despacio113

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from Frisco, TX

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    • up and up

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      and this is where things are right now...hopefully they'll still continue to improve!!!

      well things have been taking a turn for the better. i knew they would...life always does if you work through it. well they decided to fix the car...which is amazing since the damage is over $13,000. i mean it's prob not gonna be ready until after my bday but im just gratefuly i'm gonna get it back. second i've decided to change to another chili's. a chili's where i'll prob make it into management within a year. another great thing is that my current room mate informed us that he was gonna stick around for another year so that's one major head ache out of the way. i got a new phone...my brother got kicked out and is still gone...and yes this is good. if you knew my family you'd know everything that he's been doin. umm...let's see...i got this awesome hair cut. i mean it completely makes me look like a different guy...in a much much better way...and to boot i even got a semi sorta date at the same time...my hair dresser was trying to play cupid. lol. i'm sure it wont turn into anything but i havnt been on a date since i've been back. i'll save the snob bashing for another entry though. ;) this final thought might seem like it's not positive but i got to walk home from chili's the other day. it was wierd...i was leaving work and just kinda felt like a walk, but no one walks that far for no reason so i called a few friends. everyone i called for a ride were sleeping or busy so i just decided to go with the feeling and walk instead of bothering them. one could argue that i was walking away from my problems or that i had so many that i needed to think them through, but the truth is that i needed to prove to myself that i can do anything i want to. not to mention there's something satisfying about doing something very few would ever do. ofcourse we drove the course the next day and it was only 10miles but there was still a sense of victory and several other life insights that made it more then worth while. the principles i learned in that walk will hopefully propel me into the correct future decisions i will have to make shortly. well this is already too too long. have a great day/night.

      Jeremy

    • past events

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      thanks for still being here for me juck juck. you're my girl. well here's a list of all the things that have happend in the past so ya'll can catch up. i'll post again tomorrow about the present.

      i've tried to restrict this entry to just those that are on my bud list cuz i'm hoping that all my friends dont look at these silly things. as sad as it is i know i dont really pay attention to everyone else's blogs...mostly cuz i'm never able to get online...anywho...for anyone that does happen to stumble onto this please dont think diff of me i just needed to close the barriers down and just let out everything that has been in my heart trying to explode out for the past 2 weeks. let's start w/ the car accident... prob one of the worst things i could imagine. i mean i pretty much spent 1yr of my life in order to get that thing. sure it's a material possetion that can be replaced but it is much more then that. for the year i was in iraq the goal of coming back to that car and my friends were the only things that motivated me to keep my chin up and head down. so when i came home and all my friends had forgotten and ignored me all i had left was the car. it's sad but true. now that the car is on "life support" i'm just kinda...well utterly devestated. it'd just be nice to know if they're goin to total the car so i know if i'm screwed or if they're goin to repair it and this is all a minor inconvienence. then 1 or 2days after the accident i was told at my work that i'm not the material they're looking for for the training team. this blows cuz i was hopeing to earn my way back up to the key employee status. that and i dont care what anyone says i'm one of the hardest working people there. when others are standing around talking, i'm finding something to do, and if i do stop to talk it's no longer then 10-30secs tops. so anyways this made me realize that these managers have no idea what's goin on at their own store and can't see who the butt kissers and the workers are, so now i'm certain i have to change to another store or persue a career in law enforcement. either way i need my car to do this. oh and i cant get a rental cuz on the day of my accident i accidently snapped my driver's liscence in half when pulling it out of my wallet. so i get another without my car, but i cant get a rental without a liscence. anyways 2days after that talk the comments that others post on the website to state how they feel about the resteraunt came in. normally i get nothing but praise...however 3 out of 4 of em were just horrible. as if that werent enough one of my current room mates told me that he's probly gonna move out and not renew the lease. this pisses me off cuz i just moved into this apt bout a month ago w/ the assumption that we would live together for nearly 8months or more but now there's only 2months left. so basically i moved in just for 3 months and now have to find somewhere to live within this time limit. probly one of the most trivial of my probs is that one of the girls i work with has developed a crush on another dude since i never asked her on a date....and you can probly guess why i didnt...cuz i had no way of taking her out. she's just about everything i've been looking for in the past 2yrs too, although this isnt a complete loss since the other dude is a complete schmuck, but it's still ver frustrating all the same. all this has happend in 2weeks, and im overflowing w/ pesticism. it's just getting really hard to smile and stay focussed on what needs to be done. i'm sure things will be fine. i've never allowed myself to quit without a logical explanation, but right now things are grim and i really just want to cry in someones arms ya know?so if you are one of the few that has read this please dont comment on it...just be a friend and give me a hug.

    • any love

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      just curious...does any one still have love for me? i know i kinda just dropped off the face of the earth, but no need to worry i have access to the net now. ofcourse there's really no reason for me to come on here if all of you have moved on sooo....does a mexi still have any love here?

    • The GAME

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      well life has been great...well good anyways. the friends that didnt want to hangout still havnt contacted me or anything just yet and i'm pretty sure they prob never will but that's okay. i've made it my new goal to find new friends in a new and interesting way. i've been taking pointers from this book called THE GAME. if you've heard of it then you know that it's a book designed to train pick-up artist. yes it seems a bit odd but in this book it holds the secret to projecting a more attractive personality. this is gonna sound concieted but i'm a great guy and yet have been single for nearly 3yrs w/ only 2 dates in that time. it always made me curious and frustrated why it is all my asshole friends can not only get a diff girl each week but they can get these girls to fall for them. well i'm still curious how they get these great girls but i think i might have finally found the secret to meeting others. i have to admit...i'm still not that great at walking up to the most beautiful girls in a bar but that doesnt really matter cuz i'm learning to attract girls better to start a relationship not be a player. who knows hopefully i'll get lucky and run into a great and wonderful great gal but the important thing is that there is indeed hope which is more then anything i've had since i've been back. well hope all of you are doing great....i do miss ya'll. if you ever need anything feel free to IM or email me at Despacio113@aol.com.

    • tired of the site

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      well as some of you know i've been introduced to myspace and have been pretty much inactive on this site. to be honest im not even sure if i'm gonna stay a member for much longer. just about all the people on my bud list are awesome...especially the few that actually have me on your watch list. which by the way thank you for making me feel special. anyways, i'm tired of being treated like a perv. i mean i understand that most of the males on this site are guys that dont leave home and barely have any contact w/ females and cuz of that hit on just about everything they come into contact but damn. there are a lot of us that are nice guys. and i'm not talkin bout the cheesy nice the guys on here tend to pretend to be. atleast on myspace when you first talk to a guy or girl they typically dont have a stereotype they go by. they build a judgement off of what you say and how you say it. just like you should on the net. and whats even better is i've already made 2 friends that say they want to hang out once i get back. i'm not sure how many of you have ever left your home and come back after 1 1/2yrs but there tends to be very few friends waiting for you and it tends to be a bit boring cuz you have no one familiar around. it's nice to know that i've met a few people w/ similiar interest that i can have fun w/ when we get back... sigh. sorry to rant to much but i'm kinda stressed to be goin home....soo soo much to do. it's only 6days away. and i'm as nervous as i am anxious and excited. well hope ya'll dont get to pissed at me. i really do think most of you are awesome.

    • just whorin around

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      well it's official...i'm becoming a myspace whore. it's such an awesome site! sure some of the peeps on there are a lil stuck on themselves but i've started talkin to peeps i use to go to school w/ like 6 or 7yrs ago! it's just fun to see where everyone is and what've they've done w/ their lives. well if any of ya'll are on there also you can find me as Despacio113. sorry but i dont have any pics up on my profile yet but there should be some up after tonight...to include the ones from halloween. lol. well have a great day/night.

    • haloween

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      hey there ya'll. well as many of you might know i'm a bit..."youthful" at times. ah okay so i'm a 14yr old in a 24yr olds body but oh well. so you're prob wondering where all this is goin right? well believe it or not but theres a friend here in iraq that shares the love for fun and we decided we were gonna go trick or treatin here. our costumes werent that great...he was darth vader and i was the typical scream killer guy. actually steve's costume was pretty funny. he had a old beat-up darth vader helmet and he put on his gas mask for the face...it looks better then it sounds. but yea it was great. it was suprising to see how many people got upset that we were trick or treatin though. i mean i was expecting someone to tell us we werent in uniform and such but they were pissed about the fact that we were...well to be honest i dont understand what it was. but oh well we had a great time and that's all that matters. ;) well hope all of you had a great holiday and enjoy all the cavities you get. ;)

    • home sick

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      hey hey hey, we're back. well last night was really weird. i had one of those dreams that was just soo vivid you think it's actually real. ofcourse it was home so it was pretty obvious that it was a fantasy, but it did get me thinkin. yeah imagine that a dream gets someone that's way over analytical thinking. it got me thinkin about how people/my friends are gonna look at me when we get back. ofcourse they're gonna expect me to be more muscular but what else? they all know that i was in the active airborne infantry and whenever they asked if i had ever killed anyone i always side stepped the question it's a double edged sword...you kill someone you're heartless and if you dont then you're a coward...but after this they'll def think that i have ya know? it's not that i'm ashamed of what any of us have done but it's the stigma that goes w/ it ya know? so anyways...there's just a ton of things they could expect or just assume...so just out of curiousity what would any one of you think about a friend that came over here? it's natural to think bout someone diff but i'm curious what the view would be from the other side of the mirror. well i'd appreciate any opinions just so i could be more understanding. thank you all. oh and im gonna start catchin up on ya'lls journals now promise. ;) have a good day/night.

    • i'm the worst person ever

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      well hey ya'll this is gonna be super short cuz we've got another crazy mission to prepare for but i just wanted to apologize for...well def not for the lack of journal entries since no one reads mine...lol...but for not commenting on ya'lls. oddly enough i actually feel like a bad friend. lol. who woulda thought you could feel bad for not writing to people you dont even know huh? but then again you guys are just that awesome. well i'm gonna go ahead and head off since for some reason these people want to send us off to the more hostile areas even though we only 30days left. go figure we lose under a handful of people throughout a whole year and now they want to send us on the most dangerous missions we've been on all year. WTF. okay okay sorry...well talk to ya'll soon hopefully. hope everyone is doin great!!!

    • old friends

      13 years ago

      despacio113

      man the other day was pretty good. i ran into a friend i had made in another base and sat down and had dinner w/ her. yes yes make no mistake there's only friendship there. it was great though. she's such a straight forward and yet sarcastic person. it was great to catch up after 3months of not seeing her. as anyone that has been in stressful situations knows that the people you open up to and share your burden w/ creates a genuine kind of brotherhood/sisterhood. okay..moving along...it was wierd though. this is gonna sound really wierd to all non-infantry people, but it was actually wierd talkin to angela. like i found myself at times unable to keep the convo goin as smoothly as i normally would just cuz she's a girl. for those of you that dont know i'm in the infantry and we dont have ANY girls that work w/ us. it affects you in so many ways i can't even explain it, but it def makes it harder for me to talk to girls. it's prob the reason why not a lot of girls get offended by what i say sometimes just cuz it's almost become a habit to talk to most girls the same way one does w/ a dude. after all i've been in the infantry for 5 1/2yrs on active duty. okay yea so anyways...bottom line as awesome as it was to talk to her it made me realize another difficult bump to over come once we're finally released back into the wild. hopefully it wont be too hard. ;) well have a great day/night all. c-ya

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  • Comments (10)

    • xCheerCutiex

      13 years ago

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    • Jessy

      13 years ago

      Where are the halloween pictures you promised us?

    • RabidPossum

      13 years ago

      Serenity is a movie that takes place after the show, Firefly, was cancelled.

    • RabidPossum

      13 years ago

      I have that. i'll put it up when I get home.

    • RabidPossum

      13 years ago

      Lebanon journal

    • wraith88

      14 years ago

      Hey, some one in Frisco! Is there an military base here?

    • MALEENA55555

      14 years ago

      yup

    • MALEENA55555

      14 years ago

      thanks this guy is a noob and he deleted a bunch of stuff that backed up what i was saying........... yes thanks

    • despacio113

      14 years ago

      oh wow! how exciting for her. so what movie is she gonna be in?

    • crazyduckme

      14 years ago

      hey... its Jeskids movie premire in a film festival. its pretty sweet. thats why we are all going.

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