Sari7x3

Female
from Lenox, MA, LA, SD, Sacramento, NYC...

  • Activity

    • I miss Berkshire County already...

      7 years ago

      Sari7x3

      I spent so much time while in SoCal fighting to get out of CA and back home to the people I care about... then I barely made it a month before I rushed to pack up and get on a plane... I have no real desire to go anywhere else, but I wasn't left with any other available option but to leave. Hopefully things will all work out. I already miss my family and friends... *sigh* well, I'm off...

    • 7 years ago

      Sari7x3
    • I thought it might be nice...

      7 years ago

      Sari7x3

      If the first thing seen on my page wasn't my previous journal entry as it is serious and kind of a bummer even though it's technically good news...

      I don't particularly have anything of merit to post... but then, when have I ever? Lol!

      Spent some pleasant time with Alex yesterday... tried some new... skills... what a blessing to have someone in my life that I can share these devlopments and this progress with, someone who genuinely understands it... so much of what's been going on has been utterly unbelieveable... having someone who is experiencing so much of it as well is definately a big help in keeping grounded...

      I do need to learn to ask for help when I need it... I have people in my life now (not just Alex either) who are willing and able to help me, but I always choke when I try to reach out for help.

      Oh, and I saw this on youtube... its gotten mixed responses, but I personally think its brilliant...
      clicky


      Sari

    • cancer update

      7 years ago

      Sari7x3

      Sorry, forgot...

      I never had cervical cancer. I had ovarian cancer. I was graced with going into remission, then I had a brief relapse, but now I am doing well..
      I will say I've been on painkillers for long enough that with how addictive they are, I survived cancer just to fight a drug addiction. But I can beat this too. Wish me luck!

      Sari

    • minor update

      7 years ago

      Sari7x3

      I know I've neglected this site, and I should be stoned for it... I hope you can forgive me please tell me what's new with you...Randy and I split up in an anticlimactic sort of way... we just was different things in life... we are family... we love each other very much... but not in anyway that would lead to a successful relationship romantically. We are still very close.

      It became painfully obvious to me that the primary underlying reason that no relationship I've ever been in has ever even had a chance at working is bc my heart does and alway has belonged to Alex... (BigAlGamer on here) and it has, as cheesy as it sounds, since I was 12 on the day he and I met. We dated at 16-17 for about 9 months... but I broke up with him bc I was going through a lot of difficullt things at that time and if I hadn't, he would have potentially skipped going to college to try and stay and protect me.... I have always loved him with all my heart, and I always will... breaking up with him then was in now way easy.... alll I wanted was to be with him... but we were so young... I told him then that if God wanted us together, we would get another chance... and here we are... I'm grateful and beyond blessed...

      Now go bug him (alex's handle is BigAlGamer) and tell him he's totally awesome and stuffs... lol...

      I miss you all! Leave comments or msg me...I'm beyond curious to see who's still paying attention to my useless ramblings...

      I love you all!

      Sari

    • Bed rest. BORING

      10 years ago

      Sari7x3

      being stuck on bedrest has left me with enough spare time to get on the interwebs best site.

      how is everyone?

      I have surgery coming up, an until then (and for two weeks after) I'm supposed to stay in bed.

      I am also in the middle of trying to move home to massachussetts to be near my family. goodbye Comic Con and hot girls on the beach, hello snow and working for free for my parents.

      oh.... I just checked to see how long it's been since I've been here, and wow.

      since my last post, all of the above happened, and have:

      My roommate stealing my pain meds and anything in my room that isn't nailed down.

      My roommate "accidentally" KILLING my beautiful himalayan cat that he was supposed to be watching while i was home for christmas and not telling me... he let me find out two weeks later when I got back and Cheese (the cat) wasn't there. in the interim, every time I called, he said my kitty was fine and even MADE UP STORIES of playing with him and feeeding him.

      My roommate (current event) trying to evict me after ransacking my room and not finding any drug or money to steal bc now that he is getting fired and can't buy painkillers on the street anymore.(not smart since that means my rent money is his only remaining income.

      My on again/off again jackass of a relationship actually PROPOSED to me on valentine's day at the duckpond. (we've only broken up about half as much as usual since then) LOL

      My oncologist thinks I will be okay after this surgery...

      I can't think of anything else atm. ask and I will reply.

      Sari

    • to all the ppl who left comments n stuff

      11 years ago

      Sari7x3

      FU too <3

      also, wtf?

      ~me

    • Cancer

      11 years ago

      Sari7x3

      okay, someone just brought to my attention that I never posted anything on here about my test results...

      okay: the official

      I have cervical cancer, they think.

      for those of you that don't know,

      I had it already. I had it removed.

      then a recent pap smear revealed "an unusual growth on the base of [my] cervix"

      so there are a few options for what happened

      1. doctor error
      2. relapse
      3. something worse than cervical cancer

      okay, one at a time now

      1. doctor error.
      cancer is definable at it's simplest as an uncontrolled growth of cells. the cells of tissue in your body reproduce by splitting... and sometimes a cell will reproduce WAYYY too frequently. and all the cells is makes, since they are a direct copy of itself, will also reproduce. so oe cell becomes two, becomes 4, becomes 8, 16, etc, becomes a tumor.

      so when they do a surgery to remove the cancer, they have to be very careful to get all the cancerous cells. if they miss even one, it can come back.

      2. relapse...
      sometimes remission doesn't stick. medical science has only come so far, and cancer is stil not something we fully understand

      3. something worse
      I hae been diagnosed as having Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome. so when I go to the dr for abdominal pain, and they find a cyst on my ovary, they don't usually investigate further to find out if it might be something else... they just give me pain meds and tell me to stay in bed till it ruptures...

      it's possible (in theory) that I may have had ovarian cancer for quite some time now, and that it is spreading to my cervix. meaning that removing it from my cervix isn't going to get rid of it, because that's not where it's originating.

      the reason this is scary, is that it would mean I've had it for a while, and if it's spread to my cervix, who knows where else...

      there is no known cure for ovarian cancer.

      so... that would be really bad.

      I've been offline for a while, because I've been busy... many drs appts, hospital time, pain meds and other things making me sleepy... and I have to admit I've been a bit panicy ad depressed.


      anyway, everything else has bees going fairly well.

      Randy and I moved in with friend's of ours in imperial beach... I love it here. I don't care what anyone says. :)

      ~Me

    • *sigh*

      11 years ago

      Sari7x3

      sometimes I really feel like the people I consider to be my clossest friends don't feel the same way about me.

      I hate it when I leave half a dozen messages for someone, telling them in each one that it is important, and that time is a factor, and asking them to call me back asap... only to receive no response.

      lamesauce.

      ~me

    • Wish Me Luck

      11 years ago

      Sari7x3

      I have my testing for the whole cervical cancer thing again today at 10 am.

      please keep me in your prayers...

      and I would love to come back to lot's of nice comments and messages. I'm super nervous and you guys always make me feel so much better when you leave even the tiniest comments.

      <3 you all.

      ~me

  • Comments (880)

    • Enforcer2005

      7 years ago

      Hey you. Miss you. Where are you in the world? Would love to talk to you sometime soon!

      • Enforcer2005

        6 years ago

        I sent you a request

      • Sari7x3

        6 years ago

        Skype anytime... Sari7x3 on there as well

      • Enforcer2005

        6 years ago

        Skype or Phone sometime?

      • Sari7x3

        6 years ago

        Massachusetts. I iss you too man!

    • Laird

      7 years ago

      Arriving, raising hell, and leaving. You?

    • SirDeeSee

      7 years ago

      Surviving. Staying out of trouble. What's been happening with you?

    • SirDeeSee

      7 years ago

      Whoa. Howdy, stranger.

    • DrJones

      10 years ago

      Glad to hear it.

      Same ol' shit pretty much. What have you been up to?

    • DrJones

      10 years ago

      Whoa, hey.

      How's it going?

    • Enforcer2005

      10 years ago

      Where are you? I miss you.

    • jackoff

      11 years ago

      hey......FU!!,={P congrats

    • spartan720

      11 years ago

      congrats on FU

    • bwhorns

      11 years ago

      congrats on fetured user

    • Felix_da_Cat

      11 years ago

      Congrats on FU

    • Enforcer2005

      11 years ago

      SARI I MISS YOU!

    • AmyTFalcone

      11 years ago

      No, FU!

    • MDewMan

      11 years ago

      congrats

    • screenaholic

      11 years ago

      Congrats on FU!!!

    • Matt_Sernaker

      11 years ago

      ha ha you are finally featured user!!

      Post edited 4/03/08 2:45PM

    • Enforcer2005

      11 years ago

      SARI Is FU! LOL YAY! <3333

    • mimegal15

      11 years ago

      Congrats on FU!

    • Terashima

      11 years ago

      congrats on FU you will get this message hundreds of times today

    • DarkKnight42

      11 years ago

      Your the RTs big FU!!! congrats!

    • cml1983 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      congrats on fu

    • longy

      11 years ago

      Featured User, Congratulations.

    • quinicosk8

      11 years ago

      congrats on being todays FU!!!

    • wine0

      11 years ago

      Sending some random love and positive thought your way. I hope you haven't been on lately because you are up and out and about. Wishing you well........ smiley12.gif

    • Bryy

      11 years ago

      Good. So tell me, do you have cancer?

    • OASAAS

      11 years ago

      just wanted to let you know that I am getting married, for REAL this time. No stupid petty relationship. And my daughter is almost two months old. If only everyone could be as happy as I amS03.gif

    • Bryy

      11 years ago

      Writing, looking for work.

    • Sokeri

      11 years ago

      That was a pretty old bog you must be pathetic to go looking for such things

    • Matt_Sernaker

      11 years ago

      read your messages :)

    • Bryy

      11 years ago

      Not in San Diego anymore.

    • Enforcer2005

      11 years ago

      I talked with Sir Randy for a while. Miss you.

    • rue_morgue

      11 years ago

      I hath sent teh request!

    • MsValentine

      11 years ago

      LOL One of my friends from Miami flew in, so Im not alone anymore smiley0.gif See ya on Friday

    • Enforcer2005

      12 years ago

      <333333333333333

    • Enforcer2005

      12 years ago

      XBL?

    • Enforcer2005

      12 years ago

      Evening. Tried Calling you....

    • Enforcer2005

      12 years ago

      Been wanting to call you...but haven't...I know you are a busy girl. <3 Miss you. I think I need to see you soon or else.

    • Enforcer2005

      12 years ago

      Would you shoot me please?

    • Enforcer2005

      12 years ago

      S37.gif

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      hey kiddo whats up?

    • Spiko117

      12 years ago

      It should only be the one reciept or two for the system and the HDD. Return those and the rest will redownload from MS because all that info is tracked from their side.

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      blarg you are no fun. you dont even play along...

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      destress by kicking puppies! thats always fun! oh or some other thing.

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      im sure you could figure out a way to destress...

    • Matt_Sernaker

      12 years ago

      I am still affiliated with the station at ucsc, and I have some friends with shows who wish to air it.

    • Trubo

      12 years ago

      who the fuck borked this page?

    • ABYSS_GK

      12 years ago

      SCHWEET! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • ABYSS_GK

      12 years ago

      Hey Sari, you serious on that invite?

    • neatoburrito

      12 years ago

      quit breaking your toys! that's why we can't have nice things.

      smiley4.gif

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