UnleashedWin

Male
from Winters, TX

  • Activity

    • How Long...

      9 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Hm, I've been pondering today on how long its been since I've had a suicidal thought... a joint... the smell of marijuana on my clothing, or better yet on my breath. Well to start it off... When I met Megan (My current girlfriend and hopefully my last) I was going through a rough time in my life. I started to take overdoses of Prozac and Dexedrine (For those who doesn't know that that it... it is a sleeping medication), So I was a walking emotionless zombie. I haven't felt like that in forever. Even though Prozac is supposively suppose to help control (or what I like to call mentally block) the thoughts and demons running around inside your mind. It didn't work. It made things just seem like a blur, or it made me not give a fuck. So I got upped on my dosage... Just made things worse, so finally I decided to act as my own individual self (which my instincts are better then what I thought) and quit the medication... Life isn't worth living in a medicated dream. But then I started to overdose on my sleeping medication making me sleep for 16 hours a day... So I eventually stopped that as well. After the first few months of being with Megan, I stopped talking her. I literally forgot her existance, crawled my stoned ass out of marijuanaville, and started sobering up. It took me a total of 3 months to get control of myself and get used to being sober. (Figures after a year of being non-sober) So it was basically 3 months of all out war on my brain. I was a cranky ass punk prick. I broke my connections, kicked all my friends out of my house that smoked pot in front of me. I chose a higher road for my being. Soon after I started talking to Megan again.. It was awkward at first, but eventually we over came that together. It was basically restarting anew. Then one day.... I go next door to give my cousin some watermelon. I sit down they are drinking and pull out a bag of weed... And of course in my mind I was saying GET THE FUCK OUT NOW! But you just don't get up in leave when people pull out drugs... You get killed for that. So I got high... It was heavily laced with Heroin. I overdosed. I WANTED TO FUCKING DIE THAT NIGHT. I couldn't control anything... I told myself this is the last fucking time ever... WRONG... My friend Skylar moved back into town... I took him to Ballinger... Same thing happened... Drove home high as a fucking kite. Megan doesn't know about that one... But back to the suicidal tendencies I had foreplayed myself to partake in. The madness that consumed my thoughts and conquered my soul. I was on the edge of self delusion and control. Thankfully Megan basically "saved" me. I never told her my thoughts, but just knowing she was there helped me gain control of myself and I savored the moment I had. We are still together... Happy and etc. She moved with her parents to California sadly.... So Spring time road trip... HERE I COME! I'm call this.... Cali meets Tex.

    • Update Woo Woo!

      9 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Well everything has gone good lately. Only thing that I do is practice my acoustic guitar, sleep , and work! Sounds fun right? Kinda... Just the fact that i can barely keep anything in touch at the moment. Oh well... It happens. But this is the first time I've actually wrote a Journal... So let me talk about my New Years... Well what I remember of it. I drank 6 tooter shots... a shot of parrot bay coconut rum... 10 shots of everclear... and had a few bites of jello shots... i passed out... puked 8 times. BUT DAMN WAS IT FUN! :D

    • Update

      10 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      *stretches* I'm tired as hell but I have nothing better else to do, so I decided to come on here and give everyone a update. I've been ok, just have a few problems with work since my boss is a total bitch. I had a blast at the 4th of July party at the lake. Seen some people I haven't seen in awhile. But all in all I'm just sleeping a lot xD. But I've always slept a lot... so meh... nothing has really changed.

    • 3 Months

      10 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      I've been sober now for three whole months, It's one accomplishment that you helped me with, What always tore use apart I'll never touch again.

      The lyrics I'm most drawn to at the moment. And it is true! But the downfall is... I smoke more cigs now and I'm on prozac. So did it save my life or make it worse? TwT = Time will Tell

    • Update... Update... Update...

      10 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Well this is the breakdown to everything. I went from drinking to smoking. Now I've been stoned or such for 5 months. Last night I had a talk to my dad and finally realized all the damage I was actually doing to my family. Then he helped me realize the stakes at risk and how it will inflict into my future if I'm caught or if I fail a drug test. So I made a New Years Resolution... I'M FUCKING QUITTING!

      Nothing new :) lataz!

    • Still Alive

      10 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Hm... Semester is going by hella fast thankfully, Good Ol' Withdrawals are back! Oh well its all worth it in my eyes, I'm still here oddly enough, Feel lucky I am. Haven't got into any trouble this year weirdly... Been stuck with work, the band, and homework... So much fun... Well I guess I got to go... X-ray time! Lataz

      -Justin

    • Whats New

      10 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Well nothing much new here... started smoking weed and cigs... don't drink no more... in a band....yeah thats about it! lataz everone

    • Song I'm working on

      11 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Well hell I might as well share one of my songs since I'm such in a good mood, But its still in progress so not the whole thing will be up!!

      This song is for the all the kids with the cut up wrists!
      Who don't think they should exist!
      Maybe next time girl we can be together!
      Noone understands us! Noone can bend us!
      We are only the broken! The ones that heart is mistooken!
      Just because we are different you look down on us!
      We are the degenerates of this generation!

      This is to all the kids with the cut up wrists!
      Who don't think they should exist!
      One day our light will shine!
      Our wings will be divine! Till then lets just chill!
      Lets drink some beer and pop some more damn pills!
      Don't hate on us just because we aren't sane!
      Don't meddle with us, We aren't the ones that feel all the pain!
      Most of us are just inhumane, Conscious lit up so small,
      We laugh at all of those old people that fall!

      This song is for the kids with the cut up wrists!
      Who don't think they should exist!
      Maybe our rebellion will go through your fucking minds!
      This is our world! This is our light! This is our fucking time to shine!

      -Twistid

      Tell me what you guys think and be brutally honest ><

    • 4th of July

      11 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      Woot! I had a badass 4th of July, Me and my friend Justin aka Paul shared drinks all night, We went through so many beers, He ended up puking and thats the last we drunk, I was about to puke, Oddly enough I didn't get wasted or drunk off my ass, Had an amazing buzz though! Best damn night of my life, Watched South 83 (Band here in Winters) perform one of their last shows, Mainly all I did was drink and sing with some of the songs... I'm still buzzing from last night though >,< My bass guitar comes in 13 or so days, Can't wait! I might end up getting surgery on my leg... ^.^ I'll be metal man!! rawr! lmfao... Aight I'm out latazzzz and peaceeeeeeeeee!!!!!

      &#9788;Twi§tiD&#9788;*My Curse*&#9788;Twi§tiD&#9788;

      P.S. I'm with an amazing girl! She kicks ass!!!! Love her to death!

    • Smirnoff, Smirnoff, and more Smirnoff...

      11 years ago

      UnleashedWin

      So you might ask me... Justin (or Twistid) what have you been doing so far in your wonderful summer dreamland vacation! Well! So far I've dyed my hair black, got my highlights and tips, been working, drinking a Smirnoff a day keeps the doctor away (I like living by this rule...), and umm... I gave the money to my friend to buy my guitar... (bass)..., uhhhh I've been messing around town, eating food..., walking around town, listening to musik..., playing video games..., um... thats about it, yeah, I know what a grand summer right!? Well... so far its been my best =D, I like it so far, and just maybe! just maybe! I'll be nice enough to put a new pic of me up! And and can't forget this! I have a new nickname now! I am known as!!! The Emo Alcoholic! hahah... just cause i was born one (alcoholic) doens't mean I am one... right? Well >.> maybe thats why I just have a sudden craving for beer... or alcohol... all the time >,< But its only a Smirnoff a day... and maybe if my dad has it a few shots of whiskey or tequila... not enough to get me addicted or anything... >.> if I'm not already... Heheh... face it! I'm a emo alcoholic! woot! I like it!! lmfao...

      Oh yeah I just want to say hi, to all my stalkers, fans, girls that want to rape me..., cause apperently alot of girls want to do that for some odd reason... idk why... if any girls that want to rape me msg me... explaining why and the causes of which I have provoked them or invoked them to doing so... Just... if you do see me... and run up to me and knock me out and drag me in a alley or your car... don't be too rough plz -.- my body has been through enough as it is... So... yeah... and plus I still need my leg to get better ><, but its all good, I'll wake up and just be like...wtf this is the third time this week! Nah... noone has raped me... yet... still a high possibility though... Maybe I should start wearing raggy clothes... and not brushing or wash my hair... but... i have to keep clean -.- can't be going around smelling all day... thats just sick... and plus i would scrub down there... gotta keep it clean... (its a personal thing... I think it is with everyone), but anyways,

      I want to say hi to a few people that I know... Omo, LuigiFlore, ummm, cece, hugsnkisses, ummm esenhica..., squishyrox... and thats about it cause I can't really remember anybody else atm... idk if even half of those ppl are still on my friends list >.> but they are on my watchlist... which is pretty kool, i guess? But this journal entry is long enough... Ima going to go to bed cause I'm tired... and I need my 10 hours of sleep >.> or else im really cranky... and tired... hell I'm always tired... *sigh* well lataz everyone!

      ~Justin aka Twistid aka Emo Alcoholic~

      You can just call me Twistid! ... or Emo Alcoholic

      oh yeah this is an edit! i've been writing songs to... yeah okiz lataz!

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  • Comments (122)

    • Luigi_Flore

      8 years ago

      it's been a while since you been on here O.o

    • hippygirl

      11 years ago

      Hey you!

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      11 years ago

      I will when I get back on again.

      =]

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      11 years ago

      That it is. -_-

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      11 years ago

      lol, yes the hair...

      -__-

      but it grows fast so im not worried about it

      =P

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      im greattt! lol

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      hey hey heyeeeee
      how you feeling?

    • omo

      11 years ago

      i have verizon

    • omo

      11 years ago

      i really want a pic of you with my name .
      thas a part of the comp. lol you have to be in it

    • omo

      11 years ago

      yeah you can do one.

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      omg OUCH!
      dkjlfgniuabnfjnf
      sounds pretty painful

      that must suck =[

    • Netdiver

      11 years ago

      somber maybe a wrong word. Just your expression is gloomy. Smile more^_^ smiley8.gif

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      oh wow... how did you break ti this time?

      damn you break things too much!!! hahaha

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      yeah that would relaly friggin suck if i died falling down stairs...
      a crappy way to die. dont ya htink?

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      okay i totally forgot what we were tlaking abut....

      "yea lol you never heard or seen that i think its because of them hitting their head on the stairs, well butter your butt then your head xD "
      i dont understand lol..

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      you can die from falling down stairs??
      thats only for the old people.....right?
      lol.
      yeah my butts a lil sore now. hahaha

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      ooo. thats no funn.
      =[
      not much new with me
      i fell down the stairs last night and got a bruise on ym arm.
      im soo retarded. hahahaaha

    • omo

      11 years ago

      thanks...
      i'll try

    • omo

      11 years ago

      yeah i'm super behind too..

    • omo

      11 years ago

      hey yeah...
      umm n2m is new here..
      really tired..
      and totally stressin cuz of school..

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      OMG! 13 places!
      how did you do that? wow thats crazy. i have never broekn a bone in my life lol.

    • omo

      11 years ago

      aww well i miss talkin to you!
      I'm sorry yo u broke ur leg!
      hope it gets better super fast!
      how did you break it in 13 places?? thas crazy!!
      ttyl

      <333 Natasha

    • hugsnkisses2

      11 years ago

      HEY BUDDY I MISS YOU!!!! hows u been doingg?

    • omo

      12 years ago

      aww ur sweet!

    • hotpinkchick

      12 years ago

      heyyy.

    • BreezyShel

      12 years ago

      I thought you had disappeared from the face of the planet...you were never on anymore, if you'd like, send me another request, srry, i just thought you were done with the site.

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      OMG!!! OUCH!

      x_x

      ughhh.... -___- I sorrrryyy

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      lol, it's not bad or painful

      =P

      you just got a crappy lady to do it

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      lol, I think I got my ears pierced when I was like a few months old?

      haha

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      I've only had three in my ears

      but im getting my eyebrow done this summer

      : )

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      Haha uhh.... idk about that

      that's kinda weird to me but it's whatever you want

      =P

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      lol hey now... I was gonna get mine pierced....

      piercings are hardly ever painful if you aren't a complete wimp... random "non normal" piercings might depending on where they are...

      but yea, cute guys with piercings and tatoos get the best of me... only when they can pull it off though

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      Haha the pink band dude isn't great looking at all to me

      like I said... the guy in the second pic :D

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      lol they're all straight

      and hey now! some of these guys a pretty hot... to me at least... eh mainly just the the front guy on the second pic :D

      haha... = P

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      I do love it all

      =P

      :D

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      Haha I think Spiderman 3 will be pretty good

      but with the way I am, I think 300 would have topped it just because I love war related things

    • squishyrox

      12 years ago

      chillin

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      Indeeed ittt wasss :D

    • squishyrox

      12 years ago

      hey que pasa?

      later

    • squishyrox

      12 years ago

      WATCH THE FUNNY KITTYS!!! CLICKY lol

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      Awesome ^_^

      thank you for the comment too : )

      I have to go though, I will talk to you later

      goodnight^_^

    • xXgarbageXx

      12 years ago

      yo wht is ur new gamer tag?
      im like a 30 now....and in in a sponsored clan.

    • TehWacco

      12 years ago

      Hey mate it's ilikeme00000

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      lol, I still get on RvB... myspace as well = P

      other than that... messin around with my band, hangin out with friends and trying to survive school

      x_x

    • xBoW_cHiCkAx

      12 years ago

      lol, well hello to you too

      = P

      How've you been??

    • squishyrox

      12 years ago

      heh heh nice...

    • squishyrox

      12 years ago

      hey member that cute could vid you showed me on youtube? doy ou member the title to it?

    • somekid_360

      12 years ago

      by the way its i tear my life into peices,

    • somekid_360

      12 years ago

      yo u still on......i need ur gamer tag......i got my account bak finaly goddamn.......mine is xXgarbage401Xx ....... or timewiser.
      add me ill be on like all christmas break. later

    • blueboy191

      12 years ago

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