bloodredking

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from Some Where in between life and death

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    • Why?

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      I know no one will read this because i am not someone thats important to anyone but i need to write it.

      I hate my life i really do. Every time i have something good happen to me ten bad things happen to make up for the one good thing.
      Most of the good things that happen to me are never enough to make up for that bad. I make a friend and loss 3, then I some how make everyone I know hate me. I get sick and then start to get better, then i get a ton worse.
      I really just hate my life. I cant even enjoy spending time with my friends because it fells like they hate me so i put myself down for it. I beat myself mentally for hours when every i hurt someone or i think i did. I do it because i fell bad for hurting them and I dont like to hurt people.
      Most of the time now i just fell like crap, always second guessing my actions and everything. I even fell guilty when i eat food now because i think it makes people angry with me.
      I guess in life i got stuck with all the bad luck and just a tiny bit of good luck...

    • I give up....

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      To all that read this I no longer care...
      I see now why I am so confused all the time now...
      and why i fell the way i do...
      So from her on out I will no longer be anything other then who i am...
      I am nothing, of all the people of this world none have less of a right to live then me...
      That is why i no longer want to live my life...
      Someone else can have it because i no longer want it...
      I have hurt the person I care about most in this world...
      and it was over something very very stupid...
      and that is y ii no longer have a right to existe....

    • It is Desided

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      I have finally answered my own questions... all of them...
      This world and ever thing in it is out to destroy me...
      My life is just pointless... I now have come to understand that....
      I was born for the sole perpuse of dieing...
      I was never meant to do anything with my life...
      I am just a rug for everyone to walk over...
      and now i am tired of it.... so very tired...
      I just want to fade into nothing like I should have years ago...

    • Why?

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      Why is it that no mater how hard you try you can never make anyone happy...
      I try with all i might but i can never make anyone happy...
      I can't make my friends happy, all I do is make them angry at me...
      I can't make myself happy because I don't think i deserve to be...

    • I Tire of This....

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      I tire of this losing battle i fight.
      I Tire of my life because i don't know why I'm still alive now.
      I tire of people always assuming I'm gay because I'm a passive person, I hate fighting and try to avoid it as much as i can.
      I Tier of being alone, I use to able to not have a heart but, i can't do that anymore it hurts to much.
      I Tier of being used by others because I am kind though, it may not always show.
      I Tier of thinking that people care when i know that no one cares about me, and no one ever will.
      I Tier of being a tool that people use for what they need and then Throw away.
      I Tier of all this and more......

    • I Quit

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      I quit im tired of everything
      I'm giving up on caring about anything
      because every time i start caring
      it some back to bite me

      so i quit with caring im going back
      to how i was in high school a cold
      heartless Bastard

    • Why?

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      I'm writing this journal because right now
      i'm wondering why should i care anymore
      i tried caring about something and i found
      out that there is no point anymore....

    • let me go...

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      im passing away please dont try to stop me..
      let me go, let me fade into nothing...
      im of no use to anyone...
      my life is nothing but a lie...
      no one cares about me...
      not really they just fell sorry for me...
      let me pass....


      When your gone

      I always needed time on my own
      I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
      And the days feel like years when I'm alone
      And the bed where you lie
      Is made up on your side

      When you walk away
      I count the steps that you take
      Do you see how much I need you right now?

      When you're gone
      The pieces of my heart are missing you
      When you're gone
      The face I came to know is missing too
      When you're gone
      The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
      And make it OK
      I miss you

      I never felt this way before
      Everything that I do
      Reminds me of you
      And the clothes you left
      They lie on the floor
      And they smell just like you
      I love the things that you do

      When you walk away
      I count the steps that you take

      [When You're Gone lyrics on www.metrolyrics.com]

      Do you see how much I need you right now?

      When you're gone
      The pieces of my heart are missing you
      When you're gone
      The face I came to know is missing too
      When you're gone
      The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
      And make it OK
      I miss you

      We were made for each other
      Out here forever
      I know we were
      Yeah Yeah

      All I ever wanted was for you to know
      Everything I do I give my heart and soul
      I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
      Yeah

      When you're gone
      The pieces of my heart are missing you
      When you're gone
      The face I came to know is missing too
      And When you're gone
      The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
      And make it OK
      I miss you
      mMm



      Keep holding on

      You're not alone
      Together we stand
      I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
      When it gets cold
      And it feels like the end
      There's no place to go
      You know I won't give in
      No I won't give in

      Keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
      Just stay strong
      'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
      There's nothing you could say
      Nothing you could do
      There's no other way when it comes to the truth
      So keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

      So far away
      I wish you were here
      Before it's too late, this could all disappear
      Before the doors close
      And it comes to an end
      With you by my side I will fight and defend
      I'll fight and defend
      Yeah, yeah

      Keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
      Just stay strong
      'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
      There's nothing you could say
      [Keep Holding On lyrics on www.metrolyrics.com]

      Nothing you could do
      There's no other way when it comes to the truth
      So keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

      Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
      Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
      Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
      Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

      La da da da
      La da da da
      La da da da da da da da da

      Keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
      Just stay strong
      'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
      There's nothing you could say
      Nothing you could do
      There's no other way when it comes to the truth
      So keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

      Keep holding on
      Keep holding on

      There's nothing you could say
      Nothing you could do
      There's no other way when it comes to the truth
      So keep holding on
      'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

    • Pray of the Dying

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      To Our Lord for a Happy Death

      Lord Jesus Christ, who willest that no man should perish, and to whom petition is never made without the hope of mercy, for Thou saidst with Thine own holy and blessed lips: "All things whatsoever ye shall ask in My name, shall be done unto you"; I beg of Thee, O Lord, for Thy holy Name's sake, to grant me at the hour of my death full consciousness and the power of speech, sincere contrition for my sins, true faith, firm hope and perfect charity, that I may be able to say unto Thee with a clean heart: Thou has redeemed me, O God of truth, who art blessed for ever and ever. Amen.

      Prayer For a Dying Person

      May Christ Who was crucified for your sake
      free you from excruciating pain. May Christ Who died for you free you from the death that never ends.
      May Christ the Son of the living God, set you in the ever green loveliness of His Paradise, and may He, the true Shepherd recognize you as one of His own.
      May you see your Redeemer face to face and standing in His presence forever, may you see with joyful eyes Truth revealed in all its fullness.
      Amen.
      Prayer for the Sick near Death

      Almighty and Everlasting God, preserver of souls, who dost correct those whom Thou dost love, and for their betterment dost tenderly chastise those whom Thou dost receive, we call upon Thee, O Lord, to grant Thy healing, that the soul of Thy servant, at the hour of its departure from the body, may by the hands of Thy holy Angels be presented without spot unto Thee. Amen.

      Prayer for the Dying

      Most merciful Jesus, lover of souls, I pray you by the agony of your most sacred heart, and by the sorrows of your Immaculate mother, to wash in your most Precious Blood the sinners of the world who are now in their agony, and who will die today.
      Heart of Jesus, once in agony, have mercy on the dying.
      Jesus, Mary and Joseph, I give you my heart and my soul. Assist me in my last agony, and grant that I may breath forth my soul in peace with you. Amen.

    • -_-

      11 years ago

      bloodredking

      I really hate it when people are mad and they take out there anger on me and i havent done anything to them, to make them mad at me....
      Its crap and they know it but still they take there anger out on me but i guess im use to it now
      cuse it really doesnt bother me all that much any more...

  • About Me

  • Comments (1180)

    • meowkitty24

      10 years ago

      im not pissed
      i jsut dont ahve anything to talk about

    • sakublossom

      10 years ago

      g2g bye bye

    • sakublossom

      10 years ago

      that sucks

    • sakublossom

      10 years ago

      fun fun

    • sakublossom

      10 years ago

      nothing really whats up with u

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      ok

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      don't forget
      what do u think of me living with u guys

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      alrighty

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      awww

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      yeah it will

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      yeah

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      hey how r u

    • Angel_Dragon

      11 years ago

      lol

    • Angel_Dragon

      11 years ago

      lol well thts good i guess

    • Angel_Dragon

      11 years ago

      man i hope u feel better

    • Angel_Dragon

      11 years ago

      lol nm u?

    • Angel_Dragon

      11 years ago

      lol its alright

    • Angel_Dragon

      11 years ago

      HIYA

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      aww that sucks

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      does no one else believe in u?

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      well i believe u can work it out

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      it will work out believe in urself

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      that sucks

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      nothing much what about u

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      smooth


      hahah

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      yeah
      rob is from an early nintendo game


      awesome

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      its not that complicated
      its just like melee
      cept wiht the stages
      and power lvls
      and smashball

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      yah

    • Kairi15

      11 years ago

      lol hiya

    • Kairi15

      11 years ago

      its fine don't worry about it
      but i'm not sure if ANYONE will be able to talk to me anymore
      (i'll post it in a journal in a minute)

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      ill see what happens


      oh and btw
      im not always gonna mr. "hey now dont think that way, you got lots to live for"
      so basically im gonna say this for possible the last time
      suck it up and quit being a fuckin wussy
      life get harsh, things go bad, shit hits the fan
      u get 2 options
      1. pick ur self up, and keep going
      2. puss out and hope some one will come by pick u up and baby u
      yes these options are quite blunt and straight to the point
      i feel no need to fancy anything up
      life is shit, deal wiht it and try to make it better or you can be a whiney bitch and wind up gettin covered in all the shit life will provide

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      meh

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      nothin

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      yo....

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      hello how r u today

    • weisstrenden

      11 years ago

      and u seriously think hes ur freind....................................
      okay i have a story to tell
      i was raised by my mother (nicest person i know, till pissed)
      her father died when she was elelven, her mother did nothing but find another husband and obeyed that husbands every whim
      that mans name was neal, he was the biggest ass on the planet, if there was a hair in the sink my mom would be grounded to her room for a week.
      after neal died (about 24 years into the future)
      we moved into my moms old house, we were gonna use it till we could but it from her mom,
      her moms new husband went bankrupt so she sold the house and told us too leave..........

      i really dont consider her part of the family any more.....................if ur freind cares about nothing but him self then in my opinoin he really isnt considered a freind, more of an aqatance................a true freind is someone who would save ur ass in dire need..
      i have a lot of freinds like that and im proud to say they are my freinds not my aquatances

    • weisstrenden

      11 years ago

      awesome........so hows life

    • weisstrenden

      11 years ago

      OMGZ UR ONZ

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      bye bye

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      hey how r u

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      hope so

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      ok

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      hows everything going 4 u

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      fun fun

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      how r u

    • sakublossom

      11 years ago

      hello

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      fun

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      wat i miss

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      shouldnt b hard to do

    • meowkitty24

      11 years ago

      ok

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