Twisted_Mind

Male
from Alberta, Canada

  • Activity

    • Disingenuous Surface

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind


      Smiles and laughter
      Happiness and fulfillment
      Enjoyment of ones company
      All things that I can feign

      No matter how fake things get
      There is always one constant
      No one understands
      No one sees my pain

      Stalling for seconds
      Waiting for the time to be right
      For my tears to be concealed
      Camouflaged in the rain

      Always cheerful with friends
      Depressed when I’m alone
      My mind is a leftover wreck
      You have de-railed my emotional train

      But in time all things heal
      All wounds will mend
      And Ill find someone else
      Who can ease my strain

    • Goodbye My Love

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      The pain that resides in my heart has become unbearable
      Every time it beats it sends excruciating torment through my veins
      My emotions are running rampant surfacing at the worst times
      I do my best to hide them but my friends see the tearstains
      My heart tells me to go into solitary so I can allow the pain to flow
      But my mind is afraid of the things I might do when left alone
      I avoid the one I care for most trying to avoid the pain
      Of not being able to hold on to the only true happiness ive known
      My friends all try to comfort me and ease the pain in my chest
      They hold me close and deal with my crying with a hand upon my head
      They rub my back and sit with me so im not a hazard to myself
      Its like somehow they all know that I wish that I were dead
      This feeling inside me is eating me alive while it ruins my life
      Making every thought I have something I would rather not think of
      There is only one word for the pain that is killing me
      The agony that resides deep inside of my soul is what some call love
      From the stereotypes that have been accumulated through the ages
      Love sounded like a happy wonderfull and grand feeling
      But the hell that this feeling has unleased upon my life
      Has besieged me so bad to be honest it has me kneeling
      Now the love that I felt and happiness that I tasted
      Will be in my mind but out of my reach forever
      And what I longed for the most and desperately wanted
      Has escaped my grasp and I feel that we will never be together.


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    • My Heart Belongs To An Angel

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      I lay on my back starring into the sky
      And cool calm blue of reminds me of her eyes
      The unsurpassable beauty that they hold
      Seems like a love story that just cannot be told
      A cloud floats by with a gentle curve
      Reminiscent of her smile that I do not deserve
      The cloud starts to shrink as it drizzles out rain
      And the damp cold feeling makes me want to hold her again
      I want to grab her in my arms to make the pain go away
      Ill stay by her until the night turns to day
      The smell of her hair and the soft touch of her skin
      Is only a sample of the beauty she harbors within
      The harmony of her singing and the sweet sound of her voice
      Has made up my mind and now there’s no other choice
      It is for her that my heart longs
      And so it is to her that my heart belongs
      There is no other being that means as much to me as her
      Every time I’m around her my heart begins to stir
      On the journey of her life I want to be along for the ride
      The truth of my heart is that I’m happy when I’m at her side
      I know my love can be hard to swallow
      But without her around my life feels hollow
      I hope she knows that if she ever needs someone who cares
      I’ll sacrifice anything to make sure that I’m there


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    • mod points

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      i have 20 mod points for whoever gives me the best reason to give them to them. i will distribute them tommorow

    • WMD's

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      anyone have any opinions on this subject. I have to write a paper about this:
      Are nations ever justified in using weapons of mass destruction

      any thoughts?

    • The Promise Of A Broken Heart

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

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      My emotions run wild
      My heart sinks into my chest
      This pain is killing me
      But I’m trying my best
      As you run to his arms
      My emotions ill hide
      And ill wait till your gone
      So you’ll never see my cry
      Ill sit back and wait
      Until your done with them all
      Just remember ill be there
      For you when you fall
      There’s a spot on my shoulder
      And it will always be there
      When you need to cry
      And hold someone who cares
      When you’re hurting inside
      And can only seem to frown
      Ill help you find your smile
      That’s why I’m around
      I love being with you
      Be it watching movies or blazing
      All day everyday
      I think your amazing
      There isn’t a thing
      About you I’d alter
      Just never forget
      My love will not falter

    • A Troubled Minds Advisement

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

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      Brooding on the past
      Does nothing for the mind
      Except exposing old wounds
      All those moments that weren’t so kind
      The whole world sees my pain
      Nothing hides my misery
      The only thing I want
      Is for you to hold me
      But over the times
      History has shown
      No matter how hard I try
      Ill still end up alone
      So take my advice
      And don’t give your heart out
      The pain is easier to deal with
      If you never let it start

    • The end of the suffering

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      It's like she's everywhere you go
      Outside you're fine inside you can't cope
      Until you're bursting with dispair
      and she's your only breath of air

      It doesn't seem to matter how much you smile
      Something will come along every once in a while
      and make you frown like you've done before
      until you can't take it anymore

      You have to end this life right now
      and it doesn't seem to matter how
      You never think there's help out there
      You're all alone and no one cares

    • Confused

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      Why does everything have to hurt. why cant life be nice and easy??
      This is for all of the people with the broken hearts, deep cut scars and a mind thats spinning like a blender. lets all drink the koolaid

    • Falling

      12 years ago

      Twisted_Mind

      Some people are lucky enough
      To find someone that makes them happy
      Others are eternally deadlocked
      Stuck in a struggle with depression
      Love and life forever entwined
      amidst the tangles of her heart
      Her smile lights my heart
      Her frown burns my soul
      This pain itself is not enough
      Not only is my heart heavy with love
      My mind is rampant with confusion
      Not knowing whether to sit back and wait
      Or to make my move
      I care for her more than she'll ever know
      my heart will always long for her
      This must be the pain
      Of falling in love

  • About Me

  • Comments (396)

    • minouners

      11 years ago

      You need to come back!!

      where did you go!!!???

    • Riku

      11 years ago

      Call sometime.

    • minouners

      11 years ago

      Thanks for that.

      Any plans for the weekend?

    • minouners

      11 years ago

      Keeping busy are you? Well that's good!

      I do have facebook but I don't use it much... I'd rather use rvb!

    • minouners

      11 years ago

      You've been tagged!

      www.roosterteeth.com/members/journal/index.php

    • Riku

      11 years ago

      Im off this thursday.

    • minouners

      11 years ago

      Edmonton eh? What are you doing there now?

      I think I got a job to be honest. I'll give you all the details once I'm 100% sure!

    • Riku

      11 years ago

      Dude I totally miss you.
      I miss all the fucked up shit you do...
      I know im missin parts

    • Riku

      12 years ago

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      12 years ago

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      12 years ago

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    • minouners

      12 years ago

      A new life? I'm intrigued... do tell me how things are. I miss talking to you.

      I've been doing alright... jobless and life is kind of on hold but I think I'll be alright.

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Why will it be the last time you see them?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Had an interview yesterday, and another one Friday, things are looking up! smiley0.gif

      You?

    • Riku

      12 years ago

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    • Riku

      12 years ago

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      12 years ago

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    • minouners

      12 years ago

      It's going ok today, I have an interview at 300 smiley0.gif I might get to leave this shit hole after all

      u?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      thanks

      long weekend for sure huh? hahaha glad you had fun

      I just hung out with friends and then sunday tanned, washed the car and bbq'ed, it was beautiful

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      is it an ok job though?

      my hunt is going ok so far, i had to write an exam for the govt on sat and i passed so one to the next exam this sat, keep your fingers crossed for me...

      weekend was ok, yours?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      how's that coming along?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      oh well, she'll learn... sorry to hear that though...

      job hunting, meh lol I got one call that i'll be calling back tonight to see what's going on.. besides that, that's it

    • franknfurter

      12 years ago

      not to much. you had me worried there after reading your last journal entry i thought that you.... well best not to draw on it

    • Riku

      12 years ago

      Blam mike.

    • Riku

      12 years ago

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    • Riku

      12 years ago

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    • Riku

      12 years ago

      Fuck that Im goi n fo rht enever forgive never forget approach.

    • Riku

      12 years ago

      Exactly, gonna need to adjust the seating in sociology though.

    • franknfurter

      12 years ago

      hey man hows it goin?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      You know what hun... don't listen to everyone else... they only see an outsider's point of view and it's not always the correct one. Follow your heart and hear what it tells you.... if it doesn't feel right, walk away but if it does... just go with it. Hope it works out! smiley12.gif

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Just a job with a good pay and none of this contract shit anymore, I'm getting tired of it... Hopefully with benefits but I won't push it... I might even join the canadian air forces... haven't decided yet

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      well he's obviously not a true friend and you don't need people like that in your life. You'll meet plenty of new people so you can walk away from this one if he's causing you pain.

    • The_Shaunz

      12 years ago

      thanks man

    • The_Shaunz

      12 years ago

      90% on the elbow, but Im playing my first ice hockey game tonight since I hurt it, man Im stoked.

    • Riku

      12 years ago

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    • minouners

      12 years ago

      no worries, glad to hear that things are looking up smiley1.gif

      my weekend went ok, nothing exciting to be honest, you?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Stef is doing alright today... feel kind of gross right now but I think the egg i ate at lunch is the culprit.

      you?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      pretty good

      how about yourself?

      (if I don't reply right away it's because I'm going home!)

    • franknfurter

      12 years ago

      yeah so what about you? feeling any better?

    • franknfurter

      12 years ago

      mmm i lost my phone service and i cant talk to my gf (donut777) but like i said it could be worse

    • franknfurter

      12 years ago

      mmm ok it could be better

    • franknfurter

      12 years ago

      yo man how is it going?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Ouch, yeah that does hurt, I've had to happen to me too. Just put ice on it and you'll be fine. Another thing is to wrap a splint around it... the pressure would ease the pain. (just so you can enjoy your weekend smiley8.gif )

    • Riku

      12 years ago

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      12 years ago

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      12 years ago

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    • minouners

      12 years ago

      how did you hurt your ankle? and I'm sorry to hear that

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      hahahahaha I love it! smiley0.gif

      doing anything for long weekend?

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Sounds a little complicated but I think with time it'll sort itself out!

      Just keep positive! smiley0.gif

    • minouners

      12 years ago

      Anytime hun

      How did it go?

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