SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

23 years old
from Philadelphia, PA

  • Activity

    • I miss being happy

      1 year ago

      SamichMachine

      It's been awhile; but it usually is. whoops. probably not going to fill in the rtx 2018 app just because i don't think it's realistic that i can go, seeing as i've been officially unemployed for a year.


      i've been in this, like, drowning state for awhile, as well. emotionally, physically, etc. it's been rough, and i really miss not feeling like this. i dont know how to exist without this overwhelming cloud of sad, and it's just getting worse and worse.


      ugh. idk. i feel stuck. idk what to do.

    • No More RTX 2017

      2 years ago

      SamichMachine

      i hate to make this journal. it honestly hurts to write. but about a week ago, i was let go from my job with zero warning or explanation (which i eventually had to email them to find out, and has nothing to do with me), which means i no longer have an income. and cannot afford traveling to RTX/austin whatsoever to be a guardian for my 4th year in a row. quite honestly, i have no idea how im going to be able to afford anything tbqh. but that's life, i guess??


      i finally turned 21. this year was gonna be everything, and it's gone just like that. this is also the 3rd job i've lost within the span of a year, so i'm kinda just down about everything.


      if you're willing to help a hoe out, i'm gonna throw my venmo and paypal below. literally anything helps, and if you can't, sharing this post wouldn't hurt.


      thanks guys. sorry for the downer. <3


      https://venmo.com/SamichMachine

      https://www.paypal.me/SamichMachine

    • FU Day???

      2 years ago

      SamichMachine

      Holy fucking shit, kiddies. I'm the featured user??? this is weird. I don't like it. someone fix it.

    • I'm Not Dead; I'm Just Really, REALLY Tired

      2 years ago

      SamichMachine

      hey friends!


      college has been a lot. remember how i said i'd try to do a journal every month? lol that didnt happen. or week? did I say week? welp. anyways.


      i transferred to UArts, and lived in the dorms– the first semester ends in two weeks, and i'm freaking out about it because i have a monologue that im gonna suck at happening, and then two papers i have to do.


      i mean, in the grand scheme of things, it's not much. but im tired and lazy and avoiding my work is going to be the death of me, isn't it? 


      i'm doing tech this week for a show called ruination y3k– it's an interactive piece i'm literally sworn to secrecy over, so i cant say more, but it's gonna be amazing. it's the type of theatre i want to do. and i was supposed to be there a 3pm, except a PECO generador exploded underground to the firefighting foam flooded up and has spread all over near the school, and the power's still out in the ONE building we need access to. so i'm currently on-call for tech, which is an annoying limbo to be in.


      i should probably mention i dont work for eastern state penn anymore. they fired me when i was absent too much at their haunted house due to illness. which sucks. i might be called back in the spring?? who knows. either way, such is life, i suppose. trying to find another job to replace it has been a bitch, tho. maybe when i turn 21 i'll just work at a bar or something and hope to god i make good tips.


      soooo, that's it for now. back to waiting to get called.

    • 8AM Tomorrow

      3 years ago

      SamichMachine

      Last night, and this morning, I kept waking myself up freaking out that I'd miss my flight. At 8AM on tuesday. AKA tomorrow. Which is a sign I'm both eager, and excited, for RTX.


      However, I'm somewhere in between. This is going to eat a hole in my wallet when it comes to financial stuff, and I'm the definition of stressed, because I'm probably going to be returning home with zero funds. Yay.


      Either way, RTX. Here we go.

    • I'm 20?? And College Update

      3 years ago

      SamichMachine

      So I'm a few days late, but holy shit. I'm 20 years old. How the FUCK did that happen? I remember signing up to be a Guardian when I was 17 and hoping to the gods I'd get it– three years later, here I find myself.


      It's kinda surreal– the fact that I'm watching time go forwards and I feel kinda stockstill in time as it progresses. Like, I wanna be moving forwards too, and, for awhile, I wasn't.


      Now, however, I have a for year uni I'm going to be going to come the fall, and I'll be living in a dorm, so it's just now me finding out how to wrangle enough cash in to be able to afford it for the next three years. RIP me.


      Either way, I'm moving forwards now. And that's what counts.

    • The Unintentional Dream Job

      3 years ago

      SamichMachine

      So, okay. Over the Halloween season [September-Beginning of November], I worked at a haunted house called Terror Behind the Walls. It is held in Eastern State Penitentiary, an abandoned prison that has now, since, become a historical site, museum, and overall rad place to be. If you aren't afraid of ghosts that is, seeing as the place has had so many various people die there over the years it was actually a prison. [In case you're wondering, my role was The Chainsaw in Detritus– an outdoor zone that was tribal and decayed and AMAZING. I held a real life chainsaw most nights and got to touch ppl w/ it [the chain was removed, no one got hurt], and it was literally the best.]


      However, in the wrap up email, they sent a message asking if anyone wanted to work on the part-time Event Team staff. Seeing as I've worked comic cons since I was 14 [either as a vendor os as actual staff], I decided, what the hell. I'll sign up. Little did I know I would wind up working at the best place ever [aside from RTX/Rooster Teeth, OFC].


      Not only is everyone amazingly nice and friendly, but it's super LGBTQIA* friendly, as well as containing a shit ton of ppl like that, as well! They respect pronouns, gender, everything. And that's just one reason they're rad. I mean, we housed a Game of Thrones themed event where the staff got to wear cloaks and talk in character-eqsue. It. Was. Amazing.


      I just... even though it's part-time at best, I have never been happier. I love love love staffing events, and this is just my cuppa.


      HEART YOU HOMOS! <3


      P.S. I think I'll try to do a journal next week about me possibly transferring schools/the audition. I don't know if I'm accepted yet, so I wanna wait til I know before I write something full on out. <3

    • Laptop whyYYYYY

      3 years ago

      SamichMachine

      So, my laptop decided to suddenly shit out on me today. Well, yesterday? Basically, the hard drive went for no other reason besides the fact that it could, and now all my files are gone. So, here's to new beginnings, I guess?

    • Questions for the Universe

      3 years ago

      SamichMachine

      Is there ever a point in your life where you stop feeling so sad all the time? So miserable and so alone? Because I'm gonna be 20 in May and I don't think there's ever been a point in my life where I've never not been at least slightly miserable.


      And yeah, yeah, I know. Depression. It's a bitch. Whatever. But I just keep hitting this wall where I think I'm getting better, and then I spiral downwards again and again. To be honest? The only thing that truly keeps me going to the fact that I have RTX each year.


      I just..... I need to figure this out. I need to get out of this forever funk, but I don't know how. And it kinda sucks.

    • HIGH PITCHED SCREAMING

      3 years ago

      SamichMachine

      IM A GUARDIAN IM A GUARDIAN IM A GUARDIAN AHHH

  • Comments (41)

    • cyd0nia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Cosmic Floof

      3 years ago

      Hiya! Thanks for accepting! Congrats on being a Guardian!!! :D

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        3 years ago

        No prob, thank you for the FR! And eeee thank you!!

    • Julia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold elDiablo

      4 years ago

      Dual Dagger Lady Rogues is the best thing ever. Of all time. Thanks for accepting the FR!

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        Hypehypehypehype. The fact that RTX is months away physically wounds me, tbh.

        And I should cosplay that. Maybe make a circle hole in the cape or out of see-thru material so the back of my shirt is visible. Something like that.

      • Julia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold elDiablo

        4 years ago

        The struggle.

        Ever think of cosplaying as that? I feel like they should let you work in costume. It just falls together you know? smiley6.gif

        The hype is real!

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        Yeah– we're all hopelessly romanticized towards a dream, and we all strive towards it, even when the struggle is hashtag the struggle.

        And yeeee, I'm super con girl. Or, at least, I pretend to be. Makes me sound cooler. Comes with a cape in my mind.

        But like cons are a++ and you're gonna love love love it, I promise.

      • Julia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold elDiablo

        4 years ago

        Dat experience tho! Sounds like you have had plenty of fun and you clearly love it if you continue on with it for so long.

        I am definitely in support of people doing what they love as a career. Obviously XD I think it's why this community tends to be close.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        I've worked at a booth at Philly Wizard World, NYCC, Baltimore Comic Con, and Otakon. I've only ever been Staff for RTX and NYCC, altho I should hopefully be staff for C2E2 and a comic con that's happening at the big public library here in philly.

        And cons are the beeest. I want to make a career out of working with/for them, tbh. I just love 'em in general– never felt more at home in my life.

      • Julia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold elDiablo

        4 years ago

        That's pretty amazing. RTX was nice enough for me but I just couldn't seem to get into the fan mode of it? I kept wanting to help people XD

        What cons have you worked at? I haven't been to any so it's cool to hear about them!

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        I've also been working conventions since I was 14, so it feels weird to not staff them now. Attending is fun and all, but staffing is where the fun's really at, tbh.

      • Julia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold elDiablo

        4 years ago

        the stupid rose. I wanted to throw it at him and yell "WHY ARE YOU AN ADORABLE MAN CHILD THIS ISNT RIGHT" but it didn't give me that option.

        Go big or go home! That's awesome! I don't know if I would have had the guts to do it last year smiley6.gif

        Guardian hype.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        Let's be real– when AREN'T there tears over Alistair? My blond dumb dorky husbando, king of both Ferelden and my heart.

        But yeah– last year was my first time at RTX, and my first time Guardianing. Go big or go home, right?

      • Julia FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold elDiablo

        4 years ago

        No, I just attended RTX! No Guardianship :) was last year your first time as Guardian?

        This year we'll meet and it will be amazing and prob tears because of Alistair.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        thank you for sending it! were you a guardian last year?? I don't think we ever actually met and I, for one, am upset.

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

      Thank you for the add, lady! Congrats on the Guardian status as well! smiley0.gif

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        Np yo! Welcome to the crazy train!! <3 Hope you enjoy it lots. I know I sure as heck did.

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        Hahaha, well enjoy the rest in that case!

        Thank you again, I'm definitely gonna work my ass off! smiley0.gif

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        No, man, I'm running on four hours of sleep, hopes, and dreams. I'm gonna crash haaard tonight, absolutely. After I finish adding all of the new guardians, that is.

        And congrats on getting in!! It's always rough when you don't get accepted; I was a lucky one who slipped through the cracks (although working at conventions since age 14 does help a little bit)

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        I applied the last two RTX's as well but didn't get accepted, so I wasn't really thinking about it much. Jumped out of my seat when I saw the e-mail today! Hahaha, well now you can rest well! Unless the excitement is too much!

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        So am I! Feel like a newbie all over again. I have barely slept over the past few days bc I've been so freaking nervous.

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        Hahaha, thank you! I'm so excited! smiley0.gif

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        4 years ago

        EEp, no problemo, friendo! Congrats yourself, and welcome to the crazytrain! <3

    • Willowfield FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold 5x Guardian

      5 years ago

      <3

    • Tuuli

      5 years ago

      Hello, are you a fellow Guardian this year?

      • Tuuli

        5 years ago

        lol you should be golden then! I do too, I know the feeling. I really hope I do special quest or vendor assistant! I was assigned to a vendor last year, but I couldn't go because of work issues. I worked in the store the year before that. Anything would be fun though.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        Honestly, I'm fine with anything so long as it isn't strictly outside. Because I will burn to a crisp. I'm hella pale. How about you?

      • Tuuli

        5 years ago

        I believe there are under 21 events- they try to include everyone at some point. If you can check it out, you won't regret it. What position do you hope to have as guardian?

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        Well, I can't drink and I'm not sure if it's under 21. Also, i need to save up to be able to go do them.

      • Tuuli

        5 years ago

        Being your first time going, are you going to any of the Sidequest stuff. I *STRONGLY* recommend it - seriously, it is one of the best parts of RTX!! The guys who put it on are the best, and I couldn't begin to explain how fun it is.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        And I thank you for it! And yeah, but it's a different atmosphere, so I'm hella hype

      • Tuuli

        5 years ago

        Neat, so you'll know what's expected. Most people on here are quite lovely, was just trying to be helpful.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        First time going, as well as Guardianing. I've been working at a plethora of different cons since I was 14, however. And if it didn't fly with people, they shot me a message asking who I was, and explained. Everyone was quite nice about it. So thank you for the advice, but it's not 100% needed.

      • Tuuli

        5 years ago

        I understand. Just fyi, random friend requests don't always fly with everyone - maybe try messaging people first if it doesn't work well. This is your first time going to RTX or just Guardianing? :)

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        Eeyup! First timer. Sorry if the friend request seemed hella random. Just trying to make friends on the site and whatnot.

    • Royplayer89 RTX Guardian

      5 years ago

      Hello!

      Do I know you?

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      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        Haha, thanks.

      • Royplayer89 RTX Guardian

        5 years ago

        Hey.

        Alright.

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      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        Probably not, no, but I'm going to be a Guardian at RTX so I kinda scrolled through and read everything. And added everyone. Because I currently have no life and have been quite shit at making friends within the community. Sooooo yeah. smiley7.gif

    • Red_Uncle

      5 years ago

      Aspiring VA, eh? Always looking for an extra voice if I need one. Wouldn't mind a short demo or something.

      • SamichMachine RTX 2016 Guardian

        5 years ago

        I'd be more than honoured to assist. If you give me dialogue, I can voice that for you. I'm still in the process of making a demo, sadly.

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