from Alpharetta, GA

    • TheDarksage

      How long...

      9 months ago

      haven't I been an admin? Just curious.

    • TheDarksage

      Something I need to get off my chest

      2 years ago

      Be warned, this is going to be a long one.

      So, years ago I joined RvB. I met PissedOffChick here and she got me involved in clan based gaming on the PC. I played with a clan called Factor VIII, playing Medal of Honor Allied Assault and expansions semi competitively. I enjoyed the teamwork aspect and the feeling that I was a valued member of the team was great to me. IRL growing up I was an outcast, constantly bullied and teased and this was an awesome change for me. We continued playing together, the original Call of Duty on the PC and it's sequel. Then there was Halo 2.

      Factor VIII was a PC clan. I needed to find a clan that supported Xbox gameplay. I searched google and came across 2old2play. 2old2play is a website for gamers over the age of 25. They had several competitive Halo 2 clans. I had already acquired a bunch of "internet cred" by being involved in the RvB community as well as so joining a good clan and making myself a known if not respected entity on their site was fairly simple. I made friends fast.

      I was good at Halo 2. I entered local LAN tournaments at gaming stores and my good friend IRL Sn0wsh0e and I would almost always win either individually or as a team. I brought Sn0wsh0e into the fold at 2old2play and things went well for a little while. Sn0wsh0e was cocky and he didn't hide it. He trash-talked big time. Generally speaking when I play, I don't get emotional or trashtalk or any of that. Having known Sn0wsh0e IRL, I knew that any and everything he says is BS. He's that kind of guy that will talk about how he lays down the law on his wife when we all know he's the most p-whipped guy around. Anyway, he brushed a bunch of people the wrong way on the website. I tried to explain to people he was really a good guy and to just let the crap he spouts roll off their shoulders. I mention this because I think this is where the opinion of me at 2o2p started to slide.

      To some degree, Sn0wsh0e's cockiness rubbed off on me. My attitude changed, I knew I was good at Halo and I didn't shy away from bragging about it from time to time. Together we wound up having a "Fuck the haters" sort of attitude. Eventually, Sn0wsh0e was no longer welcome at 2o2p events. At this point I was very active in competitively playing Halo 2. The need to win became an obsession for me. Clan practices that included gameplans for specific gametypes and player roles etc. At work I would be thinking about different strategies, mapping out areas and positions people should hold/routes they should take. In the clan vs clan arenas of 2o2p my teams had great success. Seldom did a team, I was not on, win. A FFA tournament had started in 2o2p and I dominated. These successes came at a huge cost though. As I mentioned before, I became obsessed with the competitive nature of the game. At the same time, I had alienated many of my opponents and created an image of myself that I was a humorless bag of dicks. My favor on the forums was lost and people had vendettas against me which were not handled fairly by the site administration. This made me feel like a victim, that everyone was against me. Even if that was actually the case, maybe it was deserved.

      At some point I realized I was not having fun anymore. Even after winning a game, it came only after screaming at teammates on XBL and wishing I could just find teammates that were as good as I was. I was full of myself and resented what few friends I had left. I knew there needed to be a change. That competitive gaming was killing me. I had become addicted to it though and didn't know how to stop. I tried to stay away from 2o2p but found myself going back consistently. I wound up making a huge mistake. I decided to go scorched earth and to burn every bridge I had built. I made horribly offensive posts and just would not let up until I was finally banned by the administrator. I was unable to feed my addiction anymore, but I forever changed the way people thought of me.

      After that point, I never took gaming seriously again. I still play and I still like to win, but I haven't participated in tournaments or been part of a competitive clan. Occasionally, several years between I still check 2o2p and search for my name to see what people were still saying about me if anything. Today was one of those days. It seems I've become some sort of joke. "Darksage" is associated with being a pansy, whiny, piece of scum. It hurts. I know I did it to myself though, and I do regret it.

      I'm glad I'm able to enjoy videogames again. That I don't have any desire to play competitively again. I wish I could have gotten here without creating such a horrible image for myself and alienating an entire community of good people. Maybe someday we'll all be able to let it go, I don't blame them if they don't though.

      Thanks for reading.

    • TheDarksage

      Crazy CoD Black Ops 2 FFA Gameplay

      2 years ago

      I just had the most amazing game of my life and had to share it with you guys! 30-3 with a 23 kill streak at the end.

      Video of said awesomeness

    • TheDarksage


      4 years ago

      Today, I am now a "33 year-old male from Alpharetta, GA". Don't have a whole lot planned, going out to dinner at a local italian place, then coming back to the house for cake and presents, and then hopefully going to go see Super 8.

    • TheDarksage

      OBL is dead

      4 years ago

      I suggest people invest in whatever company makes those US flags with Marilyn Monroe's face on them. Sales are about to skyrocket.


    • TheDarksage

      Plans for RTX

      4 years ago

      So, I will be driving from Alpharetta, GA to Austin, TX on Wednesday the 26th arriving in Austin either late Wednesday or early afternoon Thursday. I plan to leave Austin on the 30th to head back here.

      Just booked a "2 double bed" non smoking Pure room at the Doubletree. So far it's just me in there but am hoping someone wouldn't mind sharing a room to cut down cost. I would expect the bill to be split evenly for the room. I'm a non smoker, with good hygiene and don't snore or have any other annoying sleep habits that I'm aware of. You be the same plzkthx. I'll also be driving and will have room for a few peoples in my car to go out on the town when we aren't doing official events.

      Admins, mods, and actual friends on the site get bumped to the front of the line. If I don't really know you too well, I will want to play some games on XBL with you a few times to try to get to know you better. I reserve the right to refuse a bed to anyone for any reason.

      I would say I'm willing to share with 2 people (1 gets the other bed, 1 improvises), 3 if two of them are sleeping in the other bed.

    • TheDarksage

      Glasses Free

      4 years ago

      Saw my first glasses free 3d screen at Best Buy today. The Nintendo 3DS. I was skeptical but it's pretty awesome looking. Your local Best Buy probably has a demo unit too.

    • TheDarksage

      Hooray for Earth

      4 years ago

      Went to The Masquerade in Atlanta last night to see A Place To Bury Strangers. They're billed as "The Loudest Band in New York". They WERE the loudest, but the BEST band of the night was one of the opening acts, Hooray For Earth. I never heard of them but I really like their style. I'm embedding some of their youtube "vids". Check them out if you get a chance.

  • Comments (941)

    • Don_Nico


      8 months ago

      Are you going to talk about it? (The award)

    • Thorenir


      1 year ago

      Happy Thanksgiving!

    • Box


      2 years ago

      Hey Dark, what's up man. It's been forever. How's life dude? Love the profile picture. I actually just over the last couple months helped raise $40k to Special Olympics. Great stuff!

      Post edited 3/15/13 1:03AM

    • elderdroog95


      3 years ago

      Hey man! I still can't believe that you are an admin here. Rad tattoo!

    • Andrew


      3 years ago

      You watching UFC 140 this saturday on XBL?

    • Evibear


      4 years ago

      What happened to my unchangeable title? Can I get it back?

    • Jteeth

      Jteeth PE/\KE

      4 years ago

      So you friend me just before you ban me eh? I see how it is!

    • DivaLindsey


      4 years ago

      sorry if my comment made you not happy

    • DrJones

      DrJones Basement BAR 4lyfe

      4 years ago


      Where in GA? What have you been up to lately? It's been a while, man.

    • Ray


      4 years ago

      Yea Geoff, Jack and I found those horns as well. Along with the radios, and the dials in the light house. We think it has something to do with the survivors.

      We are gotta keep messing around with it today