fadedxdreams

Female
from candyland. <3

  • Activity

    • :)

      10 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      I'm repiercing my tongue again today. I'd let it close last time I had a cough, it was bothering me.
      I can't wait :D

      I don't roll anymore(:

      Spring Break was the shit.
      I met an amazing boy, but things didn't turn out the way I expected them to.
      Nonetheless, it was still an amazing night.

      Homeschooling is fine, nothing to say since I don't do my own work, lol.
      I can't complain(:

      I was recently working at American Eagle.
      fun job, but I got tired of it quickly like I do with everything.
      I'm jobhunting again sometime from now.

      Sam&I have already picked out our apartments for the fall.
      Quaint, dandy little place(:

      all is fairly well<3

    • Ecstasy.

      10 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      I feel great. I rolled again last night. It's been pretty tough sticking to my word and getting clean, but I decided there's no such thing as me being completely sober, lol. I'm just gonna take care of myself, my mind, and my body. I won't ever let any kind of substance take over like ecstasy was ever again... I wasn't horridly 'addicted'...I was just never fucking sober...for quite a fucking while. :| Anywho...I'm only going to roll once in a fucking life time, keep it like a very special occassion thing, because that's what ecstasy should be<3. It's something very beautiful, but there is such a thing as too much of a good thing, ha :/. As for smoking out, haha, my good ol' habit :)...I shouldn't be smoking everyday, that's deff unhealthy, and I really don't need it. I've been smoking weed since I was 13 years old and well, I've had my fun with it...it's now only going to be a social activity, same goes for drinking. You know, not every time I go out, (cause eeeek, I do so a lot), but once in awhile. Smoking fags? Yummmy, camel crushes (:, same with the other stuff...only in moderation. Everything's okay in moderation, just don't over indulge and you'll be fine. (: Ayye, I'm hungry, that thing I called a stomach just growled, lol.

      Anywho, that's what's been up.
      Just straight up partying.

      I'm homeschooled now (don't know if I mentioned that...got in trouble at my residential school for drugs), and I'm doing better than ever.
      I never was able to get along with many people my own age.
      I've never been able to stand their immaturity and point of views.
      Leaving Donna was the best thing I ever did in life...I really hated that school, that place, that town.
      The people sickened me.

      I have someone new in my life...I truly do love him...It feels really good loving somebody this much...I love him more than any other boy I've ever fucking loved...ever.

      It kinda baffles me how I can love someone this much considering the circumstances (which I'd rather not discuss)...but I can bet on my fucking life...I know this is my fucking heart dying to be heard.<3.


      Blah.

      I've also been journaling a lot more too, just like old times(:
      I really missed sitting in my room writing, just reflecting on my thoughts & feelings.
      It's bizarre how one can discover so much just by listening to one's self.
      I really missed it.
      If there's any one thing I'll always be; it's a writer.

      Man..well, I'm "pooped!", lol, Sam's mom is hilarious...
      here's to another RVB journal blog...cause we all know I'm a gamer and come here quite often, lol...
      peacee<x3


      typos?
      idgaf(:

    • help ME; help YOU; help OTHERS :)

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      alright, RVB is lame if you're not sponsored
      so here's a screenshot from a myspace bulletin of mine.
      Read it & please join.
      There's a link to do so at the bottom.


      I mention clicking a little pinkball
      but disreguard that, RVB doesn't accept all this hightech jargon.
      please&&thankyou!
      it's fast, easy, && helps lots of people
      not to mention gives you awesome perks.

      it'll mean the world me to me<321.

      note;click the photo to make it bigger && legible.
      2qxxly8.jpg

      CLICK HERE TO JOIN!
      edit; remember to use this link please.
      it has my unique id in it
      and will show that I've made an effort recruiting.
      thanks again everyone.
      <3

      don't forget to verify your email addresses guys!
      points won't be valid otherwise
      and that means no $$ for your charity.
      :[
      stay active && support your cause!<3

    • Summer Summer Summer. Part 1.

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      Erin's end of the year party was kick ass. 1 of my two crushes was there. I was having a good time downing liquor and smoking dope. So time passes, and I'm way beyond drunk...I'm out on the front porch puking my guts out when Joleesa comes and breaks the news of how this kid thinks I'm badass but he doesn't want a gf right now. I already knew both these things so I don't know why I got the way I did. haha. Now, I'm an emotional/"rowdy" drunk, so I'm just crying, and making countless scenes...I made him apologize about eighty billion times, and then I felt bad for making him feel bad. haha, go figure. I was too plastered to go home, so I stayed the night. Next morning I totally avoided eye contact and it probably won't be the same, but it's cool, we'd just gotten to know eachother anyway, so eh. :P

      Blah, and as far as parties go...we're working on having one over at Matts when his brother leaves...help us out!! :D

      One of my two older crushes got back with his ex girlfriend, and it's cool. She's fugly, and I'm not. :] haha, but really......anyway, I'm happy for him despite what he thinks. He and I are totally cool, and it's killing her, and I love it. :]

      My other older crush...ah....we started talking again...I kinda feel like we're getting our old bond back, and I'm just so happy for that. :] He's always been there for me, and I seriously love him so much for that. Ah, well it's all going great, and I'm not gonna push anything.


      I just can't wait till I'm 18 so I don't have to worry about this whole being a minor bullshit, it's fucken lame.

      Summer school starts Monday....ew. I'm going for geometry. haha, I can't believe I only showed up for about three months total...crazy shit. I'm gonna be a junior, I'm so glad I managed my skipping and attendance so well, taking those early courses in middle school really paid off. :]

      I can't wait for July!! I'm dying to see A Four Letter Lie, and Astatic Lullaby again. :] The Millionaires are gonna be pretty kick ass too. hot bitches. :]

      Ah, I'm excited for tonight, and I have no idea why....or maybe I just stuffed my face too much today, haha....Joleesa, Matt and I are going to a show and probably gonna do some shit out back...we'll see.

      Ah, and I'm so proud of myself, if I ever go to jail for whatever reason, I'd totally be able to break out!! :D I jumped what seemed like the highest fence in the world cause I'm an idiot and got myself locked up somewhere. lol. I hurt my thumb in the process but it's better now. :D

      Well, I'm out...enjoy the update, and leave me stuff.
      :]

    • Hmm.

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      I guess I should update shouldn't I, it's most deffinatly has been awhile. :] Well, I'm alright, although I can't quite say I'm very stable. I quit my job, there just wasn't anytime for fun...and now I need cash for fun, so I'm back to square one...it's okay though. I'm looking forward to some upcoming shows...I might being going alone....Sam's going to Michigan at the end of this week...a lot of drama there [with the family and stuff]...I have no idea what I'll do without her. :/ Joleesa, and I will have to make it on our own. School's coming to an end, and a part of me is ecstatic, and another part just doesn't know....there's only two weeks left...and that's only two more weeks to make something great happen...I'm gonna have to work really quick, and it's been awhile since I pull what I plan on doing. I'll update more on this one later. :P Probation and all is all fucked up...I started ditching school again, and it doesn't matter for now, all court dates are over and done with for now as far as I know....and that's great, really....I've started smoking dope again, and some other tad worse things, but whatever....and as far as boys go...I don't even know....I do though....I just wanna yell it everywhere I go....but I can't without hurting someone else...and ah....we'll see. Summer '08....it's gonna be a damn good one.

    • new piercing;;

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      kind of.

      hehe.
      got my tongue pierced again.
      ;D

      i'm veryyy much still in the healing stage, fucken sucks.
      it's alright, it's all worth it.


      i love getting pierced!
      <333

      current;
      tongue; 14g
      lip, off centre; 14g
      ear lobes, stretched; atm 6g

      retired;
      brow; 16g
      ear lobes, second hole, 18g
      cartilege(3), 18g

      lalala.
      :D

    • It's been forever;;

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      Hm, so life's good, I guess.
      I'm bored and shit, so before I go off and do some reading, I'm gonna update.
      I promise to reply to my stuff later, but right now, this should be good.
      :]

      School;;
      I'm showing up to class now, and it's had a positive impact on my chemistry and geometry grades, so that's good. I've got court tomorrow and my case should be getting closed. I guess it's all for the better they didn't have my file last time since I'd been smoking shit the weekend before. :x

      Work;;
      Work? Dayyyum right. I finally got off my lazy ass and applied for shit. I'm working at an IHOP as a hostess. It's been great so far, love my coworkers and shit, we're a great bunch. :]

      Boys;;
      Eeek! Boys. :D lol, so I couldn't wait to get to this part. haha. Uhm, I'm still single and shit, and I've been seeing a few guys for the last few months and seriously had countless crushes, and you know, been let down a few times, and vice versa, but really, all in all, things are great. I'm seeing some great guys right now, and while I'm not sure I'm all up for being taken just yet, they deff. keep things intresting and fun. :]

      So there's for the update.
      Hit meh up on aim.
      :]

    • Dear Santa,

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      For Christmas of 2008, I want a bigger rack.

      You think I'm joking, but I'm not.
      weeeee.
      :)

      tits.jpg

    • runaway.

      11 years ago

      fadedxdreams

      So life.
      It's kinda crappy.
      It's just so fucking bland at the moment.

      There's no nearby goal, nothing to fucking strive for.
      Nothing to look foward to.
      Just nothing to "live for" and it's really getting old.

      Everyday, is just another ordinary day.
      There's absolutely nothing to do.

      I'm waiting on a job.
      And if I get it, that's great.
      I'd have money for shows, shopping
      and to runaway.

      Chyeahh.
      R U N A W A Y .


      Sam and I are just fucking fed up with the shit life is throwing at us.
      It never seems to fucking stop.
      Every good thing that comes our way is just a fucking decoy.
      It's all fucking fake in one way or another.

      We just need to get away.

      It's not like it'll be forever.
      We don't consider that stupid.
      We'd love to actually.
      We just can't.

      So FUCK THE WORLD.
      We're saving up
      and taking the fuck off.
      <3

  • About Me

  • Comments (335)

    • LoneLegendX

      8 years ago

      everyday

    • CobraIV

      10 years ago

      thats so far away still im in Orlando smiley12.gif

    • CobraIV

      10 years ago

      lol Im wont argue with you =P

    • HelenasFate

      10 years ago

      That's pretty cool. Hahahaha.
      I'm a big supporter of my local bands. Rock on sister. :D

    • Platypusgirl

      10 years ago

      Holy gwacomole <-- totaly spelled wrong u gotz yourself alot of friends!

    • super_noob

      10 years ago

      Then get the fuck off redvsblue.com.

    • imnotazombie

      11 years ago

      Hey, what's up?
      The whole "disgusted with humans".
      I am too.

    • GUITAR_DEMON

      11 years ago

      hahaha ok that sounds fun

    • super_noob

      11 years ago

      &&
      IM SO HARDCORE

      BELIEVE IT

    • Sircatnipman

      11 years ago

      &&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&&

    • super_noob

      11 years ago

      You know putting random sentences in bold and putting two & symbols only makes you look more stupid, and more of a myspace whore.

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      well, sorry to cut you off...but i wasnt watchin the time.
      i have plans in a few hours...so i need to crash.
      talk some more later

      mike

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      beats me.
      this next school year is going to be one hell of a trip.

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      i changed a bit too.
      ive started not to give a fuck....alot.
      : /
      its usually fun though

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      maybe, but i dont get my hopes up to high.
      not healthy

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      its a sausage fest

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      not any better. i havent really had a life since i got a job. cant get into the "game" anymore.

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      well...
      how have you been?

    • GUITAR_DEMON

      11 years ago

      what u up to deary?

    • super_noob

      11 years ago

      Take all of your myspace scenester friends and leave.

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      nah, i just forget to leave the internet.
      and i dont mean to talk to you like that...
      im not trying or anything....sorry

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      oh, its by my choosing...im a senior. i party.
      its kinda like that

    • LoneLegendX

      11 years ago

      i dont sleep much

    • GUITAR_DEMON

      11 years ago

      lol but its me

    • DavysGirl

      11 years ago

      oh I love this.
      very pretty.
      I'm terribly jealous.
      :)


      Thank youu. Now that it's healed, it looks a little different and could probably use a touch up, but I think I'm going to leave it flawed. :)

    • MwK_Vortex

      11 years ago

      yeah but im really into atreyu's lyrics
      at the moment =] they are simply
      fucking amazing


      dude fucking Mate Feed Kill Repeat was
      the shit! that was some good music

    • CobraIV

      11 years ago

      You should get on aim and we can talk smiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

    • CobraIV

      11 years ago

      Im always on lol smiley0.gif

    • CobraIV

      11 years ago

      awww im sorry need some company? smiley0.gif

    • GUITAR_DEMON

      11 years ago

      haha dont hate

    • CobraIV

      11 years ago

      not much Im matt you smiley1.gif

    • Tanked

      11 years ago

      Hey there thanks for the friends request

    • imnotazombie

      11 years ago

      Really? LOL! You should, it's pretty funny. So, are some things confusing due to the fact that you haven't watched it, or do you just go on like, general discussion forums? Anyway, funny story. We must sound like a bunch of geeks to you, talking about rvb all the time. I can only imagine.

    • crunchbite06

      11 years ago

      haha or maybe not lol
      dare i ask what you are recruiting for?

    • CobraIV

      11 years ago

      Thanks for the add smiley0.gif

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      thats fair enough.

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      Yeah i like my old movies and sometimes it is nice to see thins redone. just theres some times that dont.

      they want to remake My Fair Lady with kiera knightly?! Last time they got someone who couldnt sing (dont take me wrong, love audrey hupburn) it didnt end up well. Julie Andrews was in the OBC - she's also in Mary Poppins and the Sound of Music. they didnt want to have the whole OBC however.

      Like in the Producers, they should have stayed with Cady Hoffman (i think that is her name) rather than Uma Thurman.

      any thoughts?

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      *shudders*

      lol

      i'm sick of all the remakes they do these days. whats wrong with the original? its usually better too haha

    • crunchbite06

      11 years ago

      ohhhhhh
      hahahaha, really....... smiley8.gif , jk
      haha, what are you up to

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      :0 oh my goodness. school plays can be pretty bad lol

      i hear that news on imdb.com last week. haven't really followed up on it.

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      Ooo i just noticed you've got the breakfast club listed on your fav movies. Did you hear they might be bringing out a new clothing line from the movie?!

      I want the fingerless gloves that Bender wears....

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      i believe that is called phobaphobia, not sure if thats spelled right.

      i once had a maths test where one of the questions was what is the fear of having peanutbutter stuck to your mouth. one of the few questions i got right haha. which a teacher like that what does one except.

      if you want to read LotR, start off with the hobbit - same style but its smaller and not as heavy. then you can determine if you can handle the next installment. i can't read many of his other works, bit complex for me =(

    • crunchbite06

      11 years ago

      fine what do you have magic markered (yayy new word) on them then.
      haha speaking of captions, careful on the last one, some may take you up on the offer

      haha, i'll reserve my judgement till i see more proof

      smiley0.gif (being a sponsor is awesome)

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      For me it was a 'i could wait another day' as the language is from a time long ago and there is so much detail, one needs to stop and think on it for a while.

      Stephen King is a page turner for me. He starts with a lot of detail that you need for the story so it can be slow to start with but the endings go within a flash.

    • crunchbite06

      11 years ago

      hehe but do they actually have written on them?
      you'll more than likely love me.
      Talk to me && I'll prove it. ;)

      where is your proof haha smiley1.gif

    • imnotazombie

      11 years ago

      I guess I joined for the same reason others did. I watched red vs blue, loved it, and wanted more. Longer version: I watched The Strangerhood, because you can watch it from the sims 2 website, and I liked it, and my firend was like "Have you seen red vs blue" and so finally this summer I was so bored I managed to watch all 100 episodes and am now loyally watching reconstruction. But yeah, in a nutshell I a rvb fan. My fav is Caboose. (What else is new. lol)

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      One needs a spare 6 months or so to read LotR haha, i took me agers to get through it when i did. i had only just gotten back into reading for fun at that stage. i went to see the two towers when i had only read half of it =p

    • crunchbite06

      11 years ago

      haha well now i have more image space maybe i should put a more recent photo up lol

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      I dont think the change from book to film makes it well. i haven't seen many movies that are that great into film. Yes LotR was watchable but so much more happened in the books.

      and Stephen King books don't get done right very much. but thats just my opinion.

    • KriS_

      11 years ago

      Yeah there was a version made not long after the book was a sucess, i think it was made in the 80s...

      the remake was done in the 90s with Rob Lowe.

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