Cant think of anything that I think anyone would read let alone like so here's my first and probably my only ever entry i'll make, lets face it ive had this profile for years ive never done nowt really with it there was never really a reason to wasnt like anyone would look at it anyway.
I.....ive spent most of my whole life in the world of games and now at my age I look back at the things ive been, the worlds I saved or destroyed, the bad guys ive killed and people ive saved, I can look back on it and smile but none of it was really real just a really big pile of codes.
Ive lost so much that I cant get it back or experience because im old now ill be 31 this year ive missed out on so much that it sickens me and all the wishful thinking in the world couldnt fix my problems.
And my problems are simple find a job, keep the job, learn to drive, get a car, find someone, be with that someone, be happy for once.
But even though I know what to do reality has a funny way of saying "No" to me I somtimes wonder why I didnt finish it back then years ago when I felt the end of my old air-rifle under my head.
I guess after all ive done and not done I just couldnt fully quit at trying to live even though im still in my shitty situation now.
I dont know why im still trying I guess its all I really know what to do, who knows but I guess i'll just have to wait and see to find out.
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