Hello there lovely people, hope you're having a fantastic day today!
I have been 18 for about a month now and I've been thinking about getting a tattoo for a few years now. I know a lot of people look down on people who rush into getting tattoos done the moment they turn 18, but I don't think I could have waited much longer to get mine done, it really holds a whole lot of meaning for me.
Before I go on with this, I'll tell you what I got done. (Or show you, if this works right?)
They say 'half agony, half hope' on my wrists. It's a quote from Jane Austen's novel Persuasion ('I am half agony, half hope.') so I thought it was only right to get them done in the handwriting of the great woman herself (or as close to it as I could get).
So uh. There's a long winding story that goes along with this but the upshot is that I've come pretty close to suicide a few times and each time a sense of hopefulness for the future has stopped me. There's always going to be that little bit of agony from my depression that lingers in my life, but I'm never more than half agony. Because I always have that half hope.
I mean, I took the line WAY out of context, in the book it's part of a declaration of love which, heh... But it's always resonated with me in a different way and Jane Austen has always been one of my absolute favorite authors, even from a young age when my mum used to read me the abridged versions of her novels. So everything about this is really very close to my heart.
I've had them done for about a week and a half now and the picture above is from the day they were done (seeing as they're all scabby and gross now.)
But I'm so happy I got them done. Hopefully they'll keep reminding me that when times get rough, there is always hope.