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    • Fall Semester is Starting

      3 years ago

      crystalguard

      In a previous journal I believe I mentioned that I somehow became President of my colleges Ambassadors Club... Still not sure who let that happen. However this position comes with responsibilities as well as perks. I've been dealing with a good portion of the responsibilities already due to issues our club had last fall. However there were some things I had not dealt with. I really hope I do well as president because I am super nervous of fucking up badly. I do have amazing perks though. Due to Ambassadors being an important club on campus we have our own office. I get a key to the office as well as allowance to put a couch and mini-fridge in said office. Also since I am now president of the Ambassadors I now have my own parking spot on campus. So even if I arrive at the busiest time of the day I should have one of the best spots. Yaaaaaaaaaaaay

      I have a full load of important classes this semester. This is probably the first time in years that has happened. I am kinda confident that I may be able to handle it as well. I just wish that I didn't have to take Chemistry 2. But hey at least I have a tutor.

      That is pretty much it for me and school this semester. It may not seem like much but it is for me.

    • What time is it!?

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      Journal Time!!

      But seriously, I have been up to some stuff lately and have been doing decently well for me. It has been two weeks since my summer job started up. I run a lovely thing called a Flying Squirrel at a summer camp. I get paid well, and don't have to work really hard. I also worked there once like 3 summers ago so I don't feel as awkward working there because I already knew a couple other people working around the camp as well as how the camp runs overall. So YAAAY no anxiety!!! It also means that during lunch every day I have a group of people I sit with and we chat about dorky shit that we all love, as well as make fun of each other for things. I even carved out the word "Dork" on a plate and had my one coworker / friend? wear it on his lanyard. The small group of us who eat lunch together all work in different areas around camp so lunch is about the only time we hang out. A couple of them are also decently big Rooster Teeth fans as well.

      So yea this is overall the best I have felt in ages...

      It is also a tad tiring to be dealing with people on such a daily basis without really having a ton of time to myself. As well as my one friend wanting to hang out and do stuff all the time and not really just letting things end, or just letting me not be there. He means well but it feels like he is trying to force things a tad to much as well as a tad to often. Like there is this other acquaintance/friend of mine that I introduced to him a bit back, and she is one of those people who is all over the place and I am friends with her but we don't talk much or see each other like ever. I have known her for about two years. So he started to crush on her bad. He managed to ask her out and now even though he was turned down after going on a date with her, he won't stop trying to plan hangouts with her all the time it feels like. Like he won't let things run naturally he keeps trying to push things weather its friendship, or anything else. '

      Also earlier this week on Wednesday he was over and we invited a mutual friend(Kate) as well as one of her friends(Sam) to come hang out for a while. Now Sam was WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY cute. So I spent a lot of the time they were over flirting kus like hell yea I was gonna flirt. It was a work night so I wanted to go to bed at a decent time because I have to wake up at fucking 7am. Now he knew I have a hard time falling asleep often and that I did not want to be up super late. So you know what he decides to do. Instead of letting the night end when I originally wanted it to and even stated it he keeps it going. Now I will say this led to some great fun smiley8.gif . But what it also did was make me lose the ability to want to hang out with him and them at all smiley5.gif . Now if he had let the night end when I wanted it to, I probably would ot be so exhausted at the notion of being around them. And maybe me and Sam coulda been more then a one night fling... ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I don't really care, or maybe I do care and thats why I don't wanna deal with any of it.

    • 4 years ago

      crystalguard

      I went to a Ren Faire and now I own a wicked looking knife and have no money. smiley0.gif

    • Cosplays

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      I'm working on making a halo helmet to cosplay Epsilon for NYCC. It is going surprisingly well so far. I also have gotten a couple friends to join me in cosplaying the AI so now if it goes well there should be at least a casual Epsilon, casual Tex, and hopefully a casual Delta together...

    • NYCC 2015

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      Somehow got myself a 4 day pass for NYCC!!!! smiley0.gif

    • Bye Blue Hair

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      I have to go back to more natural hair colors. smiley2.gif So I am getting my hair cut and dyed tomorrow. Man I am going to miss my blue hair. But hey at least school is almost done for the semester.

    • Goodbye blue hair

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      I need to go back to my job as a waitress so I have to dye my hair a normal color again. smiley3.gif I shall miss my blue hair.

    • Personal Rant on Feelings and memories

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      man, it feels like I've been in this community forever now. Even though its only been a bit under 2 years? The first person I ever got the honor of meeting at a convention was Ray. He was my favorite Achievement Hunter for at least the first year I was in the community. I was so ecstatic to meet him when I went to NYCC in 2013, especially since he went just for fun and he was so nice. I now have his signature on my 3ds, a badge, and a poster. While I can still get his autograph on my posters and such which if I ever get to see him again I will no doubt but it will always be just that tad different in my mind. Just like how I got Lindsey's signature shortly before Micheal's and her wedding so in my mind it will always be from that time. I really don't know where I am going with this folks. I just wanted to get some thoughts out. I just I am SO super happy for Ray but it will always be just a tad bittersweet because while he is doing what he wants I will always think back to college sophomore Erica who just got into AH and RT meeting one of the people who got her through one of the roughest times in her life and got her to go after Presidency of my schools Ambassadors Club.

    • 4 years ago

      crystalguard

      I should update my photo... I should be doing a lot of things right now, like focusing on school and studying for it so I can do my best for it. But maaaaaaaan these past few weeks I have had ZERO motivation for pretty much everything. And by last few weeks I of course mean the past like 3 or 4 months. Its just that nothing is interesting me, like i go to school and I sit in class and take notes but don't learn any of it not really, and then I go home and sit and watch videos. But i'm not even actively watching them really. Like I'm not pumped to be watching them, I just keep doing it because that is what I always do at this point. Like I still love them and find a lot of it funny and shit but its different. I'm just so tired. smiley3.gif

      But HEY! I FINALLY went to a doctor for a check up. I'm physically healtyish~ I need to call a physical therapist about my back pain that I've had on and off for at least a year, but it isn't that bad. Oh and hopefully I am getting out of my really bad crappy depression because for the first time in my life I'm on an anti-depressant. YAAAY smiley9.gif ~confetti everywhere~ smiley9.gif buuuut I am doubtful that it will work first attempt and also it needs like 3 fucking weeks to kick in if it is going to work... So now I just need to work up the nerve to call a pychologist... oh and that physical therapist... I I just I don't do calling. smiley4.gif

    • Holidays

      4 years ago

      crystalguard

      Man life has been crazy for me. I'm sorry I haven't written anything for the past couple months, I have been a bit to wrapped up with school and then re stabilizing myself from all the stress of school. I am mostly better now and am having a great holiday with my family. Which is slightly crazy to say because we usually can not be around each other for long without having issues. But this holiday is actually quite awesome. My mom got me a new monitor for playing games on as well as the miniest of mini fridges. Now the best part of this Christmas is that my sister got me one of the RWBY prints and I opened it and well it was a different print, one that I wanted even more but had already been sold out. So I sent an email and I get to keep it as well as them sending me the one she actually bought me!!! smiley0.gif

      Hope everyone else is having a merry Christmas or whatever they celebrate. smiley12.gif

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