blessedwhite

Female
from Southern California

  • Activity

    • stuff

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      me and my boyfriend broke up...or should i say i broke up with him. things just weren't working out. thats how life goes right? i never seem to be happy with what i have. im doomed to be unhappy. oh well! c'est la vie.

    • well look at that

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      i seem to featured again, even though i dont really spend all that much time on this website anymore! i guess it just goes to show how utterly random the picks are...still flattering in any case. thanks for all the comments and stuff guys, you make me feel very happy =D

    • Autographs and Apologies

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      Outline of a storyboard with no idea
      Head first in the shallow end
      and I apologize if I do not care

      Busy hands keep swimming
      They don't like swallowing to the abstract motor
      "Gotta make that motor hum, gotta make it run."
      Forward seems like forever when "ever" is hand over hand over hand
      The busy hands keep swimming
      Gotta make that motor "hum"
      Get it over and done

      So much for the autographs
      So much for apologies
      So much for the promises I never intended to keep
      How does it all add up?
      How does the story end?
      I can't let go
      I can't pretend

      Very I'm so friendly
      Very I'm so halloween
      So this is what I wanted
      Gotta keep those channels clean and other sobering themes
      I'm drowning by numbers
      my halo is bent
      it's a fat fucking lie
      and so the abstract motor gives in
      it says "At least I tried."
      At least I tried.

      So much for the autographs
      So much for apologies
      So much for the promises I never intended to keep
      How does it all add up?
      How does the story end?
      I can't let go
      I can't pretend

    • HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      ...to ME!!!

      Yes, today is really my birthday, and I am the devils child. Thank you =P.

    • Ramblings of a confused brain.

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      How far would you go for that person? It's all the same.

      What do you do when you don't know what to do? Is this really what you want? How do you KNOW?

      Self falsehoods. For what purpose? White lies, black lies...grey lies?

      Shadows of a smile. Endless dreaming. You'll never have it, you'll never know.

      Open spaces getting wider. Wonders.

      Brainless decisions.

      Losing control.

      What do you really want?

      A dream within a dream. Confusion. Light.

      Death of emotion.

      Running with the motions. Back to the beat. Don't get off track.

      Never forget that past.

      Live for today. Don't stop yet.

      Who are you? I'm not there yet...

      Stop dreaming. Pointless arguements.

      Don't lie to yourself.

      That life is just a dream. Work for what you know.

      Be happy with the now.

      How? Isn't it what you want?

      Running water. How can you not be sure?

      Life is too short to make these mistakes.

      Take a breath, get it together. Stop wondering.

      There isn't anymore.

      Get over it already.







      trying to understand this is trying to understand me. if you can tell me what this means i'll give you a gold star.

    • WOOT!

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      So I think I got that job I mentioned the other day. The interview went really well, and the guy the interviewed me said he would call on monday to set up a fingerprint test! My sister said that meant I was basically hired. So now all I have to worry about is watching 14 kids at a time without killing them all. =D

      I am happy.

    • So...

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      ...tomorrow I am going to an interview at the YMCA to tutor kids after school. I really hope I get the job because I need the money and it sounds like it would be something really fun to do. I like kids, and they usually like me...so wish me luck! (because I think I'll need it)

      -Holly

    • I would post something new...

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      ...but there is nothing to say. I go to school, go to work, and hang with my boyfriend. Life is boring lol.

    • I freak myself out sometimes...

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      So last night I was out with my boyfriend and all his friends (we all get along rather well...I might as well be a guy myself.) Anyway, we were waiting for everyone to get to his house and somehow got to talking about the Silent Hill movie thats coming out...and of course I'd seen that game be played so I knew that it was "scary." I watched the trailor for it, and I admit, although the game wasn't really scary for me, the movie looked like it would be. So we talked about it for a little while longer and then when everyone was there we all went and played pool for a couple hours. After that we went to the arcade next door and I totally forgot all about Silent Hill. We all went back to Johanns (my bf's name) house, and I pulled out the futon (however that is spelled) and laid down while the boys started playing some game...tales of something...I can't remember. Anyway my wonderful boyfriend gave me some shorts to change into and I laid down and got warm (it was freezing ass cold.) Then Johann has to take our friend Tony home as it was like 1am already. I take forever to get to sleep usually, and Tony lives right down the street...so I was a little suprised that the next time I woke up and Johann was laying next to me and everyone else was gone. I'm also a very light sleeper and usually when everyone leaves I wake up and leave too. But not this time. I was sleeping so good that the next time I woke up it was almost 5am and I was feeling totally refreshed...and maybe a little hungry. So I got up and started to walk to the front door and noticed I couldn't see anything out the door. It was foggy...and now the kind of fog that you can see through...I don't know why...but the fog scared me. I remember the conversation we had eariler about Silent Hill and started getting freaked out. (and if you know me then you know I don't get scared easily.) Well, I put on my shoes and walked outside...I didn't even notice how cold it was because I was distracted by not being able to see five feet in front of me. And I have no imagination, so thinking some bloody carcas is going to start chasing after me any moment is unusual for me. Stupid Silent Hill. I seriously ran to my car and thought 'if I see something cross the street right now I'm totally going to freak.' I probably shouldn't have thought that seeing as the second I unlocked my car someone walked across the street just far enough away for me to still see. Mind you, it was 5 in the morning...so I got in my car and locked it as fast as I could. I even thought to myself 'damn, if the world is going to be taken over by zombies i'm screwed because I have no gas.' LOL I know i'm a nerd. I have no idea where that person went, so I just drove away and tried not to think about it. The fog wasn't so bad at my house, but I still ran to the front door. When I got in and locked the door I could finally breathe easy. I just couldn't get the bad thoughts out of my head so I decided to go on the computer a little. I did, and I forgot all about the thick fog and stupid Silent Hill, and I went to sleep just fine.

      That's a typical friday night for me...how's yours?

    • Some days.

      13 years ago

      blessedwhite

      I notice that the world is a really pretty place. And usually I notice that on days when I am content with myself. Today is one of those days.

      I'm really happy today and I can't say why...I guess thats a good thing though isn't it?

      smiley0.gif

  • About Me

  • Comments (152)

    • Mspltchwder

      12 years ago

      did you used to know a chubby kid named alex choudoir, you look familiar.

    • anikat

      13 years ago

      its i admiral buttercrust!!!!

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Yeah, I laughed so hard I accidently sent the contents of my stomach the wrong way. smiley4.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Thanks, much. smiley1.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      "what's your favorite part of gardening"

      "getting down and dirty with my hoe."


      That's from 'Home Improvement' isn't it?

    • Doctorbleed

      13 years ago

      Congrats on Featured User.

    • BILLYBOBBILL

      13 years ago

      congats on fu

    • shackmyster

      13 years ago

      Your to beautiful to only have 5 freinds

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      That's a lot to me, too...kinda. smiley1.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      How many requests were awaiting your arrival?

    • StoneGut

      13 years ago

      Congrats and stuff... hope it was fun!

    • Konk

      13 years ago

      Heck yes u are the featured user but u only have 4 Friends
      thats cool thats cool

    • Pharcyde

      13 years ago

      grats on FU!

    • caboosevip

      13 years ago

      CONGRAST ON FU!!!! enojoy your day!!!

    • churchrvsb

      13 years ago

      Congrats on featured user smiley0.gif

    • Mattatius

      13 years ago

      congrats on being featured user

    • Halfling64

      13 years ago

      Grats

    • T0ny

      13 years ago

      Gratz on being featured user

    • Darth_Blind

      13 years ago

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    • bobinator394

      13 years ago

      congrats featured user!!! hope you are having a good day!

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Hey! You got featured user! Congrats! Now if only you could get on AIM so I can tell you of this "blessed" event! smiley1.gif

    • aratonstilts

      13 years ago

      congrats on bien Fetured user...

    • DigitalDren

      13 years ago

      Congrats on be the featured user. With so many users on this site, its a wonder how they ever pick the featured user. But you look very deserving of it so i wont complain. :D

      Dren

    • TheMatt

      13 years ago

      White Power !!!!
      I mean, Featured User !!!!!
      Congrats on being featured yet again.

    • slayerDS

      13 years ago

      Congrats on Featured user... AGAIN... how'd you get featured a second time???

    • timberwolves

      13 years ago

      congrats on featured user!

    • CgSquall

      13 years ago

      hey cutie, congratulations on being featured user again. /endcliche.

    • Hector47

      13 years ago

      Featured User alright Congrats

    • jay3of7

      13 years ago

      Congrats on being to day's featured user !!!

    • ThePieBoy

      13 years ago

      congrats :-)

    • EYVoom

      13 years ago

      Mazal Tov

    • gokuh_012

      13 years ago

      featured users, im serious they'er everywhere

    • huffcoresxe

      13 years ago

      Congrats on featured user!!!

    • imagamer27

      13 years ago

      BIG PICTURE WARNING!

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    • Netdiver

      13 years ago

      SMILE smiley0.gifsmiley11.gif


      your on featured user smiley11.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Yeah. Unfortunatley I don't have a camera anymore. smiley3.gif

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      I finally cut my hair yesterday. I HOPE YOU'RE HAPPY! smiley1.gif

    • anikat

      13 years ago

      hari!!! *hugs*

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Yes, Tails roxors, and my hair shall never change!

      ...ok maybe it will, but not today!

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Regarding the comment about my hair:



      NEVAH!!!

    • Foxfire22 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      13 years ago

      You have great hair but in all honesty I 'loved' the red hair.

    • Junkie_XXX

      13 years ago

      I used to have a charmander shirt when I was 9 years old, lol.

    • Junkie_XXX

      13 years ago

      oh yeah! I was thinking it was meowth or something like that.

    • Foxfire22 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      13 years ago

      I warned you, lol. Im glad i made it available to friends only.

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      Yeah, that little girl freaks me out.

      "Mister, would you play with us?"

      Me: HELL NO!

      Post edited 3/09/06 1:43PM

    • Foxfire22 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      13 years ago

      Hey sweety guess what. Today is a special day, Ill give you a hint, Ive had 22 but its only possible to have one. Still not sure? Ok one more hint. It starts with a B and ends with irthday. smiley8.gif

    • Foxfire22 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      13 years ago

      i just posted your answers, thanks sweetheart. smiley12.gif

    • Foxfire22 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      13 years ago

      thanks hun! but you still have to comment on my journal, 6 questions you have to ask me, ill be waiting.

    • Caboose00

      13 years ago

      haha, yeah. High school was the best.

    • slayerDS

      13 years ago

      nightcrawler, the dancing kitty, Master Chief and I smiley0.gif where here.....
      ththNightCrawler_Teleporting.gifthdancingkitty.gifthe4663361.gifthdancingman.gif

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