babygirlcjb

Female
from your back yard

  • Activity

    • im saying goodbye

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb

      im saying good bye to all those on my freind list

    • brothers

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb

      i give up what all i love
      how so for you or all
      to know who i am or what i do
      it makes me sad that all you do is
      is make me sad or make me blue
      curse me out or call me names
      all you want is to be better then me
      i used to be happy we used to have fun
      but what happend to that brother of mine
      i love you so i love you trueley how come you cant have any understanding

    • Depression

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb


      I have depression I do admit,
      Admit that I have been depressed,
      Thinking how much I wish I could be happy,
      Thinking how much I want in life,
      Thinking how much you can miss someone you love,
      When I look back I can see how much this depression has been there in my life,
      I need this to be fake,
      I need this not to be true,
      Yet again its true I have this depression that makes me sad inside and the outside,
      My depression has caused me to see how sad I can be,
      How it makes me feel,
      How this depression makes me think of cutting and suicide,
      But we all human,
      We have all have something to overcome,
      I will overcome this depression once and for all,
      I fight back some how,
      This depression I will get rid of someday,
      For now I have to deal with it.

    • Life Is A Prison

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb



      Life is a prison,
      Oh God let me out.
      No one to listen,
      To hear when you shout.

      Climb the walls of insanity,
      Ride the waves of despair.
      If you fall it don't matter,
      There's no one to care.

      Used to wish for a window,
      To see birds, trees and sky,
      But you're better without one -
      Stops you aiming too high.

      Watching freedom is painful,
      For those locked away.
      Seeing joy, love and happiness,
      Another price that you pay.

      Strong is good, weak is bad.
      Be it false, be it true.
      Your mind makes the choice,
      And enforces it too.

      Cell walls built by society,
      With rules to adhere.
      If you breach the acceptable,
      You had better beware.

      Hide the pain, carry on,
      Routine is the key.
      Don't let on that you're not,
      What you're pretending to be.

      Lock it all up inside you,
      How badly that bodes.
      Look out for that one day,
      When it all just explodes.

      Leaving naught but a shell,
      Base functionality too.
      But killing all else,
      That was uniquely you.

      So how do you grow,
      With a timebomb inside?
      Or how to defuse it,
      Without destroying its ride?

      You can't.

    • Am I Alone?

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb



      I get a funny feeling,
      it comes from deep inside.
      I get all mad and angry,
      wanting to go and hide.

      My doctor calls it depression,
      my dad says it's just me.
      But the thoughts and feelings,
      no one will ever be able to see.

      Some say I'm psycho,
      some say I'm just weird.
      It's like I'm a different person,
      and the old me just disappeared.

      I get really edgy,
      I want to commit suicide real bad.
      Then I get a headache,
      followed by feeling sad.

      I wish I could get help,
      I wish it would go away.
      Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
      it will some day.

    • hmm yeah

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb

      well things bout me you will only see not so much im a sad girl and my heart has never been broken couse i never give any one the cance to brake it i has bad days and good days but the thing bout me is i never hurt any one unless they mean harm and i do deffend some but only if whats right and im aloner most the time so there for i dont have many friends but i ceep my self clean im a good person and im some one you will have hard time understanding i easy to get along with but there are things you never say to my face i wont tell you that but it takes alot to make me mad i dont ever get mad at any one i just get mad at myself and i dont judge or blame i will stick with my freinds no matter how hard they have it im realy hard to hate but realy anoing at times but only couse im bored and trying to have fun and i dont take sides on any thing i try to talk it out if you dont understand this im sorry you to dumb to

    • ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb

      i was out side to day and i was feel of my horses belly to see if i could feel the baby and i did the baby kicked omg i am so happy it was so cool to know that there will be a baby born in feb. ah i got to pick a name out

    • love

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb

      if you dare to love me you have to promise this you have to lock my heart up and throw away the key..................i dont want my heart in open fire to get shot couse love is TNT ready to blow up

    • save me / strong soon to be lyrics by me

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb

      save me my love save me from death save me from my self kill me now for i will be strong

    • sex and candy/ marcy's playground

      11 years ago

      babygirlcjb



      Hangin' round downtown by myself
      And I had so much time
      To sit and think
      About myself
      And then there she was
      Like double cherry pie
      Yeah there she was
      Like disco superfly
      I smell sex and
      Candy here
      Who's that lounging
      In my chair
      Who's that casting
      Devious stares
      In my direction
      Mama this surely
      Is a dream

      Hangin' 'round downtown by myself
      And I had too
      Much caffeine
      And I was thinkin'
      'bout myself
      And then there she was
      In platform double suede
      Yeah there she was
      Like disco lemonade
      I smell sex and
      Candy here
      Who's that lounging
      In my chair
      Who's that casting
      Devious stares
      In my direction
      Mama this surely
      Is a dream
      Mama this surely
      Is a dream
      Yeah mama this must
      Be my dream

  • About Me

  • Comments (860)

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Don't worry
      I won't waste them

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      uhh ok

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Why do you have to get off?

    • thethe2

      11 years ago

      HiLLo

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol, thought so

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Thats cool.

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      No, is it good?

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Remedy

      Throw your dollar bills and leave your thrills all here with me
      And speak but don't pretend I won't defend you anymore you see
      It aches in every bone, I'll die alone, but not for you
      My eyes don't need to see that ugly thing, I know it's me you fear
      If you want me hold me back

      Frail, the skin is dry and pale, the pain will never fail
      And so we go back to the remedy
      Clip the wings that get you high, just leave them where they lie
      And tell yourself, "You'll be the death of me"

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Hurt

      i hurt myself today
      to see if i still feel
      i focus on the pain
      the only thing that's real
      the needle tears a hole
      the old familiar sting
      try to kill it all away
      but i remember everything
      what have i become?
      my sweetest friend
      everyone i know
      goes away in the end
      you could have it all
      my empire of dirt
      i will let you down
      i will make you hurt

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Going Under


      Now I will tell you what I've done for you,
      50 thousand tears I've cried.
      screaming, decieving, and bleeding for you,
      and you still won't hear me.
      going under.
      Don't want your hand this time, I'll save myself,
      maybe I'll wake up for once.
      not tormented daily defeated by you.
      just when i thought I reached the bottom.



      Im dying again


      I'm going under,
      drowning in you,
      I'm falling forever,
      I've got to break through,
      I'm going under.


      Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies,
      [whisper]
      So I don't know what's real, so I dont know what's real and what's not, what's real and what's not.
      Always confusing the thoughts in my head,
      So I can't trust myself anymore.

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol nice.

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lithium

      I'm so happy 'cause today
      I found my friends
      They're in my head
      I'm so ugly, but that's okay
      Cause so are you
      Broke our mirrors
      Sunday morning is everyday for all I care
      And I'm not scared
      Light my candles
      In a daze cause I found god
      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah....Yeah...Yeah....
      Yeah

      I'm so lonely
      That's okay I shaved my head
      And I'm not sad
      And just maybe I'm to blame for all I've heard
      But I'm not sure
      I'm so excited, I can't wait to meet you there
      And I don't care
      I'm so horny but that's okay
      My will is good

      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah, yeah
      Yeah, yeah

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Yeah np
      Oh ok, night Crissy

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      That might be cool to try, just don't stop writing the sad ones.....I like them

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol, you was right. I'm happy now lol

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Man, its depressing as hell.

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      The new one, the one up now

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Hey, did you really write the poem in your journal?

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      thats what?
      Yeah, I was just kidding though and I knew you wouldn't.

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      lol w/e
      Later

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol, oh ok

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Well, I was at work before the power went out.
      I was stranded at work waiting for mom to pick me up.
      So after 2 hours I walked to my grandma's place ( she lives less than a mile away).
      That night I didn't want to sleep in the house cause its full of fleas, and mice.
      So I went to sleep in the car, the next morning the damn door was iced over.
      So I had to roll the window down and kick out the ice over the window, which was kinda cool lol.

      Hmm, well that sucks. I gotten to where I hate GOW.
      You probably wouldn't be tired if you didn't stay up all night watching Texas Ranger

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Yeah, exercise always makes me feel better for some reason.
      How could you be bored? You guys have a Wii, 360, Sweet Computers, and a hell of a lot of movie.
      All I have is this dang computer with 3 games lol.

      Well for the first time this whole week, I didn't wake up on a floor lol, or the backseat of a old crappy car with the door freezed over.
      So its been ok lol

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Alright, cool
      So, how was your day?

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      How much is it?

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Hmm, sounds awesome

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol, yeah
      It still won't be as fricken awesome as your's though.

    • boycrasy

      11 years ago

      hey

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Oh well thats cool then.
      Yeah, maybe next week.
      I'm getting a Epiphone Les Paul, not a cheap one either.
      Its about $600

    • Omega_loser0

      11 years ago

      how are ya today?

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Thats depressing lol

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol yeah, its super icey over here.
      We lost power so we went to Andrea's.

    • GuiltyGee

      11 years ago

      Lol, I look like that "darth guy"?

    • shawn666

      11 years ago

      aww. i'm sorry. besides the fact that you feel sick, what else happened today?

    • shawn666

      11 years ago

      apparently i made no sence i my last comment. lol. just ignore it and lets move on.

      soooooo.......how you doing?

    • shawn666

      11 years ago

      lol. yeah i thought you were doing it just for the fuck of it. but that makes more sence.

      I'm sorry you're sick. i hope you get better.

    • shawn666

      11 years ago

      lol. i'm a bad boy. nah, my dad thought i was smokin somthin. but i didn't. so i'm good.

      And yeah, i'm doing good. you?

    • shawn666

      11 years ago

      well that sucks. no wonder i didn't get a response.

      Well i just basically said, hey hotness, how you doin? and that i'm sorry i got off the messenger thing like that yesterday. I kinda got in trouble.

    • shadowalchem

      11 years ago

      sweet especially since esp rocks does it have emgz

    • bambam81391

      11 years ago

      I am sitting at my house because there is tons of snow and I cant drive my Mini in it ow about you?

    • RevoStar

      11 years ago

      I love ice! Especially playing Hockey :DI wish it would snow here

    • Omega_loser0

      11 years ago

      thats good!
      anythin happin since talked last?

    • Omega_loser0

      11 years ago

      how are ya today

    • Omega_loser0

      11 years ago

      heyas!

    • BlueJam89

      11 years ago

      heeeey! how are you?

    • RevoStar

      11 years ago

      aww that blows Im sorry :/

    • RevoStar

      11 years ago

      me too! my friends dropped me off in the rain so I could catch my bus

    • RevoStar

      11 years ago

      Im bored too. But its cuz im sick

    • bambam81391

      11 years ago

      I am just catching up on some comics, hav'nt been to the site lately because I have been so busy, and studying for Finals, how about you?

    • bambam81391

      11 years ago

      haha, well thats cool. Just thought I would say hi because you said too :P

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