ZeahRenee

Female
from East Berlin, PA

  • Activity

    • Going back to college.

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      Fuck campuses, I wanna stay home. That's what internet is for. Thank you, DeVry, for your kindness.


      . . . now, does anyone have $37,000 spare dollars?


      P.S.: Screw the kid that neg-modded my last journal entry.

    • I love my job, but...

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      I can't write or draw. The carnal side of me is going through withdrawal because I don't dote on it enough. I can't see my friends often. My body hurts after an 8 hour day of work. The one major drawback of having a job is losing everything else....

      God this is annoying.

    • Not dead. Tired, though.

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      I have work, at Petco. Yeah, this lazy, procrastinating girl finally found work. And it just so happens that part-time isn't good enough for my mom, so until I'm working full-time at Petco, I need to find another part-time job. FML, please, but use protection.

      I've been feeling really shitty lately. I put on ten pounds since leaving college, thanks to Mom's cooking and lack of motivation. That may attribute to my bad mood. But I hate exercising, so meh. Times like these I wish I was married and "fixed" so I could get my daily exercise in a more fun manner...

      I also have zero inspiration for anything. Can't draw, can't write, can't even be arsed to RP is some cases(there are three I'm waiting for responses for....*pokes Chronepsis*).

      Besides that, I'm just tired. Dog tired...

    • New Years Resolutions! and short update

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      Resolutions for the New Year:

      1. Live happily, no matter what. Let sorrow pass quickly and joy last indefinitely.
      2. Recover distanced friendships and relationships, as well as unresponsive RP partners. xP
      3. Get my creativity back so I can work on my art and stories!
      4. Get a job and keep it, no matter how annoying it may be. (insert deity here) save me.

      Does that sound pretty good? Tell me yours~


      In other news, mom allowed me to come back home. Without my brother living here, it's peaceful. I feel more or less content.

      Finally got Halo: CE working online on my laptop, so I can host a multiplayer server. If I'm up for hosting, my server will be listed as "Helldown" on the server list, my profile name being just "Zeah". I take first come, first serve requests for maps and game-types, so things are rather random when I get a full game going. I also need to learn how to use the console commands better. I can ban and kick assholes that use vehicles excessively or teamkill, but not much more than that. xD

      I luff you guys and hope your holidays (or lack thereof) were enjoyable. Stay out of trouble. ^^

    • Baw, emotime please. XD

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      So, I didn't win any of the staff over for the contest. Meh, that's life. At least a few people liked my submission. Thanks to those who did! ^_^

      Anyway, long story short, I'm in trouble. Talked to a career counselor at my college today, one who pulls no punches(I actually got flicked off once and he said f*ck about six times; I shit you not). The chances of me keeping my scholarship, and therefore my apartment, are slim to none. What should I do? Should kiss a load of ass, probably...

    • It's painful to admit, but...

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      What if, for once in a blue moon, my mother was right? She once told me, not even a year ago: "If you like a guy with family problems that refuses to get out of the situation for fear of what might happen, then you might grow bored of waiting for him to get out of the situation, and move on to find someone with more sense."

      The guy I outright love, with all of my heart, is having issues with his mother. She's using emotional blackmail to control him. Long story short, he doesn't want to be living with his mother anymore. He's 21, and he's tired of her alcoholism. But every time he tries to leave, she threatens - and even attempts - suicide. I know he loves his mother, and I know he's worried for her safety, but no matter what, her choice is her choice, and his fear of leaving her is hindering him from living a full life. Every time she drives him to a near-breaking point, he says he's going to leave, but then doesn't. His brother, I think, is another reason he fears leaving. His brother is 15, and would be stuck with the mother alone if he left.

      But anyway, my concern is(besides the obvious, that his mother is going to figuratively drown him and his brother with her) that I'm getting less and less willing to wait for him to actually do something about this. That I'm going to eventually give up on him, and say "since you're chained to her, I won't be more than just friends with you, ever".

      Is my concern justified? Keep in mind, we met two years ago, over the net. We've never met in person, due to distance. But we genuinely care for each other. You want any examples of that, PM me. XD

    • I caved. Dx

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      I refuse to go back on my antidepressants, as they cause more trouble than they help, but to help with my attention issues and to keep me from getting overweight again, I'm taking Adderall again. But regardless, I think I might need something, anything, to get my spirits up after how bad this first semester wound up being. Anyone have any advice for the girl who won't do coursework but wants to pass? >_<

      More detailed info in my journal on my DA page.

    • Aw, damn it.

      9 years ago

      ZeahRenee

      Ever post something you thought was correct at the moment, then look back and see you made a terribly embarrassing mistake?

  • Comments (18)

    • ZeahRenee

      9 years ago

      Going crazy, join me?

    • Z3R0K00L

      9 years ago

      Oh hi there. How have you been?

    • Chronepsis

      9 years ago

      Looking for Group.

    • Chronepsis

      9 years ago

      Looking for Group.

    • Dragostea

      9 years ago

      Yes, true! :D

    • Z3R0K00L

      9 years ago

      Happy Holidays! Hope you had a great time. Cheers.

    • IXIsm4rtyIXI

      9 years ago

      Hey, whats up?

    • mattbud0

      9 years ago

      Hi,
      Those are some good games that you like.

    • Visceral

      9 years ago

      D&D was fun when I was a kid and still had enough patience to bother with it, but my Idea of fun isnt filling out paperwork and doing math so I dropped that pretty quickly for a controller. But between playing guitar drawing airbrushing playing games and doing video editing my time became very quickly occupied. Im a nerd in my own kinda way, but mostly its work pay bills play games. All my friends are into entertainment music and media and so am I. Im kinda working on my own machinima thing , well I was until ODST came out but I finished that Got Recon to use in the series and will start writing again shortly. In order to do all that my mind has to stay in the gutter , that were all the funny stuff happens. The best part is most people dont speak their inner voice, I like to go out on a limb to see how far people can be pushed. Its how they react that is entertaining to me. Ill just put the bait out there on the hook and see who goes for it. Im pretty good at that i guess you could say im a master-baiter smiley4.gif

    • Visceral

      9 years ago

      I think people are like that because they themselves have issues with their understanding of the topic in any given context so they look at others as if they are strange because they are incapable of handing it in sarcasm or in intellectual conversations.
      Most people are embarrassed by things like that coming from a girl because they have preconceived notions of how a "lady" should act. In either case I can do without peoples preconceived notions of what they may think of who I am and things that I say. Most of the things I say can be perceived as harsh over the top and sometimes down right mean. Most of what I say is shock value sarcastic humor. But as they say a lot of truth is said in jest.

      I appreciate people who can understand my sense of humor and that was clear by the comment u modded.
      It was from the comic where noone wanted to play D and D with Matt and I commented to the effect "He can go play with himself, but he probably already played that game, target ceiling roll d20 for ranged attack" smiley4.gif

      I love this site cause if you like RvB , you probably have a similar sense of humor , Although there are pricks everywhere, and people dont always interpret your humor correctly, People take offense and off they go neg modding. I have several journals talking about that type of crap.
      Ill send u a friend req. smiley8.gif


    • Visceral

      9 years ago

      Nah , I dont troll around the picture link thing at the bottom. I only look at profiles of people who have modded something I posted and I usually try to go back to their profile check it out and see if there is something I can mod in return. Originally you modded some comic that I commented on which was obscure enough for me to say "Hey ! she got my obscure joke" which was enough for me to check your profile out. Your primary picture looked funny so I wanted to see the caption. Anything for a smile and a laugh.

      smiley8.gif

    • Visceral

      9 years ago

      See thats funny to me cause many of the people I have met rarely ever have a birthdate close to mine. When i was living in florida was the only time I met people with a July birthday , My friends was on the 9th ,Mine the 10th and my friend down the street was the 11th. Its like no one at all or everyone really close together.
      But always nice to meet with someone born around the same time of year. Usually i dont place much value in horoscopes but they are on to something with the personalitys of each sign , which i find pretty weird but intersting.

    • Visceral

      9 years ago

      You are very welcome , fellow cancer. 7/10

    • Visceral

      9 years ago

      Welcome to the family. smiley13.gif

    • rich225

      9 years ago

      I got that from a CTRL ALT DEL comic

    • NoGood56er

      9 years ago

      yea srry about the late comment lol yeah sure cool we can be friends if u have one give mme ur gamertag and we will hang out online

    • ZeahRenee

      9 years ago

      Thank you. RvB is for me. xD

    • CyanLink

      9 years ago

      Randomly browsing the online members list at the bottom of the pages. Hi and what's up?

      Also welcome to Rooster Teeth, Achievement Hunter, Red vs Blue or whatever part of the site you signed up for.

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