Tropz

Female
from Alberta, Canada

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    • So I'm back..

      9 years ago

      Tropz

      but my new account is "jepawsbo"

      I figured that since I've changed a whole lot.. and I've been gone from this site for some time.. That I may as well get a new account too.

    • White.. Flag....

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
      I'll tell you that.
      But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
      where's the sense in that?

      I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
      Or return to where we were


      But I will go down with this ship
      And I won't put my hands up and surrender
      There will be no white flag above my door
      I'm in love and always will be

      I know I left too much mess and
      destruction to come back again
      And I caused but nothing but trouble
      I understand if you can't talk to me again
      And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
      then I'm sure that that makes sense

      But I will go down with this ship
      And I won't put my hands up and surrender
      There will be no white flag above my door
      I'm in love and always will be

      And when we meet
      Which I'm sure we will
      All that was there
      Will be there still
      I'll let it pass
      And hold my tongue
      And you will think
      That I've moved on....


      But I will go down with this ship
      And I won't put my hands up and surrender
      There will be no white flag above my door
      I'm in love and always will be

      But I will go down with this ship
      And I won't put my hands up and surrender
      There will be no white flag above my door
      I'm in love and always will be

      But I will go down with this ship
      And I won't put my hands up and surrender
      There will be no white flag above my door
      I'm in love and always will be

    • .... <3 Just a few.

      12 years ago

      Tropz

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      LAWL! I love how Dave's not in any of the pictures that I took from last night.
      These, ones here, are just a small small fraction of how many I have. xD



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      I love my friends.

      (:

    • <33

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      i love my friends.

    • Quiz Thingy

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      ARE YOU:
      1. A Cuddler?: Hell YES.
      2. A morning person?: Depends on how much sleep I get.
      3. Are you a perfectionist?: Depends on what it is.
      4. An only child?: Nope.
      5. Catholic?: No. Agnostic describes me best, but yet it's still horribly off.
      6. In your pajamas?: I slept in these clothes, yes. Sweats.
      7. Currently suffering from a broken heart?: Yes.
      8. Okay at styling other people's hair?: I guess so.
      9. Left handed?: Nope.
      10. Addicted to this site?: Sadly, yes.
      11. Shy around the opposite gender?: No... not at all.

      DO YOU:
      12. Bite your nails?: Yes, sometimes when they annoy me and I don't have nail clippers.
      13. Get paranoid at times?: Yes.
      14. Currently regret something that you have said?: Yes... which is odd because I've never really regretted anything before.
      15. Curse frequently when you get mad?: When I'm angry and frustrated.. yes.
      16. Enjoy country music?: Yes x3
      17. Enjoy jazz music?: YES xD
      18. Enjoy smoothies?: Yes. xD
      19. Enjoy talking on the phone?: Yes. I love talking.
      20. Have a lot to learn?: Everyone has a lot to learn.
      21. Have a pet?: Not of my own, no.
      22. Have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" person? ... no.
      23. Have all your grandparents?: No. My Avu has been gone for many years now.
      24. Have at least one sibling?: Yes
      25. Have been told that you are smart?: All the time.
      26. Have a broken bone?: Not broken.
      27. Have Caller I.D. on your phone?: Yes.

      HAVE YOU :
      28. Changed a diaper? Yes
      29. Changed a lot over the past year?: More than you would ever imagine.
      30. Talked back to your parents?: Yes. My mother isn't the smartest creature.
      31. Had surgery?: Nope
      32. Killed another person?: No...
      33. Had your haircut within the last week?: No.. within a month though.
      34. Had the cops called on you? Not on me, on me with all the people I was with.. yes. xD Ahaha, Dr. Clark park...

      LAST PERSON WHO:
      1. Slept in your bed besides you? Chad... -cough-
      2. Saw you cry?: Angela, Kristal, Jayda.. and everyone else that was there when my sister was leaving... ):
      3. Went to the movies with you?: David, Wyatt, Kayla, and Caitlyn
      5. You went to dinner with? Chad
      6. You talked on the phone with? Chad
      7. Said 'I love you' to you and really meant it?: Joshua.
      8. Broke your heart?: Joshua
      9. Made you laugh?: Chad

      ARE YOU:
      1. Simple or complicated?: Everyone has complicated things about them..
      2. Gay?: No.
      3. Hardcore?: About some things.

      ANSWER TRUTHFULLY!
      1. Do you like anyone?: Yes
      2. Do they know it?: Yes

    • :D

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      Why the fuck am I back in this town? Right.. for people like Cagney smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif


      What are you too me?

      You're a shining beacon of hope and talent. You can sing, you can play the Piano, and you're artistic as hell. More importantly, you're my friend. Kind, caring, sweet, and all around a great person, you always seem to be able to make me smile. You care so much you tried to force me to the hospital. That's devotion right there.

      I don't know what you think you mean to me, but I'm here to set it straight. You're a person who I admire and look up to. If I ever make you feel bad about yourself, or snap at you, I never mean to; and you have every right to smack me in the face, or take a cheapshot on my back. I'll make you a passcard and everything! ^O^

      *Hugs*




      I have so much to type... so much to say about awesomeness..
      But I'll only say this:
      I'm brown, suckers, xD

      Oh... more posted on Nexopia.

      -cough- which means get it... NOW. XD


      ((Ps. Is the curse over? 318 didn't kill me...... the number 21 still sucks royal asswipe.)

    • I'm leaving on a jet plane..

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      If I died tomorrow, who would remember me? How would lives change? Would lives change? Would they change? or just be disrupted for a little while, then everything be back to almost normal. Do I make that much of a difference? Am I really that important to people? Or... do they just think I am? What gives people the right to call me names? To say the things they say to me, about me?


      I am so lucky to have so many people in my life that care about me. It's funny.. just a few hours ago I wished that no body cared about me, so that I could just.. dissapear and die and not hurt anybody... but now, now I am greatful for this love that so many people have for me...and this sweet man helped me see that today.

      smiley7.gifsmiley0.gif Well, I'm leaving town tomorrow. I will be in Mexico on Sunday...
      I should be back in Fort McMurray on the 20th... or the 21st... but I'm not sure. My plane will get to Edmonton on the 19th. That is, if I don't die by the number 21 in Mexico. Like on the 11th, or the 18th.

      Man, whiplash sucks.
      I want my neck and my back to stop aching so badly.

      Anyway... if I don't make it back in one piece, I would just like to say that I love you guys.
      Oh, and coo coo catchew I am awesome.
      Don't forget that. Word. Peace Out, DAWG.

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    • Also..

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      my Avo is still in the hospital. She has the pneumonia.... and everyone says she's going to be alright... I hope.. anyway..

      Anyway, I've been really busy lately.. and tomorrow (like today and all of last week) I have plans. I'm getting my hair done and then going down to the swimming pool for a birthday party.. but then hanging out afterwards with Said Guy 2 and Said Guy 3... and other people. Anyway, yeah.

      xD

      <33

    • I must post something.. I'll post what

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      I posted on nex the other day.. .
      -----

      Let's just say that said girl is madly in love with said guy. She doesn't want anybody else to love but him... and she cannot even truly find herself deeply happy without said guy as a functioning part of her life.

      Well, said girl has a friend, who'll be said guy2. Said guy2 has this crush on said girl... and well, said girl doesn't know how to deal with that.. since she doesn't even... not even... closely feeling any sort of.. anything other than friendship towards said guy2. So said guy2 goes on being disappointed by said girl.

      Now, let's add more to this said girl life, and say there is a said guy3... who said girl finds attractive, and ideal to cuddle with. So, oddly enough, said girl is dared to do certain things with said guy3, and after the dare, she... taking this odd lusting need for security within her she continues such with said guy3.

      So after one night with said guy3, he wonders what is happening with said girl... and after that one night, said girl wonders what is happening herself... since still, she doesn't feel like herself without said guy... and yet, said guy2 and guy3 are always hovering, like odd reminders. One of which, is oddly craved for that comfort.



      Said girl, just needs a giant... living teddy bear.
      -cough- but this is all just... a 'let's just say' sort of story that I just made up... theoretical... and said girl, cannot spell theoroettical... eticle.... uh. Yeah. smiley4.gif



      . . . Uhh.. yeah. In other news... I CAN SEE!!!! xD Yay for my glasses.

    • My Avo..

      12 years ago

      Tropz

      is still in the hospital..

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  • Comments (215)

    • Zanderdude55

      11 years ago

      hey wats up, check out my homepage, if u like me, add me as a friend

    • Tropz

      12 years ago

      Rawrg

    • Juggalette

      12 years ago

      i had a massive migrane and i had to go home or else be in tears.. and i dont like ppl seeing my emotions..
      :( sry

    • 1337ZILLA

      12 years ago

      wow is right...

    • lesterBANG

      12 years ago

      shit, sorry
      xx

    • Castrum

      12 years ago

      I spammed my journal this past night whilst posting tons of links to awesome shows.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Mr. Rushdy wasn't at Greely grade 8


      Yes, he was. He was there every year that I was at Greely, and I know I got that award in Grade 8.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      -GASP- BAILIE AND GUS!! SHAME ON YOU!!!


      A) My brother would probably get the dogs.
      B) Even if he didn't, the dogs would be fine. They have ways out that we don't know about yet. : P

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      This stinks.. why not party here??


      Josh's Dad would kill us. In front of Josh. Then he would say that he's "very disappointed" in him, and then he'd kill Josh. And then he'd bring him back from the dead, just to kill him again.

      He would find out somehow. That's his ways....

      !!!!

      Josh's Dad cloned himself, and made the cloned version of himself an animagus.....
      HE'S ONE OF THE ANIMALS, JESSIKA! BE CAREFUL!

      *insert Twilight Zone music here...*

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      what does Josh think about the possiblity of you might having mono?


      Nobody thinks it's mono at this point; the doc is only testing for it to be safe.

      99% it's an infection from the cold I've had for the last little while.
      I was hacking up a lung the night before I got the swells, so maybe that has something to do with it.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Your dad bring it and not remember?


      Yep. : P

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

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      Merry Christmas to you and yours this holiday season smiley11.gif

      With smiley12.gif ,
      Brennan.
      (realdeal_55)

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      you haven't talked to her yet?


      No; and I had the perfect oppertunity to do so last night.
      She called my cell because she was bored; trapped in her room because her Mom was being... her Mom.
      We chatted for quite a while, and then there was... a silence.
      I could tell that something was on her mind, and she could tell the same with me.
      I told her to talk about it and let it out, but she wouldn't. When she pressed me to talk, I...

      ...I... told her that the reason why I've been so stressed lately is the Diplomas I have looming in the next few weeks.

      Which is not a lie by any means, but of course, there was still the... other stuff I needed to talk to her about.

      This journal of mine from a couple weeks ago is another reason why I didn't say anything.

      I'm sick and tired of crying over her, Jessika. I feel like shit every time I do. It makes me realize just how weak I really am... I mean, fuck, on January 14th, it'll be a year since we started going out. What the hell am I supposed to do? Not think about her?

      I all I want is to let go; to move on...

      I sometimes wish that she would just... erase herself from my life, so I wouldn't have to deal with this pain. But then I realize that I can't do that. She's been such a large part of my life, and she's such an amazing person.

      I should be better than this.
      I should be stronger than this.
      I should have more courage than this.
      But I guess that's just not a part of who I am.


      And, so you know, I've edited my most recent journal to reflect new circumstances.
      Peace
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    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      The letter was never meant to be sent; it was just a way to vent.

      Have fun

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    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Victory
      +15

      Good job

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    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      In a Gentle Rain by Robert W Smith

      And you got 2/4 points on the quiz; still waiting for Josh to respond.
      He say she'll do it once he's done the homework.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      I've got an idea...
      I just don't know how well it'll work.

      FIND OUT MORE, NEXT TIME, ON DRAGON
      BALL
      ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Still waiting for your answers for the third and final round (I promise).
      : P

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      You scored 13.00 points, and I docked you marks for naming The Merchant of Venice as a Shakespeare I studied. I did NOT study that. Averaging 13.96.

    • SnChrming

      12 years ago

      Just stopping by to say Happy Thanksgiving....Hope you had a great day!!!!!!

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Mr. Clayton would never go with a recording; that's not him.

      He will make the band work.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      14.92 points, taking the lead from Josh by 0.75 points.

    • SnChrming

      12 years ago

      Has is that an odd metaphor.....

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      But, inevitably, with love.. time has to be taken.


      Yes.
      That's a good excuse.
      : P

      Hey, and thanks for the support and encouragement. I'm just glad I'm going to get the chance to clear the air.
      It really means a lot to me.
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      Post edited 11/12/06 9:07PM

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

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      : P

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      If you missed the journal, don't worry about it.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      I'll bring you up sometime (not a whole 'do you like Brennan' thing, but more like.. mention you. and see what she says.)


      Thanks, but no thanks.

      Sam's one that I'll deal with myself, if I want to. Plus, I'd probably go for Evelyn before I'd go for Sam.

      You're the second person to say that they're not too fond of Sam.

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Passionate


      Understatement.

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    • BlackMonsta

      12 years ago

      woodwinds are cool too! do your homework damnit, lol

    • BlackMonsta

      12 years ago

      thanks!

    • Tropz

      12 years ago

      spamming

    • Tropz

      12 years ago

      am

    • Tropz

      12 years ago

      I

    • Tropz

      12 years ago

      Dee diddle dee dee.. dum, diddy dum... xD

    • YAhMan

      12 years ago

      answer, hmm, jessika, i dont think i ever did have a crush on you, i might have awhile back, but ive always thought of you as just a beautiful friend of mine

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      I know you're right, Jess. It's just way too hard.
      Thanks for all your motivation/help/et cetera. You're great.

      This is something that will get done eventually.
      To quote Jack Sparrow: "At the oppertune moment."

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Regarding your question:

      Not really much to say, considering you know the answer already. However, that was waaay back when you two started going out. From my P.O.V., things are much different now.

      I cannot specifically remember saying that he should break up with you. However, It was a long time ago, and I cannot remember the exact details, so I may have said that. I don't believe I did, though. The other Josh may or may not have said that; I honestly cannot remember.

      The way I interpreted that converstation between Josh^2 and I is Josh R and myself acting more as a sounding board for Josh A.

      Remember that I smiley12.gif ya, no matter what, Jess.

    • the_wraith

      12 years ago

      Veghyll is basically a vegan.
      I was just asking because of your KFC thing and, vegans protest pointlessly alot. Sayingthat veal is beef and, what not.

    • YAhMan

      12 years ago

      its not only me with issues to work out jessika, she has her own, ive already talked to her about this stuff, and we are just gonna see how things play out, because we are both dealing with alot of things, so its not as easy as it sounds

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Well, this was the only thing I can think of, I don't know if it's a valid example.

      When slavery was abolished and blacks were given equal rights, the KKK would have been restricted a lot.

    • the_wraith

      12 years ago

      Are you a vegyll?

    • YAhMan

      12 years ago

      i totally wish it was the easy lol

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Not grade 9 band; I'd be dead by the time the SCB came

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Starting was difficult for me, as well. Here, take a look at my first sentences, maybe it'll help:

      Ordinary People is one of those films chalk full of underlying symbols, metaphors, and other subtle hints for the viewer. Even the opening credits help set a mood for the person watching.

    • Juggalette

      12 years ago

      thanks Jess ^_^
      i found it and just finnished watching it..
      and thanks for the new display picture

    • bsilver

      12 years ago

      radio free roscoe! i love that show, too bad it got cancelled...

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      Alert

    • YAhMan

      12 years ago

      Im Not Drunk!!

    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      DisoLights, eh?
      :P

      And a random dog just followed my Dad in the door.
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    • realdeal_55

      12 years ago

      I've got the blue eyes and everything
      :P

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