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    • WHAT!?!

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez

      I'm in a bad fucking mood! Don't fuck wit' me.

    • Paradigm Shift

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez
      "When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."

      ~Alexander Graham Bell


      This quote has great significance to me because it describes a transition I have been making over the past several months.

      For more years of my life than I care to recall or admit, I have looked upon every unsuccessful venture I have commited myself to as a personal failure and another strike against understanding the purpose of my existence. I have tried so hard at so many things and had them bomb so miserably, (as opposed to marginally, in which case I probably would have tried again and maybe changed my approach) that I began to think that I was doomed to failure until the end of my days.

      I began to believe this so sincerely that one day I woke up and just didn't give a fuck about anything or anyone. I didn't give a shit what happened to me and didn't give a thought to the possibility that someone would be hurt by my absence. And then one day, I met someone who I only saw as nothing more than my next exploit, ex-girlfriend or at worst, ex-wife. I wasn't looking for a commitment so it never occurred to me that she could be someone to whom I could commit. But she saw my attitude, aggression, machismo and bravado for what it really was; a desperate cry for help.

      Now she is a daily reminder of all the doors that opened around me that I never noticed because I was too busy pining over the doors that had shut. I realize now that I have wasted gigawatts of energy on all the negatives in my life and I have fed that attitude like it was a stray that followed me home. It is pretty large now but I am fighting against it with a vengance. I have rededicated my life to squashing every self-destructive tendancy I've ever adopted as a way of life. It is not always easy, and sometimes I feel myself slipping back into that old comfortable skin that I've worn for so long. But I recognize a lot of the signs that are consistently present when I'm about to go on a mission of self-inflicted misery in the guise of fun. When I see that I am entertaining the same old thoughts again, I re-double my efforts to live the rest of my life as positively as I can.

      When I found the quote above it was a reminder from God not to give up on myself. I intend to adopt it as a philosophy of life which is why I am posting all of this in my journal. I want documentation of my rebirth as a reminder of where I've been and from how far I've come.

      I also hope that it will serve as an inspiration to anyone else who might see this and can relate. If it keeps one person from giving up on him or herself, then it'll have successfully served it's two-fold purpose.

      "I can accept failure, but I can't accept not trying."

      ~Michael Jordan

      I try to repeat this to myself as often as possible and everytime as necessary, (epsecially when I'm about to miss out on an opportunity for fear of failure).

    • I could attest to this... it was me...

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez

      And then I shifted my paradigm.

      "When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."

      ~Alexander Graham Bell

      For more years of my life than I care to recall or admit, I have looked upon every unsuccessful venture I have commited myself to as a personal failure and another strike against understanding the purpose of my existence. I have tried so hard at so many things and had them bomb so miserably, (as opposed to marginally, in which case I probably would have tried again and maybe changed my approach) that I began to think that I was doomed to failure until the end of my days.

      I began to believe this so sincerely that one day I woke up and just didn't give a fuck about anything or anyone. I didn't give a shit what happened to me and didn't give a thought to the possibility that someone would be hurt by my absence. And then one day, I met someone who I only saw as nothing more than my next exploit, ex-girlfriend or at worst, ex-wife. I wasn't looking for a commitment so it never occurred to me that she could be someone to whom I could commit. But she saw my attitude, aggression, machismo and bravado for what it really was; a desperate cry for help.

      Now she is a daily reminder of all the doors that opened around me that I never noticed because I was too busy pining over the doors that had shut. I realize now that I have wasted gigawatts of energy on all the negatives in my life and I have fed that attitude like it was a stray that followed me home. It is pretty large now but I am fighting against it with a vengance. I have rededicated my life to squashing every self-destructive tendancy I've ever adopted as a way of life. It is not always easy, and sometimes I feel myself slipping back into that old comfortable skin that I've worn for so long. But I recognize a lot of the signs that are consistently present when I'm about to go on a mission of self-inflicted misery in the guise of fun. When I see that I am entertaining the same old thoughts again, I re-double my efforts to live the rest of my life as positively as I can.

      When I found the quote above it was a reminder from God not to give up on myself. I intend to adopt it as a philosophy of life which is why I am posting all of this in my journal. I want documentation of my rebirth as a reminder of where I've been and from how far I've come.

      I also hope that it will serve as an inspiration to anyone else who might see this and can relate. If it keeps one person from giving up on him or herself, then it'll have successfully served it's two-fold purpose.

      "I can accept failure, but I can't accept not trying."

      ~Michael Jordan

      I try to repeat this to myself as often as possible and everytime as necessary, (epsecially when I'm about to miss out on an opportunity for fear of failure).

    • Thug Philosophy 101

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez

      It’s the survival of the fittest and this kid is out to get his
      By any means be it from the illest to the legitest
      ‘Cause in his mind this shit is thick and every brick
      He steps ohn is a stepping stone to his next vic
      For a stick or a quick pick pocket he’ll not get
      Denied the last head that tried he had to rock it
      To sleep wit’ a lullaby gave that skull a fly
      Speed-knot it’s your choice to heed or heed not
      ‘Cause he’d rot in a shallow grave rather than be broke
      Blunt smoke got ‘im faded as he takes anotha toke
      Set to loc on suckas and bitchass muhfuckas
      Who wan’ test but don’t kno’ he’s quick to bring the ruckus
      And they luck is just about to run out when he runs up
      Wit’ the gun out it's funny how nothing moves but the money
      But it betta stay runny till the well runs dry
      ‘Cause if not those who get shot by the guns die

    • Note From Self

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez
      Hey...

      ...

      Hey Buttwipe!

      WHAT!?

      Listen. I just wanted to let you know that I finished reading those items you wanted me to read.

      Well, it's about gotdamn time.

      Hey, why are you talking to me like that? It ain't my job to sit up here and do your homework for you just because you're too lazy to do it yourself. My life doesn't stop just because you call. I'on appreciate you taking your frustrations out on me, especially when you need me.

      Sensitive li'l cockbite today, ain't ya? What happened? Somebody watered down your cocksnot? I told you before, you better get used to it, Nancy. Quit yer bitchin'.

    • Note To Self

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez

      Self?

      Huh?

      I need you to make sure that you read the following items in their entirety:

      Comments to D's journal
      Flaming Day
      The Satan Thread
      The Jesus Thread

      Fuck! Why don't you read that shit yourself? The fuck do I look like? Your bitch? You want me to give you the answers to the Trivia Thread too? FUCK! YOU!

      You better get used to it, Nancy. Quit your bitchin'.

    • My Avatar is too sexy for myself!

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez

      If you like the new avatar, my friend Nossmoy made it for me. He can do it for you too. Just ask him. And I'm out like a boxer with a glass jaw.

    • Ode to a Playa

      14 years ago

      ShadowStylez

      I decided to give these lyrics their own space in my journal.

      Tucker’z in tha whip // on hiz shoulda iz a chip
      He’z rockin’ tha mad bling // and lookin’ for honeydip
      Tha chick betta be bangin’ // and if she’z winnin’
      He’z gonna take her to tha bedroom // to hit tha linen
      There’z gonna be sinnin’ // Tucker’z gonna tap datass
      After that he’z changin’ hiz name // to L. Badass
      Rad as he wanna be // Tucker haz no shame
      And Church cain’t keep up // cuz hiz game iz lame
      Hiz claim to fame iz Tex // and she’z got ‘im sprung
      But she ain’t impressed // maybe becuz Church ain’t hung
      Like Tucker // that Millenium Badass Muhfucca
      Every girl he met who thought he wuz sharp // he stuck her

    • Personal Tidbits and Random Facts

      in Forums > Personal Tidbits and Random Facts | Follow this topic

      ShadowStylez

      Kathleen Zuelch, who is the voice for Tex had the coolest idea in her most recent jounal entry. She decided to share some personal tidbit of fact about herself but she wanted others to do the same. I thought it was awsome but then I realized that I couldn't track the journal entry to see what folks were posting so I thought, why not make it a thread topic. So without further adeiu I will share the comment I posted to Kathleen's journal entry. Feel free to share any personal tidbits about yourself. After my initial post, I will return from time to time to drop a few small jewels about myself.

      Kathleen, please don't sue me for jacking your idea. I have no money.

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  • About Me

  • Comments (2451)

    • fireworkpete

      13 years ago

      Yeah, don't worry. I'm not stupid enough to release information I'm not allowed to. Thats why I was intentionally vague... The event was on the news, but I didn't want to go shouting it all over. I prefer not being in jail... :-)

    • fireworkpete

      13 years ago

      I just wrote the second part of the update if you are interested. It has some details about what actually happened. Though wait a couple of mins, I just remembered I should put in something I forgot about.

    • fireworkpete

      13 years ago

      I'll have to get back to you on that, Whats your street address...? :-p

    • damonix

      13 years ago

      hey.....tis the 15th....sponsorship?

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Oooh.. bummer... it's cool too. smiley3.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Hehe... you'll like this girl then... smiley8.gif I so need to make myself one of those outfits. *lol*

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    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

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      I actually perfer to have the force be with me, but love this image. Hehe. smiley8.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Oh my I feel like I'm over staying my welcome in your comment section... smiley8.gif

      My modem went out on me earlier when I tried replying to you.... I'm not actually from Vegas, have never been; but do look forward to going. A group of us decided a little RvB shindig should be thrown there next July, so the thread was created for getting to know each other better and to just have fun eventually planning for the event... more or less a cooler BAR thread with a purpose... eventually. smiley8.gif So, I am officailly inviting you to drop in and watch the thread, take part and get to know everyone who regularly posts there. We have a lot of fun. smiley1.gif

      Post edited 8/14/06 6:12PM

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      You should come join in the fun in my Vegas thread... we talk about pretty much anything and just have fun... due to the reasoning of creating it, the whole "stay on topic" bit doesn't much apply.

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      I try, I try... happy to succeed. smiley8.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      smiley0.gif You're awesome... everyone should know. Have a great week, hon. smiley8.gif

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      13 years ago

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      13 years ago

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      13 years ago

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      13 years ago

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    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Thanks sugar... that was more or less directed towards you anyway, it was just against the rules of the contest to ask directly in a message or comment... hehe... my text should have been a link, but HERE is the contest - remember to only post my user name or the vote won't be counted. Thanks, Reggie! smiley8.gifsmiley12.gif

      Post edited 8/13/06 7:48PM

    • Katyara

      13 years ago

      Um...Lick Shot? What's up with that? ;)

      Maybe I don't wanna know - hee hee

      Kat

    • bluteamsucks

      13 years ago

      i didnt really care i just felt like tellin yall those mazes were easy as fuck

    • damonix

      13 years ago

      ill ferget.....but ill try

    • damonix

      13 years ago

      can you sponsor some1 for me yet?

    • Fascism

      13 years ago

      Thanks dude! Now I'm going to sleep because my brain hurts. Goodnight!

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Yup. smiley1.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      The second one is being a pain, though.

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Thanks. I like these kinda games. Tricky. Mind-boggling!

    • damonix

      13 years ago

      neg mod? ive enver givin a neg mod....except once....me and my friend kyle had a neg mod war....=P that wuz fun

    • spartin777

      13 years ago

      check my jurnal plzzzzzzzzzz and that gose to eny 1 who reads this.we have a pritty chunk of info in there and if u dont want to check it out i just have to say thanks for your time.

    • I_am_God

      13 years ago

      yeah just because he doesn't have a brain it doesn't mean the rest of us are stupid. OoM ep 2 YAY

    • sinshell

      13 years ago

      your welcome

    • sinshell

      13 years ago

      i like the journal entry

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Ahhh... hotels, I bet that does require quite a bit of travel. Do you enjoy the work?

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Awww.. that's a bit disappointing. So what do you do that keeps you busy with travel?

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      So do you play Halo 2 online at all?

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

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      Good morning! Hope your day is even better than the day before! smiley1.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Awww.... you're too kind. smiley8.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Today is a new day. smiley1.gif Here's hoping it's a good one.

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    • wrapper310

      13 years ago

      Virginia? Hmm... well good luck with that.

    • wrapper310

      13 years ago

      Hmm.... not much I guess. I mean things are fine and dandy like sour candy, but I'm just really bored. Finishing up summer school, drawing a lot, watching tv... and that's pretty much it. I should be doing summer homework, but I just don't feel motivated right now. You?

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Hehe... glad you liked it. My day is going kind of blah... I feel a cold coming on. smiley2.gif Oh well, at least I had a half day of work and I can just take a nap with my daughter after lunch. Hope your day is going great. smiley1.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

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    • Zimmy

      13 years ago

      Oh so it was you who bought it for me? I was wondering why gfunk would have bought me a sponsorship smiley6.gif

      Thanks!

    • I_am_God

      13 years ago

      im getting better should be ok for school nxt week, yeah out of mind is better every time i watch it , i downloaded it as soon as i saw it lol

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Absolutely, sweetie. smiley8.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      *sigh* Awww... officially in e-love. smiley8.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

      Yay! You even gave me 5 mods for that... I think I love you! smiley8.gif

    • MariaDawn

      13 years ago

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    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Sounds like fun smiley1.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      I'd say... "happy" is a good word, isn't it? smiley8.gif

      Nothin much goin on over here. I was just working on part of a writing project that I was way behind on, but i'm finally catching up. What's new with you?

    • MusiczSpirit

      13 years ago

      yup.. that's me too. hehe

    • vampx

      13 years ago

      nothing much, just about to post a new picture.

      how about you?

    • TomTThomson

      13 years ago

      *chuckles* Same to you.

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