heilo

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from Rapid City, SD

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    • Oh right my book...

      10 years ago

      heilo

      I've contemplated long and hard about writing my own book, not my other books I have lined up that are going to be boring as hell to write... I mean I love philosophy and all but it's way to damn boring trying to explain it so the common people can understand what it is that the philosopher's are trying to get across to them.

      Anyways while I'm reading and researching the illiad and the oddysey I noticed that Homer doesn't much include what happened to Achilles, so I plan on basing it off of that. It involves a trip to Hades a death of a few gods, and vengence against the gods that plotted to kill him. So I'm thinking of naming it 'The Last Epic Of Achilles' it is much freedom I have to work with this, greek mythology did not go so far as to explain the existence of Hades, they're is a lot left out about the happenings in the afterlife in every religion in fact... So I really have a lot of free space to work with this, now if I can only get Brad Pitt to support my book after it's finished so it can become a movie... I'm happy with 10%...

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      My other books I've been thinking about writing mainly deal with the human emotions, but I can't help but feel that this has been written time and time again and seems largely unpopular with the masses today. Which is why I only want to write it until after 'The last epic of Achilles' become at least a little famous as a writer before I go into some serious ass boring shit philosophy. Probably get famous for meh poems to, of course then... the poems that I'm going to intentionally put in 'the last epic of Achilles'. This is going to be fun times for me.

    • One of these days...

      10 years ago

      heilo

      I hope to find a tall tall cliff, I hope to be able to get on top of that cliff, and then throw away all the burdens that were given to me at the moment of my conception. And memories long since forgotten... unfortunately there aren't very many tall tall cliffs here.

    • Just come here for the comics...

      10 years ago

      heilo

      I'll try and post some goodies later, RvB isn't nearly as attractive when it's below -20 degrees outside with windchill, damn this barren and dry wasteland called South Dakota... stupid weather...

    • Forgotten?

      10 years ago

      heilo

      I do feel much like I've been forgotten to give is to receive... ah three minutes left in class. Stupid Highschool. 5 Minutes till the test.

    • Just a little something I've conjured up

      10 years ago

      heilo

      The Human Heart
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      Is composed of four parts. the heart of Greed, the heart of Hate, the heart of Anxiety, and the heart of Love. Greed otherwise known as selfish desires, Hate otherwise known as contempt, Anxiety otherwise known as suffering, and Love a selfless act of giving.

      Selflessly giving something to another may cause one person to become jealous and become full of selfish desires, these desires can lead a person to hold the other person that was selflessly given upon in contempt, and the person who holds contempt in their heart will try to make that person suffer, and the cycle starts over. Of course it does not always have to be as such, the person who selfishly desires does not necessarily have to cause suffering to the person who recieved, but it can be those who selflessly gave who hate those who did not give anything and therefore cause contempt which will inspire suffering.

      It would be easy to classify oneself as a mere one of these hearts, but in truth all people hold all four hearts that merge into their one heart, although, being such it does not have to mean that they are all equally distributed, a person of can have a greater amount of love than they do hate, or vice versa. My heart... sadly... is dominated by a burned out heart of hate, I've hated so many for so long that I can no longer have that hate, even if I desire it. How one can combat the evil in ones heart, may be a personal vendetta. I'm still working on that part.
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      There are two frequencies... so to say... that traverse the heart, a road that recieves and a road that gives. Similar to the four parts of the heart one of these can be more dominant than the other, a person that has a heart set to receive will likely not love until love is given, consequently they will also likely not hate until hate is given. Now the same can be said for a heart that is set to give, it believes that it will not recieve love until love is given, and will more than so not recieve hate unless hate is given.

      These I believe are two of the transition points that happen in between the four emotions of the heart, without a giver there will not be someone to receive no matter if it is the lust, the anxiety, the hate, or the love, likewise if there is no one who receives one can not give. Along with my heart being full of dull contempt, I have set it on do not love until received but hate will be given at will. Now the entire problem with this is that unless one is careful they may not exactly understand the reasoning behind their actions and therefore let their emotions run wild. This is dangerous, it can lead to the most horrible of all crimes, which is why I said earlier that one should not expect these individuals to be able to change!

      There is always that evil in their heart, and those that allow it to consume them once are liable to be consumed again and again. Granted everyone has that same evil that dwells within them but they do not let it control them. I suppose there is another transition point to be understood in that area, but until then, you people have at least got this portion of information to study while I think of the other two transition points.
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      I have recently classified the transition points based on my earlier philosophies. So the four parts of the heart are selflessness, selfishness, contempt, and suffering in order for any of these to ever be felt the mind has to make these four simple things.

      Recognition (recognizing the situation)
      Intention (what the person intends to do now that they are in the situation)
      Action (The action taken by the person in the situation)
      Conclusion (The end result of the action taken by the person)

      Situation.

      Michael
      Ms. Bobby Lee Sue hates me for some unkown reason (to be honest it would probably be because of something I said). I know that she hates me AKA: the recognition, now that I know that she does what do I plan on doing about it (intention). I decided to try and say I'm sorry to her and see if we can't be friends (action).

      Ms. Bobby Lee Sue
      Michael said mean things to me and now I'm angry with him (recognition). I plan on hating him until he apologizes to me. (intention and the action combined into one)

      Conclusion: Michael Apologises to Ms. Bobby Lee Sue and she no longer hates him and forgave him of his actions towards her and they are now on a likable relationship.

    • At 8:00 PM I get to eat.

      10 years ago

      heilo

      TACO JOHNS!!!! WE is gunna have four bean burritos, 2 fucking large ass potato ole's and a large diet pepsi to go! I'm gunna say mah grace! I am gunna be thankful to the lord god of the bean burritos and large potato oles... hell I might even try one of em burger things they got, I'm reallllllllly hungry...

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      so very hungry...

    • Day # 9

      10 years ago

      heilo

      My commitment is strong and resolute, I have nearly reached 10 days without food, MY sacrifice for Mari Konno almost completed. My sacrifice for Masami Yoshizawa, Erika Nanba, and Ayako Nomoto... will be done... but not until after a feast is held in the great halls of Taco Johns to celebrate the life of Mari Konno before that accursed night when some freak took her precious life, an action that had no greater good involved for the benefit of anyone except one man's desire to be on television for a few hours. No, the feast will reflect on how she lived, not as she died.

      Yes this must be done, 10 days in 4 sessions without food is but a small amount of suffering compared to those who no longer can share in such a luxury as eating, not because they have nothing to eat, but because they can not eat, the dead can not eat. To alleviate my soul of the guilt it bears... for merely existing in this world I take for granted, this is my punishment.

      The only way I can ever forgive myself, for taking life for granted, retribution.

    • Day # 5.

      10 years ago

      heilo

      Honor.
      Courage.
      COMMITMENT.

      Honor the dead.
      Courage to always remember the dead.
      And the Commitment to keep the promise of rembembrance, those who names I now fully remember, Mari Konno, Masami Yoshizawa, Erika Nanba, and Ayako Nomoto, I have another good 35 days to ensure that I never forget them. If I can go 10 days without food in the memory of one of them, I can sure in the hell do it for the other three as well. Please note side effects of not eating will cause fatigue, drowziness, and hallucinations of large all you can eat special at fast food restaraunts.

    • Day # 3

      10 years ago

      heilo

      It's day 3 already, I haven't had anything to eat for the past 52 hours, fortunately I'm not so hungery anymore, but I do miss my ice cream, oh where havest thou gone my pretty ice cream? You know if it melts then it's technically considered a liquid... O_O PLUS I figured that I would need some caloric intake so I decided for milk which can be turned into solid cheese. I fit better into my jeans already and have lost 5 pounds. I think I need to buy Cowboy Bebop the movie.

    • -The Missing Four-

      10 years ago

      heilo

      Mari Konno, that was my name
      Given to me when in this world I came
      By my loving parents mother and father
      I was so very glad to be their daughter

      I was happy! I had school in the morning.
      Then I’d get to talk to my friends in the evening
      I miss them all, very much so
      I wish I really didn’t have to go

      My name was Yoshizawa, Masami!
      Will you be friends with me?
      We’ll have lots of fun,
      Playing out in the sun

      I’m sorry, I guess I forgot
      I am something you are not
      So we simply can’t be friends you see
      Just talking with you has brought me glee.

      Erika Nanba that’s me!
      I like to look at the wide blue seas,
      Sometimes I lose myself there
      Gazing upon the sky with a blank stare

      The ocean is such a wonderful place
      Performing high tides with such grace,
      But then I notice where I’m at
      And I really have not the time to chat.

      I’m the last of the four Ayako Nomoto!
      Even though this was quite some a while ago,
      Perhaps you’d still like to know,
      What will be written below.

      We were all murdered one by one,
      Our lives taken much to young,
      As our lives had just begun,
      So was the breath taken from my lung.

      I on behalf of myself and the other three
      Plead that you will agree
      To remember all of those who
      Like us didn’t get a chance to live like you.

      ~In memory and honor to those now dead~

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  • Comments (1762)

    • Vick1138

      10 years ago

      umm, dude, I'm sorry to dissapoint but that is not me in that picture, and like it says in the journal, that is my long gone grandmother, and I am sorry but I don't swing that way brother.

    • Vick1138

      10 years ago

      say again?

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      Well darkness is how u make everyone else feel I has the Cynical tendencies w/ a smile and that creeps the shit out of ppl.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      I say lets not let God do it he'll probably forget, I say a frendly headshot will alway let every1 know u hate their guts.....

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      Well time for some moral cleansing...
      *grabs and loads Shotgun*

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      That's dark man...

    • Knorkilodi

      10 years ago

      Ha, not quite what I meant. I'd picked up on the names, just not why you're remembering them.

    • blank

      10 years ago

      No, not really. I especially don't see what makes them any more special than other murder victims. You gonna stop eating every day for them now, too?

    • blank

      10 years ago

      So? I don't see what makes them special.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      would make a hell of a story in the paper
      Elderly man dies from twinkie poisoning

    • Knorkilodi

      10 years ago

      Fair enough about the Lent thing. Nobody ever even thinks about Lent in New Zealand so it never accured to me.

      I've been almost 12 days in a row with nothing but sports water. Tastes like ass.

      But usually I'm just too lazy to prepare my own food, so I get by on a piece of bread, or a couple of cookies, for my days food.

      My family thinks I'm anorexic.

    • Midna

      10 years ago

      hi

    • GoldenZephyr

      10 years ago

      They do let you run around at night with cammie paint on....but it's not how you think!

    • GoldenZephyr

      10 years ago

      That's why I said practical. I could get cammied up at night with NVD's and a sniper rifle but that's just silly!

    • GoldenZephyr

      10 years ago

      Yeah. the future wife isn't your typical girl. Street smart New York City girl that's got 11 years in the military split between the Army and Navy. Fully trained in the Army and Navy for counter terrorism (you'd be surprised about how much you can learn about domestic crime prevention in these classes). Cross decked in the Navy back to the Army for prisoner handling in Iraq and the heart of a mother lion to protect her home and family. With the gate and security system, I think there's nothing else practical I can do to ensure their safety while I'm gone.

      I'll look at the poem. More of the curiosity about parenting. It's the one thing I've learned: you don't know jack. So listen to others and seek ways to improve.

    • GoldenZephyr

      10 years ago

      I have a security system written into the escrow contract, firearms, a fiance that is an M9 instructor for Corpsman, security gates, and pre-screened the police report (very low violent crime but low-moderate larceny{richer/upscale area}) and have talked to the neighbors. I'm safe as I can be. Or should I say my family will be as safe as I can make it.

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Indeed, I'll have to if ever there's a need.
      Favorite thing?
      Wow...umm...
      Hm. That is tough.
      I would say love but it hurts as well as helps.
      I would say life but that's so broad.
      I would say gummie worms but I like variety in food.
      Hmm....the clear night sky in the late Spring.

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Awesome duo!

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Hmmmm....
      Fuerer!...don't know if that's spelled right but I don't care!


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    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Awwwww smiley2.gif

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Sweet! smiley0.gif

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      It's a good code name.
      Does that make you Captain Quark?

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      I would never tell!
      ...except in that one message I just sent ^ ^"

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Lonely?
      Pftt...maybeh.
      People have not been too active recently..
      Which is ok since I've been a bit busier, I guess.

    • Dark_Midna

      10 years ago

      What?

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      Nah, I was job hunting all day.
      Heard a lot about it though.
      Gotta love Southern reporters.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      but i am...

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      I was thinking french toast want me to teach you

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      so make depressing food

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      lol cuz I've been away from the computer..off and on...

      ...if i could find any, believe me, I would.

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      I loved it smiley12.gifsmiley1.gif

    • _Damnation_

      10 years ago

      Brigadeführer?

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      You know I adore them smiley1.gif

    • emchick

      10 years ago

      He told me you had to give me the poem

    • emchick

      10 years ago

      Thank you andddd Pretty please smiley0.gifsmiley0.gif

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      hope no one murders u on the holidays or causes man slaughter.

    • Shado13

      10 years ago

      You said not to...

      I'M DOIN' IT ANYWAY, BITCH...CUZ I CAN!!

      so there.

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      Yea, so my momma's bruda's stepdaddy's uncle's great-granpappi's daughter-in-law's baby's momma's sista's lover's 2nd cousin's husband's niece (twice removed) told me to tell ya'll murri chri-miss. smiley12.gif

    • _Damnation_

      10 years ago

      I KNOW RITE??????

    • Vick1138

      10 years ago

      I'm a bit strapped on cash but if I can I will most likely see it

    • Vick1138

      10 years ago

      no, not that one, but mine does smiley0.gif

    • Vick1138

      10 years ago

      I have an extra one but its all old and tattered

    • Vick1138

      10 years ago

      well it sure as hell wasn't your dream long fantasy that's for damn sure.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      LIES their is always ceremonial pen for everything.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      haha pansy I would cut the nearest guys throat then fill up the ceremonial pen.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      the blood of who do they get donations of kill someone and drain it into a pen.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      It takes time for a full translation of an episode of an anime and the commitment that someone would have for translating also you would need to find actors for the roles of characters and that takes a long time.

    • Fallout

      10 years ago

      Ok, I'm not sure where you were going with all of your comments, but I always try to respond to all of mine.

      Ah, I hope it jams and and he looks down the barrel...

      I don't know if you read the other posts, but that's actually me while I was on Opposing Force while training out at Fort Hood. We dress up and use mock weapons to up the intensity and realism to better train.

      I do wonder what the blue coats were in though. They uniform is different, perhaps part of an elite fighting group?

      I have no clue what you're trying to ask here either, but the blue uniform was the standard uniform of the Union Army in the Civil War. The red trim represents that the soldiers were mostly in the Artillery. Sometimes the reenactments need more infantrymen than artillery so they come up to the front and fight with us.

      Ummm didn't he die...

      Yes, he did die, he was shot 13 times during the fight in the chest plate of his armor and a last shot went through his neck. He died holding off dozens of IA soldiers and defending his company. Because of SFC Smith, several soldiers whom I personally know were able to make it out of their alive. He was the first recipient since the Blackhawk Down incident. He didn't want to die anymore than you do.

    • eliasf

      10 years ago

      well by the look on her face probably a dirty mag.

    • Midna

      10 years ago

      no..i havent

    • Midna

      10 years ago

      hmmm

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