NeoSilex FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

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    • Hospital

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      Today was my first day of school after getting home a therapeutic hospital.

      Well, let's start with why I was in the hospital in the first place. On Sunday night, I had a relapse of my depression. My father triggered my relapse, which I am usually able to control myself from. This time, I wasn't as strong.

      Sunday night, I reached for ibuprofen. With shaky hands I poured some pills into my hand. It started with only six, little over but not much. I gulped them down with tears stinging my eyes. About a minute later I upped it to ten pills. Not a big overdose in my opinion but to everyone else it was.

      I looked up the lethal dosage of ibuprofen and wasn't shocked that I had taken 1/3 of the lethal dosage. Next, I wrote a note to my sister saying that if I start vomiting or lose consciousness to call 911, she read the letter and started crying. I called my mom to talk about moving with her.

      That conversation was two hours long, but it was needed. She told me to go to the councilor at school on Monday. I listened to her instructions and went.

      The cops came, an ambulance came and took me away. I went to the hospital and was sitting in the bed, refusing to see anyone, for eleven hours. I was then transferred to a therapeutic hospital where I spent the next eight days.

      While I was there I was diagnosed with major depression, ADHD, mildly-severe social anxiety, and anxiety. I finally got the pills I have needed for five years which makes it hard to focus and make me high/loopy.

      The first day back was interesting to say the least. A lot of people ran up to me and hugged me. I felt so loved in the moment. School started and I started running around to get my grades situated because I dropped from a 4.0 to a 2.6 GPA. I couldn't/can't stand that. The second of third part of the school day I hung out with two friends. And to finish my school day I hung out with five other friends.

      So, all and all, the outside world is better than a hospital that strips you of everything you have and you are under strict watch and under stirct rules.

    • I got a job!

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      After two months of searching, I got a job!

    • Forgiveness

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      Yes, people make mistakes. People screw up all the time and sometimes these mistakes are known to the one making them yet they continue. These mistakes can have huge after affects. Like a break up, loss of friendship, sometimes even death.

      It's hard to forgive sometimes, you hold on to the anger and do unthinkable things if you didn't hold on to it. Threaten another, hit another, call the cops, kick someone out of the house. A number of things.
      If you loved this person and because of the mistake the relationship is gone and you moved on then you go to hold this grudge, did you really move on? If you ignore the problem for most of the time but something triggers the grudge and you do the unthinkable, did you really move on?
      Forgiveness is part of moving on. You don't have to go and like the person but don't go on bad mouthing this person because of what happened to you. Don't go and keep the grudge and eventually do the unthinkable. Let go. Truly move on. This person doesn't have to be constantly in the back of your mind. They can continue being in your life as an acquaintance (like for an ex or something) like if you have to talk to them, talk to them with respect because they are still human. Humans make mistakes. You make a lot of mistakes too.
      If a mother who had her child murdered, can forgive the murderer - you can forgive someone who damaged you.

    • Tears

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      Tears for no sponsorship. :'(

      The star is gone, my heart is broken

    • Sponsorship

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      My sponsorship runs out tomorrow and my sister won't renew it for me like I asked for Christmas :(

    • So, this happened

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      Bought the AH flag, AH blanket, and the Ten Little Roosters poster <3 Happy birthday to me

    • 3 years ago

      NeoSilex
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      NeoSilex
    • Happy Birthday

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      Happy bithday to me

    • You'll Never Know

      3 years ago

      NeoSilex

      You'll never know how much you mean to me. You'll never know. I met you a little more than a year ago and since then we've been friends. You live across the country, We don't talk too much but we still keep in touch and it's my favorite. Thank you for being in my life :)

  • Comments (5)

    • Sakine

      4 years ago

      Just wanted to say thanks. I made the minimation at the end of AHWU 255 and I appreciate your comment :3

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

      thanks for the add! smiley13.gif

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        No problem! smiley1.gif

      • NeoSilex FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        4 years ago

        Glad you accepted it! ^-^

    • AbelK

      4 years ago

      can I get access to the Google Doc with the TLR stuff? Please smiley1.gif

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