MoonFire77

Female
from Prunedale, CA

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    • What's in a Dream...and Why?

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      Last week I woke up in a cold sweat...damn Happy to be awake! I don't sleep very well & normally would give my right arm for some major REM Time...but not that night! smiley5.gifsmiley7.gif

      I'm in my Bathroom, my ear was itching, I get a cotton Swab and begin cleaning my ear. It feels funny, now I'm getting dizzy. I remove the Swab and there's freakin Blood all over it...it's running down my arm! I look in the mirror and the blood is, like, Gushing out of my ear! I want to panick, but stand there in Awe looking at this massive red tide, shooting out of my ear. I realize that I'm beginning to feel very weak, legs feel rubbery & heavy...I call out for help, my voice sounds strange & far away...I need to get help, Bad! I make my way through my bedroom, down the hall & into the kitchen...the light seems like it's dimming, my legs are so heavy, it's difficult to move...the Blood is Everywhere...where is it coming from? Shit...the kitchen is beginning to flood & dissolve...I make it to counter where my Easel stands...reach out for support, only manageing to knock it, the Paint Box & the trash over...I'm falling...blood is still escaping fast...the room is almost black, except for the river of blood, flooding my home...my body is not taking orders from my mind anymore...I'm feeling nothing...just falling...ridiculasly slow...right as I'm falling, Head first onto the floor, smiling like an idiot, disbelief, this is how my journey ends...I Wake up! Mouth Wide, A Silent Scream Exploding from within...Soaking, Freezing Wet...could almost taste & smell the blood, metallic & distasteful! I try & get control of myself, calm down, don't wake my DH, supress the need to jump out of bed & check the house for Evidence of a Bloody tide that may have washed through my tiny home, check on my daughter...is she Ok!?

      Yeah! It was Just a Horrible nightmare...the house was fine(needs dusting & a good Shampoo) my DH & Daughter were fine...didn't even know that I'd been in distress & inches away from a major Coronary. Why does Our mind play Such nasty Tricks on us? Am I going Completely out of my mind? I don't know. I just can't get it out of my mind. I've asked my Daughter to find her dream interpretation book, so maybe, I can get a handle on what it means. I'm definetely going to have to tell the Phsycologist, I've an appointment to see...maybe he can give me some answers. I just hope he doesn't have me committed...lol...it's kinda hard typing, in a straight jacket. smiley7.gif

      I hope I didn't Gross anyone out...that was not my intention. This is one of the reasons I don't sleep well or at all...the "in Flight" movies suck...& that one was one of the milder ones. I just can't figure it out! That alone would make you depressed...I'm fighting the depression, have had a few in between days & up days...I just need some Peaceful, uneventful Sleep & for my imaginative mind to Just Shut the Hell Up!!! smiley5.gifsmiley3.gifsmiley1.gif

    • Happy Valentines Day...One & All

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

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      I sure Hope All of you Wonderful People Had a Loving & Peaceful Day! It was an "UP" day for me...which I am very Happy about, didn't want to spoil the Families Day! My Dear Hubby Took My daughter "Marbiuel" , her friend & my Daughter from another Mother "jo_gal88" & me out to a New Japenese Restaurant, in the tiny town we live in...the Food was Fantastic & so was the service...Everything was cooked( well, cooked items) to perfection & the Sushi was very tasty & original! Our jo_gal88 has never had Japanese food or Salmon or even filet Mignon (which was on the menu) so it was a treat for us to have her try everything & watch the delite on her face when she found things she really liked!!! smiley12.gif We all had a Great time & rolled away, Very Full! No Flowers, Chocolates or Cards...Where we ate, who we ate with, shared Valentines Dinner with & the RootBeer Floats, later at home...made this one of our best Days & soon to be memory...just wish we had remembered to bring the camera! smiley12.gif

      My days are still an emotional rollercoaster, but I do realize How truly Blessed I am, to have such a Wonderful, understanding Family & such Great Friends...I have also realized that no matter how sad & low I may feel at times, I'm always surrounded by intense love, that. like a "life jacket" or "Bouy", keeps me from just letting go & drowning...Fighting really Hard to survive & I'm gonna Win! smiley1.gif

      I hope that Everyone Has a Great Weekend! I will try to comment or at least Mod everyone that I'm watching...WoW! You guys have been Busy...ther's so much to read!!!Thanks For Everything & Being There!!! smiley12.gifsmiley7.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

      Love Always...VonMarie smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • Neglectful MoonFire77 "Momma"

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      I am Sorry that I haven't been very animated or commenting lately. I've been Told that I have Clinical manic Depression, when I'm up...Boy, I'm really Up...but when I'm down, it's really bad...can't function & get Weepy a lot...whoohoo, what a piece of work smiley10.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley3.gif I've Always tried to keep a Happy & Positive outlook on life & help everyone that i can. But as Life will have it...there are certain folks & circumstances that throw a "Monkey Wrench" into all my well meant plans...go figure...such is life. I won't go into any boring details...we all have them. I've just been so tired that I haven't been able to keep up with al my alerts or the Fantastic "Friends" that I'm watching...for that I'm truly sorry! My laptop is part of the blame...the rest is all me. I've come to love you All, Like I've known you all my life, For the longest time I lost my trust in People/friends....it seemed they had a secret agenda...that I wasn't Privy to...lesson learned. In my profile i wrote that i love strongly & fight to protect those i care about...horribly honest,need to duct tape my mouth shut...well that's just how i am. Anyway...I lied, pretended I was my DH, wrote a letter to my step Son and got them talking again...even got to talk to him myself & a great bear Hug from the boy! Well..................this evening he got on a plane and set off for Iraq...with a child in his wife's belly...his mother there to hold him & my DH here in tears...& my heart breaking for them all, including the "Evil Ex"...trust me she is!!!! But I realized something, I have to work at forming a Civil if not Friendly, relationship with this woman, to keep my "Son" in good spirits, to be there when his child is born & when He comes home from that "Hella" nasty sandbox!!! So Yeah...I've been a whole lot down in the hole...with the other phsysical & financial problems on top of worrying about a Son I just got to know....not to mention, watching the light fade from DH's Eyes...which really tears a hole in my heart...I'm trying really hard to hold onto Me! So if I don't comment very much or don't journal as much & such...I'm very sorry...you guys have all...a few of you more than others( U know who U Are)...made your mark in my Heart & I am Proud to call you Friends...Pack...Sir "Ellis" knows what that means! Let me work through this Horrible internal pain & decision to play with a not so nice person...the Family is the most Important thing to me...& I'll get back to RT, fully...until then, just realize I'm not ignoring anyone...just setting things in my life right! I'll be on...just not as much... smiley1.gifsmiley12.gif

      Loves & Hugs to you All smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif Love Always....VonMarie(MoonFireMomma) smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif Take Care & have a Really Fantastic Week...I'm working on it!!! smiley3.gifsmiley1.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • Can We Say...Electrocution!? ;D WhooHoo!

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      Today I got my "Tens Unit" OMFG!!!!! The first time I had DH hook me up, where I felt like some one had Stuck a very dull, Hot knife in my back, within 20 minutes 90% of the pain was gone...I don't know what to do with myself!!!! This is just To Awsome...Maggie Dear, I wish you could try this, it might make all the difference! As I type, I've got the leg that jerks all night, hooked up...this thing is amazing!!! If I can keep the pain level down, maybe I won't have to take these nasty Narcotics so much & Almost function Like a normal (Not that I've ever been "Normal")Human Being!!! We'll see how it works for a few days & what progress I make & I'll let you guys & Gals know...but for right now, I'm in the Land of the Gods & Godesses!!!! I haven't slept in a Week...well...maybe 3 hours in a week...let's see what Happens Now!!!

      Hope You All Have a Fantastic Night & A Wicked Fun Weekend!!!! I'm "Electrofying"!!!! (spelling is probably wrong, but I don't care...Less Pain...WHOOF'INGHOOO!!!) smiley0.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley0.gif

      Loves & Hugs to you All...VonMarieMoonMomma smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif
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    • Thanks Again!

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

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      You've No Idea How much your Thoughtful & Caring Comments Help! Thanks Dear Friends! Hope this New Year Brings Great Things For Us All! smiley12.gif

    • Balances...

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      Today...I made the decision to drop out of the Art Class I've been waiting to take. I was totally unprepared, supplies wise, for this class & really can't afford the paints & the rest of the stuff it takes to learn oil painting. my class was on Friday, so I'll call them tomorrow and let them know what's going on & that I'll see them when the Spring Class starts in April...if I have all the Supplies. The thing is...the paints are really expensive, at least the ones the Teacher would have us use...the stores either don't have it or are priced outrageously High, which is really assinine, because they'd make more money if they lowered thier mark up...again with the Greedy BS, Anyway, the Teacher gave us this really neat web site to go to where the prices are semi Wonderful...WhooHoo!...only thing is, you can't get 2 day shipping on oil paints, thinners, mediums, brush cleaners & such...cuz they're Hazardess Materials & only ship ground...2 weeks of waiting...time I don't have. So I figure that if I wait for the next class & order supplies when we have extra, I'll be set for the April Class or Fall Class! I've waited 40 years to take an oil class a few more Months won't Kill me, Right...my Budget, maybe!

      The Bad thing is I'll be wasting the 20.00 I paid to start the class & probably look bad in the Teachers Eyes...which is something else I'm just gonna have to deal with...I don't like being a Quitter, but I'd rather be more prepared for the class than I am right now! I know some of you are wondering why I didn't get a supply list to Start with...well I enrolled online for one & there was No mention of Supplies needed anywhere...I figured since it was a begginers class they had stuff on hand to get you started or that we wouldn't start the painting part of it right away...more like the teacher showing us all the Techniques and us taking notes, getting familiarized with Everything! Boy was I wrong smiley11.gifsmiley3.gif

      I will finish the Painting we started in class using the few oil paints that I have that are closest to the colors we were supposed to use...problem is...the paints came with an art box I'd been given & not a damn one of them have what color they are & the color on the tube isn't much to go by...so this is gonna be Hiliarious...when I get it Done I'll post it & you tell me! smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

      Hope you Folks are Having a peaceful Week! smiley1.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • The Plan

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      A Friend of mine sent me this...

      Once upon a time a man appeared in a village and announced to the villagers that he would buy monkeys for $10 each.

      The villagers, seeing that there were many monkeys around, went out to the forest and started catching them.

      The man bought thousands at $10 and, as supply started to diminish, the villagers stopped their effort. He next announced that he would now buy monkeys at $20 each. This renewed the efforts of the villagers and they started catching monkeys again.

      Soon the supply diminished even further and people started going back to their farms. The offer increased to $25 each and the supply of monkeys became so scarce it was an effort to even find a monkey, let alone catch it!

      The man now announced that he would buy monkeys at $50 each! However, since he had to go to the city on some business, his assistant would buy on his behalf. In the absence of the man, the assistant told thevillagers: "Look at all these monkeys in the big cage that the man has already collected. I will sell them to you at $35 and when the man returns from the city, you can sell them to him for $50 each."

      The villagers rounded up all their savings and bought all the monkeys for 700 billion dollars.

      They never saw the man or his assistant again, only lots and lots of monkeys!


      Now you have a better understanding of how the

      WALL STREET BAILOUT PLAN

      WILL WORK !!!!


      It doesn't get much clearer than this.................


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    • Treasures Values...

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      A Childhood Friend of mine, who lost his Dear Wife to Cancer, a few years ago, sent this to me...he understands these values in the deepest way, as I'm sure we all can relate to, as well! smiley12.gif

      To realize
      The value of a sister
      Ask someone
      Who doesn't have one.
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      To realize
      The value of ten years:
      Ask a newly
      Div orced couple.
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      To realize
      The value of four years:
      Ask a graduate.
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      To realize
      The value of one year:
      Ask a student who
      Has failed a final exam.
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      To realize
      The value of nine months:
      Ask a mother who gave birth to a stillborn.
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      To realize
      The value of one month:
      Ask a mother
      who has given birth to
      A premature baby.
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      To realize
      The value of one week:
      Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.
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      To realize
      The value of one minute:
      Ask a person
      Who has missed the train, bus or plane.
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      To realize
      The value of one-second:
      Ask a person
      Who has survived an accident.
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      Time waits for no one.
      Treasure every moment you have.
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      You will treasure it even more when
      you can share it with someone special.
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      To realize the value of a friend or family member:
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      LOSE ONE.
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      Peace, love and prosperity to all!
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      Remember...
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      Hold on tight to the ones you love
      !
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    • Con. New Year Trip...

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

      This will be alot shorter the the first! smiley0.gif I thought I had posted this, but apparantly my laptop (DH's laptop) had some issues during posting! So....We played with the GrandDaughters & listened to thier Mom Take over the Conversation...just like in the Video...lol smiley11.gif My step Son's wife, Kim, sat next to me on the couch, trying to explain her new cell phone, camera, pc & everything but the kitchen sink...which I didn't understand, but smiled, ooh'd & ahh'd at the appropriate times, thinking how Happy I was that she was even Talking to me & why would you need all that crap on a phone...complicate life more? *shakes head* Anyway, I noticed the Baby was being passed my way...she's such a cutey! Kim & I played with her, until she ground her face into my "Girl's" & realized nothing was gonna Happen...LOL...My step Daughter, laughed & took her from me saying, "Oh Honey, Mommy has the Dairy, NonnaVon only has Pillows!" Everyone bust out in laughter! Tried to hold her again...she tugged my face this way & that, pulled my necklaces, then caught sight of her older sister & that was the end of that! She adores her sister & when she's fed, her Nappy is dry, all she wants is her Big Sis!

      We all began to realize what time it was, when Mom & Dad said they had to go to bed, Sarah & her Family Had an hour long drive a head of them & DH really needed to get some sleep, as we were leaving First thing in the AM. We got our Daughters Family off & that's when I realized that Scott still wanted, needed to talk...I could tell that he needed to get things off his chest...I guess, just in case he's gone longer than we expect! We ended up talking another 45min or so, Took some great pictures (I need to download, still) I told Scott that no matter what has happened, the past is the past, That I Loved Him & knew it was to soon for him to feel anything other than a blossoming Friendship for me & to Keep alert, his head Down & not to Vollunteer For Anything While in Iraq! To my Surprise He Gave me a Giant Bear Hug, said he was sorry & that he would be coming home, cuz he has a child on the way & had to try My Spaghetti...he has quite a sense of Humor! The water works began, So I just Kissed them Both, let his wife know she can call any time & Wished them safe Journey, until we can get together again! smiley12.gif

      I had a hard time sleeping that night...lol...I was on emotional overload, overly tired, not used to sleeping alone (guest room has 2 singles & not enough room to push them together smiley2.gif ) & the mattress was to hard & short! In the Am, Mom made Apricot Crepes...YAY Mom! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif She's the best!!! smiley12.gif While I got ready to go & made the beds, DH helped his Dad fix some DooHickey on thier Car & picked Grapefruits, oranges & lemons off thier trees to take home! The grapefruit was frozen, we took them anyway...yeah, they were bitter, that's ok! We Stopped by My Sister-n-Laws House to see if she liked the cds I burned for her & if she would like some Jethro Tull & a few others!? She gave us some Fresh caught, Smoked, Alaskan Salmon, her Hubby's Sister brought back from her job in Alaska...Can you say "YUMMY" ? We were more than happy to take some of it off her hands!!! smiley0.gif Salmon is my Favorite Fish!!! Finally, 2 hours later( so much for early departure, lol) we said our Goodbyes & were on the road again...lol...my body was already starting to complain! That's what the meds are for...Took one, tried to stay awake, to keep my Honey company, feel asleep anyway...Sorry Honey! Woke up when we were about 2 hours from Home...we'd bee on the road for 2 1/2. We stopped for fuel & to get a bite to eat & stretch our legs...both tired, bu pleased on how our 2 day Trip had turned out! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

      Wrote (e-mailed) both kids, haven't heard anything from them yet...but knew that he was going back in the Field again for more training & that any free time they had would be spent Together, not on the pc. I can Wait!!! smiley8.gifsmiley1.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

      oops...lol...this one was longer than it was supposed to be, Sorry! smiley12.gif

    • Thank You Everyone!!!

      10 years ago

      MoonFire77

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      Hope Everyone has a Fantastic Week & for those of you that are ill or are just having a crappy time...Hope you're Feeling Better Soon!!!! smiley12.gif

      Loves-n-Hugs smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

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  • Comments (697)

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      I answered your tennis ball query in my journal... thought maybe it would knock out more birds with the same question on there, lol.

    • Killartist1

      10 years ago

      awwww sorry to hear you dropped ur art class.. but family does come first! and I'm just glad you put them first smiley0.gif
      yah i understand the supplies cost soo much.. and the teachers don't even give u much time to even get them =/
      glad you got a start on getting some of the supplies lol anyways take care!! I hope everything works out =)

    • Lorrry Rawrie

      10 years ago

      I'm doin gooooood... a bit tired and hungry... sippin on coffee. x)

      ugh, my jaw still kinda hurts. i went to the dentist yesterday smiley7.gifsmiley4.gif got some fillings put in x]

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      Well I shant be fighting fate no more, for I am tired of fighting, and all fight has left me.
      I shall try and have a good day, if it is better then yesterday, I wont complain.

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      To be honest with you, I have never heard the full poem =(

    • DocRossim

      10 years ago

      You can pretty much find the whole series of Megas XLR on youtube. It's basically a huge ongoing parody of pretty much everthing -- from Transformers to Sailor Moon, from Godzilla to Battle of The Planets, from Gundam to The Smurfs!
      Though mostly featuring Giant Stompy Robots.

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Yep, I think I took 3 or 4 images but finally wound up using only 2 I believe, lol. Or was it three?

      *stupid short memory*

      I need more GB. smiley0.gif

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      I don't ever expect to see an anser, just hope to see one...and I be hanging on tooth and nail. But thank you.

    • Lorrry Rawrie

      10 years ago

      Oh pooh.... nothing good in San Fran or San Jose? smiley6.gif

      meh.. oh well... it'll prolly be more complicated to study in another country... heh =/

    • Marbiuel

      10 years ago

      Hey Momma! smiley0.gif
      What's up?! smiley12.gifsmiley0.gif

      ooh hehe, you know what's funny?
      well I got to school about 30 minutes before my class was to start, nobody was in there...I got this strange feeling that either a.)class was canceled b.)class was moved somewhere...I got so nervous, just stood there for awhile, there was a sign on the door, but that was for another class, so I was getting more confused as time went by hehe smiley6.gif

      So I went to the library for a few...and just to make sure...went back to my class, and tada! there was class. smiley6.gif

      ...oh silly brain..

    • Lorrry Rawrie

      10 years ago

      WEST!!!! smiley0.gif

      <_<

      >_>

      Any nice media/I.T. schools near Castroville? smiley8.gifsmiley8.gifsmiley8.gifsmiley8.gifsmiley8.gifsmiley12.gif
      lol smiley6.gif

    • DocRossim

      10 years ago

      What if you could do it naturally by short-cutting through space, like Nightcrawler?
      I for one would love to instantly visit my friends in far off parts of the country, and indeed in other countries.
      But, as the old Betelgeusian song goes: "If you have to take me appart to get me there, I won't go!"

    • JediJesus87

      10 years ago

      You really don't know?

    • travlr

      10 years ago

      Reminds me of the time my mother-in-law, who worked as a glorified babysitter for troubled teens, ( being a residence supervisor nights at a boarding school) woke up for work and looked outside to see piles of 'stuff' alongside her trailer and wondered what kind of animal left their poo behind! It was because her hubby had cleaned out the gutters while she slept, and what she though was animal poo was actually piles of rotting tree debris! LOL

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Did I send you what you wanted. I re-read your comment and noticed you said something about pictures so I got confused. Or am I confusing you now with my confusion? LOL I better stop while I'm ahead or we'll both be completely lost, hahahaha.

      The project is still going. In fact, I meant to ask you if you had at least a couple other images I can use other than the one self image you posted the other day. I haven't got to yours yet so I want to get that out of the way while I have the chance. It can just be a photo of nature or whatever, just something of yours.

      I would say I'm half way through the list. But I'm taking my time too, not rushing it. I have a "release date" in mind too, so it won't be too awful long from now, lol. I sound like I'm planning a premiere, heh!

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      This is the one that particular color came from...
      Color codes

      And yes, they can be used anywhere as long as the site you post on takes color codes. And most do I would imagine. I'm sure there's the exceptions but I've never experienced them. You use them the same way as you would a text color 'word', you just replace it with the code.

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Regarding the photos:
      No, I don't know cause I wouldn't want to do that. I would never make monetary gain for something that is free as nature itself. I'm happy and content sharing through my eyes. If it were a painting or something I did from my own two hands, then it might be different. Just depends. But I don't have to think about that angle cause I can't draw or paint worth crap, lmao!

      But yes, people have told me that on many occasions. (About the photos, not the drawing, haha!)

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Oh hai thar! lol
      The color I used was #999933
      Do you want the color code chart I use? Well, the one that came off of? lol, I have a few charts I take colors from.

    • Raptor_Alpha FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Thank you for the mod on my journal comment. Have a good weekend.

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Oh yeah, snow fairy, that's right... uh huh... sure thing ....
      I really don't remember that honestly. smiley7.gif My stupid short memory span. smiley4.gif lol

    • Copy001

      10 years ago

      Wunderbar.

      You have a nice day, too.

    • Copy001

      10 years ago

      I appreciate your kindness and thoughts.

      It was a good day. I got a chocolate cake with chocolate icing. And banana-split ice cream.

      Yay!

    • Copy001

      10 years ago

      Thank you very much. Your thoughtful birthday wishes touched my heart.

    • travlr

      10 years ago

      They are working on keeping the puppy mill from re-establishing business, as they didn't have the necessary permits for a kennel to begin with! They also are going to work at keeping them from reclaiming the dogs that were seized! Being mostly small purebred dogs, they shouldn't be hard to find homes for, as most of the dogs in shelters tend to be the larger variety people can't keep if they move, or they just can no longer afford to feed!

    • DocRossim

      10 years ago

      Thankyou, I shall try, but I have paperwork.

    • Lorrry Rawrie

      10 years ago

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      lol shweet!
      i didn't have breakfast today. woke up late, didn't have time. smiley6.gif
      i DO have.. Soup in a cup... i should.. drink it... heh

    • Lorrry Rawrie

      10 years ago

      tell her i said "WAKE UP OR I POKE YOU!" smiley7.gif

      funny-pictures-cats-wonder-if-you-are-aw

    • Lorrry Rawrie

      10 years ago

      i feel sleepy. *yawn*
      mmm coffee....
      soon i shall be...
      funny-pictures-your-cat-had-too-much-caf
      nah thats more like Maryl lol.. amirite? smiley6.gif

      FTW is For The Win! smiley0.gif

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      It's ok, not a problem whatsoever. Here for you anytime, day or night. I seem to be on here all the time too, lol. My home away from home.

      The cloud will move way for what's behind it in it's own time. It always does. Sometimes we seek the beauty behind the cloud, but the cloud holds it's own beauty and place in line.

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      The photo project is turning out to be funtastic, lol. I just finished doing a dry run with the first set and I've already made some little improvements on my basic idea.

      The finished product isn't gonna be anything overwhelming. But the way it's presented without overcompensating the original images is what I'm going for. Just something put together in honor of the friendships I've made on RvB. smiley0.gif

      So, how are you doing today?

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      The reason I do love her, is for who she is.

      As for the depression, I have battle threw them before...and come out the stronger in the end.

    • travlr

      10 years ago

      Thanks for the info on the pain treatment, I'll call and see what I can find out about it.
      I showed hubby your newest picture of yourself and he thinks we could be related,
      I did lose touch with a cousin who moved to Euereka many years back,
      I can't remember her married name, or I would have found her by now! LOL
      However she is older than I, so unless your age is incorrect you can't be her!

    • Marbiuel

      10 years ago

      hehe smiley6.gifsmiley0.gif
      I'm going to bed now as well.

      Oh! I'm going to leave the Application papers on my desk...or maybe I'll just put them on the table. smiley8.gif
      Ok Sleep! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • Stonesword

      10 years ago

      They sold a CD collection with all their magazines on it.

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Re: The Donnas drummer..
      Oh yeah! That's what first attracted me. I was channel surfing one day and saw this hair flying and head banging all about so I stopped to listen and thought, hmm, this sounds pretty good, then I thought wow, she really is getting into the drums, awesome! Then I drooled when I saw how cute she was, lmao! The rest is history, haha! I became a huge Donnas fan that day. Check out a YouTube video by them, the guitar player is pretty good too.

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Yeah, I know, lol... and the Choctaw and Cherokee are so close, the language is really close. So close that some words are the same in both languages.

      And one set of tribes you speak of from that area are known as the "Five Civilized Tribes". The Choctaw, Cherokee, Chickasaw, Creek and Seminole. The Seminole still are a huge part (in numbers) down there. But if you check out the history of Oklahoma, you'll see that the land there was split up amongst different tribes, including the 5. It's even more visible to those who recognize the names of the towns and cities in OK. Take a close look at some towns, for example in southeastern Oklahoma, a lot of those cities and towns were either named from Choctaw heritage or actual Choctaw words. Each tribe settled in a different part of Oklahoma.

      I don't know if you, but Oklahoma is actually a Choctaw word meaning "Land of the Red Man", loosely translated. The spelling is isn't exact but "Okla" is taken of the word 'land'.. and homa is taken of the word 'red'.

      Funny thing is I'm from Broken Bow, which is a small town way down in the southeastern corner of OK. However, the town was named after Broken Bow, Nebraska, haha! Which has their own native heritage, but that's another history lesson, lol.

    • kornutz

      10 years ago

      yeah the kids here are cool. they love me :P thats why it isnt so stressful. just tiring. once your in, sit back in relax :)

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      And light travels pretty darn fast, so I hope it reaches you much sooner than later. smiley8.gif

    • travlr

      10 years ago

      Haven't spotted the coyotes again, however my cats have been waking me at the same time every night around 2am to 3am, so I'm reading their anxious about what they're seeing outside! The wildlife agency said it was because some 'hicks' are putting their food scraps out for the wild animals instead of disposing of them properly, therby attracting the wild animals closer to habitated areas! We have a prime example of your 'mud stickers' kitty corner from us, with their back yard to the woods! Alot of people around here use the dump that's about five miles out of town, instead of garbage pickup which is expensive in comparison to hauling to the dump. We have three cans and go every six weeks! It cost us between five and ten dollars each time, in comparison to paying about five dollars a week for weekly pickup! We put everything possible down the disposal and anything else is kept sealed in jars or frozen till we make a dump run. And I recycle all I can, as well as wash everything before it's stored in the cans outside! Otherwise you run the risk of attracting bears!

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      Thank you, and may the light at the end of the tunnel grace you soon!

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Yeah, just don't go changing whatever you do, by trying to cope. The heart and mind will always be at battle. I hope you do find that solitude moment inside yourself to keep the two at peace, in the times they need to be.

      Keep the faith is all I can muster up at this time. We've all come this far and no matter how bad it gets, as long as we can still maintain, we must be doing something right. It ain't over till it's over. *hugs*

    • Stonesword

      10 years ago

      I get along with my mother-in-law as well.

      Glad you liked it

    • C16H14N2O

      10 years ago

      Tea party! lol

      Don't sweat it dear. My ol lady is the same way as you. She is the worry-wart in our family. Did I just flame you by calling you a worry-wart? LOL! You know I mean well. Wordage and all that, lol.

      You just speak what you will, it's all a part of communication and you know it's good to get things off your mind by writing about it. I mean it helps alleviate the pressure, no matter what the subject matter may be.

      And I'm the strong willed one who can take it all in, manipulate it and produce something good in return. Like this comment for a fine example. smiley0.gif

      So you just continue speaking your thoughts and feelings and we will just simply keep communicating. It's just as much a part of friendships as anything. And you should know by now, how big I am on friendships.. don't you? LOL!

      Don't I just sound so full of myself? LMAO! don't answer that,hehe!

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      May my week look better, and may 2009 start treating you better!

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      I know all about abusers targeting the abused helpers...my sister went threw 4 bad relationships, and all of them came after me...untill they realized I don't back down from a fight...expecially when it concerns a woman being abused...and as for her hubby, he has already started targeting me...got a nasty message from him via face book...so I sent a calm and collect one back to him...8 hours after I read his...seein it took me that long to calm down. But he has come to realize that if he touches me, he looses everything. So his lovely wife told him. So yea, I am watching my back...and I have a few others watching it for me as well...just in case.

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      Glad to be of help, and thank you for your advice...even though I know my heart shall be bruised, for seeing any woman in an abusive relationship hurts me, more so when it is a good friend of mine...it is just who I am. But she knows any time she needs a shoulder she can always count on me.

      I have been told by many my best quality is also my curse...the fact that i care about others, and have a big heart.

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      Ah...crystal clear...thanks, and I have no intentions of taking it any further then a friend. Should she leave him {of her own free will} and later down the line come to me, then I will wiegh my options. But untill that days comes...which I doubt it will, all i am to her is a friend...and as I learned today, her only friend outside her home.

    • TheEvenStar

      10 years ago

      Well, Honey...at least you didin't dance on a table naked or mess around under any Kilts!!!

      I don't think so!
      The book is an account of the author's travels in Scotland - as related to the history associated with each area. It is called 'Desire Lines, A Scottish Odyssey' - and the author is David R. Ross. I can just barely remember telling him how to spell my name - so I wasn't completely blacked out I guess.

    • Shadowveil26

      10 years ago

      I didn't understan TheEveningStar's comment on my journal...and I don't quite grasp what you mean either...either I am getting old and senile well before I should {quite possible} or I am just blind, and having a blonde moment {again, quite possible}!

    • DocRossim

      10 years ago

      Indeed!

      and thankyou.

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