One of my New Years Resolutions is to journal more, both on paper and online.
This year started rocky, Christmas was hard, dealing both with absense of family members we lost eariler in the year and with anxiety and depression. Putting up a front for my family was exhausting.
But, I made it through, and a few weeks after Christmas I started seeing a therapist. I have been on medicine since October for Anxiety but this new wave of depression was refusing to leave and I was geting tired of feeling tired and like crap all the time. So after a tearful conversation where I told my mom something wasn't right, I started going to see a therapist. She's nice and is helping me, and yesterday I went back to my doctor to talk about a another medicine to help with the depression.
So between Doctor #1 and Doc #2; I am getting back on track and fixing things that are broken. The anxiety had gotten better, much better than what it used to be, it's still there but I am learning how to manage it.
Yes, I still have my bad days, but I am learning that those are okay to have, and that good days don't always have to be ruined by what my brain is trying to tell me. Crying is okay when I feel like it, but so is thinking positive when the dark throughts come.
One day at a time, sometimes it's strides, other times its baby steps..hell there are even days where I feel like I am crawling.
But like Monty said, I am keeping moving forward. Even when it hurts.
Sorry if this seemed to personal, but like I said above, I've been wanting to journal more online and felt like my first long post in a while should be something from the heart.
Love you guys