Steffasaurus

Female
from Portland, ME

  • Activity

    • 730 Project - August 4th

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 08.04.11. Steff. On Congress St. (in Portland, ME). A slice of Otto's pizza (mushroom-cauliflower).

      'Za and a 'Saurus

    • 730 Project - August 3rd

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 08.03.11. Steff and Hillary Collins Gilpatrick. At Guthrie's (in Lewiston, ME). Vegan burritos (filled with spinach, refried beans, mushrooms, and avocado) with tri-colored tortilla chips on the side. For dessert? A vanilla and black raspberry soft serve twist from Dairy Joy.

      Lesbian Spank Inferno

    • I love being a promo girl!

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

      I love being a promo girl!

      I really do. And I'm good at it, too.

      I am proud to say that I've been a promo girl/beer model consistently for five years now. I've worked for Jack Daniels, Heineken, Amstel, Newcastle, Dos XX, Coors, Blue Moon, Guinness, Red Stripe, Smirnoff, Captain Morgans, Absolut, Malibu, Jameson, Jim Beam, Jose Cuervo, Hornitos, Wild Turkey, X-Rated, Tullamore Dew, and Skyy Vodka.*

      And that's just what I can remember.

      I was born to do this shit.
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      And what makes it totally worth it?

      The awesome friends I've made along the way . . .
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      *Days later and I remembered that Twisted Tea and Corona are also in that list.

    • Maybe It's Me

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

      Voice, or, True, Necessary, and Kind

      When a virus attacked my vocal cords jeopardizing my ability to speak, I quickly realized that I had lost more than the ability to make sound.

      I had lost my voice.

      While physically it’s the range of sounds distinctive to one person made by the controlled expulsion of air and resonance of the vocal cords, having voice truly means so much more than that.

      Voice is our unique personality, tone, inflection, or style of articulation. It’s being able to convey ourselves with strength and conviction our opinions and attitudes, our knowledge and information with others. Verbal communication is an integral component to how others understand us.

      And, maybe it’s me, but if verbal communication is “10% what we say and 90% how we say it,” then how can we effectively express ourselves if we can’t physically say anything one way or another?

      Being unable to speak immediately presented huge problems. I couldn’t call out of work, and I couldn’t phone my doctor’s to talk to them about what was going on with me. I couldn’t explain to the pharmacist what had happened, and I couldn’t say thank you to the cashier. I couldn’t swear at the bad driver cutting me off, and I couldn’t greet my neighbors.

      So everything I wanted to say, I said inside my head instead. Great, lengthy conversations and short, quick quips resonated between the walls of my brain building unnecessary pressure as they were unable to be released into the world to be heard by the people they were intended for.

      Because I couldn’t speak.

      And because I couldn’t speak, I had to exert the extra energy to drive to work to physically show them what was wrong with me. Because I couldn’t speak, I had to go into the emergency room and make gestures with my hands; I was taken care of immediately since I couldn’t explain to them what was happening. Because I couldn’t speak, the pharmacist didn’t ask me the usual questions and just trusted me; I appreciated that level of customer service so much more than I ever had before. Because I couldn’t speak, the people behind me in line at the cash register visibly thought I was rude when I didn’t answer the cashier’s questions; the cashier, on the other hand, saw there was something wrong with me and smiled politely. Because I couldn’t speak, I was a much more patient and forgiving driver. Because I couldn’t speak, the most I could do was smile and move quickly away from my neighbors to avoid any real interaction.

      It was a strange, exhausting day.

      And I never said a word.

      Despite the fact that I knew it was a temporary problem, spending so much time in my own head led me to start obsessively worrying about what would happen if it became a permanent health issue. What if I had lost my voice for good? I would still be me, but it would be much more difficult to project that to people without being misunderstood. I knew I was strong enough to personally adapt, but I started thinking about all the little things I would no longer be able to do . . . .

      The first thing I thought of was singing. The soundtrack to the memories of my youth include my mom singing. In the car and in the shower, while driving or doing art she was always singing. I have always found it comforting and absolutely lovely. Even now, when I get the chance to hear her sing at church or catch her when she’s cooking, I feel right at home, and filled with peace, like there’s not a single thing in the world that could hurt me. And I always thought if I had kids I would want to sing for them the way she did for my sister and I: lovingly, joyfully, and effortlessly.

      I thought about dinner. The freedom of being able to ask questions about the menu out at a restaurant; or express my appreciation or criticism of the food, the atmosphere, and the wait staff; or simply just ordering something off the menu would be compromised. All I could visualize was other’s ordering for me. And how dependant that would make me. I was already stubborn and hated asking for help – all of those feelings would have to be tabled as I relied on other people to just help me order food.

      And finally, I thought about intimacy. I would never again make any noises of pleasure or pain when being intimate with my significant other. Fearfully, I confided in him with this thought. And his beautiful response was simply: “I have faith that we would relearn your body so that I could read you better and you could physically show me what feels good and what doesn’t. We would be okay.”

      continued in comments . . .

    • 730 Project - August 2nd

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 08.02.11. Steff. At home. Samosas with mango chutney.

      A Holiday to Goa

    • 730 Project - August 1st

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 08.01.11. Steff and Mom. At Mom's house. Avocado and tomato sandwich with tortilla chips and olive tapenade hummus.

      Mother's Know Best

    • 730 Project - July 31st

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 07.31.11. Steff and Jeffrey Remick. At Jeffrey's apartment (on Longfellow Square in Portland, ME). Leftover goat cheese and beet salad with shared slices of Otto's pizza (including ricotta-butternut squash-cranberry, margherita, and cheese). Chocolate-zucchini bread for dessert.

      A Break-Up Letter

    • 730 Project - July 30th

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 07.30.11. Steff and Jeffrey Remick. At Jeffrey's apartment (on Longfellow Square in Portland, ME). Goat cheese, beet, candied nut, and arugula salad with Gardein's "Mandarin Orange Crispy Chick'n" on a bed of edamame rice. Blueberry whoopie pies for dessert.

      Log of Goat (It Tastes like Green)

    • 730 Project - July 29th

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 07.29.11. Steff. At home. 30 Minute Vegan's "Rawvioli Provencale."

      Rawvioli

    • 730 Project - July 28th

      8 years ago

      Steffasaurus

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      730 Project - 07.28.11. Steff. At home. Caribbean style rice and beans topped with tomato and avocado.

      Sci-Fi Flick

  • Comments (1244)

    • daruma

      12 years ago

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    • Scorpion2077

      12 years ago

      hey, check out my latest journal...there is a little thing at the end of the vid that i think you might be interested in

    • Noah13

      12 years ago

      your a kiwi?

    • AidanJames

      12 years ago

      I actually have two long versions of Hallelujah by the way... 9:25 and 9:35. Both live.

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      the distance between our bodies is a problem that we can fix...

    • beckyfruit

      12 years ago

      HA! i just watched your spartan boyfriend video- f'n awesome! youre fantastic! had me fooled- i was like nu uh!

    • Phantexxx

      12 years ago

      my favotire DBC song:

      This is where I say I've had enough
      and no one should ever feel the way that I feel now.
      A walking open wound,
      a trophy display of bruises
      and I don't believe that I'm getting any better, any beeeeeetttttteer.

      as for the heat stroke: place a damp, cool wet cloth on your forehead, don't chug water, you could go into shock. eat a banana or an orange..makes ya feel betters. Lay with your feet propped up and watch some TV (and make sure you stay cool, any overhead of your body could cause shock and stuffs)

      smoke 2 joints, and call me in the mornin

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      I <3 your cam whoring...

      btw, I got a new job basically.. more on that later.

    • JeffSon

      12 years ago

      Caps lock?

      Spelled wrong?

      Keyboard malfunction?

      Someone hacked into your email account and changed your password to "smarticle3"...?

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      Yeah.. that's why we are like peas and carrots.

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      come on.. you know me.. it's obviously directed at you.. "sweetness"? come on..

    • daruma

      12 years ago

      Fuck! Think of all the fan mail you're probably missing out on! smiley8.gif

      smiley12.gif hugs smiley12.gif

      Isn't there a 'forget your password' link on the sign in page?

    • Scorpion2077

      12 years ago

      i would like to thank you for turning me on to Maroon 5. I always like them, but now my ears crave them

    • LeeRock

      12 years ago

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    • amber

      12 years ago

      so apparently ontario airport is like twice as far away as lax is. so i'd go with either burbank or lax. hit me with an email at amberdexterousATgmailDOTcom smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • amber

      12 years ago

      ontario airport? i'll look into it!

      Post edited 7/31/07 4:49PM

    • nico FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Paella y sangria, motherfucker!

    • LeeRock

      12 years ago

      I'm glad you asked, she and I are together now and it is beyond great. I'm so happy

    • Duste

      12 years ago

      How could you ever forget my sexiness?!

    • randomblonde

      12 years ago

      so when are we gonna meet up on the east coast--- me and JJ

    • squall_born

      12 years ago

      im usually a bit hesitant when it comes to asking people to be friends that i have been watching for awhile. you are just as cool in person as i thought you would be.

    • squall_born

      12 years ago

      thanks for the add!

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      Want to know what's super lame? I have Jury duty on the 20th of August.. =(

    • daruma

      12 years ago

      I'm doing alright, I suppose.

      Aside from my complete lack of ability to hug you right now.

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      12 years ago

      well Nathanial is a natural in front of the camera, but what would Superfly do to become famous?

    • JeffSon

      12 years ago

      I'm with ya.

      The humidity here has been completely oppressive for about two weeks now. I refuse to ask for cooler weather, though. That's when tornadoes happen...

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      Yeah, you are entirely that girl that lives a thousand miles away.

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      12 years ago

      well they are cute kids and they're gonna grow up to be so sexy.

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      12 years ago

      I was wondering how long it would take for you to get curious and try it out. smiley6.gif

    • JeffSon

      12 years ago

      I've been working on it - off and on - for about two weeks. Didn't want to rush it. I didn't keep track of actual drawing/coloring time. Now you can see why I was looking for the snowflake tat, though. See? I wasn't being creepy...much.

      Weather's not bad. Partly cloudy. Cool. S'posed to rain on Wednesday. Feels like it could, anyway.

      You?

    • JeffSon

      12 years ago

      Well, you know...

      ...it's the least I could do...wink.png

    • JeffSon

      12 years ago

      I couldn't get it to fit anywhere else...

      Make sure you click the download button. I'm going to go pack my hand in ice now...

    • AidanJames

      12 years ago

      So I was just thinking: "Is that song Kiwi about a girl from New Zealand... or is it what I thought it was about already..."

    • FinchLynch FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Yes. My friend on here has Lobstrosity as her title, so I came up with Clamassacre to counter.

      But apparently Lobstrosity is from a Steven King Book. Now I have to write a whole book about murdering clams. smiley2.gif

    • ThePieBoy

      12 years ago

      My profile feels all dirty and violated

      ....

      It likes it though smiley8.gif

    • Renegade

      12 years ago

      I was going to drop in here and say that's totally fine, just keep it to the couch. Apparently though, I've already been ousted.

      I'M TAKING THE PILLOWS WITH ME!

    • amber

      12 years ago

      uh yeah. and i was serious when i said matt can sleep on the couch.

      oh gosh, i hope he doesn't read this.

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      let me get my hat.

    • ThePieBoy

      12 years ago

      I went to bed laughing, I woke up laughing

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    • katienemi

      12 years ago

      ello miss never on aim

    • ArmyDave

      12 years ago

      If it's made clear that it's a joke and a satire, and in no way meant to be insulting or malicious, then to a certain extent, it could be construed as being okay. The problem is, there's so many people out there who show genuine animosity towards other people in the form of retaliatory banners or display pictures, etc. that it's hard to separate the antagonizers from the satirists. For my part, I was wrong because I believed he was being malicious in his posts, when in fact, he's told me that it was "all in good fun". I just think that needs to be made a bit clearer so people (like me) don't get the wrong idea.

    • Scorpion2077

      12 years ago

      wasn't trying to offend you....it's just a joke....like all those other trends that people copy in a satirical way....not meant to be mean, just funny

    • Scorpion2077

      12 years ago

      it was totally ok...not cool...but ok...it's all in good fun

    • Scorpion2077

      12 years ago

      oh Steff, must you ruin my fun with banners?

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      I finished a particular book that I shan't discuss the inner workings with you today... So, you should get on reading it.. so we can discuss.. for hours... on the phone.. shirtless. or not.. shirted works too.

    • TCR

      12 years ago

      I can see that.

      I'm just glad he finally wisened up at the end of season three. Most heart-warming ending ever.

    • TCR

      12 years ago

      Jim drives all the ladies wild.

      Stupid git.

    • spitfire69

      12 years ago

      Never heard it before.Just listened to it. I'm not sure what my sense of national identity makes of it.wtf.png

    • SteveDPirate

      12 years ago

      Yeah.. I get addicted to catchy songs a little too much.. been listening to Gomez a lot recently too..

    • spitfire69

      12 years ago

      Soooo, why Kiwi?

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