It's been a while...again. I'm not sure how many times I'm going to keep saying that.
I've been working a lot. I had one Full-time job. Now I have two Part-Time jobs. I still have my current job, but I'm also working a Part-time Security position at the LA Convention Center. I was told of an open position and how much they get paid. I'm not sure how much longer I plan to keep doing Security as it was supposed to be temporary until I found something else. To be honest, I developed different attachments along the way.
I thought about whether or not to pursue a Photography position or if I should stick to Freelance/keep it as a hobby. A part of me feels like working for someone or somewhere may take the fun out of it for me (ex. having little to no creative control of my work). I don't know. I do love doing events though. I've been doing events almost right after getting home from working Grave. It can be worth it even though I'd be tired and sleep deprived.
As busy as my sister and I have been with work, I often have these hankerings for doing some kind of creative endeavor, whether it be Photography or Video. I admit, my desire for doing more video editing has dwindled over the last few years. I think being in this, "I need money now", mode has sapped away my happiness for what I loved and what used to fascinate/inspire me. I remember someone at my internship mentioning that if I'm in it for the money, I'm in the wrong field, or something like that. It's something that I need to work on and have my creative flare reignited.
It has been difficult, especially mentally, because my sister and I have been pampered for most of our lives. Not to say that our family was well off, but we didn't have many financial obligations. We didn't worry about paying rent for a while. Now that we have an apartment in our name, it's been difficult for me to deal with having all of these responsibilities, as well as a job that stresses me out most of the time.
At work, I escorted someone who was new to the area and she was trying to get used to the layout of the mall. I was telling her that I was doing this job to support myself, as well as my love for Photography. It turns out, she also does Set Photography. I was surprised and fascinated. We follow each other on Instagram and I've been following her work. I have another coworker who has done Freelance Photography for years. It was interesting hearing his stories about his work and how a former flame was an Actress.
Hearing these stories, I try to remind myself to do what I need to do in order to support myself while doing what I love. However, if I find something else along the way that doesn't stress me out, that would be nice.