d00m2y0u

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from Caryville, WI

  • Activity

    • Journaling...

      8 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      ...should never happen while I drink... WOW.



      That's it.

    • Nervous

      8 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      ...and drunk. Its not actually the only reason I'm nervous, but it makes me more verbal about it. I have so much responsibility this year and I'm not sure I'm going to rise to the challenge. I have a choir to run (for realzies this time) at Altoona, and its not just their dance. Its the dance, music, and their band that I'm in charge of running. I"m definitely not the worst and I don't suck...but I'm definitely not the best and these girls need someone wonderful to run this choir for it to be sucessful.l I think I'm just afraid of the idea that I'll let everyone down and fuck it all up. I need this to get my teacher certification (which I"m already freaked out about not getting because of my other academics) I absolutely have to make sure that I do well with this choir in order for that to happen. If I lose the respect of MO and everyone else at Altoona...there goes my entire resume and I have absolutely no reference to back up my abilities.

      Then there's Colfax. They're a great bunch of young people and they work hard for what they do, but I just don't think I'm ready for a group like them. I have no ability really, and I'm directing a show with a group of young people who hasn't had the musical opportunities that I have had and I let them down at every turn. Their last show tanked because of me. The audience was comprised of mostly their family and friends who are supportive and loving and they do sincerely appreciate their efforts. However, I see their struggles and recognize that through my shoddy leadership they are forced to hold their own beyond their years and they are just not ready for it. I'm just not good enough to keep them up to their potential, and I failed them last year.

      I'm just terrified of sucking at everything and finding out that I'm not cut out for this work. this is more than likely the wine talking, and no one will read this or care about this anyway, but I'm writing about it anyway. I need a real vacation, or more wine. Probs more wine, then I';ll go to bed and forget I was ever upset.

      Well good night, no one. Since no one will read this. :)

    • Invader Zim

      9 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      Is on netflix. :) Yay.

    • La la la

      9 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      Rah Rah Ra ma maa! Want your bad romance!



      ...........

    • Insomnia

      9 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      So, I know its summer. How? I can't fall asleep. Ever.

      Its strange. When I close my eyes, not only does my brain refuse to shut up, but i get less and less tired as the night wears on. I'm still trying to decide if I'm going to be able to sleep at all tonight. For the time being, I figured I'd waste some time writing a journal that no one will read.

      Which is okay, kinda.

      I still can't get over how much I miss using this as a posting ground for my group of friends. It was like facebook, but with less crap and mostly just for us (since I have like 5 friends on RVB...) *sigh* Maybe its because I'm so tired that I'm thinking these things. I'm also very hungry, but don''t really feel like walking down stairs to make food.

      I hate being awake when I'd rather be sleeping. I know why I'm awake, sort of. Its partially because of the million things flying through my head at approximately 500 bagillion mph. I'd write about them, but they're all in my head and since no one will read this, there's not much point in putting them out there for anyone to read. Overall though, none of them are so pressing that I couldn't put them away for later thought, but there's just no stopping them, and it sucks.

      That, and I really really dislike my job. There, I said it. Everyone with no job, go ahead and throw angry words and fiery rage at me. I won't dislike it any less. I just want a job where I have to deal with less "This coffee's too hot" or, "Um, I said I wanted it with 3 pumps of Chocolate, not 4."

      And now I'm just complaining. But really, all I want is sleep. :(

      Which still isn't upon me, but I'm going to go back to tossing now... Night no one.

    • Just cuz.

      9 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      I haven't been here for awhile. Whatevs. Its cool.

      Its weird to look at all of the things I posted and things other people posted on this from 3 to 4 years ago. WOAH. Holy moment of nostalgia. I liked it. It was sort of like looking at old pictures and yearbooks. Gross and kinda silly, but still interesting and ambient.

      Anyway, I don't have anything to say really. I will say this though.

      I miss those days. I hope someone sees this. Just cuz I wonder if anyone else does too.

      RVB was kind of fun. Nerdy, but in a good way. But fun.

      Oh well. On we go.

    • Brain Block.

      10 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      I want to continue writing something...

      But I can't get it started up...



      I hate writers block.

    • This journal...

      10 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      Has no point.

      I haven't journal'd in a while.

      um. That's it.

    • Wow...

      11 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      ...There really is just so much of this summer that should be making me miserable....

      So many people around me stuck in unfortunate situations causing them emotional distress...it makes me sad...

      And what's worse is that I'm stuck in one of my own and I don't know if its going to get resolved or if its going to get worse...

      Yet, I'm not feeling all that down. In fact, i'm rather calm in general about the entire thing....which is weird...

      To everyone out there needing a hug...
      ^.^
      < >
      <<
      HUG!


      :)

    • <.< >.> ^.^ 0.o :) ;)

      11 years ago

      d00m2y0u

      .....


      That's it.

  • About Me

  • Comments (170)

    • Kittenkary

      10 years ago

      i miss you so much i hope ull be comeing to my birthday party at mt simon...it wouldnt be the same without u n.n

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      For nice cheap plastic plates, go to Target, over by the other kitchen stuff. They've got some fun stuff, plus some neat stuff on clearance for muy cheapo. Don't worry about going with me, I already got some stuff XD

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Sensei's email address, plz?

      K thx bai! =D

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      >_> We met once, why does he read my stuff?

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      I've been really really really tempted to call Tiffany and go

      "Hey, hey Tiffany
      .....
      blblblblp"

      But I realized I don't want to die. I really don't want to.

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Since I apparently have nothing better to do, I mocked up a computer for you, just to see if I could keep it under or around $500. The verdict, including monitor, mouse, and keyboard: $504.92

      The only thing it doesn't include is an operating system.

      I might be able to bring the price down a little bit more if I can find a cheaper monitor, and Windows will run you at least $100, probably more. If you're willing to go for a one-use version, you find those for about $80, I think. Then again, by the time you want to actually build it, all this stuff could be even cheaper :)

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      Yea, I saw you were on right after I posted that. I refrained from posting "SEE!? What did I tell you!"

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      ALSO, according to a very reliable source (i.e., Tiffany XD), the bus for Badger Band leaves at 1:15 next Friday =D

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Okay. I have a few things here. =D

      First, what's happening with the MS Walk? It occurs to me that this is rapidly approaching, and it would be nice to know so I can ask off.

      Second, I was thinking for the apartment we could get a couple pots and have a small herb/vegetable garden. Thoughts?

      Third, it hit me at work that I don't really have any nice clothes for going to shows, and it would be awesome if I could dress up a little bit for Spelling Bee. Which means I'd need to go shopping. Except I'm ridiculously busy up until then. But, I thought I could maybe go between class and work on Friday (class is done at three, I work at five), and/or after work on Saturday, since it's not like I'd get anything productive done during those times anyway. And I was hoping you could come with me :) Because for some reason when I think clothes shopping, I think you. Go figure XD

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Am I good, or am I good? =D

      lolz :)

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      Yeah over it XD

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      XD I figured you'd like that

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      I believe I vaguely remember you mentioning something about not being able to get Are You Afraid of the Dark to play on your iPod. . . I found something that might be helpful. It even converts full DVD's and YouTube videos.

      . . Yes. I'm pretty awesome =D

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      I talked to Amanda about the bike, and she says $40 for it. Now we just need to find a time for you come and look at it =)

      Also. . . a time when I can do the hard drive thing =)

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      heeeeeeeey! Listen! XD

      I was finally getting the sleds out of my trunk from when we went sledding, and I spotted one of Amanda's old bikes in the garage that looks to be about the right size for you. The seat is about 30 inches high when it's as low as it'll go. If you want it, I'm sure I can convince her to let you buy it el cheapo. Plus, you wouldn't have to wait to get it =D Well, you'd have to wait a little bit, but only as long as it takes us to dig it out and clean it up a bit :P

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      kyle make me smile ...lol that rhymes

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      Took me forever to get here!

      And I will take your advice... whenever I feel like editing it... which might be never XD Cause I'm lazy like that XD

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Howdy!

      You, me, coffee, tomorrow (Sunday, I guess XD) morning? Call me :D

    • Ineed_a_pill

      11 years ago

      Sorry I missed you, yeah, there was a pep assembly so I didn't see any rush to get back to school. I have to say that I am addicted to (Super Smash Brothers Brawl) SSBB. OMG! and we all know that Zelda is the best character so can we please just get that out of the away, she is amazing and Peach, is a fat ass, I mean her hip move lights you on fire? What that hell is that, and I dont' even know what the hell her super smash is.

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      But i already visited your place XD

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      XD

      SHIT FUCK ASS

      I'm done :D

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Seriously? I thought you worked Sunday morning/during the day, not at night >_>

      Also. . . wanna meet at Starbucks tomorrow after class? :D

      Yes, I know I have a problem XD If it helps, I'm planning on getting tea XD

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      But the next chapter's writing... it totally sucks XD

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      lolz?

      LOLZ?!

      no, fuck you, this is hi-fucking-larious XD

      "Dude, the only out today is your dad! "
      "ye- aww....."

      "Pilates: It's english for "white people who can't lift weights"

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      :3 I got a big Hershey's kiss

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      Shut yer plaid skirted face!

      Just 'cause that's how everyone else celebrates doesn't mean you have to dress up in black and be all dark about it XP

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      Yeah, well, now I'm commenting after you walked off somewhere XD Sorry, I wasn't listening when you told me where XD

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      XD I screwed up!

      This is what I meant XD

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      <3 XP

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      A little late, but. . . Monday's I only have class from 2-3 XD

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      lol hey you with the face i tried to call you...i missed you...i wrote a whole journal on you giveing me crack XD ya got to read it...i misss you so much

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      Cute boy with glasses, other cute boy with glasses I had speech with, and boy waiting for a ride. Oh, and guy on the bus.

      Surprise and Alone are.... FANTASTIC! By the way. I love her all over again. I wish I could share them with j00 >_>

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      Austin said he would XD I'm still upset mostly because of 3rd hour. I think that's why I'm so upset >.>

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      I'm trying out Gao now... but her mom said she won't be home until like... 3:15ish...

      if it comes to it, I'll make daniel do trayline and I'll do the dishes in the back so i can call people to see if they can cover the last 2 hours.

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      Fucking A! Mallorie I finally got ahold of, she can't work for me >.>

      God dammit I still want to kill someone!

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      I just happened to notice the seconds after I read it ;p

      And you're just upset because I'm pan/asexual

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      #1 i agree that i am short and am going to deal with it
      #2 we talked last night so im happy
      #3 i bought a smexy new outfit
      #4 you cant add a number for no reason its bitchy!
      #5 I still wub you

      n.n see you tomarrow pretty girl

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      lol your right kyle im comeing out of that long dark walk in closet of shortness....your skinny i cant hide behind you even if i am shorter lol tiffany told m you were trying to figure out who i had a crush on maybe you should call and find out =P

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      You're teh suck XD jk

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      see i still ove ya although you didnt call me back last night when i needed emotional support XD no wonder tiffany is my lover !!!! kidding i love you bunches and ways i feel very enlightened now that i knew what something was bugging me to get out...haha im out...damn closet it was dark in there...karyn sad you didnt tell me when you were buying tickets for Avenue Q

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      lol oh kyl i love you. im just so cared right now because what im feeling will completely isolate me from my family and so many other people that i love...im so confused what if i never get married and have children its pretty much expected of me now that my sister came out as a lesbian

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      Well, i'm not throwing up... hopefully I don't get that bad XP If I feel like crap tomorrow still and do the preview performance, I guess it's better feeling like crap for that than the actual competition XD

      God, wtf is this song XD Freaking Waterloo world >.>

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      The earliest Sweeney Todd tomorrow is 1 o'clock, so I hereby decree that we're going to that showing.

      I was also requested by Tiffany to ask whether or not Ian is coming. Direct your answer to her, because it makes to difference to me either way :P

    • chaos2go

      11 years ago

      I was just explaining my last journal :'(

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      also: Bring my wii, gotcha

    • Kaito_1412

      11 years ago

      Merry (day after) Christmas!

    • iamjunko

      11 years ago

      So, about Sweeney Todd tomorrow. . .

      Tiffany says we gotta wait until before the Christmas party, so Ian can come with XD

    • Kittenkary

      11 years ago

      tehe my drugs make me see danceing purple and green teddy bears

    • digibell9

      11 years ago

      if i was to help with decorations for the party, how would i go about doing that?

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