TheBeckasaur

23 years old
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from Grand Rapids, Minnesota

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    • Positive Vibes and a Light in the Dark

      2 years ago

      TheBeckasaur

      (Hello RT journal! I haven't written here in a while. What you're about to read was for Buzzfeed in response to them asking for people to send good vibes to an email and it'd be in a video. Unfortunately it doesn't seem like the email they provided works! So I've pasted what I wrote here just because I personally felt like I needed to write something out and I don't want anyone here to think they're alone. Also, check out Buzzfeed Video on Facebook in case they fix their email issue. Carry on!)

      Hi there! I didn't know if you wanted your submissions in video or text format. If it's the former I guess this won't be fit for the video you're making which is okay to me but I guess I'm also writing this up to calm myself down too. Since Tuesday evening I've had this feeling like I was trapped in a tiny dark box with nothing but bare-boned fear. I've spent random bursts of time over 24 hours overcoming panic attack as well as recovering from their aftermath. I've cried at work, in bed, in the drive-thru, and in the bath tub. Everything has felt so dark and scary. 


      Stuff like this is exactly what people need. What I need. 


      To overcome we have to keep our voices up and our arms open. When our personal sunlight is stolen we must shine the lights of our smiles and the twinkles of our eyes to our minorities. To our communities. We can't give up, and we have to keep caring. We have to hold our women close. Hug our people of color, squeeze the hands of our muslims, and we can't let go of our LGBTQ+ community. We have to remind each other that they are loved. We are loved. There is love, so so much love. Part of the reason for my tears is thinking about humans I don't even know personally who think they're all alone now. You aren't. We. Love. You. And we're not giving up on you. Any of you. 


      When I sit here, I can't off the top of my head come up with "The Phrase To Calm Us All Down". I'm sure you'll see so many other better uses of words submitted to you and for that I'm grateful. However, when I picture a definition of "unity," the first thing my nerdy ass pictures is a scene from Harry Potter. You know. (Spoiler alert) When the school points their wands to the air in mourning of Dumbledore's death. That scene still has me shook whenever I think about it. To be honest? This nation has to do the same thing. Whether you actually stick a lit wood stick in the air or not, that's your own business, but we have to stand together. Surrounded by darkness, we all have to create our own light. After all, "Happiness comes, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn the light on." (Hope I got the wording of the quote right, it's 2:36 AM haha.)


      To all of us minorities, I got your back. I will speak up. I will protect the others I see. I will walk you home, drive behind you, help you cross the street, accept you in my friend group, anything to make you feel safe. Our safety will be compromised over my dead body. I hope more of us feel the same. When our peace of mind is stolen, all we can do is recreate it. My arms are open and my voice is loud. I'm not here because of sides or labels, because I voted Hillary over Donald, nothing. I'm here to put aside the desire for revenge/violence in efforts to rebuild as quickly and as safely as we can. Put down the pitchforks and spread out your hands. Since I'm feeling in the mood to quote my faves, EVERYBODY SAY LOVE. We must take each other's hands and protect each other from what is thrown at us, but we can achieve our greatness without throwing anything back. We can be the better person. <3


      I just noticed this is super long and I'm sure y'all were looking for something quick. Sorry! To close, I guess I'll throw some more quotes. 


      Keep moving forward. 
      If we can't learn from history, we're destined to repeat it. 
      Be brave to stand for what you believe in even if you stand alone. 
      Home is where people love you. Don't forget that. 
      My body, my choice. Their body, their choice. 
      Black lives matter. 
      Love wins. 


      (Also, should any/all of this email make it into your video, would now be a good time to tell my family that I'm bisexual? ;) )

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    • CRYING BISEXUAL TEARS

      4 years ago

      TheBeckasaur

      I'm trying (and failing) to keep professional at summer school today but the news has the largest smile on my face. I'm so happy that I can't focus, all I want to do is scream! While not everyone knows about my closeted sexuality (namely most of my family AKA everyone in my family except for my sister) I feel so much pride and joy. Love doesn't have to wait anymore. I'm legally free to end up with whoever I end up loving, and that internal peace has brought such an emotionally positive wave upon myself. Nothing can stop me today. Love is love, and I love you all. <3

    • 4 years ago

      TheBeckasaur
    • Happy Experiment, day 16

      4 years ago

      TheBeckasaur

      I actually cook dinner every Friday! As of right now I don't know what I'm making, but I'll update this once that happens :)

    • Happy Experiment, day 15

      4 years ago

      TheBeckasaur

      Since I'm a solid week behind, my story about reaching out comes from that time. A student of mine came into my room after school and was very quiet. When I asked her what was wrong she said she wanted to tell me but she didn't want to cry. I told her she didn't have to say anything but that I'd be here for her, so she sat down and picked up one of my glitter bottles and said okay. She then informed me that she's sad because she received a call from the office about her friend from her old school who had gotten hit by a train. The friend is in critical condition since the last I heard about her. I told her to stay put and went to the bathroom for some tissues and when I came back I asked her about their contact info and if her parents knew and told her she could stay with me for as long as she needed before going home and that if she wanted to call the family of her friend she could use my phone (she doesn't have a cell phone). I then told her she could come and see me whenever throughout the day, and told her I knew what she was going through as someone who's had to go to school after a family member's death and as someone who's had to go to work the same day a different family member has died. We both cried a little bit and she laughed because we both have that thing where we cry when we see friends upset. She shook my glitter bottle a few more times and then I asked if she wanted to draw a picture underneath my random fact, which she did. After that, she said she needed to hurry home or else her parents would get mad since she's currently grounded. It felt so good to help her out, because I know many students bully and tease her. <3

    • Happy Experiment, day 14

      4 years ago

      TheBeckasaur

      Favorite fandom?! Is that possible? :)

      I'm honestly not sure how to answer this. I've been a part of so many fandoms, such as Harry Potter, Persona games, Lord of the Rings, Portal and Left 4 Dead. I've met so many incredible friends from all of these fandoms! Then there's the Rooster Teeth family, which I didn't really throw myself into until early this year, and I'm so glad that I'm here. So I guess my answer is a big fat ? I love all of the fandoms I'm in!

  • Comments (10)

    • Nabohs FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold We Want The Funk

      4 years ago

      Hey, thanks for the add!! smiley0.gif

      • TheBeckasaur

        4 years ago

        No problem, thanks for accepting it! :)

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

      Thank you for the add, lady! smiley13.gif

    • JfroLoontard The DM

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the add!

      • JfroLoontard The DM

        4 years ago

        Oh my XD Grazzi

      • TheBeckasaur

        4 years ago

        Thanks for accepting the request! I thoroughly enjoy your display picture, by the way. Very... saxy. ;)

    • kiworange

      5 years ago

      Thank you for the add!

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