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    • My first update in a long time

      10 years ago

      deception19

      This is what I will be doing next year.

      www.kirkwood.cc.ia.us/site/index.php?d=487

      And getting fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuucked up. First year of college, yo.

    • Although I'm sure nobody will read this

      11 years ago

      deception19

      a less than typical youngster
      his name often forgotten
      lived at home with his mother
      and he was a bastard child and
      always had been, his father
      and mother had often been in
      pretend love but nothing more than
      that. he was conceived a drunken night
      and grew to understand that his life was
      a reflection of his design, not much
      more than a regretted mistake. his
      youngest years were spent lying awake
      in a backwards neighborhood in kansas city
      missouri, listening to his parents arguing about
      making ends meet and threatening each other
      while his mother closefisted beat her hands on
      the paper thin walls. years dragged on and
      history had, as foreshadowed, repeated and
      now his mother had another baby conceived
      on a lonely night and his step father had moved
      his already loveless family into a house filled with
      white-trash garbage and pictures of native american
      gods. his step siblings never spoke, they
      spent most of their time becoming big fishes in
      a small pond when he spent most of his time
      just fantasising about being a small fish in an
      ocean. on a silent thanksgiving the step
      father didn't wear a shirt (not different than
      any other day) and the native American gods
      didn't cry as hard as he thought they should
      on a day that celebrated their genocide
      and americanized culture. he spent many
      hours reading online poetry and discovered
      he had a key difference than the people who
      wrote those poems; they always talked about how
      tortured their souls were, how bad their lives were.
      he was concerned about how nothing things were.
      he did everything he could to try to ruin his life
      and he escaped all consequences and most people would
      have called it luck but he knew it was just
      a vengeful god's way of saying "fuck you"
      so he smashed his body to bits with stacks
      of newspapers and he carved bible verses into
      his thighs so he'd remember his motives with
      an old boyscout knife he won selling popcorn.
      and if he could go back, he'd burn down every
      building he'd ever seen, and giant forests would
      grow in the ashes of humanity.
      arson always was his crime of choice.

    • Fucking Pigsters

      11 years ago

      deception19

      Those fucking cops caught me ridin' dirty and now my life is over.

    • Anyone Heard These Bands?

      11 years ago

      deception19

      Wilco
      Modest Mouse
      Of Montreal
      Bright Eyes
      Sufjan Stevens
      The Strokes
      Radiohead
      Death Cab for Cutie
      Ben Folds
      Brand New
      The Thermals
      Broken Social Scene
      Pavement
      Built To Spill
      Interpol
      The Unicorns
      Why?
      The Who
      The Postal Service
      Elliott Smith
      Islands
      Ben Folds Five
      The Beatles
      Against Me!
      The Shins
      Arctic Monkeys
      The White Stripes
      Neutral Milk Hotel
      Minus the Bear
      The Cribs
      Elton John
      mewithoutYou
      Beirut
      The Moldy Peaches
      Desaparecidos
      The Flaming Lips
      Animal Collective
      Tilly and the Wall
      Alkaline Trio
      The Avalanches
      Ratatat
      The Raconteurs
      Arcade Fire
      Dr. Dog

      They're my favorites. ;]

    • It seems...

      11 years ago

      deception19

      ...a lot of people invest a large part of themselves in this website and complete strangers. It's gotten to a point where it's almost creepy.

    • White a song by Minus the Bear played...

      11 years ago

      deception19

      there were christmas lights on
      the house well that's what he
      thought so i stole his ipod and
      he bitterly told me that i did not best
      him and he would have given me
      the information i wanted if i had
      just asked but deep down he vowed
      that just before the 30-year plan retired,
      the 29-year plan would give end
      to tug job's life.

    • 2008: A Poem for the Downhearted.

      11 years ago

      deception19

      Sitting up awake enough to see
      the crack of light under a peach door
      and a poster of The Who thumbtacked
      off-center awakens a new day of sameness
      in a small Iowa town that is similar to all
      other small Iowa towns and the iPod dock
      is singing Elliott Smith and the girls in high
      school think they do gOD a favor when they steal
      the yard signs campaigning for Hillary Clinton and
      giggle about it on their way to bathrooms
      to lose that extra eight pounds with
      gagging sounds and the backside of a
      glittering toothbrush while the greatest
      bands of our generation play their hearts
      out for crowds of fifteen people in the back
      room of college campuses and after the music
      is cut and the black roadies carry off all the
      dollar store equipment and the stage lights
      are tuned down, all fifteen people clamor outside
      to smoke the same brand of cigarette while
      silently watching the remnants of gray
      tobacco float into the air disappear into
      a harvest moon sky ignited with ginger-orange
      stars.
      They pack into 3 separate cars with glove-boxes
      stuffed with half-packs of various lights and
      twist tie baggies containing the kind of substances
      the D.A.R.E. officers always warned you of,
      condoms,
      and proof of insurance.
      It has been a successful new year.
      What more could there be?

    • Drama

      11 years ago

      deception19

      Our school's fall play is The Outsiders.

      I am Sodapop Curtis.

      That is all.

    • haikus

      11 years ago

      deception19

      The music is in
      my lungs and I don't know if
      I am still breathing.

      People think god makes
      Them; but maybe beliving
      That is true makes god.

      Winter coats swallow
      the people of the midwest
      like egg nog with rum.

      I read poetry
      and dance to loud music; I
      run from newspapers.

  • About Me

  • Comments (2305)

    • YtPatriot

      10 years ago

      haha yeah! :D

    • Ashley_Cutey

      10 years ago

      piano and clarient

    • knoxus

      11 years ago

      anyways thanks for the comment

    • knoxus

      11 years ago

      yes my eyes are blue...ok i have another one

    • ozymandiaz_k

      11 years ago

      read journal now
      www.roosterteeth.com/members/journal/entry.php?id=2035638

      <33 kazzie

    • chacharat1

      11 years ago

      Ah.
      Thought about you so I logged on.
      Maybe because I've been watching the Office a lot more lately. And you remind me of Jim, because I think you kinda look like him in pictures.
      It's the hair.
      So what's going on with you? Not like you could sum everything up in a few lines in a comment I prolly wont check until a few months, email then, if want, same as screen name @aim.com.
      Go to any good shows lately? You're pretty old now, right? Looking into any colleges?

    • NuRdRMsZ

      11 years ago

      yea i did

    • Churchfriend

      11 years ago

      What's your number

    • kaos44

      11 years ago

      ya i really didnt get into them until i saw them at a Chiodos concert

    • MrSuperhero5

      11 years ago

      sorry bro that was nurdrmsz he got my password

    • MrSuperhero5

      11 years ago

      Faggot.

    • Karenrocks

      11 years ago

      Hi want to b my friend?

    • NuRdRMsZ

      11 years ago

      Good Bye..

      I will add you on XBL BTW. i'm GCA Velocity.

    • MDosik FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      ... sorry? =D

      Thanks though. I was like... okay? :P

    • MDosik FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Nothing... x[

    • halosavior

      11 years ago

      Merry Christmas man!

    • chacharat1

      11 years ago

      ..ha. Funny...

    • MDosik FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      Maybe. If I have the time, I'll see.

      But you don't have to give me mods dude. It's all good.

    • Burks

      11 years ago

      i decided to start fresh, it's still there.

      sure, i'll lose the 43 karma and kat's award and the status of being on rvb for over 3 years, but whatever, i'm getting back into the community and everything about rvb, and that is more important to me than all that other shit.

    • Burks

      11 years ago

      well, thank you, but i'm quite sure it's not a first impression.

      I am cookiebutt. lol.

      and yes, AP is complete bullshit.....but it will get me out of english 101 and 102 in college so i'm cool with it.

    • audio12

      11 years ago

      sometimes

    • SilverHand82

      11 years ago

      nice like my fave song

    • SamFisherCT

      11 years ago

      yo dude!

      LOOOONGGGG time no talk!

      How's life?

    • 2dumb4you FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      That better? smiley6.gif

    • 2dumb4you FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      ;)

    • 2dumb4you FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      </3 you too.

    • ozymandiaz_k

      11 years ago

      hah things are good.... i think ive done well on my exams so far!! =]

    • PIMPINPIMP

      11 years ago

      hey how do u post flash animations ?

    • 2dumb4you FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      11 years ago

      It's because you can't grow facial hair yet. smiley7.gif Ohh burn!

    • x_OhBaby_x

      11 years ago

      that was my favorite task thingy
      and what made it 10x better was that we went back to that samy Arbys and did the singing through the drivethru thing..hahaha

    • SergeantS0L0

      11 years ago

      halo2 xboxlive ---- read my journal

    • SergeantS0L0

      11 years ago

      but I can garantee nobody likes it they only "like" it cuz it'll make them "cool" haha
      am I uncool cuz I hate most of the music this generation? lol

      for example: Umbrella - Rihanna
      wtf?....she says "under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh" its retarded

      the problem with todays music, noone does it with passion anymore they just do it for the money....Lake of fire - Nirvana & Staind - Its Been A While...thats some fuckin real sing your heart out shit

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=5KLWtUXp7qc

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=K2NGe9mLAEc

    • SergeantS0L0

      12 years ago

      ok go to this link....

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=oOJVXheNrqs

      Tell me it isnt discraceful to music

    • SergeantS0L0

      12 years ago

      yeah, and "classic rock" died....because todays music is bullshit....either people "rawring" hence metal....or "rap", which is just fuckin stupid

    • MDosik FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      I don't know man. I'll see what I can do... but I have to start doing something soon which is going to take up a lot of my time...

      So... we'll see. smiley8.gif

    • SergeantS0L0

      12 years ago

      classic rock isnt just "old rock"...its a genre...as in ACDC, Nirvana, The Rolling Stones, Guns N Roses, Velvet Revolver

    • GirlGotGame

      12 years ago

      TJ!

      I accepted your friend request on Myspace. =)
      But the site is being gay right now, so I can't do anything.

    • skidogallard

      12 years ago

      Thanks for your feedback.

    • Javinova

      12 years ago

      That is totally awesome man.

      I am really glad to hear that about you that is great.

      I am in drivers education right now, so by the end of summer I will have my license.

      Yeah it sucks that its the end of summer... but still.

      Next year being my last of high school, having my license, and getting sort of a fresh start at the year will make it pretty good.

      Keep up the good news with me smiley1.gif

    • Lloyd1

      12 years ago

      harcore screaming? i listen to metal. and it takes alot of skill and talent to create such music. and no im not kidding you on slayer. they are overrated yet they were good enough to make it on to my list. and the screaming is referred to as a roar in death metal. it takes alot of skill to do it too.

    • Javinova

      12 years ago

      To begin, my life has been okay as of late. Some parts good, some boring, some not the best.

      The good basically consists of being out of school for the summer, having a few weeks off of doing nothing or whatever I want to, and spending a bit more time with friends. I also got a new full time job that I will be starting July 3rd at a company called PC Corp. Basically I go to schools all over my city and make sure their computers are running in top shape. My grades with school were also pretty high which was nice. I have been further practicing things like drawing, designing websites and the such on the computer.

      Boring stuff consists of sitting at home a lot and basically sitting on the computer or on my xbox. Sure its good for a while but then it gets boring and I feel the need to spend time with friends and other people. I have gotten to do that somewhat but not a lot.

      Basically the not so great stuff is well that I am stuck at home a ton, and still am searching for a girl but have not found one to any luck. Finding myself a girlfriend is good in two ways I see it. One is the fact I am not single anymore and I will have someone to have fun with again. The second is that she would get me out of the house a lot more and doing things in more social places which I really need to do more often.

      So that basically sums me up as of late. And Hey I even gave you more paragraphs than you asked for! Now it is your turn to tell me in about the same amount of words whats been up with your life smiley4.gifsmiley4.gif

    • Lloyd1

      12 years ago

      your music list is about 97% gay, but ill learn to deal with it.

    • xXHellFireXx

      12 years ago

      Figured that, but I just wanted to make sure I wasn't offending

    • PDeath

      12 years ago

      But of course.

    • PDeath

      12 years ago

      It is because I am the best person ever.

    • MercAaron

      12 years ago

      Thanks man. :)

    • MercAaron

      12 years ago

      Who, me and Amanda?

    • x_OhBaby_x

      12 years ago

      haha why thank you

    • 2dumb4you FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      12 years ago

      Ah, i kinda skimmed that journal, since you had a new one up anyways....

    • xXHellFireXx

      12 years ago

      That's pretty awesome. Any plans for the summer?

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