hugsandkisse

Female
from Southern Girl At Heart But Now in Iowa

  • Activity

    • one lucky winner

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      first comment to this journal gets 215 mods then i get rid of this account

    • So....

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      i made a new screen name for on here... now i know these are probably stupid questions that i should be asking a mod but i figured if someone here knew then cool.....

      1... can i get my sponsorship moved (probably not)

      2... can i give myself all my mods

      ps.. go ahead an go over to my new screen name... Kisses4You

      thanks

    • Gray Hair Allie

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      o lordy lord what a busy week this is/going to be. no no i dont have gray hair, yet, or maybe i just dont see it. But my cousin is getting married on Friday and I am standing up in that and she is a mess and i dunno just my whole step-dads side are drama ppl and have money to eat (more money then they know what to do with) so its like omg i cant take it lol. then saturday night my parents are renewing their vows and having a party ( brandon ur my date for that ok??.. good) and ah today i just have a bunch of small lil things to do like pick up my dress, get my nails done, get new fish, wash my car, and do whatever my moms bitches at me haha. anywho this is me "ahhhhh" rant but i shall let u go. Have a good week!!

      ps.. go meet this guy Brandon hes my "buddy" and if i may say so myself pretty damn hot so goooo i say go now

    • You Know You Wanna

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      Sponsor my friend Brandon. Ill give you 370 mods. So dont you all rush at once now haha but yes that would be o so sweet if u did!!
      KIETH SPONSORED HIM yay

    • Tribute to the nice girls

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse


      Here's to all those girls who thought for a brief second they could be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID hour after hour and
      be disappointed. The ones who had to be the "friend" while helping with a break-up when in reality you just wanted to say "move on and be with me, make a new life". You then dried your own tears, and moved on with your life.Those of you who cried the
      first second you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call
      was going. The ones who listened to him say, I only want to be with you,
      one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves and misses you but then ignores you.
      We deserve something, and this is our tribute.

      Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again
      waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days.
      Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so
      desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us
      at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early or helping his mama. We trained ourselves to
      believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one who wouldn?t treat us badly.
      We learned to SETTLE for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated.

      This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him while he talked
      about an "ex girlfriend", and cried during the entire
      conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better,
      that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with
      her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that
      was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to
      get him to forget about her, so we might think (never will happen ladies) and get him to tell us that he was in love with
      us again, only to have him tell us hours later that "I am trying, I really am."

      Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid
      they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces
      again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what
      was going on, for fear of an "you don't need this."



      This is for those girls, who fell in love with someone they cant love, only to
      get hurt.

    • Whats up with Allie?

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      hmmmmm lets see i havnt really updated in awhile. I dunno my life is kinda boring right now. Iam bouncing back and forth from Chicago and Iowa. Well actaully im mostly in Iowa right now cuz i am having to go through 3 weeks of chemo whichs sucks big monkey ass. However,its really not THAT bad as it has been in the past, then again im not doing a high dose at all. I am basically just tired and cant eat but i mean i am still able to do things which is more then i could ask for. I am actually kinda taking a dance class with me little sister, Eva. Its her dance class but once a week they take "mom" but my mom is 7 months pregnant and plus i love dancing so i gotwith her and then i take a pole dancing exercise class once a week as well which is sooo much fun. Well anwho i hope everyone is doing just dandy!!

      <3
      Allie

    • Happy Birthday

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      to keith happy birthday to keith woo hoo

      its Keiths aka Powerbomb141 birthday so go tell him happy birthday NOW haha


      i love you keith!

    • Welcome Me Adulthood

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      Welcome me, Adulthood, I have ventured
      through childhood with all the wonders and dangers in it.

      I have placed my childhood fantasies aside,
      and picked up hopes of becoming who I want to be.

      Embrace me knowledge,
      I am ready to know more and add to what I know already.
      I have conquered my fear of the night,
      now I only fear of becoming nothing.
      I have stopped pretending to be what I thought I was going to be,
      and realized that I am only what I make of myself.

      I have come down from the land of make-believe,
      and I have found the strength to believe in me.
      So when I come upon you, open your arms,
      and welcome me, Adulthood,
      for I am headed your way.

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      Its now time for me to face this new step in life. A mother I will be in a few years, a wife to one i love. I now realize i need to grow up and start planning for me, stop saying... "ill do it later"...

    • I wanna be cool 2

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      So ive notice this lil trend of taking pics of ur room and shit sooooo thought I would join in.

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    • To you, my muse

      13 years ago

      hugsandkisse

      I lay in bed
      absorbing the loneliness that surrounds me
      my eyes fill with unshed tears
      contradicting my maturity

      i hate showing weakness
      hate feeling hurt
      but i am the one to blame
      for being the foolish one to carry this on
      but i cant suppress these feelings i have
      so i remain inert and foolish
      i dont understand why this has to happen
      dont want to accept that its true
      that you lie to me dispite what you say

      my life is taking a turn
      i feel as if I'm losing you
      but how may i feel that feelings when i never had you... never will

      i hate having to say good-bye to you
      hate coming to an end

      hate the terrible emptiness
      i have to comprehend
      theres too many obstacles to over come
      in a life too short for pain
      and yet theres always been hurt in the world
      and so it will remain

      so i will take these unshed tears and remain in my bed
      waiting to feel the vibation of your call for need
      lets both go on with this second life of yours
      ill be blind, you be irrogant
      now go, its time for your first life
      forget me until im called to be needed again
      when im needed...

  • About Me

  • Comments (1862)

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i will call


      i love you too

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      ok...have fun....be safe...and um...i don't know...don't cheat on me with the guy at the shop...or the car wash...or...any guy for that matter....or i will kill them

      Post edited 7/12/06 11:27AM

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      not talking to anyone but you...that ornge at the bottom is windows media player...i told you that once...i knew you didn't listen to me...

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      screen is not fixed...there is about an inch of black on each side and the right side is blurry


      i think i'm going to do something with my sister...don't know what...don't know when...but yea

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      yea, well..you've been leaving me lately. so now it is my turn

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      seriously....what the fuck was that. you are so stupid...i swear i don't know why i even talk to you..you know, i really can't stand you

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      yes you can call you stupid fuck

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      you know what...go to hell alyssa..i am very good at making fun of you

      yes, he is off the phone

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      it did it because you are such a dumbass

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      it did too...i will have to test it again later

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      yea...

      dumbass...like i gave your ass a pop quiz and it failed

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      yum..paste chips...you know..you are such a dumb ass.

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i tottally understand...i'm not normally this sweet...i mean i am, but not all the time like this...i am just so excited about next week and i just...uh...i love you...i promise when you are actually with me i will not be this sweet all the time...but right now...i dunno...i just eh...i'm trying not to be sweet now......i miss you like crazy....it's hard for me not to be sweet right now because i'm falling so hard for you.....and i just love you so much...gah...i'm doing that sweet thing again


      you are a total bitch...there...is that better

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      would you like me to be a little less sweet?

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      guys like me? you mean open and sweet?

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i say it because it is true.

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i really don't like this guys girlfriend


      my parents will never put you on this show...you are so amazing...quite possibly the best thing that has ever happened to me

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      not sure which ones you mean...comment on them and tell me to delete them

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i need to delete some pics...tell me which ones to delete

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      did you turn it on

      i'm gonna get a quick shower then call

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      lol...ok

      i am in the top row

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      yea, go do what you need to do then get back on and i will let you know when you can call

      well...you can call anytime, but like some one else might answer. my dad won't answer..he never answers...but yea, call anytime you want. my sister will most likely answer

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      grrr...she will let me know when she is off of the phone

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      good idea...i love you Alyssa

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      but hearing your voice helps me get through the waiting

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i know....i miss you already....grrr...i need to quit talking to you. it makes it harder for me to wait

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      gah...it's for my sister this time

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      yes, call

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      new journal

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      pretty sure he is off the phone

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i dunno...let me check

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      you won't read this for a little bit because you are reading your poetry. I love you so very much. i can't wait to sit with you in the park and listen to your thoughts. I'll hold you close and never let go. it's killing me thinking abou it and knowing that I have to wait. You are so amazing. If you never come to see me it will be ok. we will meet someday somewhere and it will be magicl. It's only been 5 minutes, but I miss your voice already.

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      it's for my dad

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i love you my little piggy

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      hello my beautiful Rose

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      hey

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      oh yea.....i love you

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      ok, leaving now

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      you can call me anytime...if i'm not home just talk to my mom or sister(whoever answers...just tell them who you are...they will love you...i can't wait to show you off

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i'm leaving now...frisbee time

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      69 huh?

      you know i'm right

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      probably, because Brandon isn't online :-P smiley6.gif

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      my little sister is very, very excite to meet you...i will tell you more when we talk

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i know...your beach picture makes me smile....do i really know that gorgeous creature does she really love me?

    • Scorpion2077

      13 years ago

      i missed you like crazy today

    • jreel

      13 years ago

      the sepia toned picture in your profile looks awesome, random i know, but yea

    • articboy

      13 years ago

      hey allie...wats up? how have u been?

    • DireChaos

      13 years ago

      So many admirers Alyssa, I'm impressed.

    • playbass311

      13 years ago

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    • A_Man_2Getha

      13 years ago

      please check out my journal smiley8.gif

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