isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

29 years old
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from Fredericksburg, Texas

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    • The Post RTX blues & what could have been. (Story Time)

      1 year ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      If I could have a moment of your time & tell a bit of a story, I'd appreciate it. My 1st ever RTX & 1st ever con was fun. Met a few of my favorites. But at the same time I didn't get a chance to chat with or meet anyone from the discord servers or Facebook group that I'm in. Or chat with anyone in general. The social anxiety is real. It also doesn't help that I'm bad with faces & names so you'd have to remind me who you are.


      I wanted to chat with people but I also didn't want to feel awkward or weird about it or give off any bad vibes. Just going up to random people & trying to introduce myself & talk to them middle of a conversation or something. I also don't know Austin all that well so I didn't go out much after hours except the rave. I hung around at the Marriott in the lobbies with everyone but again, didn't really chat with anyone. I just kept to myself most of the time. I stayed at the Marriott & was at the Labinnak & Mangoloo Cosplay RWBY PJ party at the Marriott lobby by Starbucks if anyone saw me there. Big guy with a DBZ backpack, glasses, beard, and cap. That was me but again I didn't know anyone there so I didn't know how to just strike up a conversation or get something started. I wandered the show floor alone all weekend. Didnt go to any pannels even thought I wanted to. I didnt really go up to anyone & strike up a conversation because of social anxiety & didn't want to make it awkward or give off bad vibes or somethin negative.

      So despite having the time of my life, it was a "even in a crowd I feel alone" type of situation for me mixed with a bit of jealousy & depression. Like, I got a bit jealous seeing people together. Whether it was a couple holding hands & spending time with each other or group of friends all hanging out together having the time of their lives. I didn't know what to do so I just wandered the floor all day all alone just taking it all in & trying to have my own fun.

      So to anyone reading this journal entry, whether it be RT staff, RTX attendee, guardian, site member, etc. I did have the time of my life. 1st ever RTX & 1st ever con for that matter. But there's also a down side to it. Everything I just explained. Sitting here at home on my laptop it leaves me wondering what could've been. And how things could've gone better. Hopefully next time I'll have a group of friends to hang around at RTX & go places with. I guess I can try to be more active here & on Twitter & anywhere else I have the opportunity to make friends.

      I guess I'm done venting & explaining my story. I just needed someone or some people to listen as I ramble on & hopefully reach out to me. I hope next time at RTX is even better & filled with friends. Thanks to anyone who read this journal entry. Gonna go listen to my sad boys club playlist now. Bye.

    • RTX Austin alone

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      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      Im going to RTX in Austin this year & it's my 1st one ever. Looking for people to chat with & get to know each other. All I have is a weekend pass so I don't know what my plans are each night except for maybe going around stopping by nearby places or lounging around at the hotel lobby chatting with people or something. So right now I'm looking for people to chat & keep in touch with & then meet up at RTX & hang out & check out everything.

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    • Done Deal

      1 year ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      Im going to RTX. Alone. By myself. anyone care to chat so & get to know each other so I can at least meet up with someone & hang out with them? If not, thats fine. I dont mind wondering around by myself.

    • If I go to RTX

      1 year ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      Check out is at 11 Sunday morning. But I won't have a ride til later that night. Anybody have any idea where I'd be able to put my luggage during the convention til my ride shows up? Like is there a place I just gonna leave it at the convention center or what? Or someones car but I'd have to make a new friend or something.

    • Rooster Teeth

      2 years ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      Sorry for neglecting f you RT. I'll try to get bZck on this thing hopefully later today. To think, 27 years old & I've been on this site since I was 20 or 21. 22? Idk, but man what a ride it's been. Here's to many more years to come. I have a bit of a busy day ahead of me so I'll just leave this here for now til I come back home later today. https://youtu.be/VqoyKzgkqR4

    • This..

      2 years ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      is of those journals where I say "I should write a normal later on" kind of journals. So this is like a place holder. It's 10 til 6 here in Texas. I should go to bed. Then I'll write a proper journal later on today.

    • Does it feel good to let go?

      3 years ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      This is one of my favorite slow songs. Everybody likes to dance but I think slow songs are a bit under rated. Give them a shot. Any band, any genre, any style. Find a new favorite today.



    • Ask me questions please.

      3 years ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      and I'll get back to you & answer them this afternoon after work.

    • 3 years ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.
    • I haven't wrote one of these in a while

      3 years ago

      isaac89tx Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

      I haven't wrote on of these in a while. Here's another life update/I'm in bad point in life. So, Usually my depression is easy to ignore & bottle up all year round. But around this time of year, the holiday season where friends & families come together, all the new romances popping up, not to mention, being single gets lonely after a while especially when most people have someone & as a guy who wears his heart on his sleeve, I can get easily hurt & jealous. And with a couple of setbacks from life, it gets hard to ignore depression & look the other way. The holidays & depression don't mix well. My mind is fogged up, and mentally & emotionally, I could be down here a while. I've toughed things out alone & fought through. I keep to myself most of the time. Like a lone wolf. So I wouldn't even know how to ask for help. Especially with a bit of social anxiety. Social anxiety make it feel like I'm always annoying people & bugging them. So even the smallest things like being the 1st to say hi to start a conversation to meet new people feels like an obstacle itself. I've dealt with depression for years now. A lot of people have.

      I've also been a bit sick so throw that into the mix & it doesn't make for a good combination. I've been a bit sick since Thursday. Threw up a bit that night. This sickness has caused me to eat less. I had 2 meals Thursday, I forget how much Friday & Saturday, and ate only once Sunday. Moms afraid I might become anemic. Also, my white blood cell count is slightly up which has caused an infection that I've been living with for years now.

      This being single thing can get lonely at times. Hopefully I'll find someone. What are the chances of me finding someone here? well slim if I'm not more active on here. Or just slim all together. Decent? who knows. All I know is seasonal depression sucks. its like depression magnified to something bigger. So it feels even worse. Thats about it for now I think.

      On the plus side, I bought an Xbox one a couple of weeks ago. Hooray for being poor & lower class. I currently have Halo 5 guardians, Halo the master chief collection, and a few other games from games with gold that I have yet to install. Games on my list include, Star Wars Battlefront, Fallout 4, And Rise of the Tomb Raider. So dont be afraid to shoot me an invite so we can team up in halo together. Oh yeah, I also bought my friend & I's tickets for Star Wars Episode 7 which comes out on my birthday December 18th so FUCK YEAH STAR WARS!!!

      That about does it for this journal entry. Thanks for tuning in.

  • Comments (17)

    • Caszie

      4 years ago

      Thank you so much for the friendship!!! :D

      • Caszie

        4 years ago

        I just like laying in bed until noon and then crawling out of bed an hour later. But being an adult sucks and that's not how life works. Hehehe. :3

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        4 years ago

        nope they shouldn't. I'm more of a wake up around noon kind of person. Or at 5 or so but only if I stay up all night & don't go to bed til like 10 or so.

      • Caszie

        4 years ago

        I know you did! Hopefully that will make my life seem less boring than it actually is! Hehehe. :3 I'm about to lie in bed and watch youtube until I pass out because I have to be up at 6:00. Mornings should not exist. smiley4.gif

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        4 years ago

        good. Just about to lie in bed & watch tv til I pass out. And then up by 5 or so because I'm on that backwards sleeping schedule. And yourself? P.S. already added you on snap & insta

      • Caszie

        4 years ago

        Nice to meet you too! How are you? :3

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        4 years ago

        no problem. Thanks forr accepting & nice to meet you

    • supertits No Longer Super!

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the delectable little friend request you sent. It was delicious! smiley9.gif

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        4 years ago

        no problem. Nice to meet you by the way

    • JTNipp Mr. Trombone

      5 years ago

      A fellow small town Texan, alright. Whereabouts is Fredricksburg?

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        5 years ago

        ah alright. I myself am like 4+ hours from the Dallas & Houston area. I live in the middle of nowhere

      • JTNipp Mr. Trombone

        5 years ago

        Whitehouse is about 70 miles south east of Dallas, in the Piney Woods region. A small community literally just south of a city called Tyler.

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        5 years ago

        Whereabouts is Whitehouse?

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        5 years ago

        about 70 miles west of Austin, 70 miles north of San Antonio.

    • Mike FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Feed Me Memes

      7 years ago

      It's done. I did it last night.

      • isaac89tx FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Shy/Awkward/Anxiety.

        7 years ago

        Oh damn. Onward to the question asking!

    • Mike FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Feed Me Memes

      7 years ago

      I have to rebuild the backend.

      I just haven't gotten around to it yet..

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