butterfly234

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from the world of me

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    • woo!

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      as many know, the new The Used album is out, and i simply love it!!! you can check out their songs on myspace, well just samples but im gonna give u the full list of songs so u can check them out on youtube....
      1.The Ripper <--great
      2.Pretty Handsome Awkward
      3.The Bird And The Worm <--LOVE
      4.Earthquake
      5.Hospital <--FAV!!!
      6.Paralyzed <--fun to dance to
      7.With Me Tonight
      8.Wake The Dead
      9.Find A Way
      10.Liar, Liar (Burn In Hell) <--FAV!!!! (i have 2)
      11.Smother Me <--love it
      ok, so go find ur fav or whatever....^-^

    • last few days

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      *sigh* wow, its been a long time since i've up dated u douche bags on my wonderful life... so i had spent saturday, sunday, and monday very, very, very drunk...had lots of fun the day before i had to take my last exam....we (me angel jesus(matt) and lee) all atempted to steal a cart from a store... it worked out really good, but we had to go back to mickey d's, so we put it back....but the ppls that worked there just saw us and laughed, cuz it was 2 girls in the cart and 2 guys pushing the cart.... yes and me and my mexican friend jumped the fence at mickey d's too. all in all, i had a pretty good weekend...except for the fact that i threw up a lot on sat. that was ok though.... dont ask. but thats y i havent been here for a little....

    • a friend mailed this to me

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      DAY 1


      I’m writing all my feelings out. I don’t know why…..it really doesn’t matter. No one will ever see this, ever read this. My words are now my memories. So I will never forget this pain, this happiness. I’m not getting anything anymore. I’m so confused and afraid of all that never might be with him. This is my confession. I love him so much and I know he sees it. He tells me that he cares, but asks me if it would be better if I hated him. I can’t imagine what he’s thinking. I can’t tell what anyone’s thinking anymore. I don’t over analyze the situation or over think things too much nowadays. My mind is a blank nothingness now that I’m older. How did I change so much? I miss a lot of what I used to have…friends I can no longer see, save for in my dreams. I’m scared. Growing older has that effect on people.
      It’s not all bad, but at the same time, it’s not so good either. I still don’t get a lot of things…I don’t know anymore. Things just suck for me at the moment. All I can do is keep breathing, even that’s getting harder now. I want to die, but keep living. It’s like I’m an empty shell of this person I used to be. Now all I can do is walk around with a fake smile, a heavy heart, a blank stare. Cutting is starting to creep back to me, but I won’t touch a razor again. A mad world is what I’m caught up in.
      I wish he would catch me, but he can’t seem to see that I’m falling away. He can only see her, love her, be with her. I hate it, not her. He asked me one day, what made me love him…I really can’t answer that truthfully. It was something that can’t be put into words. It just happened. Impossible to explain. My heart aches when I’m not with him, but at the same time, I want to give him space. Would it be better if I did hate him? I don’t know. I love his laugh, his out-look on life. But one question remains with me; does he view me in the same way I do him? I miss him so much.
      Okay, enough of that girlish nonsense. God I’m so emo. Heh, it’s kinda funny from the inside looking out. I just hate the way I’m feeling, the way I am. But I can’t change it, another impossible thing to explain. There is no going back, only forward on a set path, just for me. Free falling is sorta fun anyways. That’s kinda messed up, I guess. My feet just can’t keep up with this pace I’m going, so I trip and stumble a lot. That’s life. Hours go by but you just don’t notice until you see the time, and then, you wonder, where did it all go? This is my never land. But the hash reality has been realized, you can’t stand in one place forever, you have to keep moving. Even if I don’t want to. I thought, at the age of 15, I had everything figured out, but now, looking back, I had no clue.
      My inside joke. Everyone thinks they know me so well, but they only see the mask. My mask is starting to slide away and I’m scared of what might happen if I let it fall completely away. I just don’t know. Maybe things will start being clearer when I get just that much older. Just a maybe though. Who truly knows anyway? Why are things the way they are is my biggest question. I want to cry, even now, and I don’t know how to stop this. The tears just keep coming, no how much I don’t want them with me.
      The days seem to blur all together now. The same thing. I don’t know if I want change, but I know things can’t stay the way they are now. I want him to want to be with me as much I want to be with him. I want to feel his lips against mine, even if it doesn’t last. I want to escape this world with him, get lost in it. Maybe I’m hopeless? Maybe I’m not, who can say for sure? Maybe I’m just impatient but I want answers to come to me soon. I can’t leave all my words unsaid. I’ll just roll it off my shoulder with a shrug, I guess.
      I laugh at them. From behind this all, the whole world. In the end, we’ll all laugh at ourselves as we look back. In this crazy world, alls we can do is laugh and hope silly things for the future. But we all do die. So I’m going to try my best to enjoy this little thing we call life. Even if I go to “hell†I’ll go down with it all, the good, the bad, the indescribable feelings I’ve experienced. Why not? It’s all like a dream anyway. It’s all under rated and over played. This drama.
      Words can be meaningless. Action speaks way louder. Sometimes I wish I could watch it all happen on a movie screen, but what fun would that be? I wouldn’t want to rewatch something such as me. It would be quite entertaining to see some of my moments though.
      Sometimes I wish people would quit telling me it’ll be aright, ‘cause, sometimes, it won’t ever be that way. At least until I tell myself that it’ll get better. Smile is what I tell a lot of people sometimes. I don’t know why though…because even I can’t sometimes. It has to go with the flow of life. That’s why God made music. To help us out, to feel those vibrations in our bodies.
      Maybe I’ll be able to breathe a little easier…
      11:21
      From me: its kind of scary huh? its beautifully scary.

    • end?

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      well, most of u know about this guy, and today just might be the end.....i dont know, but i cant take it for much longer.....my heart aches and it sucks.....so saturday is the big day to figure out if i even have a chance....but i kinda already know the answer.... so i'll up date on sunday.... so till then, bye

    • ....4/20.....

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      ok, we all know how it was 4-20 yesterday, and ALOT of people got high, but i didnt, but i did sit back and enjoy the highness of other ppls.....in last period we couldnt get anything done cuz there were so many of them and being high and learning spanish just does not mix....we laughed about everything, and thats all we did was laugh the whole period.....at one point we did calm down, but then i had to be a smart ass and say in a funny voice 'hee hee, i've got the giggles^^' which made the teacher laugh, which made the class start up again.....so, yeah, happy 4-20 everone......

    • TT.TT

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      i killed it......only had it for about....4 months(?) and i killed it.......my poor car......DAMN THAT MOUNTAIN, IM SOOOO SUEING! i killed the tire, and oil, and maybey even the A-Frame
      BUT THAT GODDAMN RIM IS FUCKIN OK!!!! WHY???
      i beat-up the car wrose than the crash, and than got bitch at by my friends' perants.....i really dont care, all i want to know is how that fuckin rim made it out alive......
      my horrible day XD

    • >< even more work...

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      ok, so its spring break and im frickin stuck at work....check out my new days><
      4-2: 5-11:45pm<----what i worked yesterday
      4-3: 12v<----the "v" is basically a ....hmmm,what is it anyways? alls i know is it stands for volume and u dont have to close^^
      4-4: off<----my laundry day><
      4-5: 5-?
      4-6: 5-?
      4-7: 10:30v
      4-8: 12-5
      there goes my spring break....v.v.........i feel like tacos cuz im so emo right a this moment...lol

    • work......

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      i'm at work.....dont bother me>.0
      3-30: 5pm-?
      3-31: 10:30am-?
      4-1: 12am-4 or 5
      this is est time US so all u folks for different countries dont get confuzzled
      send me a message or whatever.....but this is the times u can't get me^^
      damn that texas whore house!!!!!.....o.0 i mean texas road house....
      lol

    • i stole this from jessie

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      Name: Amanda
      Birthdate: 3-11-90
      Birthplace: Michiagn
      Current Location: TN
      Eye Color: brown
      Hair Color: brown & black
      Height: 5'7"?
      Weight: tee hee 140
      Piercings: ears and used to have bellybotton
      Tatoos: soon
      Boyfriend/Girlfriend: nope
      Overused Phraze: "yo!"

      FAVORITES

      Food: chinese and ramen (mmmm....ramen)
      Candy: reeses
      Number: 11
      Color: blue
      Animal: cat
      Drink: milkshakes
      Bagel: ew
      Letter: maybe z?
      Body Part on Opposite sex: hands

      This or That

      Pepsi or Coke: neither
      McDonalds or BurgerKing: both
      Strawberry or Watermelon: Watermelon
      Hot tea or Ice tea: ewww....
      Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate
      Hot Chocolate or Coffee: hot chocolate
      Kiss or Hug: if i get both, i cant complain^^
      Dog or Cat: KITTIES! ^^ aw
      Rap or Punk: PUNK! luv that rock^^
      Summer or Winter: meh, they're both either too hot , or too cold><
      Scary Movies or Funny Movies: both
      Love or Money: at the momen, money, for i have no boyfriend><

      YOUR...

      Bedtime: anytime when i fall asleep
      Most Missed Memory: friends from MI
      Best phyiscal feature: eyes
      First Thought Waking Up: damn that alarm....fuck this im going back to bed for 10 mins
      Goal for this year: tee hee *blush*
      Best Friends: hannah, jessie, savi, and daniel (sorry if i left u out.....><)
      Weakness: things i shall not say....(you cant have my weakness!)
      Fears: thinking and spiders.....ek! spiders and bees.....and dying
      Heritage: Italian

      HAVE YOU...

      Ever Drank: heh heh heh
      Ever Smoked: mmmm, fags
      Pot: twice but probly never again
      Ever been Drunk: heh heh heh
      Ever been beaten up: nope
      Ever beaten someone up: in 2nd grade
      Ever Shoplifted: in 2nd grade
      Ever Skinny Dipped: i want to....we were...
      Ever Kissed Opposite sex: hehe many times (every day^^)
      Been Dumped Lately: nope, i dump them, im a heartbreaker

      IN A GUY/GIRL

      Favorite Eye Color: blue or green
      Favorite Hair Color: darker brow, or black
      Short or Long: depends on the guy....
      Height: taller than me
      Style: punk or anything close to it
      Looks or Personality: both
      Hot or Cute: both
      Drugs and Alcohol: doesnt matter

      RANDOMS

      What country do you want to Visit: Japan, maybe england
      How do you want to Die: beautifully
      Been to the Mall Lately: i wish
      Do you like Thunderstorms: *shivers*
      Get along with your Parents: sometimes, depends on the time of the month *cough* lol
      Health Freak: hypocondrac
      Do you think your Attractive: sometimes
      Believe in Yourself: most of the time
      Want to go to College: yup
      Do you Smoke: whee! fags!
      Do you Drink: heh heh heh
      Shower Daily:yup, unless im to sleepy.....ah....sleep
      Been in Love: once
      Do you Sing: yup
      Want to get Married: no (sorry guys)
      Do you want Children: i plan to adopt
      Have your future kids names planned out: Alisse or Adian
      Age you wanna lose your Virginity: sometime soon, lol *blush*
      Hate anyone: only one person, shes a total bitch><

      emo-ness!: emo around the edges....You're not the emo-est of quiz-takers, but you lean in an emo direction. You feel angry and passionate on a regular basis, but you also have an easygoing side that keeps you grounded. You're naturally introspective, but you're not compelled to analyze every detail of your lifeâ€'sometimes you'd rather shrug your shoulders and get on with the day. You understand why your emo friends seem so sensitive, but you also get why that drives your non-emo friends crazy. You're the happy medium of emo-ness!
      take the quiz at:http://www.the-n.com/games/quiz_main.php?id=3084&source=quizilla

    • whoo!

      12 years ago

      butterfly234

      ok, for all those who havent noticed yet, my birthday has come-and-gone, and now im 17^^ WHOO!
      i had so much vadka, and i threw up and my lesbian friend tried to make-out with me, but other thaan that, it was awsome^^

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  • Comments (240)

    • SirFinn

      11 years ago

      Hey come back on.

    • MADABOUT_RVB

      11 years ago

      WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT YOUTUBE CLIP ABOUT!?!?!?

    • SirFinn

      11 years ago

      Hey you came back and the moon wasn't blue. Maybe it was an atmospherical Phenomenon. LoL

    • SirFinn

      12 years ago

      At long last I have caught the magnificent butterfly234! And they said it couldn't be done!

    • CmndrCool

      12 years ago

      I haven't seen you in awhile

    • CmndrCool

      12 years ago

      Look who it is!

    • wolfeyes

      12 years ago

      Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
      Guy: No, this is fun.
      Girl: No it's not. Please it's too scary!
      Guy: Then tell me you love me.
      Girl: Fine I love you. Slow down!
      Guy: Now give me a BIG hug.
      Girl hugs him
      Guy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
      (in the paper the next day): A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of brake failure. Two people were on it, but only 1 had survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug one last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

      If u love any one this much...let them know...before its too late... I love you 4 ever.....and always 2 the end....i cant live without ya.....b-cuz ur my friend..... Send this to 10 ppl in the next 5 min....and....u will get kissed on friday by the love of your life.... DONT BREAK THIS . 2morow will be the best day of your life.
      However, if u don t send this 2 @ least 10 ppl by at least 12:00 2nite u will have bad luck in your love life 4 the rest of your life. Just copy & paste & send

    • wolfeyes

      12 years ago

      This morning when God opened a window to Heaven, He saw me, and He asked: "My child, what is your greatest wish for today?" I responded: "Please, take care of the person who is reading this message, their family and their special friends. They deserve it and I love them very much" The love of God is like the ocean, you can see its beginning, but not its end. This message works on the day you receive it. Let us see if it is true. ANGELS EXIST but sometimes, since they don't all have wings, we call them TRUE FRIENDS. Pass this on to your true friends. Something good will happen to you at 11:11 in the evening; something that you have been waiting to hear. Do not break this prayer; send it to a minimum of 11 people!!!!!

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      lol, well g luck with that, btw, u can always download manga and put it together

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      that sounds cool, im jobless at the moment so -_-, lol

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      lol, so much work? as in what?, imcurrrently in spring break so im just chillin, lol

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      hey! sup? its been a while, how have u been?

    • I_Love_u_x2

      12 years ago

      I am matts cyber sis

    • I_Love_u_x2

      12 years ago

      NYAH!!!! I remember you!!!! I once was you might rememebr me as pinkhalo11

    • I_Love_u_x2

      12 years ago

      hehe Do you have a hang over?

    • I_Love_u_x2

      12 years ago

      no wait, I think I know you. Did you ever date a guy name Matt on here?

    • I_Love_u_x2

      12 years ago

      hey im insane too! hehe

    • I_Love_u_x2

      12 years ago

      heh okie dokie -^_^-

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      happy belated bday! d(^.^)b hope u enjoyed it and i wish u another great year d(^.^)b

    • kaimeko

      12 years ago

      opps i guess i spelled it from final fantasy

    • Elmarco_Zero

      12 years ago

      Happy B-day!!!! have a good one girl!

    • wolfeyes

      12 years ago

      lol sorry I said it to you on the phone but I'll make a journal of it anyway!!

    • CovertLady83 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

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    • marshottie1

      12 years ago

      thank you. thaty super sucks because i really wanna talk to you

    • butterfly234

      12 years ago

      im confused whats awsome?

    • SupperNeub

      12 years ago

      lol! ya it would be awesome

    • Varo

      12 years ago

      awesome...should be good
      well hope you slept well

    • Varo

      12 years ago

      nice to meet you Amanda
      ya i need to sleep as well soon :( due to work...

    • butterfly234

      12 years ago

      could this be?

    • Varo

      12 years ago

      whats up?
      the names andrew bye the way

    • Varo

      12 years ago

      hello
      *waves*

    • SupperNeub

      12 years ago

      ya I wish I looked like Haruhi lol

    • SupperNeub

      12 years ago

      I know they are awesome but I heard that they may do a next season that will be tottaly sweet.

    • marshottie1

      12 years ago

      oh and im sorry but im madly i love with you :) happy valentines day tmr :)

    • marshottie1

      12 years ago

      your a whore... i miss you and it is super cold up here. u should deffinetely think of calling me and updating. :)

    • dumb_monkey

      12 years ago

      NO NOT AGAIN DX

    • SptnReaper

      12 years ago

      Good to have you then. With a few things taking place soon, we could use the support. For your next of instructions, report to Brigadier General QTMilarky for orders and assignment under his command as a member of his personal staff. With myself being of lesser operational status at the moment, he could use the assistance.

    • Kyoon

      12 years ago

      Squee!

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      ah! found it...lol here's the link, just in case u wanted it, btw

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      lol, wel lg luck figured them out again, i rarely get that problem cause i keep the basic 4 passwords the same and i only got 3 usenames so, lol.... and i been gd just too much to deal with

      btw i have an anime site with tons of anime and their direct downloads but their in japanesee with english subs

    • trigunnerJin

      12 years ago

      hey! long time... sup?

    • wolfeyes

      12 years ago

      thanks Amanda....I feel so much better actually I'm not a bad driver for only driving 2x and I have a pink permit and only two weeks into class

    • SessyLOVE13

      12 years ago

      THANX i get that alot but to some people on rvb i\'m evil caz i tried of people doing the same thing over and over again after i tell them not 2 CRAZYY!!!!

    • butterfly234

      12 years ago

      hello! all! i miss all of u^^ its been 6 months.....or so so im sorry to all who have sent me request><

    • Roku

      12 years ago

      hellow

    • MagicPWN

      12 years ago

      noticed that you like DNAngel i cant say that i love that but i do like the show a bunch what other shows and stuff do you like?

    • TH0RAX

      12 years ago

      Streblo!

    • Jetbeam

      12 years ago

      i lvoe friend requiast to but i cant ask you to be my friend the button is gone 8snif*

    • Rinoanv64

      12 years ago

      I'm sending message! I guess cuz i wanna be ur firned and we have some of the same interests. Chya. lemme see..... i cant think of anythign else >< Noooo~!!! XD

    • wolfeyes

      13 years ago

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