Xiagax

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    • I cancelled my Sponsorship

      3 years ago

      Xiagax

      Yep. No fucks given

    • My End of the Year Journal

      3 years ago

      Xiagax

      This is going to be a hard journal to write guys. And to be honest, I doubt anyone will read this. Seeing as only chance I have before this year ends, I may as well come right out and say it. This year absolutely sucked for me. I can't begin to tell you just how.....empty I feel right about now.

      First off we start with I come to finally find out at the beginning of this year, someone who I thought was a good friend and someone I developed feelings for, was confirmed to be a catfish. At first while it felt a little liberating to be rid of someone I had to constantly doubt was really there, eventually it began to really suck as I came to the realization that I wasted 4 years, yes YEARS of my life chasing after someone whom I didn't know for sure was on the other end.

      Then came probably the most bullshit thing to ever happen to me on this site, I got BANNED. Well temporarily. Basically what happened is someone in my feed was upset of something in current events. I made a comment he didn't agree with and got ever so upset. He felt the need to a jerk by effectively giving me the finger and then blocking me. Except unlike Facebook if you block someone here and they don't remove you from their friends list, you can still see what they say but not be able to respond to them. This guy was so butthurt that he felt the need to talk shit about me, and when I did the same, an admin came to his defense and effectively allowed this person to be a total ass and totally get away with it. I questioned this admins judgement before leaving work. When I came back from work I come to find out that I have been IP banned. I asked reddit about this and wouldn't you know it I get shit on because this said admin made post in response to and a bunch of other user just went out of their way to act like I was a horrible person. Good news is, I just changed my IP address, problem solved


      This year has also sucked as far as my channel has gone because I seemed to just stop and go and I've lost a lot of motivation to keep trying at it.

      Speaking of Youtube, the next thing that comes to mind is when I did get mild spike in activity, but it was pretty far from positive. So a Minecraft-esque RPG better known as No Man's Sky was something I became confident with making videos on. Well I did just that and submitted it on Reddit and I got torn asunder, being accused of plagiarism and making click-bait. Seriously no one had a shred of decency.


      And of course I'm still a hopeless romantic. I happened to notice another person here and noticed she also had a Youtube channel. I figured I 'd try to get to know someone from the RT community and maybe even try to collaborate to videos with her. I messaged her and she said that it was a possibility. AS time went on, I could help but get a little infatuated with her and like a fool, a couple of months later I tried telling her how I felt about her indirectly. Then I got a message from her basically telling me that she isn't into immature boys. Honestly that just cut me to the core, I couldn't figure out how she would fathom how she perceived me as childish or immature. Not only was I crushed by being rejected, she straight off told me off. That was the last I heard from her.


      To top it all off, I also lost my job at FedEx because one of the people I worked with there was a lazy prick and for some reason I thought letting a manager would be be somehow "tattling" because for some reason I listened to some bullshit advice. So instead of letting my manager know what was going on, I let it build up and bother me to the point I straight up yelled at this guy and somehow somewhere down the line when I was investigated for misconduct, I was accused of making verbal threats which is total shit. But sure enough, no one could come to a definitive answer on what to do so I guess the most sensible thing was to let me go. Fortunately I found a much better job with basically the same pay but more hours but at the cost of having to move.

      Yeah 2015 was just not my year, it fucking sucked, and I find it hard to beleive that it will get any better next year.

    • You guys miss me?

      3 years ago

      Xiagax

      Hey all!

      So I've been had a long hiatus away from the RT site, just cause let's be honest the site is just going through a huge rough patch as far as making it more accessible. Groups are missing, notifications are sometimes are bugged, and yeah......

      Anyhow, a bit of bad news. I lost my job at FedEx due to some difficulties. But that was a month ago. This last month I pretty much only had one other place of employment that would have allowed me to stay here where I'm currently living. The unfortunate part is I did NOT get the job but...................(And I'm talking about a big but, like bigger than Nikki Minaj's fat ass (haha, look I made joke))

      My parents are moving out of their current apartment to go build a house just outside of the town they live in. In doing so that apartment will be vacant and this is a small town that has a Tech School. So anybody moving into said apartment anytime soon is pretty slim. Here's the nice twist though. This town has a surplus of job openings and there was one in an elementary school for a custodial position that would set me up nice. Yeah I know it's a custodial position which doesn't sound too glamorous but......

      I was reminded of a sermon I had in church not too long ago (religious speech inbound). In the Old Testament, Jacob wanted to marry Rachel but he need permission from her father, Laban. Jacob told Laban that he would serve him for 7 years. Jacob then served his time but Laban instead failed to deliver on his promise and instead gave his other daughter Leah. So Jacob then served Laban for another 7 years and thus he fulfilled.

      Either way, I felt I could relate to this in a way because for a long time I've been getting royally screwed pretty much every turn I had, but instead of trying to go do things out on my own, it was better to keep my nose to the grind stone.

      In doing so, I'll have to be moving and for sure this time. I know I said sometime ago I would be moving but unfortunately the move to Wichita didn't exactly pan out. Given the reputation of this next area, the chances of getting hired seem to be pretty good. Plus the town is about a 1/4 of the size of where I currently live so walking is actually feasible now.

      In addition to the size, it is ripe for the picking in Ingress. Oh yeah, I started playing Ingress, about a week ago, and I already made it to rank 4. Currently Saint Joseph, has got a ton of portals due to it's historical significance. But I can only reach one of them in a reasonable amount of time without driving and my trusty scooter *cough* /sarcasm, is in dire need of repairs and I can't drive it anymore. I tried using my bike but it also needs a bit of a tune up i.e. chain needs oil.

      So while this last month has been pretty tough, one clip I found Youtube

      The feels in this clip for whatever reason seem to apply to me IRL in some way. Like there is some weird connection that applies to this situation. Man am I really trying to milk this, just....just go with it. Either way, I hear Stan Bush playing in the back of my head, and Optimus Prime is telling me to go make something of myself.

    • 4 mintues Until Oryx arrives

      3 years ago

      Xiagax

      Let's Play Inbound

      Stand by.....

    • I finally beat TzTok-Jad on RuneScape

      3 years ago

      Xiagax

      Pretty happy I managed to beat one of the hardest bosses in the game and finally received my Fire Cape. Then the day will come when I have to sacrifice it for entry to the Fight Kiln.

      Watch it here!

    • About that bad day last week

      4 years ago

      Xiagax

      So Monday I thought I was getting depressed again but it just turned out to be one of those days when you just can't hold back negative feelings. It started out with the good ol' single bachelor feeling *cough cough sarcasm* i.e. lonely feeling. I don't know why but I felt really hopeless and it just ate at me.

      So to try to maybe brighten my day I tuned into a fellow RT fans stream as she played Battle Block Theater. I don't know why Achievement Hunter hasn't hired her yet. Anyway, I enjoyed the stream but it sort of felt like most of the time when I would say something to her, it would get ignore. Keep in mind I'm saying it felt like it because when I look back on it, I don't think she was intentionally trying to ignore me. It was a little discomforting because I had messaged her some time ago about maybe doing a co-op video or stream together. I even asked her as she was still up for a co-op game some time and I was told no because was too hard to coordinate. This was really disappointing because a couple months earlier I was told the exact opposite. It wasn't a guarantee but it certainly sounded like there was a good possibility of it happening. This being said it just made the day feel a bit more grim because no one likes being turned down for anything. It was a little disheartening because I really wanted to do something with someone from the RT community because hey, we make some pretty cool stuff, am I right? Though I do want to make it clear that I do not hold this individual at fault. Things can change, schedules might not line up or 1 of 2 of said co-op party might not be up for it anymore. I'm ok with it now because there is always tomorrow.

      Though after Monday it got substantially better, the rest of the week was still pretty tough as had taken it upon myself to make a few videos about No Man's Sky here and here
      While I definitely feel like these are one of my better videos, Reddit did not. In fact they didn't just disagree, they tore me a new one. I thought people would've been happy to hear about No Man's Sky especially in /r/NoMansSkythegame, you know the relevant sub reddit? For whatever reason people of that sub felt it was necessary to try to insult me, degrade me, and over all treated me like shit. I almost feel like, the internet in certain places is like a lobster pot. No matter how much you try to rise above everyone else by putting in hard work, there's always some else there to tear you down. I really feel that this wa their reaction because the articles I read, didn't totally blow their minds. It seems ironic because not everything on the news totally blows your mind either.

      However thanks to people @BloodCal-Cal7 I was able to brush off many of the nasty reddit comments and overall negativity. I'll still be making No Mans Sky video in the future, but hopefully with a bit more substantial info. If reddit still hates it, well fuck 'em. If they're still hating on my videos by that time their just butthurt because they need to hate something for the sake of hating it.

      Though if anyone does have some constructive criticism, I'd be glad to hear it. Part of making a Youtube channel is letting your fans get in on it.

      So I'm feeling a lot better especially now that I have my new iPhone, so now I feel like one of the cool kids now.

    • No Man's Sky News First Episode

      4 years ago

      Xiagax

      So I've dedicated some to commentating on news articles for No Man's Sky. I found a couple of good articles to talk about and compiled the good parts of the article for the first episode of No Man's Sky News.
      Link to the video, enjoy :)

    • I can't even explain how bad today was.....

      4 years ago

      Xiagax

      Long story short, I don't really know if I beat depression. A few other things also going around me have just absolutely killed what joy I had. Today I felt like shit. Worse than shit. I was practically in tears all day. There wasn't anything I could do avoid or stop this wave of agony.

      Right now I'm so emotionally drained its having physical effects. So I'm pretty tired.


      Only one things' for sure. I just want this to stop. More on this tomorrow when I can hopefully keep my head on straight.

    • What is No Man's Sky

      4 years ago

      Xiagax

      Today I created a video to discover what exactly No Man's Sky is. This is the first of many videos and I plan to make many more video with updates about No Man's Sky

      Check out the video here

  • Comments (29)

    • CaptainAchievement FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Guardian of the Galaxy

      5 years ago

      Hey bro, thanks for the add. I'm Charlie, nice to meet you

      • CaptainAchievement FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Guardian of the Galaxy

        5 years ago

        That's hilarious
        Please don't ride my dragon

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Please don't bite my finger lol!

    • Draco182 BJOU

      5 years ago

      Hey man, how's it going?

      • Draco182 BJOU

        5 years ago

        Good to hear. Thanks for the add, and welcome to my friends list. Hope you like what you find. smiley0.gif

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Pretty good!!!! smiley11.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley11.gifsmiley11.gif

    • NoctisCorvus FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Captain Lone Starr

      5 years ago

      Yoo~ How's it going?
      How'd you trip up on my account?

      • NoctisCorvus FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Captain Lone Starr

        5 years ago

        Ah~
        Yeah I recently decided to do the same thing, get a bit more involved.

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Just going through a couple of the key staff of RT friends list so I can get a bit more engaged in the RT/AH community smiley7.gif

    • matthiew FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Hey, thanks for the friend request smiley1.gif What led you to my profile?

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Just trying to get more engaged into the community :)

    • tap0zone FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      So you can count to 4 in German? I can count to 5! Haha, take that. Ok it's really not that impressive as I'm German and I should be able to count further than 5 ... smiley0.gif

    • kaosblack21 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold RTX Guardian V.4.0

      5 years ago

      Thanks for the friend invite! Great to see another person from Missouri on here smiley0.gif I also notice that you signed up on the site just a day after I did. That is really crazy!

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Dang, what a coincidence!

    • conrad500

      5 years ago

      Hello! I like to ask all random friend requests, how did you find me? Did you just randomly add me from a list, or did you see a journal, or was I in the forums maybe?
      I like to see the different ways people find me! Thanks!

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Found you on Michael's friend list :)

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

      Thanks for the add dude! smiley13.gif

    • ILOVEANIMES

      5 years ago

      Thanks for the add! :D

    • nerdist WeWillMissKD

      5 years ago

      Thanks for the add! How did you find me?

      • nerdist WeWillMissKD

        5 years ago

        Cool! Hope to see you around!

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Went through Micheal's friend list

    • KimiJay92 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Hey, thanks for the friend request smiley0.gif

    • DragonNinja1

      5 years ago

      YEAH ANOTHER DRAGON!!! haha thanks for the friend request ^_^

    • Clint

      5 years ago

      Yo what's up thanks for the friend request. I'm Clint.

      • Clint

        5 years ago

        What do you get up to on the site hmm? What do you like most in RT stuff?

      • Xiagax

        5 years ago

        Nice to meet you Clint :)

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