Pabzlobo75

Male
from Same place as Madison

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    • /Rant

      10 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      So the last time i was on here was about 8 months ago. Thats a long time. Everything looks really different from what it used to, although i could have sworn that I was a 51 when i left lol. Oh Karma. I hope everyone has been doing alright and that you have all had better lives than I have had in the last few months.

      About three months ago now I entered a very deep depression and turned to alcohol to help me sleep. I didn't get smashed or anything, but just enough to put me to sleep. The cause of my depression? My girlfriend Emma Brick was leaving for summer camp after only having spent 2 weeks back from our year dealing with her being in Milwaukee and us seeing each other only once every 2 to 3 weeks. I really missed her a lot she was my best friend. Secondary scource was all the family shit that I still have going on. To date my mom owes me upwards of 5 grand that i have "lent" her in order for my siblings to have food on the table because nothing has gone through the courts. Fuck the court system. Anyways that happened for a bout a month, the drinking. I got to see Emma about once a week. Every weekend through out the summer i got to see her less and less and she just seems to be going through the motions. Go visit Pablo, go get stuff ready for camp, and go with people to a staff party every god damn weekend.

      By the end of the summer I didn't love her any less, i just felt cast aside and used like i was something she could just throw away if she wanted and not have second thoughts about it. I talked it over with my good buddy mike and we came to the conclusion that I should wait until all of her camp drama died out in order for me to bring up that we had issues. This maybe wasn't the best idea sing as the next day after she came back from camp we were moving in together. But she was different while she was at camp and its almost like she was a different person. I didn't want to talk to camp emma about our relationship i wanted to talk to the girl i fell in love with so that i could find out why she was pushing me away so much even though we were going to be living together...

      We lived together for about 2 days before she just started being a rancid bitch to me. She and I got into the biggest fight of our relationship ever that night and it was all about how apparently i am a judgmental ass who hated all of her friends and who was way to controlling because i got upset that her ex boyfriend who she lost her virginity to was casually inviting her over at midnight to a party and she wouldn't let me respond and tell him to fuck off. Maybe telling him to fuck off was dramatic and controlling but really what guy wouldn't do that?

      About 5 days later is when it happened. She was having a bunch of camp people over to party for her birthday which was the next day. she asked that me and my friends not be there because she didn't want to mix groups of people and she was still being a rancid bitch. Well...I figured fuck it, let her have her night and just let her have one last blow out party with her camp friends before her birthday and i will just chill with people.

      I hung out with my friends and met a whole slew of new ones and ended up deciding to stay over at my buddies place. About 3am, we finished watching taken. I had the choice of sleeping on the couch or walking for half an hour in order to go back home to my drunken gf and all of her her camp people. I for some unknown reason call it God, call it karma, call it what ever you want, but i decided to leave and go back to my place.

      I walked alone for half an hour to my place. I texted emma and asked if she was awake so that i could talk to her and make sure she was ok. She never texted me back so i figured everyone was alseep. I walked in really quietly took off my shoes and walked into my bed room. I only had my black berry out but it was enough light to see that there was someone there with her. There she was with him. Him in his boxers hugged around her and her with nothing but her underwear on. I turned on the light in utter amazement and all i could say was, "what the fuck?" The guy woke up first. And then emma. She just looked up and did the palm to face. I told the guy to get the fuck out of my place. he did without saying a word. I started sobbing at the realization of what had happened. at why she had been pushing me away. She had been cheating on me.

      How long I asked
      like a month
      How far?
      Don't make me say it.
      *broke down sobbing again* You fucked him?
      *sad sigh* yeah.

      At that point i left and i just broke down asking ever frat boy and girl from my apt to the memorial union about 15 blocks away what i should do. I ended up just meeting up with some friends that ended up gettin gme to stop sobbing and hyperventilating and after 2 beers and about .5 hours of sleep I decided that i was moving out. I got my friends and we kicked everyone out at 6 am. and i started moving out.

      Fully moved out and alone and feeling shitty i was going to go get trashed with my friends to forget everything, and then she calls me. Completely broken down and asked me to come over to talk to her. I did. I went over to her place and we talked and talked and talked. We basically decided that we wanted to try to make it work. I made her text him and tell him that she was never going to see him again. I coudlnt go back into the room so we pulled out a small futon and we slept next to eachother on there. The next morning, i had a list of things that i needed from her in order for us to work.
      1. She could never so much as hear from this guys again or see him or ever be with him ever. No matter what.
      2. We both get tested for STD cause she fucked him without a condom every time.
      3. We needed to start over. Just start like dating again and see if we could make that work because I coudlnt trust her.
      4. if we were going to be together we needed to move out of the apt. (I to this day have not been able to go back into that room)

    • Happy Christmas

      10 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      No, I'm not British.

      Yes, I am a tool.

      I can pretend, right?

      Happy Christmas, one and all!

    • Just a Quickie!

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Hey guys hope you're all doing well. Had a massive work week last week and I was just way too tired to even open my computer up lol. I just had a nice little weekend, I had Friday off and skipped Saturday because Emma, the girl i've been dating for over 11 months now, came down from Milwaukee so we hung out for most of the weekend.

      Nothing really new to report, except for that I'm getting the force unleashed for my sex box tomorrow, and then I have all of Tuesday and Wednesday off so I will probably be lost in that. ^_^

      Hope you are all doing well.

      Peace out!

    • Differal?

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Well, I'm taking atleast a semester off if not the entire year. Its a really long story that consists of four weeks of me getting ignored by sever different departments and me finally causing a scene today and calling people fucktards and getting to see the assistant dean of Letters and Science....pretty cool right. So yay no school for me, but...fuck no school. Just going to be working my ass off to try and save up some money and then definitely try to transfer out of Madison to some other UW school like Milwaukee cause i really cant be here and deal with my parents shit and be at home and hope to do well in school while being super stressed about all of my problems here.

      The entire perpose of college is to get drunk learn, and seeing as me staying at home and all the problems here caused me partially to do terribly on my senior year, I cant afford to fuck up the real deal, right?

      Well anyway, I am working nearly full time at best buy, but i'm probably going to try to pick up another job because i guess that even though they scheduled me fore 3 weeks straight as full time, I'm still not full time....I don't think thats legal, but w.e.

      Any Ideas as to where else i should apply. I can do pretty much anything, I Graduated HS and am still considered a student at UW Madison, i'm just not taking any classes.

      What do you guys think i should look for? I already have a massive discount on pretty much all the electronics I could ever need. So i kind of want another job that will pay well but also have added benefits, like getting 80 bucks off of HDMI cables ^_^...

      ANY IDEARZ?


      I hope you're all doing well. And to those of you starting college now, enjoy it for me, I get to take a brief pause into the real world XD lol.

      Peace out <3 <3 <3

    • Well its about time i was born again.

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Hello everyone. Thanks to those who still comment. I am still very much alive. I have been really busy with work and life and well...life. I wont bore you with any sort of a long journal entry, but i just wish to tell everyone that i still do pop online once in a grand while and try to catch up. well there it is.

      bad grammar and all!

      <3<3<3

      Peace out ^_^

    • You Hold That Forces The Against Rise

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Just read it backwards....duh...

      Anyway, it has been about 2 months since my last post. Yes i am alive. No i don't have much time. Even though its summer i have been doing a lot of stuff and a lot has happened. First off though, i managed to pull off a rediculous essay for Am. Multi lit and i graduated. For some reason a lot of people are convinced that i didn't graduated...which is weird and kind of annoying because i have literally had atleast 3 people who have brave enough come up to me and say, " So i hear year headed for summer school", or "The Don got ya didn't he?", and my favorite "so...did you graduate? oh you did...I thought for sure you wouldn't make it, but I'm glad that you did, cause summer school would have sucked." My response to all of the questions has been yes, thank you very much, for doubting me that is.

      People are stupid.

      I got that job at best buy! yay discount!! Its pretty cool and everyone there likes me. I think my supervisor likes me a little too much, or he just hates everyone else, but whatever the case, he schedules us together all the time. I have had only one shift since i started working that i haven't worked with him, and that was the morning that I opened my department, Media, alone. If anything though, it just means that i will get a nice raise when my three month review comes! ^_^.

      My dad is back now, i am not sure if it is for good or not, but legal separation stuff is happening, FINALLY!. It took for fucking ever but they are trying to settle out of court. So far its been decided that basically my Dad has to pay the debts, but my mom has to use her Salary to feed, clothe, and get anything that we may need. So basically my moms monthly salary is about $1,500..Divided by 5 people thats, $300, so me and my siblings along with my mom each get $300 to provided anything other than shelter. Not terrible, but thats not that much if you break it down and do the math, but we'll make it work.

      The results look disgusting though for college. I'm supposed to be going to UW Madison next year, but well...Lets just say we don't even have a dime going towards that right now. Thanks to my dads little affair and extravagant presents, and extending our home equity to its limits...college=maybe not happening, even with me working. If push comes to shove i think i'm going to try to get a loan. but time will tell.

      But anyways, I must be off again! Busy busy busy.

      Thanks to those who still comment, kinda surprising, but it means a lot.

      Peace out!

    • Aw Crap.

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Been a while since I've been on, as always. Figured i would just kinda drop a line.

      My Xbox broke. It really sucks. 107 bucks to get it fixed...God damn...


      The last few months have been pretty good. A lot of stress at school and what not. nothing really new. Emma and I celebrated our 6 month anniversary last Friday, and everything is still going great. I've been getting better at guitar too, which is pretty cool i think.

      I am finally going to have a job, at least I hope I will. I went in for an interview on Saturday for a job working the "Media" section of our west side Best Buy. The GM Paul pretty much loved me. He likes the same type of music and bands that I do, so a good 1/3 of our interview was just talking about music. He told me that I would almost certainly get the job, providing I pass a drug test, which i took today and I'm sure i will pass with flying colors. Once I get the Job i'll be getting $8.25 an hour. Not bad at all for a part time starting salary, especially considering that all i am really going to have to do is talk to people about movies, music, and video games.

      My dad is coming back from Mexico on Thursday. I think he will be here for like a week and then leave again, Thank god.

      Nothing really that exciting has been going on really. Just trying to finish my senior year, and live through until summer.

      Peace out till later.

    • GAMES!

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Well, whats really sparked my interest in new games is that i find them to be a huge stress relief, and my life is quite stressful at the moment. that and i sold a bunch of my games (around 21) and got over $125 towards game stop. I already spent some of it towards paying off SSBB for the wii. along with a copy of ninja giaden(original Xbox) and its used guide.

      Ninja Giaden is simply hard and annoying and if i really wanted to beat it i am sure that i could, but playing a frustrating game is not exactly on my agenda at the moment.
      I have play through almost every 360 game that i think is good, and some that arent, so i am looking for a good new game to play.

      I have a 360 and a Wii.

      Preferably i am looking for a game to play on co-op with my brother who is also quite the gamer.

      Any suggestions that leads me to buy a game will lead to some mods.

      Thanks ^_^.

      Peace out!

      oh, P.S.
      I went to the docs today and got a new Rx. So i pretty much cant feel the pain. ^_^.

      Peace.

    • asdf

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      its 2am and i have a migraine. its this rediculous pain that i have in the back of my eye ball. it feels like someone is jabbing a needle through it from behind and its quite unbearable. I took some narcotics(doc Rx'ed) so i should pass out in about 40 minutes but until then i get to write around in pain and type this journal with my eyes closed.

      GAhwdd this hurts like no other.

      So yea i have been trying to follow lost as best that i can but i missed the last eppisode and i am going to thave to wait until next thursday to catch it because my computer is stupid and i cant get the online player to work, so yeah. awesome....CHARILE IS ALIVE!!! i konw he is...anyone who says that he is dead can shove it up their ass,,,, sorry i am very defensive about him and i'm quite irritated at the moment.


      Moving on, i got into UW Madison. Woot Woot. Now i just need to find the money to pay for it and need to find the money to pay for a dorm. My mom wont sign the forms and if i sign and cantpay for it later than i get stuck with like five grand worth of debt that i have to pay off just for housing...fucking rediclous.

      My mom just wants me to stay at home, but i want to get out of here. things with my dad are just going off the deepend. Hes pulling out accusations that she was cheating on him now and its all bull. on top of that hes spending 28% of our income on himself...i did the math...and on top of that we're supposed to have 30% more this year to pay off debts, instead that 30^ is all going to him and his whore...awesome...My mom had to take a loan out to pay for my school cause my dad was too busy with his whore to leave any money for my education...real classy right

      on top of that, my dad hasn't done any taxes or anythign like that, and until thats done i cant file for federal aid for college and since i cant get that, i cant apply to nearly every scholarship that is need based, and i pretty much need a full ride.

      My dad just keeps fucking me over...

      Love life is good, still with emma, almost five months now...longest relationship i've ever been in. i am confident that i will alst for a long while. College is gonna be tricky. but we shall see.

      anyone got any good game suggestions? I have beaten every game i own with the exception of ninja giaden which is just more annoying than fun. its way too hard. also i rented no more heros for the wii...i am playing it on the harder of the two modes, but i cant get past this one boss who every teme i need one or two more hits just uses this long range attack that kills you or a close range combo that kills you. I litterally played for 3 hours and didn't beat this boss. the game seemed pretty simplistic anyone...give me some Zelda over that any day.

      This migrannnie is jsut unforgiving.

      i seriously am just dying here.

      These things get so bad i think of how much less pain i would be in if i were dead. i'm not suicidal or anything, the pain will pass i know that, its just that its terribly maddening.

      anyway, i am gonna go lay down now. See if i cant pass out and get some peace.


      Peace out...sorry for the waste of time.

    • I am a furry bastard.

      11 years ago

      Pabzlobo75

      Well its seems like all of you were shocked at the amount of facial hair that I have...I've had it for a while...Just never started letting it grow out.

      You have 5 more seconds to freak about it...4...3...2...1...and done.


      I missed 4 days of school and the HW is raping me, which is why i must bid you farewell. Adios.

      I hope you all enjoyed this PSA(Pablo Service announcement).

      Peace out.

  • About Me

  • Comments (1642)

    • Dieter24

      10 years ago

      I recovered my tag at a friend's house and have been too lazy to recover it at mine again, haha. I can probably do that later today.

      Unless I forget.

    • Dman82

      10 years ago

      Same here, I'm just taking a small break from the triple-shifting at UPS for the moment before I go back to work later today.

    • Dman82

      10 years ago

      Long time no see man. How have you been.

    • GokuBlade

      11 years ago

      hows customer service? one of the funniest that I encounter was
      cust: this movie sucked!! I want a refund or exchange for another movie
      Me: well, sorry man but that kinda the point of renting..its to see if you like it or not. If every customer did that we wouldn't make any money. Just drop it off here and I'll check it in ^_^
      cust: but this movie suck :@
      me: *face palm*

      lol

    • GokuBlade

      11 years ago

      damn! i work at bb since I'm going to a community college to get all my credits so I can finish up at the university. Working for bb a melow for me :D. oh yeah were starting to sell game systems too. its crazy! and were asking people to pre-order the new games that are coming out too like gears of war 2. lol rumor has it that there going to experiment with other stores to sell HD Tvs >_<. At best buy, does inventory suck so much?

    • GokuBlade

      11 years ago

      lmao

    • Madison

      11 years ago

      Pretty Good, I've got 3 Film Classes, One Math, and One English.

      Two of the film classes are film concepts/theory, so all we do is study film. The other one is a very basic film prodution class, which is what I want to get into. I;ve only had 3 days of classes, so I don't really know what they are like that much. But living on my own is pretty cool. I really miss Ashley, but that is about it in Madison. Its sweet to be on my own, eating what I want, doing what I want, whatever. I love it.

      You should come here next fall, we could get a place together!

    • Madison

      11 years ago

      Oh fuck, you didn't move. Or start school yet.

    • Madison

      11 years ago

      How's school going?

    • muellertime

      11 years ago

      what up girlfriend??

    • Kabuse

      11 years ago

      <3

    • Madison

      11 years ago

      God Damn It. How come nobody told me? Now I've gotta look for another person to bring

    • Madison

      11 years ago

      Damn, I wish you were going. Oh well, we are still going up to Lefty's on the 23rd, right?

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      I don't need to be specific! You know why? Because I'm me!

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      Very carefully, haha

    • Madison

      11 years ago

      Well, depending on how I feel, I may quit. My current plans are that I am starting a leave of absence on the 17th, with vague plans to come back for christmas. I don't know if I want to fulfill those plans.

      Hey, are you coming up north to the camping thing? You should.

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      Rofl, Pabzy playing WoW! How cute! You should make a character on Frostmane, cuz that's where I'm going to transfer my main character to as soon as I get some cashola.

    • ringo6483

      11 years ago

      No... mynamesmerk!

    • ringo6483

      11 years ago

      No, but I think that guy over there does...

      His names Merk!

    • Kabuse

      11 years ago

      It must be a cover-up! There's no other explanation!

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      Oh you cack. GET A NEW ONE!

    • Cerberus_

      11 years ago

      Huh. You know, that's not bad. That's a lot better than our Target cards which have a ton of fine print.

    • UT_TEXAS_17 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      I'm decent........things have been better. I've missed a lot too....

      How've you been?

    • Kabuse

      11 years ago

      Here's hoping.

      <3

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      You shall have more... eventually, haha.

    • InsaneDC

      11 years ago

      They have the song up for download on their website.

    • DumpsterMutt

      11 years ago

      Dude. Awesome. smiley8.gif

    • DumpsterMutt

      11 years ago

      OMG dude, that's awesome!!! If they come to Red Rocks, I'm definitely going. smiley8.gif

    • DumpsterMutt

      11 years ago

      PABZ!!!!! PABZ, PABZ, PABZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!

      Perhaps a little over the top.......hi there, how ya doin'? smiley8.gif

    • Crusadious

      11 years ago

      I like it better because you can do more stuff and there's a lot more environmental crap.. so you can kick people in spikes and stuff.

      Also way better bosses and a harder story.

    • muellertime

      11 years ago

      But did you get EVERYTHING??

    • lefty

      11 years ago

      No, it's actually a third person shooter/rpg.
      It's KOTOR in space, I guess, although I never played those games.

      The good part is that as you level up you get to choose to upgrade your abilities and/or learn new ones and that goes for your squad as well.

      Also, when you start the game you get to choose what kind of abilities your character has as well as how the character looks.
      I chose to be a straight-up gun-using tank, for example.

      The interesting part is that in combat you can actually dictate to your squad what abilities of theirs you want them to use (like shoot that guy, use that ability on that guy, etc) or you can just let them fight how they want to.

    • Crusadious

      11 years ago

      Ya I have it.

      It may look like Dark Messiah from the screenshots, but in a way it's like that and Dark Alliance if you've ever heard/played that.

    • Crusadious

      11 years ago

      Dark Messiah, H3, and the Orange Box are some good ones.

    • muellertime

      11 years ago

      why did I think of the movie Psycho when you said shower scene???
      Idk....well at least it was your mom and not like a roommate or something. That would have been bad...I personally would have a camera on hand to relive the event but thats just me.

      Hope ya feel better soon!

    • EntrpcChaos

      11 years ago

      Thanks again.....and I prolly won't be stopping in Mad Town this trip. I'll be back on the Harley with Javis when the weather gets a bit better and we'll get together then. I'm just anxious to get home right now and get things started around there.....hope your back is feeling better!

    • muellertime

      11 years ago

      when and how did you get hurt??
      you gonna be ok?

    • EntrpcChaos

      11 years ago

      Thanks Pablo! smiley12.gif

    • muellertime

      11 years ago

      frekin' pimp!!
      get some sleep!

    • Cerberus_

      11 years ago

      I tend to hate people and/or teams who always seem to win. It makes the game boring to watch. Which is why I don't even care about the Super Bowl that much this year

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      It depends what level you are, but it took me 3 days to level from 69 to 70, though some people can do it in 1.

    • EntrpcChaos

      11 years ago

      Indeed it has! LaVonn and Javis went to Milwaukee today. If I could've gone we could've had dinner! Ah....I'll be out that way in spring sometime for sure! Have a great Xmas Pablo!

      I haven't seen Mark online in forever either - tell him I said HI when you see him!

    • Kabuse

      11 years ago

      Mine was pretty good, too. Went to school til 2:10, then hung out with friends and family til around 8, went home, played XBL, then watched Ace Ventura 2 on DVD. How's school for you?

    • Kabuse

      11 years ago

      How's your Thanksgiving?

    • EntrpcChaos

      11 years ago

      Whats up bro? Hope you had a good day and ate lots and lots of turkey...or something else equally as good...lol.......gonna watch 'Death Proof' tomorrow.....

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      Yo, I broke up with Nikki. Found out she was cheating on me. Meh. What a bitch. Anyway, later that day, I found out another girl liked me since before we started going out. So I asked her out, haha. So hooray for me! Gonna post a journal with more details.

    • lefty

      11 years ago

      I hear you. I played on ron's account and was taking on level 25+ guys and was best on my team with like 275+ points as a level 4.

      People think that if you're late into getting online you'll be screwed. Honestly after you score your 25th kill with whatever weapon you'll get that red dot sight and I consider the playing field even at that point.

      I think I'm a 24 or 25 from playing at Ron's so I'll be good to go by the time I pick up my own copy.

    • EntrpcChaos

      11 years ago

      ...well she doesn't have to know...lol.... smiley8.gif

    • EntrpcChaos

      11 years ago

      You might get to see it soon....there's a chance I'll be going to Milwaukee on thursday and coming home on monday. If that happens I could ride to Madison on sunday and we could meet up for some chow. I'll let you know what happens....

    • Dieter24

      11 years ago

      Well, kinda. I get the gratification of my picture (with my waitress kissing me) up on the wall, and I'm also the only person to get a kiss at any Hooters restaurant in all of western washington.

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