So, the other night when downtown with Monica, we tried calling the taxi service and they kept hanging up on us. Then we just caught one of their cabs going around town. After getting to the destination, Monica got out first and I was going to pay. The guy got extremely pissed off at me that I'd not tip him and just give him enough to cover the fare plus like 10 cents. He started yelling at me, and I was like "I'm poor man. I seriously can't afford to tip." And he was like, "Fuck you! You shouldn't' have gone downtown. I want a tip. I've had enough of your shit. Give me a tip." And I was like, "Seriously, I'm extremely poor and shouldn't even have taken a cab. I'm living off of food bank food because I'm so poor now. If it was a couple months ago it'd be fine, but my dad died recently and now I've lost a source of money and am struggling big time and can't even manage to get a job at McDonalds. I'm really sorry, but please just quit yelling at me and let me leave. I've payed the actual fare, and that's really all that I'm required to pay." And he was like "I don't care about you living of food bank or your dad dying. I just want my fucking tip! If you didn't want to pay a tip you shouldn't have gone downtown and taken a cab back!" So I was like, "Fine here's a dollar tip." and gave him a dollar tip and left. It was a horrible experience. Worst dealings with taxi services ever.
So, I actually danced with a girl the other night, and according to Monica the girl actually seemed interested in me. I was going to even exchange numbers with the girl, but I must've been dancing too bad or something because a bouncer decided to kick me out before I could exchange numbers. Too bad.
So, it's been two days since I went downtown and did anything, so it's not like I should have a hangover today or anything, but my mind is kind of cloudy, and I slept through my alarm and missed a 2:00 class. I woke up at 3:00. And then I think I messed up on my rent check and wrote two hundred and forth rather than four hundred and twenty in the writing portion but wrote it correctly in the number portion at least. I hope it's accepted or that if it doesn't work they won't charge me some late rent pay fee or that I actually did write it correctly and am just confused. I'm wondering what the deal is. I'm guessing that maybe I got sick from eating food bank food. There were some cherries that expired a while ago that the food bank gave me, and I ate all of them within the past two days, and some tasted really off. Maybe I got sick from them. I wonder what's going on, but I really hope I'm okay. Oh, and it's like impossible for me to concentrate on studying. It's like I have extreme ADD right now or something.
ANNOYING ROOMMATE NOISES
I can hear my roommate on the other side of the wall from me, and at first I thought he was having sex, but it's lasted hours, so I'm guessing he's watching porn loudly nonstop or talking to a girl who really likes to moan loudly and stuff. It's really awkward. At least I never see my roommates.
I HOPE I DON'T SUDDENLY DIE
I just realized that I'm exhausted after being awake for only two hours and having gotten plenty of sleep and want to just pass out right now. I'm afraid that maybe I'm really sick and just don't realize it an will die from the illness soon. I hope that's not the case. Maybe I'm just having a nervous breakdown or something and everything is freaking me out and it's all in my head or something. And I feel like vomiting right now too. That's not good.
I have a midterm tomorrow. I don't want to take it. I'm not prepared enough. And it's really hard for me to concentrate and prepare right now. I did well on the two midterms that I've taken that were graded though. 85% and 87.5%. Still waiting for the other midterm's grade.
8 years agodogmeat
8 years agodogmeat
LIVING OFF LIKE NOTHING
So, this quarter I get no money help from my mom. Living completely off of financial aid. They don't want to give me much though, so I got just enough this quarter to cover the school's fees for the quarter, books, and my apartment's rent for the quarter but not really food at all unless I eat only like rice and lentils and maybe potatoes too. It's like a $20 a month budget for food if even that.
I decided to rely on the food bank for food seeing as I can't really afford any food. The place totally misadvertised on their website. They made it look like a grocery store and like they had tons of stuff available to choose from. Instead it was a line in a dimly lit warehouse type place that you go through and collect basically the allotted number of each type of food, and then at the end you get to choose your baked goods of specific categories and one type of candy thing. It was really weird. Now I have like 50 eggs in my fridge because of that and also like 5 pounds of carrots and stuff. It's really weird. At least I don't have to eat just rice and lentils. Oh, and there was a really long line to get in. It took like half an hour to get in. It was crazy. Oh, and they had these weird gray triangles and claimed they were fish. When asked what kind that said they don't know. I'm kind of afraid to try the mysterious gray triangle fish.
So, I took my first round of midterms. I hope I did well. I have another midterm on Tuesday, and probably another one soon after that. It's so weird having midterms already. It seems like the quarter has barely started.
I AM SUPPOSED TO BE TWO PEOPLE NOW
In my lab for Biology my lab partner seems to have quit the class, and most of the labs basically require two people or you can't physically manage to do everything in lots of labs, like looking at a timer, a device, a thing that measures stuff, and a paper that you are recording data on every 10 seconds all at the same time. It's really weird. I just used results from when I took the class before and made it look like I was doing the lab. They didn't want me to just reuse the results but to actually do the lab. I asked. I wish I didn't have to retake the class to get into my major. I mean I did pass it, just not with the best grade.
WHITEBOARDS AND RULES
Monica got a whiteboard and put rules on it. The rules last night were no being mean or creepy but give many compliments. I'm fine with the first two rules. It is so awkward to force compliments though. If a compliment comes naturally that's fine and seems normal and all, but if it's just a compliment out of nowhere just to obey the rule the compliments just seem really weird. At least to me. Rules are strange things sometimes.
I'm really bored right now and don't know what to do. That's why I'm writing this journal entry. Not much has been going on, so I'm writing basically everything that I can think of that I don't mind saying. I just keep writing to pass the time, and I'm wondering how long it'll be before I think of something to do so that I'll stop writing. Probably soon enough. I really don't want to study. I need to pay my rent soon but don't feel like walking down to the rent office. I need to do my laundry, but I'll wait until it's dark out.
Cupcakes taste not nearly as good as normal without frosting, and especially not as good as normal when they're made from a mix. And too many can make a person feel sick. I should not've eaten so many cupcakes.
I've been looking for jobs and have applied places, even McDonalds, but have not gotten any calls back. It's so annoying. I wanted a job so that I'd actually have some money to spend. I guess I'm stuck with financial aid only. I think I might go to the financial aid department and see why I'm not getting enough money to afford food and definitely not enough money to live on campus.
8 years agodogmeat
PROBLEMS FINDING A GOOD PLACE BUT NOT BAD PLACES
So, after searching for a new place for about a month and not finding anything good I got desperate and got a place on the bus line, but it turned out to be a stop that only had the bus coming every hour, required two transfers to get to campus, and was 13 minutes to drive to campus fast and directly, so it was horrible. Plus no internet. I moved out, got a place with some girls, but apparently only one person knew I'd be moving in, and they didn't expect a guy, so that was awkward. And the internet only worked from one ethernet port, and my room had a ceiling that was below 7 feet everywhere but the center, slanting down to 4 feet on the edges of the room, so it was really claustrophobic. So I moved out of there and the day before classes managed to find a good place right across the street from campus for decent rent price with utilities included, and I have my own sink in my room. So things turned out well.
MONTH OF BOREDOM
So, the whole time I was home on break I didn't really do much. That was a really boring month.
HAD TO CHANGE MAJOR
I found out that I for sure can't do my major here because of some prerequisites not being fulfilled correctly and not being able to ever be fulfilled, so I changed my major to one that's basically Psychology combined with Biology. It's Behavioral Neuroscience. It sounds really awesome. And I can manage the prerequisites I think, if not, I'm not sure what I'll do.
ALMOST TOOK THE QUARTER OFF
After having trouble with finding good places and with figuring out how the amount of financial aid I'm getting can cover me living and going to school I almost decided to take the quarter off. Luckily Monica convinced me to deal with it and stay the quarter. And right after I found my new good place and got my schedule changed for my major.
So, I've gone to my Finance class, and it sounds like it'll help a lot in life, although the professor says it can be hard. I think it should be fine though. I also went to my medieval art class. It seemed alright. Tomorrow I go to a Biology class that I'm retaking, and I see if I can get into a Behavioral Neuroscience class that I wait listed for.
FREE TABLE AND CHAIR
I got a free table and rolly chair with my new place. The guy who I'm taking the lease over for told me he didn't want to deal with transporting them to where he moved. So yay! It's not as much fun using a computer on the ground.
HAVEN'T MET ROOMMATES
I still haven't met my roommates. I don't really care though. I'll meet them eventually. I have my own room, so even if I don't like them much I can just go and be in my room.
HAVEN'T EATEN ANYTHING ALL DAY
I haven't gotten around to getting groceries all day. All I've had is a glass of water, a multivitamin, and an amino acid supplement that is good for anxiety and memory and has no side effects. I think not eating has made me tired. What's odd is that somehow I don't feel hungry though.
8 years agodogmeat
So, I'm finally on break. I got back last Saturday. I've been pretty bored since then. I haven't really done much. Home is somewhat boring.
I haven't been able to find a place to live next quarter yet. Like all of the places have leases that last longer than I want. They all last until like the end of August. This is really annoying trying to find a place. I keep upping my price range to expand my options. Now I'm looking at place that'll cost me $425 or less after utilities. It's horrible. I hate looking for a place with less than a month to find the place.
I got my final grades. B- in Biology. B in Dance. A- in Shakespeare. Yay.
I'm looking for a job for some extra money to make Winter quarter. I'm applying for a tour guide position for my campus and a position being an assistant to the finance department of my school. I hope I get one of the jobs. I'd like the extra money. And I should have the extra time for a job Winter quarter because I'm retaking two of the classes, both of which I passed with terrible professors, and the professors now are supposed to be good. It shouldn't be too difficult to get better than those Cs that I originally got in those classes I think and without as much effort as originally put in because I know most of the material at least somewhat. I want one of these jobs. I want the money.
PART TIME WORK
I likely have a job this Monday doing work on the electronic stuff in the Seattle school system. I'm happy about that. It'll be a good way to waste my time, and I get some money from it. That'll be fun. My uncle is in charge of lots of electronic stuff for the Seattle school system, so I pretty much have the day of work secured. Yay. Money and not being bored.
FINANCIAL AID/CAN I CONTINUE WITH SCHOOL?
So, I just got back the information on what I'll get from financial aid for Winter quarter. After the normal fees and stuff, I'll get back $1,900. I'd have to use a little over $100 of that on a book. That'd leave me with a little less than $1,800 for rent and food for the quarter. I can't use dorms as a fall back. They cost a lot more than that. That'd cover almost all of the housing cost for the quarter but none of the food cost, and food is required. So, I'm trying to find a place, and it's hard to even find a place for around $400 after utilities. If I get a place that is $400 a month for rent after utilities, which is unlikely I'll have a little less than $600 for food for the quarter. That's really hard to get by on, especially in a town where all the grocery stores overcharge students because they generally are using their parents' money and don't care/know how much stuff costs off of that. That's a little less than $200 a month for food. Hopefully I'd be able to get a job or maybe figure out if I can somehow get more loan. My mom totally can't help me with money too, which sucks. If I can't find a place within a good price I probably can't continue at Western. It really sucks. And I doubt I'd get enough to even do something like transferring to Eastern and living in a cheap apartment or dorms around there, so I can't really transfer there I don't think. I hate this. So stressful. I just want something fun or good to happen.
8 years agodogmeat
I just felt like righting fungus hats. It's not relevant to anything.
So, I'm officially moving out of my place and to off campus this Friday. Hooray. I've just packed pretty much everything and am ready to move out I guess, just hoping I'll find I place by next quarter.
I'm having trouble finding a place to live next quarter. It's frustrating because I'll be out of town and still looking. There's one place I looked at today, but I'd have to sign a lease until August, and I don't really want to live there past Spring quarter. It was nice aside from that, and the roommate actually seemed like a nice responsible guy who's not into drugs or anything, unlike other places. So I might take the place. Not sure though. I really don't want the lease to last that long. So frustrating. And the place is a bit more than I wanted to spend by like $50 or so.
BEST APARTMENT OPTION, ALSO ILLEGAL OPTION I THINK
So, I was looking at property management companies websites, and they had some listings for $100 a month rent and downtown. I thought that sounded awesome, and then I looked closer, and it was office spaces. They were pretty spacious and all too. If it was legal I would just rent an office space, buy a fridge and something to cook with and air mattress and live there as long as there was a shower in the building too. That'd be really cheap awesome living. Unfortunately I'm pretty sure it's illegal, which totally sucks. That'd be my favorite option of a place to live.
CRAZY ROOMMATE OPTION
So, I found one place that sounded good. Cheap rent, good location, the guy seemed pretty nice. Then he started talking about how he does meth and smokes weed and is drunk all day and whatnot. I then said I actually got a place elsewhere that was cheaper and I didn't think I'd get and that he seemed nice and all but I really had to go with what's cheapest because I don't have much money. Then he was like "I don't take this kind of shit from people. I've got some homeboys who've got my back." So creepy. I wonder if that was some sort of threat. Then he was like, "I'll pay $100 of your rent. Just move in here. You sound like a cool roommate." I didn't respond. I'm afraid of that guy kind of.
So, I'm coming home this Saturday. What fun. That'll be pretty nice I guess. I'll actually get to eat homemade good food rather than homemade bad food and food that I like fairly well at restaurants and stuff. I like getting good food for free.
DONE WITH FINALS
I just took my last final, and it was online. I did like a B grade on it I think. It gave me my score but was chopped into 10 bits, so I had 10 scores. Most were 8 out of 10. One 10 out of 10. And like two 6 out of 10s I think. So not horrible. I have a B in the class right now apparently. And the professor hasn't graded a big project yet, so my grade should go up with that too I hope. I think I did good on my Shakespeare final, but didn't really analyze it as well as I wished I could have. And my Biology final was in a format that just messed with my mind and I have no idea what I got on it. It could be anywhere from bad to mildly good.
I love the blackcherry flavor. It's pretty good. That's about it.
SLEEPING ON THE FLOOR
I'm sleeping on my cousin's floor tomorrow because I have to move out by 2:45 tomorrow and won't head down until Saturday. And I think he has hardwood floors. Oh, tomorrow actually seems to be today now as it has hit midnight. Whatever. Hm...
BORED AND WATCHING WEIRD STUFF
I've been really bored lately so I've been watching some weird stuff. Like I saw a show where a guy was talking to cats, which was weird, and a show where there was a surgeon who could only perform surgery drunk or else he couldn't do anything because he went through med school drunk so he could only remember stuff when he was in the same state of mind and a show where a gorilla wore a gorilla suit. Other weird stuff too. Just can't remember all of it.
I love supplements. I just started taking these supplements that are just some amino acid from tea that's supposed to help with the activity of some hormones and stuff like that in a person's body that are involved in tissue repair of organs and such and also signaling of neurons and stuff. So totally good effects and no recorded side affects. Super cool.
8 years agodogmeat
STILL NOT KICKED OUT YET
I still haven't been kicked out of my apartment yet. I finally have a meeting with the head of housing this Friday. Hopefully he lets me at least stay through Tuesday. I have all my finals that I have to be in class for on Tuesday. Then an online final on Friday.
I've been looking at apartments on craigslist. I'm thinking I'll use financial aid money for cheap housing off campus next quarter so that I don't have to deal with the high prices of dorms. They're like $6,000 more per year than my current apartment, although food is included in the price of the dorms. Not worth it. I'm meeting with a guy on Thursday to see if I can get into his house. Rent is only $305 a month, there's internet, a washer, a dryer, and I think a washing machine. Plus I'd get my own room, and it's downtown yet near campus. I'd save money on cab fare because I could walk to my place from downtown quickly and still get to classes quickly. Yay.
So, I found out about some completely safe over the counter natural supplement antianxiety/concentration pills. Those things sound awesome. I'm going to buy some soon. Hopefully they'll help me out a ton with finals.
TOTALLY NOT GOOD TEST
So, after I got back to school I ended up being able to get a test for my Biology class delayed by 3 days. I was behind on my reading a bit because I was gone, and I wasn't really able to concentrate at all because I had too much stuff to deal with at that moment in my life. I think I did pretty terribly on the test, and I'm not sure how I'll do on the final. That really sucks because I did pretty well in my class before my dad died. I greatly dislike not being able to concentrate. It makes it hard to catch up in classes too.
I have to write like a 10 page paper by this Thursday. I'm about halfway through it. It's double spaced, so that's fine. Unfortunately it's a Biology paper and requires citing some scientific journal articles to make what I say in my paper analyzing a lab be valid. It's really hard to find articles that even kind of relate to my lab or what I want to say. This paper is extremely boring.
I have a lab final test this Thursday, and I missed the last lab. Also, I've been working on my paper, so I haven't had time to even study for the test. Hopefully I can get most of the paper done today and study enough for the test tomorrow. I really don't want to do bad in this class when I was doing so well earlier on.
HAMLET RE IMAGINED
So, for my Shakespeare class I got kicked out of my group project because I was out of town when the group had its meetings. Luckily my professor understood my situation and gave me a slightly trimmed down version of the assignment. I didn't have to do a presentation, but I had to write out the presentation, which was supposed to be a scene from Hamlet re imagined. I took the scene where Hamlet kills Polonius and just moved Hamlet's lines around a lot and made Hamlet's stage directions be crazier so that Hamlet seems completely insane. He talks to his hand and calls it his brother and stuff like that. Hopefully I get a good grade on it. It took me a while to figure out which random lines to put where and what lines the sane characters would respond with. Tough stuff.
NOT SURE WHEN I'LL BE BACK
I'll be back home by next week's Saturday. I know that much. It's possible I'll be back earlier like if I get kicked out of my place on Tuesday or something.
I signed up for my classes for next quarter. I have to retake Biology 205 and Chemistry 122 to improve my grades in them to get into the Biology program so I can take more advanced Biology classes. Luckily the professors I got don't have 2.0s or less than 2.0s on rate my professor this time, so I should be able to actually learn pretty well. So I have those two classes, and they made it hard to fit in any other classes because of their messed up lab times. I was going to take a class where I help teach kids in low income areas. I couldn't get in though. Instead I had like two classes that would fit in my schedule and I had the prerequisites for out of all the classes offered by the school. And neither of them fill any required classes or anything. Just minimum credits. So I'm taking a personal finance class designed not for finance majors but for people who want to save money. Hopefully that class is fun.
I'm wondering if I should start looking for a job. My retake classes might be really easy for me this time because I did pass them before with the bad professors but just didn't get good enough grades in them. With good professors and my retaining a good amount of what I learned I think I might be able to easily do well in those classes, so I should have more free time I'm guessing. So maybe I'll look for a job. That would be awesome. It's really hard to find a job though.
8 years agodogmeat
So, I went to court for what would be an MIP. About 2 seconds after reading what I was charged with and the details of the case, the judge was like, "The cop didn't write down enough proper details for you to get an MIP. This case is totally invalid. I'm going to dismiss this case." So now I have no MIP. So happy about that. Glad that it was an incompetent cop, or maybe a competent cop would have actually seen not enough for an MIP right away and not written me up for one.
So, I wrote a paper for Biology, and I suck at writing Biology papers. The last one I had written I only received like 60% on. Somehow I was lucky and got like 82% on this one. So happy about that.
So, my dad died this morning. That's horrible news. I'm guessing it was like a heart attack or something. Apparently he had chest pains a minute before he died. This really sucks. I'm wondering how I'm going to continue with college and everything with my dad being dead and my mom only working 30 hours a week at a library. And my dad was so old and unhealthy that life insurance rates were way too high and not worth getting for him, so there's no life insurance money either. And it really sucks that my dad died. I'm going to really miss my dad. This is like the worst point in my life. And my family doesn't feel like they can drive up and get me or anything like that right now, so it really sucks.
TOO MUCH THIS WEEK
This week I have to go meet with the head of the alcohol program for my school in a meeting discussing my actions. That same day I'm supposed to receive an email telling me what's happening with my housing, and no matter what I'm just going to be given two days only to move out of my apartment. Then I give a 22 minute long presentation on Tuesday. Then on Thursday I have a 9 page Biology paper due, and I have to cite articles from science journals in the paper too, and all the science journal databases seem to just have abstracts rather than full text for their articles. It really sucks. Then on Friday I have a big Biology test. And on the following Monday I have to do a group presentation in my Shakespeare class.
NO POLL THIS JOURNAL ENTRY SORRY
I just really don't feel like adding a poll right now. I don't want to take the time for it. My dad did just die and all, so I'd rather deal with other things. Like distractions where I don't have to think.
8 years agodogmeat
KICKED OUT PRETTY MUCH FOR SURE
So, I talked to my RD today. Even though I didn't violate the alcohol policy, I violated the disruptive behavior policy, whatever disruptive behavior is. Apparently my roommate claimed that I'm coming back drunk and noisy like all the time, and my RD believes his lies over me. My RD hates me. I told her I use a breathalyzer to make sure I don't drink too much, and she told me that I have a really bad problem if I'm using a breathalyzer to stay safe. I'm seriously just a cautious person. Anyway, I'm almost definitely getting kicked out. I know the RD hates me and wants me gone. If I don't get kicked out I'm at least getting moved to the dorms, which I don't want to because they choose for me, and I'd have to get a meal plan. Plus they'd probably choose an alcohol free building just to mess with me so I couldn't come back drunk.
WISH I'D REALIZED THIS EARLIER
I was looking today at my syllabus for my Shakespeare class. It says that "Missing more than 3 classes without an official excuse is grounds for failing the course." I've already missed more than that many classes due to liking sleeping in. Hopefully the professor doesn't notice and is fine with it if he does notice seeing as I did get an A- on my midterm, which is pretty good. I wish I had known this earlier. And I have to probably miss class again on Friday due to court. This really sucks. Really hope I don't fail.
Last night I came back from the bars and went straight to bed. I got out of bed during the night to use the restroom, and I made sure the door to my room was unlocked and open somewhat. My roommate locked the door and closed it when I was in the bathroom. I did have a bit too much at the bars that night because hearing about the eviction likelyhood just made me want to forget, so I had too much, and because I had had too much I figured that my room must not be the one with the locked door but the other one. The other room in my apartment is set up exactly like the room at my last apartment, so I thought I went back in time or something and figured that it was my old room, and I climbed into the top bunk. The guy whose bed that is apparently pushed me off his bed and onto the ground and said "Get the fuck away you fucking faggot!" I am not homosexual, and I don't know why he thinks I am. And he's very offensive. Then I slept on the couch in the living room. If my roommate hadn't been a jerk and locked me out of my room I would have just gone back to bed. I can't stand that guy.
So, I know for sure that court is happening. I got a call this morning reminding me about it. This sucks that it's totally a reality.
I'm afraid that my parents will make me withdraw from school soon after that court case and after finding out that I'm getting evicted. This totally sucks. And because I'll probably have an MIP, if I apply for jobs I'm going to have to say yes I do have a criminal record within the past 5 years. Then jobs would be even more impossible for me to get. This really sucks.
CALL FROM PARENTS
So, my parents were called and had every single incident report that I've ever had at Western read to them and the details of each one. They were then told that the school wants me to meet with a counselor even though I asked the RD about a counselor just today, and she said that's something I can do on my own time but they're not making me do. Then my parents were told that I'm likely to get evicted. My parents told me that if I get evicted from all university housing they're just going to get me and I'll no longer be in school. My roommates' lies were even included on what was told to my parents, so I look even worse than I really am. And apparently court is going to cost me $250 just for the court's time. That's separate from the fine. This sucks.
I didn't add a poll because my roommate walked in, and I don't want him to see anything that I write.
8 years agodogmeat
ALMOST DEFINITELY GETTING KICKED OUT
So, even though I'm 21 and can come back to my apartments drunk, I just got an email saying that I have to talk to my RD about coming back drunk the other night, when I was 21. I'm guessing my roommate filed the complaint. I'd think I could appeal the alcohol thing easily. I looked at the housing conduct policies book. Unfortunately it is for both alcohol and disruptive behavior. I don't think I was too disruptive. I got back, threw my coat on the floor and took off my shoes, got in bed, wrote a few texts, and went to sleep. I did not run into anyone on the way back, so the only person who could have tried to do this to me would be my roommate. And I've told him that they said that if I break the conduct policy again I get kicked out. This guy is so messed up. I can't stand him. I really hope I don't get in trouble for it, and if I do I am definitely going to appeal it.
I have court this Friday. That's really going to suck. I get to find out what the consequences of my MIP are.
So, I was supposed to talk to the person in charge of the alcohol type program today as punishment for the MIP night, but she wanted to reschedule and hasn't contacted me back about rescheduling, yet she told me that she's in charge of the rescheduling and will call me to reschedule. This is so messed up. I'm 21. I shouldn't have to deal with all this alcohol related stuff.
GROUP PROJECT DUE SOON
For some reason a group that I'm in for a group project chose to have my group present their project the first day of presentations, which is Tuesday. My group meets on Thursday to figure it all out. That's pretty stressful too, but nowhere near as bad as anything else.
NO MORE SCHOOL
So, my parents told me that if I get really bad sentence for court they may pull me out of school. That really sucks. 2 and a quarter years of education wasted. It's mostly if my financial aid is pulled because of an MIP, which may happen, and my parents don't want to pay my full education costs, especially with people getting me to drink to drunkenness around.
DO I HAVE ANY GOOD NEWS?
Umm...... The bars are fun. I like playing pool. I got 95% on my Biology midterm. Umm..... Not really any other good news, and two of those things aren't even news. They're just statements about liking stuff. I really hope I don't turn into a depressing person. I like to be extremely positive. There's so much stuff getting in my way of looking for the positive side of things. I'll find positive stuff soon enough though. I just have to keep looking for it. And that thought in itself is positive.
8 years agodogmeat
I'm getting really stressed out as court approaches. Plus I've got to talk to the head of the alcohol related program at Western on Tuesday, which is stressful. I can't stand stress. It's totally getting to me.
As court makes me more stressed I'm dealing with thinking of it distracting me from studying. That's totally uncool. And so I'm trying to find stuff to distract myself from thoughts of court with. Media like tv, movies, and video games can distract me sometimes. Conversations with people, when related to people I know or myself, can actually distract me pretty well. Unfortunately I often ask questions to keep conversations going and it can sound like an interrogation when I'm trying to stay distracted from thoughts of court. And this journal entry is kind of a distraction for myself, although seeing as I'm writing about the court stuff kind of I don't know how good of a distraction it is.
I do not like dealing with mail. Because I hate stamps. I'm not sure if I can buy individual stamps or if I have to buy larger amounts of stamps. I have to mail a bill, but I really don't want to deal with it. I need to get it done soon though.
OUT OF IT
I just realized that it's possible that thinking about court so often may be making me kind of out of it and as a result somewhat more boring. That's not cool. I hope court comes really soon. This stuff is on my mind too much.
I'll totally change the subject with pasta. Pasta is good. I like it when it has garlic in it, although I do not like to smell like garlic. I wish there was a scentless garlic. That would rule! Alright! That was a pretty good job at changing the topic. Fun.
I could have gotten some free pet mice the other day. I didn't get any though because rodents can only be very entertaining at first. They're too small to pet or anything, so you just watch them like you'd watch a fish. They get boring overtime and just become something to take care of. And with rodents you know that they have no emotions unlike dogs or possibly even cats. There are probably some other types of animals with emotions. I just can't think of them right now.
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