espressocrow

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    • One Year *aka gross feelings, look away aghh disgusting omg*

      3 years ago

      espressocrow

      I'm not quite certain how I should start this post. How can I put into words all that I've learned and experienced in the past year? I don't think it's possible. But, if for no other reason than sheer stubbornness I'm going to try.

      A year ago today, I, embarrassed and a bit scared, admitted to Sunny that I had feelings for him. After three to four days of "testing the waters" we agreed we didn't want this to end. A few days after that, we started telling people, trying more than anything to simply make it known without making it obnoxious. While some friends were shocked we hadn't told them, (i.e. Grace <3) for the most part, people were happy for us, and very supportive. I'm so grateful for that.

      It's been a year of learning for me, and I think Sunny too. Long distance isn't easy. Shocking, I know. But I can honestly say it's been so worth it. I've never been happier. And I think a lot of it has to do with the brilliance Sunny has added to my life. Even from thousands of miles away, I feel at home with him. And that's been a dream come true.

      The thousands of miles of distance has proven to be conquerable though (granted it took us a year to reach this point.) This December will mark our first meeting. The idea still gets me giddy from excitement. Obviously, I'm also incredibly excited to meet other friends from the AS, how could I not be? But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't excited to see him the most.

      In short, Sunny has provided me with one of the best years of my life. He has become my rock. My laughter. My light. My best friend. I don't claim to know the future. But I hope he remains in mine, for as long as possible.

    • New Years

      4 years ago

      espressocrow

      Man. This has been a year. And for the most part an incredible one. A group was made back in February that has changed my life, and even my way of thinking dramatically. I have made so many memories, countless friends, and I can honestly say, I've never been happier. And I have you all to thank for that.

      I started writing this post over 5 hours ago. And I'm still struggling to figure out how I can describe the impact you've had on me. I came into the year alone, a smile that was fake as sweet 'n low (s/o to THAT video) and if I'm honest, lonely as all get out. I wasn't happy. And I was willing to deal with it. But then, sometime around early March, I stumbled into a tinychat with a bunch of kids playing some xbox game, about 6 of which were on cam. There was a guy who sat in a room so dark the only time you could see anything was when his face was inches away from his screen (he was also obsessed with fedoras). There was a girl who had long dark hair that was complaining about how sucky school wifi was (Grace was totally right by the way, school wifi does suck). Another guy sat with them in a pikachu outfit, who at the time could only be described as grumpy. (Ironically enough, I'm now in a pretty top relationship with said guy. Funny how things work out). And somewhere close to him was a guy who I only ever saw the back of his head because he was so focused on the game he was playing (I'd eventually know this person as Fil, a busta who makes fun of me when we play BLOPS together, mostly because I suck). And among these people I made real friends.

      Even when life was sucky for me, and stressful to all heck, I still felt good. Because I knew all I had to do was step online, be it twitter or a stream, and I'd be able to see all my friends once more. I'd be able to join a skype call and talk about nothing for hours on end, or hop in a tinychat and be a total busta for who knows how long. And I would always have fun. You guys could distract me from the worst things and make me feel 10 times better by the end of the night. It's like some kind of magic really. And I can never thank you all enough.

      At some point, in the middle of September, I was asked to become an admin. And I don't think I've ever said yes to something so fast. This is a group I live for. I love this group with all my heart, and I could never step away from it. The friendships I've made are so incredible and you're all so supportive, I can't imagine being anywhere else. I can't imagine anything that would make me happier than trying to help you guys. Because lord knows you all have helped me exponentially.

      So Afterstreamers, thank you for making my 2014 an incredible one. Thank you for changing my life so drastically. Thank you for being the best people I could imagine spending my time with.

      Thank you all so much.

      With all the love in my heart,

      ~Emily

    • 4 years ago

      espressocrow

      General:
      Username: heardarumor
      Age: 17
      From: Wisconsin
      Sponsor: YeYE
      Date Joined: 8/02/13
      Last Signed in: 6 minutes ago

      Rooster Teeth Content:
      First Rooster Teeth Video you saw: No Luca No! Rage Quit
      Last Podcast you watched: 293
      Favorite member of the Rooster Teeth Cast & Crew: Burnie
      Did you watch a RT video today: ye
      -Which one: Shadow of Mordor LP part 2
      Favorite RT Series: Red vs Blue
      Favorite RT Video: Joel and Jack Play Kinectimals

      RT Site:
      Current Number Of Notifications: 0
      Name of first Journal: The Black Cat
      Name of your latest Journal: Easter and Friend Requests
      Last Photo you uploaded: Me with my new headphones and laptop
      Last Thread you commented on: Something for AS I think
      First group in your group list: The Afterstreamers
      Last Private message sent to: No one

      Achievement Hunter:
      Gamer Score: (uh... I have playstation stuff so..)
      Team Gents or Team Lads: Team Lads
      Favorite Achievement Hunter: Ray
      Minecraft Skin: Princess Mononoke
      Favorite AH show: Super Mini Golf LP's

      The Community:
      Favorite Group: The Afterstreamers
      Have you gone to a community event: No
      Have you gone to RTX: No
      Favorite Fellow Community member: Every Afterstreamer
      Tag 5 people to do this: @fathlin @invariant @mewithafez @annyanimous @ejoemaher

    • Easter and Friend Requests

      5 years ago

      espressocrow

      Trying to be social is surprisingly difficult. People I see in streams are really awesome, and we often have full on discussions in the chats, but that doesn't keep me from getting slightly paranoid about sending friend requests. Wow I feel immature. But I suppose new people are always a little stressful right? I'm sure I'll get used to it eventually.

      Oh, and today's Easter! Happy Easter to everyone, I hope it's fabulous and that everyone has a great time and all that. I attempted to make RT inspired eggs but they didn't turn out so well. I'll post the pictures later. I'm in the process of enjoying a mimosa to celebrate (what a rebel) and even had a scavenger hunt this morning! Mom insists. Although it took a bit for her to know she had the trails set right. And several re-tries. Oh well, it's the thought that counts.

      Happy Easter all, have a fantastic day, love you all.

    • Finally a Sponsor!

      5 years ago

      espressocrow

      Boy I need to remember to post on here more. Anywho, I finally got my sponsorship! In case you couldn't already tell from the title... I'm so excited though, I'm going to start with the Cards Against Humanity streams first and go from there. Any recommendations for what else I should watch first?

    • 5 years ago

      espressocrow
    • Laugh Lines

      5 years ago

      espressocrow

      So, I came to a realization about laugh lines today. See, wrinkles in general are disliked and seen as things people need to get rid of. But I believe people who have laugh lines should celebrate them. They are marks that show that this person, throughout their life, has been incredibly happy. Enough so that these lines have been left in their skin. That's simply incredible to me. Whenever I see someone with laugh lines I think about the kind of life they must have had if they have smiled that much. There's something purely good about that idea. And I hope someday to get them myself, as proof of all the good, happy, wonderful things I've seen.

    • Internet Box is done

      5 years ago

      espressocrow

      Wow so I really wasn't expecting them to be serious about this but it's officially done. I'm listening to the final episode now and really enjoying it. I'm really sad about it. But I understand, they're busy people. I'll survive. Besides my sadness got a response from Mike so that was cool. (check it>) [link=http://twitter.com/AH_Mike/status/438826077234790400]

    • 5 years ago

      espressocrow
    • AP EURO WHYYYY

      5 years ago

      espressocrow

      So I just finished up my AP Euro exam and in case you couldn't tell from the title 1) you're stupid; and 2) it sucked. Thankfully I only needed to get a 77% to solidify a B so hopefully it wasn't that bad? Maybe? (jklolzimfucked) So for those of us in high school right now I'm curious.How are your exams going? Are you as stressed as I am? Panicking? Need to know someone else out their is feeling your pain? Comment and tell me about it. Cuz I get chu bro.

      I get chu.

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