the.... Well, not window, but you know what I mean. I miss it already.

      Finally, the most important bit: How the hell are all of you doing?

    • So, I'd like some advice here

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      Recently, someone I know personally (person A) offered to take me out to celebrate a life milestone. While I appreciate the offer, I'm hesitant to do this. Reason is based on prior times that situations like this have happened, it's been an excuse for this person to do dinner with their significant other (person B). Prior celebrations have been at places that Person B enjoys going to, in an area I'm very unfamiliar with. 

      And thanks to the cell phone, I'm capable of finding nearby spots I might enjoy spending time at. When I had said I'd like to go visit those spots, it's suddenly time to leave. And when I've suggested places I'm interested in going to, Person A states that the spot I suggested is outside  of Person B's travel range, or Person B wouldn't eat there. So I was turned into an awkward third wheel of an excuse for them to go celebrate.

      Any ideas or suggestions on how to approach this current offer?

      Note-so-ninja edit: I rephrased it so Person A was no longer introduced as an acquaintance, but as simply someone I know. Blame @AgentWashingtub008 for pointing out my lack of clarity.

    • Spring Break recap

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      I did fuck all, and I'm proud of it. I had a week to do as I will and an empty house in which to spend said week. So I wasted it in the pursuit of personal decompression. It's amazing how odd it is to be able to hear your own thoughts when you're otherwise bombarded by people who demand your time and head space.

      Thanks to @Ratatoskr for introducing me to this Youtube channel. If you're into tabletop RPG's, or amusing stories that come from RPG's, I recommend listening to the stories of Old Man Henderson, the Sith Janitor, and Boxcar Joe (the Magic Hobo). Speaking of which, expect a journal entry soon dealing with my own take on the hobby.

      Anyways, the only accomplishment I can lay claim to is finally playing a game of Eldritch Horror. If you're a fan of Wil Wheadon's tabletop, you've seen the base game in action and seen how well he roles.

      Now, mind you, I'm a bit of a collector. I am not satisfied with a game if there's more options and fiddly bits that you can add on and make more with. Especially if it deals with Uncle Howard and his pet mythos.

      So when I say I tossed in everything but the kitchen sink, I mean I literally combined every expansion I have. (Which in total is like 7 other installments. Not all of them, mind you, I've got 2 or 3 more to pick up.)

      Anyways, a friend of mine and I decided to finally play test the game. As it was a test run designed to familiarize myself with the rules, I had set everything up 2 nights prior to actual play with the intent to run through the game by myself and see how game system/engine works before pitching it as an option for the board game night group I've kinda got going.

      Since Andrew was there, I couldn't rely on him to be on the same sort of mental wavelength I was going in. Namely, cheesing everything I could to be in the player's favor. I had gone over to BoardGameGeeks, Reddit, and whereever else I could pull up via Google in order to learn the best way to approach the game. I.e. I had cheesed the setup in every possible way without directly being knowingly and willfully guilty of cheating. (I'm pretty sure that Andrew and I did cheat, just not intentionally. More akin to not seeing the stop sign than willfully blowing by it, if you're one for cop analogies on why you got pulled over.)

      Yet, we still lost as per rules as written. I put all responsability on me, as I had drawn one card that was sure to to guarantee our doom. When one of the Ancient One's mystery cards has the player's spawn an Epic Creature that not only chugs down clues for breakfast, but is a hypermonstrosity that forces the player into madness, there's only so much that can be done. In hindsight, I'd have told myself to call a mulligan and not doom myself from the get go.

      Anyways, that's about all I accomplished in the spring break I had. I cheated at the game I now call "The cock-tease of epic distraction which hides the world's annihlation."

    • Random thoughts

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      So, this answers one of the questions I've spent the last week googling. All I need to know is when Day 5 season 3 and Crunch Time season 2 comes out.

      Let me be honest here, I thoroughly enjoyed Crunch Time and want to see more, but I don't think it made a big enough splash to be continued. Which is really fucking disappointing.

      Day 5: I just binged season 2 as I had been wrapped up in my own shit for the longest time. And what the shit. If I don't see Jake become a monsterous fucking bastard at some point, then there's a serious curve ball in the works.

      Anyways, more of those series, please?

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    • You know how

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      Someone on the internet quipped that 1984 was meant as a warning, and not an end goal for politics?

      Could someone pass along word to the RT marketing department that this was supposed to be humorous satire and not an actual good idea?

    • So...

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      I just got done with a phone interview for a sysadmin job. I have no idea how I did, as the one thought going through my mind was "Don't Fuck This Up." ad nauseum. I think I answered confidently and didn't stutter or go "Ummm...." At least not often enough that they would make a face. Call ended with a standard non-committal sort of good-bye. If I did okay, I'll hear from them on Tuesday, Wednesday latest.

      Got my fingers crossed.

    • Highlights of the last month in bullet points

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      ~ Found out I'm going to be a dad.

      ~ Broke up with the girlfriend/mother to be.

      ~ Moved back in with my dad.

      ~ Informed I have till July to find my own place.

      ~ Been sending out resumes left and right.
      ~ Started playing more Fallout 4 and Overwatch on the PS4.

    • Happy New Year's, everyone

      1 year ago

      Lpokmnj Blargh

      Hope you're all having a good one thus far.

      I just wanted to give a shout out to @Joe and @dizzyblinker and thank you both for the cards. Expect a small thank you in the near future. Joe, I hope I put your address in correctly.

      Anyways, as for me, yeah, fingers crossed for a good one.

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